Is there really a god in this world, Li Jiawen sat in the rental room, silently in a daze. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

His heart was empty, so empty that he could hear the flow of his own blood, slow, steady, lifeless, as if it would turn into a pool of stagnant water at any moment.

When people are desperate, what path should they choose, whether to continue to endure, to break down and go crazy, or to make a desperate bet.

Li Jiawen hasn't been home for three whole years, not because of anything else, just because he didn't make any money, people like him who don't go home for the New Year because they didn't make money, I'm afraid there are tens of thousands, or even more, in the entire Shenzhou Continent.

It's already the third year, and it's been wasted like this for another year, and there are still more than ten days before the Spring Festival, and his family persuaded him to go home for the New Year, even if he didn't earn any money, it didn't matter, he was there, just fine.

But Li Jiawen was not reconciled, he promised his father and mother that he would let them live a good life, and he didn't need them to go to the pig farm to feed the pigs and shovel pig manure in their fifties, but they only got a meager income.

So Li Jiawen took all his salary to speculate in stocks, originally the stock market was very good, he didn't invest much, but he also earned tens of thousands of yuan, and after earning money, he ran around to tell each other. Relatives said that he was a college student, a cultural person who went out of the village, would make money, have a good income, and his parents would have a bright face, and he would be able to enjoy Qingfu in the future, and then the relatives took out their savings, hoping that Li Jiawen would help them speculate in stocks and earn some fertilizer money.

Li Jiawen suddenly felt bad, he instinctively refused the request of his relatives, but the relatives were blowing the wind in their ears from their parents, saying that Jiawen looked down on them when he read books, and he earned money alone, and the eggs he gave him when he was a child were really better than feeding them to dogs.

Father and mother were very embarrassed, they were pointed at their noses and scolded every day, Li Jiawen was helpless, took the money of his relatives, and plunged into the stock market.

But suddenly, the stock market, which everyone had money to earn, fell wildly, and Li Jiawen lost all his money.

Scolding, questioning, taunting, and even calling the police.

Li Jiawen did not dare to go home.

Then he drifted out for three years, he watched the stock market plummet, and always felt that the stock market would soon be able to make a Jedi rebound, so he borrowed money from his classmates everywhere, and even went to borrow usury, he put all the money into the stock market, expecting a million profits, so that he would have money to return to his relatives and have the face to go home.

But the miracle did not happen, Li Jiawen was in debt, and his heart was like ashes.

There was only the last fifty yuan left in his pocket, Li Jiawen thought to himself, maybe only the gods could save him, and I don't know if people would have whims in a desperate situation, or if there was no way but to grab the last life-saving straw like a drowning person, Li Jiawen typed the word "fairy" on his mobile phone, and then countless website links popped up on the page.

Li Jiawen clicked on them one by one, hoping to find even a little bit of enlightenment, but no, nothing, they are all some great truths that persuade people to have faith or scientifically prove everything, these are all bullshit for Li Jiawen, and they have no effect!

He didn't give up, he kept scrolling down, and then he turned to this post.

It was a string of numbers, 01, 04, 07, 10, 13, 16, and these 6 numbers were written there in the simplest arrangement, lonely and meaningless.

There is no reply below this post, it is a post that only sank today.

The ID of the poster is: I am a god.

Li Jiawen felt that there seemed to be providence in the dark, this post was only made today, and he only had a whim to frantically rummage through the posts about immortals today, so this string of numbers appeared at this time, it must be an opportunity for him to be reborn.

A series of six numbers with a tolerance of 3, then add a 03 at the end, then it becomes seven numbers, which is the number of the two-color ball.

Li Jiawen suddenly felt that his heart was beating so fast, he felt that he had grabbed a life-saving straw, so he ran to the color point and bought twenty-five times according to the seven numbers.

The owner of the color sales point smiled and said, "What, the young man is inspired." ”

Li Jiawen gritted his teeth, and then nodded firmly, as if as long as he believed in himself, then there would definitely be a miracle.

The boss typed out the list, pointing to a few old lottery players in the store who were biting the pen and said: "Buying lottery tickets is luck, where can it be calculated, so if you have inspiration, you will buy, even if you don't win, at least you won't regret it, it's boring to calculate." ”

Li Jiawen held the lottery ticket, he thought to himself that even the boss said this, all this is a sign, a sign that he will be able to get rid of bad luck soon, a sign that he can go home with joy for a reunion year!

Back to the rental room, Li Jiawen took his mobile phone and waited for the two-color ball to draw, and as the time passed, Li Tianliang's heart beat faster and faster, his pores all opened, and the sound of blood flowing in his veins was no longer the sound of stagnant water being blown by the wind, but like a pond boiled by a blazing fire, and the blood seemed to burst out of the blood vessels at any time.

"All this is in signs, all in this way!" Li Jiawen frantically hinted at himself in his heart, his heartbeat suddenly sounded like the old temple bell being struck by the little novice, and then his eyes were black, and he fainted because he was too nervous and excited!

When he woke up, it was already twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, he hurriedly turned on his mobile phone to check the lottery results of the two-color ball, and when that string of numbers came into view, Li Jiawen's world collapsed.

