Wu Feng's panicked appearance seemed serious, but my heart was already dead and couldn't be saved. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

I thought that this marriage would end in perfect harmony as he said, but I never expected that all the storms were brought to me by him.

Wu Feng said: "When you take care of this month, we will talk about something else." I'm not going anywhere this month, I'm just at home with you! ”

"Don't, Mr. Wu, I can't stand it, really. Are you sympathizing with me? Do you sympathize with my loss of a child? Or do you feel guilty and blame yourself? Not necessarily, really. I'm just one of your many women, and if you lose me, there will be a lot of beautiful girls who will stick to you. Stop playing with me here! I'm so tired, please let me go, okay? ”

"Do you think my heart is comfortable?"

"Are you uncomfortable? Isn't it comfortable for you to steal fish outside and toss me at home? Now that you've killed my child with your own hands, are you satisfied? Can you go? Get out! I don't want to see you! Get out..."

My heart-rending cries echoed throughout the corridors of the hospital. He stood there and looked at me with red eyes. Xiao Ke silently exited the ward and closed the door, leaving him and me alone in the ward.

He took a tentative step forward, and I subconsciously curled up. He said in a hoarse voice, "Can I hug you, wife?" ”

I hugged myself, Wu Feng in front of me made me very frightened, just now he was like an irrational beast, he deprived me of everything like a demon.

"Go away, don't touch me!"

"Wife... I was wrong... Don't do that..."

"What about me? I want to thank you for giving me back my freedom? Or do you want to congratulate you and me on a happy breakup? ”

"When you calm down, when you get well, we can have another child."

"What are you thinking? Do you think it's a play house? Do you think that if you hurt me, I will be so low as to lie on top of you and serve you, please give me a magical seed? Wu Feng, I hate you! ”

"I'll invite the best confinement lady for you, and I'll take you on a trip when you're well..."

"Enough! You're used to using money to get everything done, right? Are you in the habit of using the same tricks you do to other women against me? Do you feel like I'll take it? ”

His voice became more and more hoarse, his eyes became more and more red, and he said: "I don't know why it's like this, I know that money can't handle you, but what can I do, I know you hate me so much, but I don't want to lose you, I don't want you to leave me, but what else can I do to keep you... I really don't have any other women besides you, and I don't understand why Tingting did this today. I know you won't believe anything I say now! But Gu Ningdai, I love you, I really love you, you should know better than anyone..."

"I don't want to hear it, I'm really tired, please let me go. When my body recovered from the full moon, we went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to change Ben... Don't talk, I'm really sleepy..."

Actually, my memory is very bad, some people have seen it a few times, and I can't even remember their faces. But I remember everything Wu Feng said, so I had a very peculiar dream. This dream is all his voice, and everything he has said to me in the past two years is in this dream. I laughed happily in my dream, and I shouted at his figure: "Brother Feng, I love you!" "But I don't know why, but my body hurts, especially my heart! I saw him standing in the sun wearing a white shirt, and I said to him, "If I really can, I want to go back to my original age, the first time I met you, under the sun, I will hold your hand without hesitation, and I will follow you without looking back." He smiled in his dream and picked up my wind-blown hair and said, "It's okay, it doesn't matter where I appear, the important thing is that I will marry you sooner or later!" ”

When I woke up, the sun outside was shining on the white snow and ice, and the light was refracted onto the white curtains of the hospital room.

Wu Feng was lying on the side of the bed and hadn't woken up yet, but I turned over slightly and still startled him.

"You woke up wife?!"

"Hmm!"

"What do you want to eat? I'll buy it for you! ”

"No appetite! Thank you! ”

"The doctor said that they could be discharged from the hospital tomorrow, and the confinement lady was already in place, so I told them to buy a lot of supplements..."

"Thank you!"

“…… Dai, give me one more chance, let's start over, okay? ”

"Wu Feng, do you think you can do it all over again? So what is my hollowed-out heart? ”

"Together, we can relive the past, and if you don't like to go back, then let me chase you again, and I promise not to let you suffer the slightest bit of wind and rain. All the assistants around me have been replaced by men, and the club has also been managed, so I don't have to go to the club every day..."

