29. Suicidal thoughts and murderous fantasies

One morning, when I was in the car, I saw a magazine in the car that was outdated a few years ago, and I took a look at it, and there was a headline on it "Senior Student Jumped Off the Building and Committed Suicide to Kill the School Girl", which said that downstairs in the No. 3 dormitory of the campus of Guangdong Pharmaceutical College in Guangzhou University Town, the sophomore girl A Ying (pseudonym) was unfortunately knocked to the ground by a man who fell from the 7th floor, and died after being sent to the hospital. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoThe man who fell from the building was a senior student named Ngawang at the school, who committed suicide by jumping off the building because he couldn't think about it for some reason, and was out of danger after being rescued.

After reading the report, Mr. Zhu Zhi said casually: Lose that mother, don't even pick a good place to commit suicide, hurt people! When my friend heard me say this, he braked suddenly, causing Mr. Zhu to fly forward like a cannonball, almost smashing the windshield in front of him. Mr. Zhu was about to scold, but his friend hurriedly said sorry and said: I still want to commit suicide, so when I heard this word, I was a little excited. Mr. Zhu said: Not only do you want to commit suicide, are you excited? I still want to kill myself, but let's not use your beautiful car as a suicide tool! When this guy heard this, he braked suddenly, and Mr. Zhu Zhi shot out like a cannonball again, and his forehead hit a huge pain (a big bag has not been dispersed so far). He was so surprised that he leaned on the steering wheel and said, "Mr. Zhu, you also thought about committing suicide?" Is there a mistake?!

His shock was quite justified. People who have seen Mr. Zhu Zhu are all infected by his fearlessness and optimism, and he is famous for his courage of "the sky falls down when it is covered" and "eighteen years is a good man". In the same way, Mr. Zhu has a feeling of compassion for the heavens and the people, has great ambitions, looks at the world, regards everyone in the world as brothers and sisters, treats them equally and respects them, and his qualities are enough to be the director of the civil affairs bureau, the head of the charity, and the bishop of the church. Therefore, if I say that Mr. Zhu Dian also has suicidal thoughts, I think that even if I bet 1 million VND with him, he will not dare, will not, and cannot believe it.

However, Mr. Zhu has indeed been thinking of suicide, and I have a very subconscious action, that is, I use my right index finger to my temple, and then pull the "board machine", and there are words in my mouth: Horn! Then the mind went blank. I don't know when it started, but I think he's been around for a long time. In my memory, there were at least many strong suicidal thoughts, one was when I was young, after being shortlisted for a technical school exam, I was not admitted, which was a fatal blow to a rural child who longed to jump out of the farm. First, when I first went to work, because I didn't have money to buy medicine for my father, I felt that it was really boring to be a human being, and I couldn't even do such a little thing, so I might as well die. Then after resigning from the unit and going out to the rivers and lakes, repeatedly hitting nails, and living a life where people are not like people and ghosts, the idea of abandoning the world arises spontaneously after getting drunk again and again...... Of course, this is just a thought, otherwise, this article would not scare people to death - where did it come from?

I said to my friends: Don't stare your eyes as big as the steering wheel, in fact, not only Mr. Zhu Zhi, but I know, there are many friends who have suicidal thoughts. One of my interns, a young girl majoring in fine arts at Guangxi University of the Arts, also told me about her suicide experience: on the night of the breakup, she cut her wrist, but the knife was very blunt, and it took several cuts before the blood gushed out, and she didn't feel pain, and then, she had an indescribable pleasure, and felt that her chest was swollen and her heart was racing...... Her wrists were scarred, and it was shocking to look at. There was a fledgling girl who worked as a reporter in the newspaper, but she failed to complete the task almost every month, and she was very nervous and depressed. She consulted Mr. Zhu Zhi, an expert on the issue, and said that when she walked on the street, she often had two thoughts: first, the car in front of her suddenly had a car accident, and I finally found a news clue; The second is that I was hit by a car, and I finally have news to write! I was very nervous and often had suicidal thoughts. I pointed out that she wasn't the right fit for the job - journalism isn't human! I suggested that she change careers, and then she went to become a teacher, and now she lives more nourishingly than me! The face is rosy and ruddy, as if it has been coated with "Dabao" or some kind of cream!

