Chapter Ninety-Four: The Past
The feeling of fear and fear took hold of me, and I began to doubt what I had been going through like never before. Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 infoIsn't this the time and space after I was born again? Am I not the only one who knows all this?
Why did Liang Gongzi know those things?
My emotions were on the verge of collapse due to shock and panic. I sat down on the grass, uncontrollably falling on my stomach, criing on my arm.
I don't know what I'm crying about, but I have to cry.
At the age of twenty-eight, I was like a headstrong child. In my ears was my deafening howl, as if I was the only one in heaven and earth, and I didn't have to worry about anything, I didn't have to care about anything, and I cried until I couldn't cry anymore.
I cried dizzily, and to the end of my cry turned into staccato sobs. After venting my emotions, I couldn't help but laugh at myself: I only had the ability to cry.
My arm was a little numb from the pillow, and I moved, rolled over, and lay on the grass exhausted. In the corner of his eye, Liang Gongzi sat next to him, looking at the lake without saying a word.
"Did you know all this from the beginning? From the first time I met you at Changle Building, no, maybe earlier. "My voice was hoarse.
He didn't look back, he only said: "On the tenth day of the seventh month of the eighth year of Chunxi, it was late at night when I galloped all the way back to Qiantang from Tanzhou, and I didn't see you at home, and the bookcase left a pear blossom full of ink paintings and a short word you wrote down......
He took a deep breath, swallowed heavily, and continued, "Someone said that you went to Linghu...... I went there to look for you, and I didn't see anything, so I went to the lake to look for you......"
"You're looking for me in the lake?" I exclaimed.
Inside the lake? Could it be that he also threw himself into the lake and drowned in the Spirit Lake? I was shocked to see that I wasn't the only one who died in my previous life. Liang Gongzi's later ending turned out to be martyrdom! I didn't know anything about it when I was trapped in the mirror world, and I thought I had been abandoned by everyone, and I kept everything about Liang Gongzi very secret.
He suddenly chuckled and said, "Yes, I'll go to the lake to find you." Later, I found out that I was thirty-seven years old, you were still in the Lan family at that time, and there was a daughter named 'Yu'er', everything seemed to go back to the past, but I knew the final ending, so I wanted to take you out of Haining......"
"I wrote you a post, and you never came out to see me, and just when I was anxious, the news came that you were imprisoned in the government, and when I went to see you, you had already drunk poisoned wine...... I said goodbye in a hurry, and I didn't even have time to say a word. I can't believe you're gone so early, but you're lying in my arms, and you're not breathing. That's not the end ......"
I sat up abruptly, interrupted him, and said, "That's the end, but it's also the beginning." ”
He looked at me with a look of astonishment.
I continued, "You are stuck in another time and space, you see another trapped self, and he tells you that you will relive the past until you get out of samsara. ”
He frowned, and said to me, "If you were like that, how could you not know me?" When I met you in Changle Building, you acted like you didn't know me at all, and I thought you were pretending to be on purpose, but later I found out that you really didn't have any impression of me. ”
"At that time, I really didn't know you, nor did I know anyone in my family, and I didn't have almost all the memories that I was Zhu Shuzhen."
"I know your name is 'Wan Chun,'" he said, "and you once told me that you weren't originally 'Zhu Shuzhen'. ”
That's why he calls me "Xiao Wan"?
"As you said, I was stranded in that strange place," he continued, "I originally thought that it would be good if I went back to when I was forty-one years old, when you had already left the Lan family and were with me, I would have been able to go to Yanjing with you earlier, and you would not have thrown yourself into the lake and died, but what I didn't expect was that I suddenly returned to when I was twenty-nine years old, which meant ...... I want to watch you marry into the Lan family, and watch you go through all that you have endured again. I can't take you away at that time, I can't change the past at will. ”
He leaned over, stared at me firmly, and said, "Xiao Wan, do you understand how painful it is?" On that day, you went to Changle Building and told me happily that you were going to marry the Lan family. Although I also knew that you would definitely marry into the Lan family, when I heard it, my heart felt as uncomfortable as a pinprick. How many times have I wanted to question you, ask if you still remember me, but I didn't ask in the end. ”
His face was very close, his two thick eyebrows were twisted into the word "Chuan", and his expression was very excited, and there was no peace in the past.
I wanted to comfort him, so I whispered, "I understand." ”
His gaze burned like fire. I lowered my head and stopped looking at him.
Suddenly there was a darkness in front of me, and I could feel his warm breath on my cheeks, and for a while, he didn't make any other movements, as if he was waiting for something.
I said with difficulty: "Liang Gongzi, I love Lan Sheng. ”
He breathed a sigh of relief, then retreated, and said, "Is there no way for you to accept this me now?" ”
I shook my head, looked at him and said calmly, "I'm just like you." You have to relive the past, and so do I. The only thing I can't appreciate is the past you mentioned. I don't have that part of my memory as Zhu Shuzhen, so I don't know what happened to me and you. You're going back to twenty-nine because I chose that plane, and whether it's last time or this time, it's actually the same plane, and we've just never made things as clear as we do today. ”
"But you seem to know your final fate? You weren't surprised at all when I told you. He wondered.
"Yes," I nodded, "I drank the poisoned wine, and stayed in that place called 'World in the Mirror', and I saw another self, and she told me these things, but only about you, she kept her mouth shut, so when I returned to my twenty-six, I only knew that there would be a person surnamed Liang in the future, and I would have entanglements with him, but I didn't even know what his name was." Later, I became friends with you in a daze, and it wasn't until you went to Haining and opened a theater called 'Yuming Tang' that I realized that that person was you. ”
"Is she silent about me?" Liang Gongzi said sadly.
I pursed my lips and said, "Maybe it's not because I hate you." You've done it. ”
Liang Gongzi sighed and said, "I'd rather she hate me and hate me, at least she won't be willing to leave like this." (To be continued.) )