Yao Suixin was so excited that he didn't sleep well all night, and the image of Bao Dandan kept flashing in his mind, of course, the image of the flower-like girl thirteen years ago, because of the decision to break up with her on campus that time, Bao Dandan ran out of the campus in despair, and the back of the running was the last time he was frozen in his memory, and he didn't see it again for thirteen years. The reason why he suddenly remembered that Bao Dandan was thinking about the 120,000 compensation she received because her husband was killed.

After breakfast, Yao Suixin had no intention of going home, but told his brother and sister-in-law very tactfully that before going back, he was going to meet Bao Dandan.

The eldest brother Yao Suitian opened his eyes and thought for a while, and seemed to understand some mysteries: it seemed to be related to what he said last night about Bao Dandan's 120,000 compensation, and he gasped unconsciously, feeling that this younger brother was a bad person, and he began to have a bad impression of him, but it was not good to say anything.

Zhan Yanying was a little puzzled, and gradually her peach blossom eyes were filled with jealousy, and she asked in a long voice, "Why are you going to see her?" Do you still have an old affection for her? ”

"Hey, how could that be? Wouldn't I have married her in the first place? The main reason is that I feel sorry for people at the beginning, I haven't seen them for thirteen years, and I have to meet when I come back this time, and I have a mind to forget it! "Yao Suixin's reason for meeting is so far-fetched that the ghost will believe it.

Zhan Yanying squirmed her peach blossom eyes and said, "I can remind you that Bao Dandan is a widow right now." There are many rights and wrongs in front of the widow's door, and you have had that kind of relationship with her, and if you go to see her at this time, you will not get gossip. Don't go! ”

Yao Suixin pretended not to understand, and said: "It's okay, my feet are not afraid of crooked shoes, I just went to see her, and I don't have any crooked thoughts, are you afraid of what others will say?" In fact, he was thinking about Bao Dandan's crooked thoughts in his heart.

Zhan Yanying's little face suddenly fell cold, and she said angrily: "You are determined to go, then you can go, your legs are long on yourself, who can stop you?" What are we doing? After that, he no longer bothered with Yao Suixin.

Of course, Yao Suixin couldn't care so much, and he was thinking about Bao Dandan. Without looking back, he left his brother's house and went straight to Bao Dandan's house.

Bao Dandan's house is located in a place in the southeast corner of Tunzi, and it is a detached courtyard. Her deceased husband Ma Dakui is a native of Shandong, who has no relatives and no reason here, and Bao Dandan's parents married their daughter, who had lowered her value, to this man who was more than ten years older than her, just for the sake of others, and there was nothing to worry about.

Bao Dandan's house is a three-room adobe house with an asphalt paper roof, in the style of a pocket house with an open door at one end, the door is a painted pine door, and the windows are old-fashioned with two upper and lower windows, but the difference is that there is glass on the top and bottom. The courtyard is surrounded by a poplar fence, and the gate of a wooden fence is closed.

Yao stood apprehensively outside the wooden fence gate for a while, calmed down his thoughts, and made up his mind again before pushing the two wooden doors open.

The yard is very tidy, some items are stacked in an orderly manner, and it seems that Bao Dandan is still a woman who pays attention to cleanliness.

Yao Suixin's heart inevitably fluctuated at this moment, thirteen years later, what would that beautiful girl become now? What would it be like to see yourself suddenly coming? Is she confused or awake now?

He stood hesitantly for a moment in front of the outer door, but still mustered up the courage to open the door. Inside, there is the kitchen, and on both sides of the aisle are the stoves, which are also spotlessly clean. How could this be the home of a neurotic woman? Yao Suixin was muttering, it seems that Bao Dandan's illness will not be so serious.

Yao stood outside the door of the inner room for a long time, listening carefully to the movement inside. It was quiet inside, as if there were no voices. Even if there were people, it was as if they were sitting quietly alone. Didn't you say that Bao Dandan had a ten-year-old daughter? Why can't I hear the movement? Families with children are always vibrant, why is it quiet in the house?

