There will be many mistakes in life that we can't make up, and the so-called mistakes, once they make mistakes, they are the lack of eternal will.

We don't know what the possible outcome of each miss would have been if it hadn't happened, and therefore, we will never know what kind of brilliance the person who had missed might have brought us.

In the silent corridor, Shang Xinyu's originally indifferent voice was calmer to the extreme, and it sounded a little unreal, "I know you loved Zuoxi, if you love him because you met him first, but what about Si Tianzhe, obviously I met you first......

The meaning of the words itself tightened my heart.

"Perhaps, not attending that award ceremony has really become a regret that I will never make up, regretting why I didn't catch you in advance. I often wonder if I had gone to the awards back then, or, in those years when it was still too late, the intersection of our lives was a little bit more, so that you remembered me, wouldn't today's ending be different? ”

"Shang Jingyi......" Under his light voice, I couldn't help but feel sad, and I wanted to comfort something, but I couldn't say any words other than that.

"Or, the ending won't change in any way......" he chuckled softly to himself, but with some sadness, "fate really likes to joke, always puts me and you in opposing roles, constantly fighting and fighting, making you hate me." The first conflict, then the competition in the drawing competition, and later, the business marriage that you avoided and avoided...... You know, Ruori, after you ran away from marriage, I really hated you. ”

"Really?" I replied softly.

"At first, I thought I hated you because of the shame you brought me, but it wasn't until later that I gradually found out, in fact, because I was unwilling...... I am unwilling to notice you in the morning, but you have repeatedly turned a blind eye to me; I am not willing to be able to walk freely with all women, but you are an exception...... As I said, there are very few girls who don't remember me, but you ...... We didn't even recognize me when we first met two years after you fled, until I gave my name. He chuckled, with a slight self-deprecation, "Ruori, I don't understand, is it possible that I have appeared in front of you several times, and my appearance is not as impressive as the name Ian Stewart brings you?" ”

I listened to the feelings he had never revealed, and my heart seemed to have been opened, and I continued to pour into a thick sadness.

After a moment of silence, his tone calmed down, "Because I am unwilling, I must find you, and then take you away under the heavy protection of Zuoxi and Si Tianzhe." I didn't understand it then, thinking that I was only doing this to punish Zosi and you...... It wasn't until you left my life again, and disappeared for a year, that I gradually sorted out all my actions--I think I would like to spend more than two years of time and energy doing such a boring thing, and even keep sending you flowers to remind me of my existence, in fact, for you, from beginning to end, just so that your eyes stay on me for even a few more moments......"

"Funny, right?" There was a smile in his voice, but it sounded more and more poignant, "A series of actions for this reason have made the confrontation between you and me more and more acute. ”

"Until a year later, I found you, at this time, what you need is no longer the so-called love, you disguise yourself with deeper indifference, I know, what you want is complete peace. I thought, if not saying anything would bring me closer to you, I'd like to wait. There's no need to do anything deliberately, and spending time with you is a pleasure in itself. ”

Looking up from his chest, with a few tears in his eyes, I shook my head—and yet, just shaking my head, I didn't know what I was denying. Maybe I don't think I deserve it, maybe I just want to tell him that in the back of my heart, I never really wanted to go against him.

However, I couldn't say a word.

"Little princess, don't cry." He smiled, rubbing the back of his hand against my cheek, "I remember when I first met you, you were so dazzling, as if the light of the whole world was at your feet. You can come to me for a reason, fight with me, or stand on the high-profile arena and draw such colorful sunflowers...... You don't understand, that dazzling light is something I've never seen before, and it was you who almost shone on my life in the dark and forbearant days when I first arrived at the Stewart family. ”

Tears almost overflowed, I hurriedly lowered my eyelids and chuckled, "I'm afraid, I'm not the sunflower I used to be, and I'm not the dazzling little princess I used to be." ”

He shook his head gently, "Remember that bottle of perfume?" You said that the mixture of rose and woody fragrance tastes elegant and distant, but in fact, in my heart, you are like this now, fading away from the dazzling sharpness of the past, becoming beautiful and elegant, indifferent and distant, but never losing the dazzling light, this kind of light, not the previous sharpness, but people feel attracted, so ......"

He lowered his head and lightly imprinted a kiss on my forehead, "My little princess, you can keep the way you are, and never change." ”

The eyes were closed, and there were two lines of teardrops.

However, it is only about wrongdoing, not about love.

I admit that after these days of getting along, he, both for me and for Nik, has become a part of us that we don't want or lack, but he and I missed the heartbeat in the previous years, and it was a lifetime to be wrong.

He understands, I think.

It was because he never spoke.

"That's right." He smiled lightly, grabbed my shoulders, and looked serious, "I have something to tell you, remember the other day when I went to the sunflower field?" In fact, Si Tianzhe already knew before we went, but he didn't go to you in advance, and he didn't stop me from going with you, I think he was giving you a chance to make a fair choice and also giving me a chance to compete fairly. ”

I was stunned for a moment, and I didn't understand what the strange feeling suddenly hit me was for.

"Little princess," he said, stretching out his hand, smiling and rubbing my hair, with a softness and warmth in his eyes that I had never seen before, "I wish you happiness." ”

Immediately, he turned away, and the bright gaze seemed to be still glued to me, and he never left.

Looking at his back, I gradually smiled.

Thank you, Shang Jingyi, for treating me as a reward of fate.