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After a while, I said to him, "I only knew that I had committed suicide by throwing myself into the lake, but I don't know why I did it all of a sudden." She once told me that it was because she got along with you before she returned, which caused the world to scold her, and finally she was like that because of depression. ”

"That's part of the reason," he said, with heavy eyes, "but it's my fault." ”

"How?" I wondered.

"You were really in a bad mood at that time, you were often sick, and rumors were raging outside, so I thought about taking you to Yanjing. Just as I was about to do so, a letter suddenly came from Tanzhou, saying that Master was seriously ill and asked me to go back to Tanzhou. Speaking of this, he paused, and choked up again, "What I regret most is that I didn't take you to Tanzhou with me at the beginning, if, if I took you with me, later, it wouldn't be like that." ”

"I was when you went to Tanzhou...... Throw yourself into the lake? I asked.

"Well," he said, slowly, "you were in a low mood, and you looked like a dying flower." Let me tell you that I want to go to Tanzhou. You asked me to take you with me. But you are sick, so I told you to wait for me, and when I come back, we will go to Yanjing together...... You agreed, and although you didn't want to, you agreed...... If I had known what it meant to stay with you, how could I have left you alone to go to Tanzhou? I'm definitely going to take it with me, anyway......"

I suddenly felt that my eyes were foggy, and my eyes were yellow and white.

He said: "I went to Tanzhou, and the master forced me to stay for those five days, and it only took seven days when I rushed back, but I didn't expect ...... It's still late. Later, I heard Yueying say, I don't know where I heard that I got married to my sister in Tanzhou, and then I went out alone and said that I was going to look for me. But you didn't go looking for me, some people said, you went to the Spirit Lake. I went looking for it, but I didn't see anything. ”

He let out a long sigh and said, "Maybe you can't remember, in the past, when your relationship with the Lan family was on the verge of breaking down, you came to sit by the Spirit Lake for a night, and I asked you what you were going to do?" You say, "You're going back from here." At that time, I only knew about your fate with Linghu, and I also knew that you were originally called 'Wanchun'. ”

There are so many twists and turns? I lowered my head and slowly closed my eyes.

After a while, I suddenly felt a cool fingertip rubbing my eyes, and he said, "I want to know, why are you crying?" ”

I looked up, avoided his hand, and said, "I don't know." After a pause, he said, "I just feel sad and regretful." Liang Gongzi, sometimes I wonder, which one is the real me? Although what you told me was something I had experienced in my previous life, I felt like I was listening to someone else's story. ”

"It's none other than yourself, there's no denying the past, even if you don't remember it, but it's all in my head." He said.

I looked at him and asked, "Liang Gongzi, what are you going to do?" ”

"How?" He repeated.

"You've told me all this, what's next?" I explained.

"Naturally, I will protect you well and not let you repeat the mistakes of the past." He said firmly.

I looked at him quietly and said, "Are you guilty of it?" Your master wrote that he was seriously ill and that you were going to visit him, and that was not wrong. I later threw myself into the lake and died, which I caused myself. You don't have to do this because of guilt. ”

After hearing this, he suddenly grabbed my shoulders with both hands and said hatefully, "Do you think this is just guilt? Xiao Wan, don't you understand what I've said so much? Then he said, "I love you, don't you know?" ”

I moved back a little scared, and then said, "Liang Gongzi, I know that we used to be very in love, but I am not the same person now. Moreover, I have other plans for the future. ”

He clamped my hand on the shoulder and said slowly: "Xiaowan, you misunderstood, I didn't ask you, and I won't hurt you." I know that the past cannot be easily changed, and you must continue to stay with the Lan family. I am saying these words to you to tell you that even if you will encounter many misfortunes in the future, do not give up on your life easily. I'm here, and I'll always be. ”

The purpose of my rebirth is to get out of samsara, and naturally I will not give up my life easily. But what he said still touched me very much.

I calmed down and said to him, "I know what you want. I will plan for the future step by step, and I can also assure you that I will not do anything stupid. ”

"Then you came to Linghu this time?" He asked again.

I smiled a little and said, "This is a mistake, I am going to the Holy Lotus Hall to see my master, and the chauffeur accompanying me is from Haining, and I am not very familiar with this place, so I will come here." I remembered the past, and I thought about coming to Linghu to have a look. Then he looked at him and said, "Actually, you are too worried." He also joked: "There is also such a large paragraph of right and wrong." ”

"I'm really worried." Liang Gongzi said, "After we came back in a carriage together that day, I received a letter from the master, saying that he had come to Qiantang and that I had to rush over to settle them. After returning to Haining, I heard that the Lan family had accepted a concubine, and you went back to Qiantang alone. I came here directly from Haining, and asked Xi An to go to Zhufu to inquire about the situation. Just now, when I saw you lying on the edge of the lake, I thought ......" and when I got here, he stopped talking.

I smiled at him, stood up, stretched my arms, walked away, and said, "But I really didn't want to die." ”

He also stood up and said, "Where is the Lan family......"

I know he's talking about Yunqing's entry into the mansion.

It seems that a cloud of sorrow is hanging over me again. I pursed my lips and said, "It's happened." ”

He came closer.

I added, "I don't want to talk about it." ”

He reached out as if to hold it.

I was silent for a while, raised my hand and touched his sleeve, and asked him, "Are you okay with your injuries?" ”

He was stunned for a moment, lowered his arm, and said, "Okay, it wasn't a serious injury in the first place. ”

"That's good." I said.

He added: "You are still the same as before, you like to bury things in your heart, and you always feel that one person can afford everything." That's not good. ”

"It's not so easy to change, even if I do it all over again, maybe in some things, my choices are still the same as before." I sighed.

"Including me?" He asked.

Before I could answer, he said, "Don't answer, I shouldn't have asked." ”

In my previous life, I didn't reconcile with Lan Sheng, so I walked with Liang Gongzi. That's what he's referring to. (To be continued.) )