Everything seems to be very beautiful all of a sudden! Yes, it's beautiful, even every breath is beautiful!

The next day, I sat in front of the store basking in the sun as usual, wearing headphones, and playing the French singer Elena on my phone? Holley sings "My name is Elaine", and I love this song, the tune is light, and there is a kind of French romance. Pen, Fun, Pavilion www.biquge.info Singaporean singer Chua Jia Chun covered this song into a Chinese, the name is "Attachment", the lyrics have been re-filled, fresh and beautiful, I love it very much.

Close your eyes, the phone loops the song sung by the two of them, and enjoys the sunshine and music pouring into your soul...... I found that my impression of Tian Xiaorou may not be faintly forgotten, but transformed into a thick longing, she has never disappeared in my mind, and I have never seriously wanted to forget her, I told myself not to think about her, it was just a helpless self-comfort. The incident that happened that night made me so sure that she was real, and that she had been in my city for a long time, and I missed her so much that I turned the pages of her automatically!

I want to have her! I still have the feeling of holding her body in my hands, and it's indescribable, I've never experienced it before. Take the swallow as an example, I have also hugged her, but it is completely different from the feeling when I hugged Tian Xiaorou, the swallow's informality and cuteness are very likable, I admit that I also like her, if I can go further, what I can think of is to "occupy" her, and for Tian Xiaorou, when holding her, all I can think of is "owning" her. It's really strange, the meaning of these two words sounds so similar, but when used to Tian Xiaorou, I can only think of "have".

I often feel like I live on an island, an island without sunlight, a barren island, and I draw the ground as a prison on the island. Every day, I picked up a shovel, searched for open space on the island, then dug a hole, planted a seed, day after day, the seed was densely planted everywhere on the island, and then I waited quietly for the sun to appear. From time to time, the sun will pass around the isolated island in a small boat, and sometimes a few will dock on the shore, and their warmth will make the seeds on the isolated island grow young leaves, and even some of the leaves will grow very vigorously, but none of the plants will grow flowers! The leaves withered quickly, so I dug up the withered leaves one by one, replanted the seeds, and continued to wait......

The warmth brought to me by Tian Xiaorou made the isolated island in my heart bloom all over the mountains overnight, and the isolated island seemed to be covered with a bright carpet, and I lay on the carpet made of flowers, embracing warmth.

For a long time, all my waiting seemed to be for her.

I don't do anything on purpose, if she is really all I can have, then I run to the ends of the earth away from her, she may have been waiting for me at the ends of the earth for a long time, if she is not what I can have, even if I find every place in the ends of the world, there is always a distance from the ends of the earth to the cape.

I feel that I will meet Tian Xiaorou again, this feeling is very strong!

At noon the little boy gave me another dollar, which was still not enough, but I decided to give him the pot of Gentleman's Orchid. Children, understand fart love, why take this matter so seriously, he cares about female classmates, I should encourage this kind of behavior. In addition to that, I gave him an extra pot of Gentleman's Orchid, he was very strange and asked me why I sold it to him at a low price, and gave him an extra plate, I said because I was happy today! Hearing my nonsensical answer, he was stunned for a moment, and then he became happy, happily said "thank you", and left with two pots of flowers. It turns out that a person who is happy can also transmit this emotion to other people who have nothing to do with it!

In the next few days, as the New Year approached, we sold as many flowers as we could, and left those that could not be sold and sublet them out with the house at a low price. In the end, after calculating the accounts, I earned more than 20,000 yuan, and after discarding the common expenses, everyone finally got more than 5,000 yuan, and the income was quite optimistic.

After two months of getting along, the friendship between the three of us has become deeper, a manly friendship, full of fortitude and sincerity, which is commendable. These two months have been more than I have spent in the past two years, and we still end up gathering at that frequented hot pot restaurant for a casual meal, toasting our friendship and toasting to the upcoming Lunar New Year......

Once, I had been looking forward to the New Year, looking forward to growing up quickly, becoming self-reliant, and breaking free from the shackles of my parents, but when I grew up, I began to be afraid of growing up, because while I was growing up, some people were aging, and some people were gone. When I was a child, I thought about "things I must do when I grow up", but when I grew up, I realized that I didn't have the opportunity to do them at all, and many things were already different. Every time I go home, I will basically pass half a year, and every time I hear that someone in the neighborhood has passed away, I will not be sad about it, but there will always be some discomfort in my heart, and the smiling faces they showed when they faced me when they were children are still fresh in my memory, and these will only exist in my memory forever. Now that I am basically able to break free from the shackles of my parents, the omnipotent image that they have long established in my heart is gradually disintegrating! I would have a different kind of sadness, they are really starting to get old...... Growing up is a terrible thing, I don't like the New Year more and more, this kind of psychological rejection makes the New Year taste worse every year. Perhaps, this is one of the important troubles that everyone has to endure in the course of life.

When I was a child, one of the things I wanted to do was to beat my sister up when I grew up! Well, that's what I really thought. My sister is so bad, grab the TV remote control with me and won't let me watch anime, won't let me touch her drawer, if I do something wrong when my parents are away, she will beat me up, she's a few years older than me, I can't beat her at all! I learned to practice lying on my back and swore silently: You wait for me, when I grow up, I will be taller than you, stronger than you, see if I beat you to death!

I grew up that year, taller than her, stronger than her, I thought I could finally get revenge, but she got married! In a sense, she is already someone else's family, hey, I have an inexplicable loneliness, since then I feel that watching TV alone is so boring, no one will use their pocket money to buy me snacks to eat, my parents are not at home and no one cooks for me anymore, and no one stands in front of me to carry anything wrong...... If I think about it carefully, I have always had one and a half mothers, one is the mother who gave birth to me and raised me, and the remaining half of the "mother" is my sister. For the sake of her taking care of me, I am not guilty of the past, and I no longer want to beat her. I am so damn merciful!

In this world, only these two women beat me up a lot, but I have never been able to fight back, in the past because of "powerlessness" to fight back, and now because of "unintentional" to fight back. However, I don't think it's a shame that the psychological trauma they left on me when I was a child grew up to be a warm affection.

When I came home for the Chinese New Year, my sister asked me, "Do you have a girlfriend?" ”

"Nope."

"Why are you so stupid, not yet!"

"I'll go, what does this have to do with stupidity, I'm talented, talented, or no girl likes me, what can I do!"

"Then you won't even coax and chase one!"

"Sister, you're teaching me to sin!"

"A white lie is not a deception, and it's never too late to explain it to them when you have deceived them."

"This has a fart, how can a woman be so easy to deceive. I accidentally broke your hairpin before, I said it was our dog who bit it, you don't believe it, and beat me up without saying a word! ”

"My hairpin is in a drawer, how can our dog open it, you stupid, can you use some brains to make up some better reasons, it's stupid! Sister doesn't beat you, can you open your mind! ”

"Do you say that about your brother? I know, you are definitely not my sister, you were sent by our parents to charge the phone bill! ”

"You're the one your parents sent for the phone bill!" The old lady got up and gave me the baby in her arms, "You hold it for a while, and I'll give Ling'er a milk." ”

Ling'er is a child born to an old sister, almost ten months old, and now the old sister has really become a mother, and I have also become a brother-in-law. Ling'er moved around in my arms, very lovable. The birth of a new life is very emotional, time will make some people and things leave me, time will also let me know some new people and things, regret but also hope. I can't control whether time is going forward or backward, all I can do is try to do what I can at the right time.