There are so many people who want to commit suicide, and there are not a few people who really commit suicide (the sick Zhu Yu wanted to commit suicide more than once). In China, suicide is the fifth leading cause of death in the country, and the first cause of death among people aged 15 to 34, the newspaper said. Every year, 287,000 people die by suicide in China, 1.5 million people suffer from long-term and severe psychological trauma due to the suicide of family members or relatives and friends, and 135,000 children under the age of 17 have experienced the death of a parent by suicide. Another 2 million people attempt suicide every year. On average, one person dies every two minutes and eight people attempt suicide. Cao Lianyuan, director of the Beijing Psychological Crisis Research and Intervention Center, believes that the risk factors associated with suicide have been identified: a history of suicide attempt; Severe acute or chronic stress response due to adverse life events; Severe symptoms of depression and anxiety in the near future; Low quality of life (just like Zhu Zhu), unemployment and other huge social life pressures, etc.

However, it is not only people who are not in a good situation who think about suicide, but also those who are the elite of society who commit suicide. In May 1994, Kevin Carter, a South African photojournalist, committed suicide at the age of 33, two months after winning the Pulitzer Prize for Excellence in Photography. Han Chae-won is a South Korean actor and singer. On August 25, 2011, at four o'clock in the morning, she hanged herself at her home in Seoul, which caused a strong reaction not only in South Korea, but also in China.

Thoughts of suicide are generally accompanied by murderous conjectures, and Mr. Zhu Zhi is the same (hot-blooded men, bloody men, inevitably). It's like after I failed the technical school exam, I wanted to kill all the examiners and admissions before committing suicide. Another time, Mr. Zhu was entrusted to help a person he had never met, but in the end the matter was not completed, but he spent some money (fortunately it did not go through my hands), but this person asked me to get the money back, and threatened me to sue me to the court if I didn't get it back, (not much money, only 5,000 yuan, but do you know what it feels like to be threatened?) At that time I really wanted to stab him with a knife. In many cases, when I see some injustices, especially some corrupt officials, I fantasize that I am Robin Hood, a thief who kills the rich and helps the poor, and clicks the heads of those people, even thinking about it will give me a sense of pleasure (a friend who is a psychiatrist said that I have violent tendencies). Of course it didn't happen, otherwise Mr. Zhu Zhi would have been either killed today, or would have squatted in prison eating public dinner, how could he sigh here with air conditioning, drink hot tea, and write these masterpieces that may last for centuries?

Experts say that life is so long, there will always be too many unsatisfactory things, as the so-called "life is unsatisfactory things nine times out of ten", if you commit suicide because of a momentary setback, a person does not know that he will die tens of thousands of times, so it is most important to have a normal heart - it is really a toothache to stand and talk, Mr. Zhu Zhi's psychological quality is so good, the pressure is so strong, you can join any death squad, special forces, and people who are ranked in the whole Nanning City, there will be suicidal thoughts, not to mention those ordinary people? Then it's okay to use your thoughts, don't take it seriously. I think that when your friend is in trouble and depressed, give him some care and help - just like when Mr. Zhu Zhu was in pain because he had no silver flowers, you sent him so many 80,000 US dollars to let him spend his old man's flowers, just like Mr. Song Jiang in time; Or when Mr. Zhu is full of melancholy because he has no lover and decides to commit suicide, you immediately send ten or eight stunning beauties to comfort and comfort him, that is the best way and the best way to prevent suicide.

Similarly, in a person's life, it is inevitable that there will be some times when he is angry, angry and impulsive, if he can't control it, maybe like Ma Jiajue and Qiu Xinghua, he will lose his mind and pull out a knife to kill people. In fact, many homicide cases in life are caused by the disappearance of some chicken feathers. In rural areas, many homicides are caused by disputes over one or two village homesteads and one or two green vegetables. So, I've been telling myself that you can't do anything too much. "When you have to spare people, you should spare people", "Poor Kou Mo chases", "Dogs will jump off the wall when they are in a hurry", "Rabbits will bite when they are in a hurry", all of them are said to be this truth, I hope everyone understands (borrow money to Mr. Zhu Zhi's friends, you must remember that the next time you chase Mr. Zhu Zhi to repay the money, don't be too ruthless, lest he also jump off the wall in a hurry). "Thousands of miles of books are only for the wall, so what's the matter with letting him be three feet, the Great Wall is still there today, and I don't see Qin Shi Huang back then!" Sometimes, to forgive others is also to be lenient with yourself.