"So what......" I interrupted him mercilessly, "do you think that this will remedy the grievances and tramplings I have suffered?" ”

"You have been wronged so much, I want to spend the rest of my life to pay you back. So, are we going to make it well? ”

"Wu Feng, you don't agree to the divorce, do you?"

"I said, in this life, I only have you, only marry you, and only spoil you!"

"It's okay, after the full moon, I'll go to Paris to study fashion design. This goal has been stranded since you have been stranded until now. Now there will be a chance to make it happen. Doesn't it mean that you can apply for divorce after half a year of separation? That's just right, it doesn't matter if you don't agree! ”

"Xiao Dai, I really don't have anything to do with other women, and I still don't understand the purpose of Tingting's doing that last night..."

"Enough Wu Feng, I don't care what kind of relationship you have with whom! It doesn't matter, what does it matter, at best, it only proves the truth of what you said to me, but you caused me to lose my child, which is enough to prove that you are a madman! ”

"Gu Ningdai, more than you, I want to have a child with you that belongs to both of us... If I had known you were pregnant, I would have rather die myself than lose my mind and do such a thing to you..."

"I hate myself more than you. I hate myself, naïve, ignorant, but not ruthless. If I can be like you, I can say that a damage is light and light, like operating the wheel of fate, shouting to stop if you want to stop, and saying to start again if you want to start again. How nice that would be..."

From youth to strangeness, from innocence to no one trusts from now on...

I was discharged from the hospital, and he stayed by my side every day. I watched comedies, and he never deliberately turned bad into horror again. I went to the bathroom and never grabbed it with me again. Even when I was in the shower, he accidentally pushed the door in, and he would exit very gentlemanly to help me close the bathroom door. He will still watch TV with us, and he has never changed to Xiao Xuan'er, but I am a little stranger to him.

It was as if we had been enchanted, and overnight, I was without the prince who wore the crystal slipper. No deep kiss before goodnight. Lost the way he smiled at me in the morning. He became unusually cautious around me every moment, and the more he was like this, the more strange I felt...

Those good memories with him seem to be reflections in dreams.

It is indeed not easy to run a marriage, two people who love each other are either happy or hurt each other, and there is no reason why you are alone in getting hurt.

This night, before the wedding, he used a place for me, I still wore that suspender lace pajamas to the first floor to drink, and he still sat cross-legged on the mat in front of the TV and played games like that night. Time seems to have been restored to the day before the wedding. He looked back at me as well, and I avoided his gaze, and he suddenly stopped talking. There is nothing wrong with the time and place, what is wrong is that the characters do not want to continue the original plot. I deliberately distanced myself and seemed to be a little overwhelmed.

I put down the cup and was about to go back to the upstairs bedroom to rest, when he suddenly said, "Do you still sleep with Xiao Xuan'er tonight?" Without you by my side, every night would be a sleepless night..."

"You'll get used to it later."

"Xiao Dai, you asked me that day, what is the thing I am most afraid of, I want to tell you now, what I am most afraid of is losing you..."

"Habit is terrible, getting used to being alone is even more terrible... So let's not use this habit as an indispensable excuse to perfunctory each other... The touching love words you said are very beautiful. But now all I have left is my ears, and I have no heart..."

He walked up to me, looked at me sadly, and said, "I can't guess what fate is trying to play on me... But I know that this place in my heart will always belong to you alone, and you don't need to know my deep affection... If you want to go, you can leave, and if you want to come back, this home will always be yours. I'm yours too. If you want to go to Paris, go ahead, don't bear it when you need me, I can go to Paris at any time to pick you up in the rain on a rainy day. Don't force yourself when you meet bad guys, I'm not by your side and no one protects you, shout when you can ask for help, and don't be weak when you can run away. When you are sick, take a taxi to the hospital by yourself, don't rely on me to take medicine unconsciously like by my side, and take care of yourself without my supervision. Don't get used to being lonely, get used to being strong, and don't tell others if you are wronged. As long as you look for me, rain or shine. ”

I am very wronged, I know that he has too many good, I can't say why I love him now, but I know that he is the reason why I don't love others in the future. However, how many steps do we have to give to each other to let the two of us feel at ease with each other?