Yao stood timidly outside the door of the inner room and stopped, and his mind inevitably remembered the situation in the budding rice field behind Tunzi thirteen years ago. It was a relatively stuffy space, and in the ditch under the shade of the green bud leaves, Bao Dandan's white and tender lower ~ naked ~ exposed. He climbed up desperately. He clearly heard a painful and happy moan ~ moan from Bao Dandan's throat, and the happiness of the soul at that moment cast him a sin he committed. But after the incident, Bao Dandan's face was shy and happy like a flower, and the place under him was also blooming with rose-colored flowers, which was a pure virgin ~ the dripping of female blood, which was also the real beginning of a girl's nightmare and sorrow...

If he hadn't abandoned her at that time, but married her, what would he be in now? Standing outside Bao Dandan's door, Yao casually issued such an inner question mark. But he knew there was no need for an answer because there was no if. At that time, he didn't even have the heart to marry her.

But what are you doing this time? Is it to hurt this poor woman a second time? He was a little overwhelmed for a moment. But when I thought of the alluring 120,000, that little bit of humanity was instantly overwhelmed by shameless greed.

He gritted his teeth and mustered up the courage to open the door to the back room.

Inside is a large room with two rooms open open, and a few simple pieces of furniture are placed against the wall. The two shops of the South Kang are separated by a wooden screen in the middle.

Yao came in and didn't have time to see more, and nervously searched for the owner of the house.

A woman in her thirties is sitting on the kang with her back against the wall of the kang, her legs stretched out, knitting a child's sweater in her hands, and two knitting needles are deftly and skillfully crossed and flipped on both hands.

The woman heard the door creak and a man entered, and she looked closely and was stunned, as if she had been enchanted by a dream.

At that moment, Yao Suixin met her gaze.

This woman is Bao Dandan. The image of the flower-like girl thirteen years ago is gone. But from the morphological point of view, the wonderful rhyme of a mature woman is still revealed everywhere. Although her gaze was a little dull and her face was a little haggard, the innate woman's luster still flashed on her oval face; Although she is a little rustic and bloated cotton clothes and pants, her naturally graceful body lines still can't be hidden, especially the outlines of the two bags on her chest are more upright and attractive than thirteen years ago.

Yao watched with dementia, the past and reality infinitely intertwined. He really wanted to find the image of the flower-like girl in this body that had become a housewife. Although the image of that girl is gone, the wonderful body of a mature woman still makes Yao Suixin's heart pound at that moment. It is also a special hobby for all women with a good figure.

The sweater knitted in Bao Dandan's hand unconsciously fell off onto the kang. In a state of both illusion and reality, the originally unstable nerves are also hovering in a half-clear and half-mixed state, and the unforgettable past of thirteen years ago is still vivid. At that moment, she was more chaotic, was this thirteen years ago or thirteen years later, now?

Suddenly, she went back thirteen years ago. "Whatever you want, has your college acceptance letter come down? Don't worry, you'll get in! ”

Yao looked at her in amazement, knowing that she was in a state of insanity. He could only open his mouth wide and look at him in surprise.

"Whatever you want, by the way, you're going to college tomorrow, do you have something to say about asking someone to come today? Do you mean that you will miss me every day when you go to college? ”

Yao Suixin faced the girl thirteen years ago in reality, his expression was embarrassed, and somewhere in his face was twitching.

"Whatever you want, you go to college, we can't see each other often, I think what do you do? You must write to me! You're going to write to me every week, can you do that? Bao Dandan's dull eyes really flashed with the expectation of thirteen years ago.

Yao looked at her blankly. Thirteen years ago, he was so dazed that he couldn't answer her question. The answer to this question has long since become a specimen. Yao casually entered the university gate, and he didn't send a word back to Bao Dandan for several months, but then Bao Dandan couldn't help it, so he went. But this time, the prelude to the tragedy was completely opened, but Yao Suixin gave her two lines of words in person: "Let's break up, you go home and find someone to marry!" It was these two lines of cruel words that completely shattered Bao Dandan's innocent dream, and he fell into the abyss all of a sudden, and he went crazy when he went back. And all this time, she was still horribly floating in that abyss.

"Whatever you want, are you coming back to see me this time?" Bao Dandan began to move his body, as if he was about to get off the kang.

