The news of Gu Shaoqing's engagement broke out at Gu Rulin's birthday dinner five days later, and it was none other than the classmate Fei Ying Shufei who told me that she liked him in the school some time ago. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

I remember that when I told my senior brother about this, he only smiled faintly as a joke, but I didn't expect that time would change, and in just over a month, Fei's wish would come true. To be honest, I don't hate Miss Fei, on the contrary, I like her straightforwardness and honesty. Now that the banter of the day has become a word, she has become the future grandmother of Ning Yuan in Mr. Gu's mouth, but I may be their future nominal "aunt".

My sister said that Mr. Gu had officially proposed to her, and the news that Gu Shaoqing and Fei Yingshu were going to get engaged was told to her by Gu Rulin.

For five days, I locked myself in my house all day, not answering anyone's phone calls or answering anyone's letters. Gu Shaoqing rushed back from Shanghai on the third day, and I sat on the quilt and listened to my sister tell me how he stood in the atrium and begged to see his father and mother, and how he waited for me to appear.

The wind blew from afar, and the sycamore outside the window was still standing there, covered with snow on the thick branches, like several gray and white dragons, and the ancient branches of the sycamore, shining with silver-gray light in the moonlight.

"Little sister, even if you don't see him, you should write a letter to him clearly. I know you're sad, but after all, this matter is the master of Rulin, isn't there still two days left before the birthday banquet? ”

I smiled bitterly, it is true that there are still two days before the feast, and I would rather not know anything at this time, and when that day really comes, maybe we can meet in these five days. Before leaving, he said that he would come to the embroidery building to look for me, but I didn't have time to tell him that I no longer lived in the embroidery building. Maybe this is missing, we always miss the best opportunity in the staggered time, from no confession to drifting away, like a dream that can't wake up.

"Sister, what's the point? It doesn't matter, I like Miss Fei very much, you know, she is Sister Fei's little sister, and she is also my classmate. I like her a lot, and ...... She and her brother are indeed talented and beautiful. ”

"Talented and beautiful?" My sister asked rhetorically, "You and Gu Shaoqing are also talented and beautiful, Ah Zhao, what do you think?" If you are sad, go to the lobby and ask him! ”

"What do you ask? Q: Our relationship was not favored from the beginning? Q: How about I be your aunt in the future? Sister, didn't you say that I still have a good time to meet more people? Now that I have solved the biggest problem between us, isn't the matter between you and Mr. Gu more natural, you should be happy. ”

"Ah Zhao, you ......" My sister was choked by me and couldn't speak, her heart was hot and cold, and she couldn't say anything for a while.

And I myself sat there in a daze after saying the last sentence, and it took me a long time to come to my senses: "Sister, I didn't mean that!"

"I know, who am I to say about you? Indeed, I am a beneficiary of this......"

A little girl tiptoed to deliver porridge, and when she saw that my sister and I didn't speak, she replied in a low voice: "Miss, my lord let you go." Mr. Gu sent an invitation to invite our family to his birthday party, and the master has agreed. ”

My sister glanced at me, threw the Yunying shirt she was holding on the hanger, got up and left. The knitted shirt was originally what she asked me to wear to see Gu Shaoqing, but at this time, she threw it on the hanger and hung it at random, and there was a kind of loneliness and despair for a moment. At least, my sister was right about one thing, I should have sent him a letter, not for anything else, but for me to love him.

After thinking silently for a while, he got up in his clothes, sat under the window and turned on the light, picked up the fountain pen and wrote with the pen.

Senior Brother:

I thought about it for many days and decided to write this letter to you, forgive me for not having the courage to see you, maybe from the beginning of that **** walk, our friendship and friendship are destined to end like this.

Separate, with what has been said and what has not yet been said. I know you have something to hide from me, and your mystery began when you met Master Min, maybe even earlier. I know that it is a dangerous but noble business, just as you and Seco have known each other in the East. For many days and nights, I lay on the delicate bed of the embroidery building and thought over and over again, such as "who are you?" over and over again, I was afraid, afraid of the shock after hearing the truth, and afraid of my own colicing feelings. The precedent of my sister and Brother Chengyun is there, my cowardice is so obvious, I am afraid of the dangerous whirlpool, afraid that it will lead you to a situation of no return...... But they can't stop you, and they can't pull your sleeves and keep you from leaving.

You and Shike are the same fighters, the hustle and bustle of society, the wind and rain of the country, I know that you are seeking a world that I can't reach. There is infinite freedom in that sea, there is the fragrance of flowers, and there is also endless hope and darkness. And I, destined to lower the sails in the bonds of family, refuse the temptation of the sea, and escape the lapping of the waves......

As I said, I've seen too many legends from ancient times and the West, and I'm no longer amazed at what happened in life.

But this is a slang, a slang of the arrogant and the cowardly. Actually, I was fragile, as fragile as a twilight wicker, unable to withstand any wind and rain.

So, I chose to leave and forget about our love.

Remember what I said last time? I heard that she got what she wanted, and that she was really engaged to you, should I be happy with your creation, or should I lament our fate? I admit that my body trembled after hearing the news, and I was also desperate for Mr. Gu's movements so fast, but I understood that our problem was not only between my sister and Mr. Gu, but also between me and you.

There were accidents one after another at home, and Han's mother almost poisoned people, I was arrested and taken to the police station, what happened next? Who knows what awaits me next?

I can't forget the long night I spent at the police station, but it was only an hour. The screams of women, the cries of despair, the darkness swallowed my firm will like a whirlpool, and it also made me feel endless fear. I trembled, I wanted to escape, flee far away, let the thick shade of the sycamores, the deep ancient mansion to shelter me, shelter my restless heart.

My grandmother wants me to be the master of my own marriage, so I love you unscrupulously and without remorse, but now, from this moment on, I will no longer let myself and give up my family, I want to fight back, I want to find out the bad people who have been hiding at home for many years to defend the Liu family, and this decision is no longer with your help. Yes, I'm afraid that the ochre robe incident will happen again, and I want you to live well in this world more than I love you, even if it comes at the cost of leaving you.

I said to my sister, I am willing to fulfill her and Mr. Gu, she is against it, she has spoken for you, she understands me, she will always be my good sister, so compared to her continuing to stay at home and bear the unknown future with us, I want her to get out, although I am aware that she also has a concealment that she has not told me, but compared to the fear of life, everything else is always not worth the life. So I don't want to explore the reason why my sister married her husband, I just hope you don't hold a grudge against her.

I'm sorry, but such a letter is sad, because I have ruined your time and place for the sake of my determination. So, I left this only purple letter—purple, the color of sorrow, melancholy, and tragedy that I love, is a symbol of our encounter in life.

Those joys and optimisms of youth have all gone away and dispersed in the helplessness of the world.

In the end, let me be willful again.

I love you, I love you like never before, but this love is destined to be a desperate bellflower, if we can leave desperately at that time, when everything has not happened, perhaps, we will have a different ending, right? It's a pity that there will be no ifs in a life destined to be damned!

So, I leave you as close to me as you are nearing me......

Rare words

The winter of the ninth year of the Republic of China