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The red sunset on the horizon and the rippling water in early spring reflect the colors of dusk.

Everything is green at the beginning, and outside the ten-mile long pavilion, it is the tender grass that drills out of the land, exuding a unique green atmosphere; Looking farther away, there is a row of willows by the lake that have just pulled out their tender yellow willow leaves.

"Willow and Liu", combined with the two teenagers standing and sitting in the ten-mile long pavilion, and the teenagers and girls walking on the grass not far away, it is obvious that this is a farewell scene.

In fact, what consciously involves the ten-mile long pavilion and farewell is a song that has only become popular in Chang'an City in recent days. The characteristics of the two tunes that are similar to those of Sun Dao are similar to those of the two tunes, but people have to convince the lyricist's background and talent. At least, in the eyes of the students, it is one level higher than the realm of Sun Dao, no matter what level.

Of course, this is just an after-dinner tea; The point is that at this moment, this twilight hour, is really not a good time to say goodbye. In other words, traveling far away at dusk is not a good choice.

Unfortunately, they could not do anything, and they received an order that after the crown prince Li Chengqian left the city at noon, they would leave Beijing at dusk. It is said that Li Shimin's original words at that time were, "Even if it is delayed and it gets dark, they have to sleep in the wild for me!" ”

Inexplicable order, but they had to resolutely carry it out. After sending off Li Shimin and his father Hou Junji in the morning, after Li Chengqian left Beijing at noon, Hou Zhijun and Helan Yueshi appeared in the ten-mile long pavilion in the suburbs. And the people who bid them off were only Helan Chushi and his wife, that is, the younger brother of Holland Yue Shi and the younger sister of Hou Zhijun.

And in an instant, he took away his sister who was staring at him, and walked by the lake with his back to the long pavilion, Hou Zhijun gave up the space to the two brothers of the Helan family.

No matter what you say, the Hou family owes something to the Helan family. Hou Junji can not ask, Hou Haitang can also mess around, but Hou Zhijun can't. This is also the reason why Li Shimin is relieved that he is walking with Helan Yueshi. Similarly, on the other hand, the conditions created by Li Shimin for the two teenagers to sit down and talk openly and honestly are also another factor for Hou Zhijun, who realized this level, to pull away his sister.

And the moment their brother and sister turned to leave, there was an indescribable silence in the long pavilion.

For Helan Yueshi, it is sad that there are thousands of words but nothing to say; As for Helan Chushi, it was a kind of silence that the mountain rain was coming, and he didn't know how to face his brother, his brother.

Everything can be used as an excuse before it is seen; And when it comes to meeting, nothing can be used as an excuse.

So, this silence is extremely oppressive.

I don't know how long it took, Helan Chushi frowned slightly, and looked at his wife and brother-in-law not far away outside the pavilion, "Where is Fu Bo?" ”

He understands that this brother of his, if he didn't open his mouth, he would never say a word more in his life. He prefers what his body does to what he says in his mouth.

"Stay in Chang'an to look after the family, the family needs someone to take care of" Helan Yueshi moved his eyes to the pavilion with his younger brother, "The elder brother of the Hou family didn't take the servants on the road alone, and I can't bring someone to drag him back"

"Here you go again! It's like this every time, always thinking about others, not thinking about yourself - you don't think about yourself, how is your body! Brother Jun is in good health and experience, and he can take care of himself alone outside; What about you! If you don't take care of you with a familiar person, can you take care of yourself! What should I do if I can't bear it and fall ill in the end? In turn, do you cause trouble for Brother Jun! "I was suppressing my state of mind, but at this moment, Helan Yueshi's casual explanation was a fuse, instantly igniting the powder keg that had been buried for a long time. So Helan Chushi seemed to suddenly burst out, and an extremely angry scream suddenly sounded, hysterical, on the outskirts of the city outside this pavilion, it spread far and wide, "Also, there is that Wu Yuanqing, you will take care of you for more than ten years Fu Bo stay, you are afraid that Wu Yuanqing will be embarrassed and sad in the mansion, right?" It's like this every time, you do so much for others without saying a word, and others can't see it, but what do you do if you see it?! Have you thought about what they think?! ”

"Nope! You've never been! Be! You are the elder brother, so before she died, A-Niang asked you to take care of your younger brother! You really did it, but have you considered my feelings?! ”

"You Helan Yueshi must be talented, you must have good looks, everyone knows that you are the good eldest son of Aya, a qualified heir of the family, and now you are a loving brother who cares about and loves your brother! Poetry clubs, gatherings, long pavilions, gatherings, there are you everywhere, everyone knows that the Helan family has a handsome and talented Helan Yueshi! As for me, when everyone mentions me Helan Chushi, they will say that it is Helan Yueshi's younger brother, and the younger brother of Helan Yueshi, who is both talented and good-looking, is envious that I have such an elder brother! ”

"I'm just Helan Yueshi's younger brother, and even Aya only has you Helan Yueshi in his eyes, and you're causing trouble all day long when you come to me! Then since you don't like me, and you can't wait to have my son and younger brother, why do you want to stop me when the little lady of the Hou family takes a fancy to me and likes me! Wouldn't it be better to throw me out and get rid of the relationship! No one wants me, but now someone wants me Helan Chushi, and someone has taken a fancy to me Helan Chushi, why do you want to oppose it! ”

In fact, this matter is his own Aye's willful behavior, and it has nothing to do with his brother. Even when Aya objected, although he did not explicitly put forward his opinion against Aye, he directly encouraged himself on the side. This is really not easy for him to understand himself.

