I scrambled away from his gaze, and I could feel my heart pounding. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

"Why don't you want to see Concubine Jin?" The atmosphere became a little awkward for a while, so he thought of Concubine Jin in his mind, and then changed the topic, if it was really as Concubine Jin said, she killed Wanli, so Murong Chenxi was full of hatred for her in his heart, I want him to tell me the answer in person.

Surprise flashed in Murong Chenxi's deep eyes, "Although she is my mother, some things are not what you think." His words were soft, and I knew he was deliberately suppressing the emotions in his heart.

"Is it because Concubine Jin killed Wanli?" I say.

He thought I didn't know anything, but I knew much more than he could have imagined, otherwise he wouldn't have looked at me in amazement.

Maybe Murong Chenxi didn't expect Concubine Jin to tell me the truth about Wanli's death, which is precisely the cause of the unsolvable knot and contradiction between him and Concubine Jin.

"She told you?" There was anger in his eyes, although he was asking me to say yes, he only said a word she never mentioned Concubine Jin, and seemed to be very reluctant to mention that person in his heart, "Something has happened, no matter how you make up for it, it will only increase the pain of the wound, I knew it was so, why bother in the first place, she killed Wanli, I will never forgive her in my life." ”

At this time, Murong Chenxi's expression was stiff, and his face was like ashes.

The way he looked made me feel unbearable, and somehow I wanted to comfort him with a tremor that I didn't know how to change. Maybe a cold person like him doesn't need the comfort of others, and think about it, why should I do it?

"Is it really unforgivable? She's your sweetheart. "I didn't give up without his words, thinking of Concubine Jin's disappointed and painful expression, I couldn't bear it, even if a person has made a mistake, there is a chance to be forgiven, not to mention that this person is still his mother, the person who gave birth to him and raised him to adulthood, he can't be so ruthless and ignore her.

He looked at me and didn't answer me, because he didn't want to answer me, as if it would be useless for me to say more.

Some people can easily grasp happiness but don't know how to cherish it, and I hope to have this kind of happiness, but I don't have a chance to seize it, now, he has such an opportunity, I sigh, why doesn't Murong Chenxi know how to cherish it. Is it meaningful to remember the past, and can the past be lost and regained? Knowing that he can't, why doesn't he give others a chance to live and say that he can't.

I looked at him, a little angry, and said, "Murong Chenxi, you are really domineering, cold and even stubborn, you are clearly in the midst of blessings and do not know blessings, do you know?" I haven't seen my mother since I was a child, and I don't know what she looks like, whenever I see someone else's child have a mother's pain, I feel sad, and I can only hide this sad emotion secretly in my heart, I pretend to be very happy in front of people, let others understand that even if I don't have a queen mother, I am still very happy, very happy, who understands that even though I am the princess of Chu State, I have a lot of things than others, even though I have the care of the imperial grandmother, but I feel that there is no queen mother by my side as if something is missing, I'm not a person who doesn't know how to be satisfied, I just want to know what it's like to have a mother. I think it should be a very happy feeling. You can have it, but why don't you know how to cherish it? "I wanted to wake him up, but I don't know where I got the courage, I said a lot in front of her, a lot about myself, and strangely enough, he didn't interrupt me, and listened quietly.

I don't know how he feels at this time, in the eyes of others, I am a princess who is in trouble, with a prominent family background and noble identity, it is hard to imagine that I also have my own troubles, and I will yearn for the love of ordinary people. And these are treasures that I regard as unneeded to him, and he prefers to avoid them.

I was surprised to notice the distress in his eyes when he looked at me, without the slightest hint of mockery.

――――――――――――――――――――――――

――――――――――――――――――――――――

――――――――――――――――――――――――――

Suddenly, when I didn't have time to react, he hugged me tightly, this time I didn't push him away, although I didn't like to have any contact with him, I felt my face wet, I reached out and touched my face, only to find that the tears were not fighting at this time. He shouldn't have seen it, or he didn't want me to let him see him in tears, and it was the first time I shed tears in front of him.

It turns out that the happiness I have been pretending to be is actually not happy, it turns out that I don't envy others for having a mother's love, but I am actually envious. And I pretended to hide the sorrow in my heart and deceived myself for so many years.

To outsiders I am a strong princess, a wise princess, but today I am very fragile in front of him, a fool.

I lay on his shoulder, for a long, long time, Murong Chenxi didn't say a word, just stood quietly, let me lie on my stomach, crying.

I don't know how long it took until I felt less upset, until the tears dried up, and I slowly walked away from his shoulder.

"Lord Wang. I want to go back. I wiped away my tears from his shoulder and said to him.

He nodded, "Okay, let's go home." "He just answered me, and didn't ask much else.

Don't want to ask?

Still afraid to ask?

In the carriage, I lowered my head and thought about my thoughts, as for Murong Chenchenxi, who was sitting opposite me, I didn't have the heart to pay attention to his every move, I don't know what he was thinking at the moment, but I could feel that I was being watched tightly by a pair of eyes, which was really not a good feeling.

I think I'm probably so angry today that I said a lot of things in front of him that I have been hiding in my heart and not speaking to others, even Qianping, who has always been by my side, I don't talk about it easily, I understand, in his eyes, I am just a stand-in for others. Even as a stand-in, I told myself not to be weak in front of him no matter what, and I knew that I had done a good job during this time. But today I have become so unbearable.

Presumably, Murong Chenxi must have thought that the princess of Chu was nothing more than that.

Perhaps there is an untouchable wound in everyone's heart, hidden in the deepest part of memory.