Is this lucid or chaotic? Is it the past or the present? Yao looked at her casually, pondering the meaning of this sentence. He had to answer ambiguously: "Yes, I came to see you this time!" ”

Bao Dandan hurriedly got off the ground and grabbed Yao Suixin's hand. "Whatever you like, are you on college vacation, or have you finished college? Why do you have time to come and see me? Why don't you write to me? ”

Yao Suixin understood, she was still in confusion and chaos, and this time the words were still the product of reality and past chaos, there was no such thing before, but now it is, and the artistic conception is in the past. What if she keeps going out of this way? Didn't you come for nothing? In such chaos, planning is unattainable. It is said that when she is awake, she still takes up most of the time, and she must be stimulated to wake her up. So he began to get closer to reality, saying, "I've graduated from college, and I'm here to tell you something!" He held her hand like a swollen hedgehog, but the current was still very real.

"Are you back to marry me?" Bao Dandan clenched his hand excitedly, and his tone was rapid.

"Quite the opposite. I'm here to break up with you! Yao said coldly. After that, he repeated the words of thirteen years ago, "Let's break up, you go back to find someone to marry, it's impossible for us!" ”

Returning to the edge of the abyss, Bao Dandan's eyes suddenly despaired, and he looked at him in horror. At that moment, she was stimulated to wake up from her confusion.

Bao Dandan, who had recovered his normal thinking, did not dare to confirm that the man in front of him was Yao Suixin, who had not been heard from for thirteen years. Seeing that his hand was still in his hand, he hurriedly withdrew his hand as if he had been stung by a scorpion, looked at him with a stunned look in his eyes, and said for a long time: "You... Why did you come to my house? ”

"Dandan, I'm here to see you!" Yao Suixin stood across from her at close range, his eyes fixed on her.

"Coming to see me?" Bao Dandan's face was full of indifference and doubt. "Why are you coming to see me? Do I need you to see it? Will you still remember me? ”

"Dandan, I know you've had a bad time all these years, I'm guilty and worried, I've always wanted to come to see you, but I haven't had a chance, I finally have time this winter!"

"I'm doing well, there's nothing bad about it, whoever leaves will live just as well. Besides, even if I'm not doing well, does it have anything to do with you? Do you need to worry about it? Bao Dandan's tone was as cold as this cold winter climate, but the sadness in his eyes could not be concealed.

"Of course it has something to do with me, I was sorry for you in the first place. I know that all the hardships and pains you have experienced have been caused by me, and I cannot escape my sins, and I have come here to make amends to you! Yao Suixin showed a distressed expression.

"I've forgotten everything in the past, I don't need anyone to accompany me anymore, you go, I don't want to see you!" Bao Dandan said, and sat back on the edge of the kang with a gloomy expression.

"Dandan, I know you'll never forgive me. I'm not in a position to ask for your forgiveness. To put it simply, it is too light to make amends, I came mainly to see you this time, and I also want to say to you: I was wrong, I abandoned you to marry someone else, it was a big mistake, and it will be the regret of my life! Dandan, I can't regret it! ”

A dark light of resentment flashed in Bao Dandan's beautiful but dull eyes. "Does it make sense to say something like that? What's wrong with you? You are a college student, you are the pride of the sky, everything you have should be in the city, and I, just a country girl who hasn't even finished junior high school, is not worthy of you at all. Your choice is not wrong, your wife should be a noble princess in the city, you should not regret it, you should live a hundred times happier than anyone else, what else do you have to regret? ”

"Dandan, look at the way I look now, will I be a happy man? Maybe I'm even worse than you right now! Yao sat down beside her with a miserable face, lit a cigarette, and smoked slowly, through the smoke, he squinted at Bao Dandan next to him.

Bao Dandan looked at him sideways in surprise, and said with a mixture of confusion and sarcasm: "Will you be unlucky?" You shouldn't have any misfortune, right? Because you know how to give misfortune to others! ”

"Well, I'll just tell you about my misfortune briefly. My wife betrayed me and reconciled with someone else, just like I did when I left you behind. When we have the opportunity to go back this time, we should get a divorce. Now I've lost my job, I've hurt people, and I'm afraid to go back to that place. I'm now a veritable bereavement dog, and I'm homeless. At this time, I remembered the hometown where I was born and raised, and only the land of my hometown will not dislike me and can take me in. ”

Bao Dandan looked at him carefully for a while, pondered for a while, and said, "So, in such a situation, you also think of me again?" Remembered to tell me this again? Do you want me to sympathize with you, or do you want me to forgive you? ”