Recalling the pride he felt when he mentioned his brother when he was young, recalling finding his brother when he was wronged when he was young, and recalling when Aya didn't allow him to touch his wife at that time, Helan Chushi can still clearly remember his brother's encouragement and comfort smile at that time.

This elder brother of his own, it can be said that except for himself Helan Chu Shikai, no one will know him anymore. To anyone, he always laughs, no matter who it is or what his position is, he will always smile and not speak, and he will not show any emotions. is like a cloud in the sky, soft, even in front of you, you are helpless against him, and naturally there is no way to get angry with him.

But if that's all it takes, his position can still be maintained and clearly expressed; Those scholars follow the crowd and follow the crowd, and there is not a trace of a shadow in him at all! In this regard, as a younger brother, the young Helan Chushi is naturally sincerely envious and admired, and he even thinks that he can be like his brother when he grows up. But as he grew older, he gradually began to understand that he would probably never be like his older brother, because he hated it more and more when others commented that he was "more and more like his big brother"!

He is himself, Helan Chushi, not Helan Yueshi!

was originally a longing and worship for his brother, but it was transformed into unhappiness and unwillingness for his brother! You, Helan Yueshi, are the successor of the Helan family, and you are one of the top ten good young people with both talent and appearance, and Helan Chushi is just your younger brother! It's not enough to steal all the limelight from yourself like this, I admit that I'm not as good as you, but why do you have to be so good to yourself? A-Niang's deathbed instructions? Show you the perfection of Helan Yueshi? Or do you have condescending pity for yourself, who will never be as good as your brother?

Therefore, although there is no kind of cynicism that is expressed in words, every conversation between Helan Yueshi and him, every exhortation of Helan Yueshi, seems to have become a lesson in Helan Chushi's ears, and in those words, all are contempt and contempt. In this way, Helan Chushi naturally left after listening, and even turned around and left in the middle of his words a few times; Under the emotional impulse, he also ignored whether there was anything in his brother's words that was worthy of his attention and listening.

In fact, it is true that Helan Yueshi is quite famous among their peers, but Helan Chushi is not as unfamous as he imagined. Although he has always been covered by his brother's light, Helan Chushi also has his own characteristics, not his own arrogance; Although, the use of force to help the weak will become the so-called trouble. But it is precisely because of this that for a period of time, there was a faint rumor in the circle that "Helan is two young people, and the light of civil and military affairs". It's a pity that everything that happened later, I have to say, is suffocating.

"As an elder brother, it was the order given by my father and mother, and I can't change it, so I can only worry about you. As for Aya, you still act as if nothing has happened" is not good at expressing feelings, in response to his brother's roaring accusation, Helan Yueshi was silent for a while, "Live a good life with your younger brother and sister, and when your nephew is born, he will still be a member of our Helan family"

"What do you mean? Helan Yueshi, what do you mean?! The body was still trembling slightly, Helan Yueshi's words made Helan Chushi can't help but rush over, pull his collar and lift his brother up, shaking desperately, his whole face turned red, and the green tendons on his neck burst up, "You stab this knife so hatefully, it's just murderous without blinking!" You, Helan Yueshi, are laughing at me, Helan Chushi is an unfilial animal, right! ridiculed me for not letting him see me for the last time when Aya was seriously ill and even at the moment of his death! It's ironic that I didn't even go to see Aya for the last time on the day of his funeral, right? ”

"I just hope you don't feel sad, Aye, he has forgiven you, and so am I" Letting his younger brother shake his body, Helan Yueshi always looked directly at his younger brother's red eyes.

In this regard, Helan Yueshi has already made a decision, leaving Aya and A-Niang behind, he Helan Yueshi can't let go of this younger brother after all.

And Helan Chushi was stunned as expected, and then let go of Helan Yueshi, beating his chest desperately with both fists, and roaring like a wounded beast, "Fart!" You have forgotten, but you have forgotten! You will forgive me and tolerate me, but I can't get by! I can't get over here! I can't get over Helan Chushi! I can't forget it for a lifetime, and I can't live it for a lifetime! I want to escape, but I can't escape for the rest of my life! That's the sin that I, Helan Chushi, committed! ”

Holding on to the railing weakly, Helan Chushi pounded his chest with one hand, and his heart was as painful as a heartbreak. His voice was hoarse, and he bit his teeth together fiercely, and cried silently; But even though Helan Chushi was trembling violently, he was helpless.

He can resent his brother, he can resent everyone who treats him as Helan Yueshi's younger brother, but he can't resent his father! In the same way, he can apologize to his brother, he can apologize to the world, but he can't say to his father, "The child is wrong!" ”

It's already too late!

Helan Chushi is destined to spend his life in remorse and self-blame!

This article is from the book online novel