The results were: 17 , 18 , 19 , 23 , 25 , 31 , 02

Not a single number, not hit!

"How stupid could I be, how stupid could I be!" Li Tianliang laughed: "Where in this world there will be immortals, where in this world will there be daydreams for nothing, if people always have unrealistic delusions, then they will only be mercilessly mocked by reality!" ”

Li Jiawen laughed so much that tears flowed out, he opened his phone to find the post, and replied under the post: "Brother, maybe you don't know, there is a fool who takes the numbers you send as the last hope to buy a lottery ticket, and then the rightful hope will be dashed." Maybe for other people, this is just a meaningless post, at most a few dozen dollars lost, after all, you didn't do anything but sent a string of numbers, but this world is so wonderful, under all kinds of cause and effect, I chose you, and then I was crushed by this last choice, so I think you should remember me, my name is Li Jiawen, and I will die after this reply is sent. ”

It's all over, isn't it?

Li Tianliang opened the window and climbed up, this is the eighth floor, and the bottom is the concrete floor, jumping down is the end.

He suddenly remembered a supernatural American drama he watched in college, the name of that drama was "Heroes", in the first episode of the first season, the male protagonist Pete stood on the roof of a high-rise building, the wind blew his face, he asked himself.

"Where does it come from, this desire, this need, to uncover the mysteries of life but there is no answer, why we are here, what our soul is, why we dream, it may be better to be indifferent, but this is not human nature, nor is it the heart of human beings, nor is it the purpose of our existence."

After saying that, Pete opened his arms and jumped off the tall building like a soaring bird.

Pete believes he can fly.

Actually, he doesn't fly.

Li Jiawen stood on the window, looking at the dark sky, if he could fly, where would he fly, and whether it was the end and the destination.

He closed his eyes and felt the world with his heart, and the sound of his blood came again, steady and quiet, but it no longer seemed to be like stagnant water blown by the wind, it was the vitality that suddenly radiated in the face of death, a spring appeared in the deep cement pool, and a large amount of sweet and surging spring water appeared, and someone dug a hole in the embankment, and the dead water flowed out along the mouth and became a stream.

And in his ear, he heard someone whispering, it should be the fairy speaking.

"When people are determined to die, they often suddenly have an epiphany, they can see details that they can't usually see, and they can find strange things that they can't usually find. Since your string of numbers became the straw that broke the camel's back, you should go and save him and take him under your door. ”

"No, I won't save him, you should know my way, he and I are two fateful moments, so I won't stop him from dying."

"Your way is really strange, I have never been able to understand, there are more than six billion people on the earth, it is not easy for him to become the person who chooses your number, but you still say that fate is not enough, you always say that everything is fate, but when you deliberately care about fate like this, this fate is still fate."

"This is also the question I have been asking myself, fate should be the most traceless coincidence, and I am obsessed with this coincidence, but if I am not attached to it, then I, am I still me?"

Li Jiawen opened his eyes suddenly, he looked around in panic, and then shouted: "Who is speaking, is it the immortals, are you talking?" ”

"Huh. Can he hear us? ”

"No, maybe it's just his dying nonsense."

"I'll try to find out if it's nonsense, boy, if you can hear the old man speak, then you can shout these eight words, one person will get the Tao, and the chicken and dog will ascend to heaven."

Li Jiawen didn't think about it, and shouted: "If one person gains the Tao, the chicken and dog will ascend to heaven!" I can hear you! ”

The world was silent for a second, and then there was laughter.

"Hahahaha, this kid was able to detach his consciousness after an epiphany, I'm afraid this kind of qualification is rare in a hundred years, old ghost, you have a fate with him, really don't accept him?"

"Even if it's a rare encounter in a thousand years, before fate arrives, I won't accept him, but you can accept him."

"I am an idle cloud and a wild crane, I have sworn that I will never accept apprentices, and besides, this son is weak-hearted, and the manly husband is going to commit suicide by jumping off the building, and he left you a death notice before committing suicide, blaming you for killing him, so no matter how good the qualifications are, you will definitely not be able to survive the hardships of cultivating the truth, so let's go."

Then Li Jiawen never heard them speak again.

"Are you still there? Are you really immortals? Li Jiawen shouted loudly with expectations.

"What is the noise, I don't sleep in the middle of the night and get nervous, believe it or not, I'm going to knock on your door!" Someone downstairs pushed open the window and shouted at Li Jiawen.

Li Jiawen was startled, and then he smiled self-deprecatingly, where are there any immortals, it's just that he is afraid of death, so he has auditory hallucinations, which is a common symptom of mental patients.

"If I can even eavesdrop on the words of the gods, then there is anything in this world that I can't overhear."

Li Jiawen raised his head and looked at a point of light in the night sky, it was not a star, it was a nocturnal airliner.

"If you have the ability, let me hear what the flight attendants on the airliner are saying."

He pricked up his ears and ......

"Xiaoyu, that rich second generation has been asking me for your phone number, he said that as long as I tell him your phone number, he will send me a red envelope of 30,000 yuan, I really can't stand the temptation, so I will sell you, don't be angry, can we split the account fifty-fifty?"

Li Jiawen was suddenly startled, and his back was already wet with cold sweat.

Did he really hear it?