Sometimes, it's inexplicable to be stunned, inexplicable to want to cry, inexplicable to miss, and even the reason to love someone is inexplicable. Love is something that originally came inexplicably, but it's a pity that we always meet inexplicably, start inexplicably, miss inexplicably, and goodbye inexplicably...

He continued with red eyes: "I don't want you to go, but I know your temperament, if you want to leave, no one can keep you." I'm afraid that one day I won't find you. Speaking of which, I'm selfish, I'm just afraid that after you leave, there will be no one like you in this world! ”

I pretended to be painless in front of him, turned around and went back to the bedroom to cry. I found a message to Xiao Ke, and I said, my heart aches.

"You go to the attic and turn up the volume of the music player to the maximum, so that when you cry out loud, no one will find out that you are crying," she said. ”

I stammered and spoke in fits and starts. I said, "When I saw him sad just now, I almost didn't hold back my tears... I want to hug him and cry... I want to tell him I really love him... But if I forgive him like this, then what is my grievance? I wish he had hugged me as tightly as he had done before, and made me feel his heartbeat and his temperature... Even if it's fake, it's enough to revive my heart... But he didn't..."

"I heard that tomorrow it will be minus 8 degrees Celsius, I will accompany you to put on short sleeves and go to the ice and snow for a walk, and we will re-understand life! What regrets, what nostalgia, it's all! ”

"There are still a few days... I'm going to Paris. During this period, Xiao Xuan'er will be taken care of by Gong Xiaoyi, and when we get there, we won't be able to talk freely like now, you all have to take care of yourself..."

As the day of my flight to Paris approached, I began to pack my belongings. When the clothes in the closet are stuffed into the suitcase little by little, and only his clothes are left in the huge closet, the gap is really disappointing.

He stood behind me and watched the clothes in the closet dwindle dwindle, and he asked me, "Are you going to come back?" ”

I paused and said, "When despair believes in fate, there is no more winning or losing in this game..."

Before leaving, I stayed up all night writing a letter to him, densely covered with a whole sheet of letterhead... Before leaving, I took off my wedding ring and placed it in the letter. He didn't know when I was leaving, so I left while he was out at work...

Gong Xiaoyi came to pick up Xuan'er and took me to the airport by the way, and on the way he said: "Many things are not up to you, and the best choice is to go with the flow." ”

"I know, that's why I'm going to Paris. It's mine, and sooner or later it will come to me. It's not mine, I don't force it. ”

"A man's greatest failure is to give up the opportunity to make a woman laugh at him to someone else. Everyone who doesn't know how to love will meet someone who understands love, and then experience a heart-rending love, and then separate. Later, people who don't know how to love slowly understand, and those who know love don't dare to love anymore. ”

"Let's ask, when the love in the world turns around gorgeously, how many people can revisit the old feast with an open mind?"

"What you have always admired is love... For so many years, you have been living in love, not in life... After all this, you still haven't figured out the values of marriage and love! What men care about is whether the two of them can stay together, and there may be one or two episodes that make you women very unhappy, but in men's hearts, toys are toys after all, and wives will always be wives..."

"If the body is not faithful, how pure can the soul be? Gong Xiaoyi, do you know how annoying your fallacy makes me? ”

"In the past, we also tried our best to love, to keep, to run-in. Later, we were inexplicably estranged and made mistakes, sometimes it was not that we didn't love each other, but that we couldn't find an opening to get back together. ”

"You mean I'm not generous enough! Should it be? ”

"What's in the world that can't be passed with one eye turned a blind eye?"

"In this world, everything can be compromised, but marriage cannot be compromised. Because I don't just want a marriage certificate, I want the kind of life where we can respect each other after marriage. Marriage needs to be run for decades, and I can't just keep it on my own. If my man makes a mistake, I either go and change him or I leave him. Marriage should be, rather be lonely than compromised. For a woman like me who is not short of money, I can buy bread and milk myself, I just need love! If Mr. Gong is dissatisfied with me, you can tell me directly, anyway, I'm such a dead person, if you don't say it now, don't blame me if you are suffocated! ”

“… I didn't expect you to change, I was just talking to you about how I felt in my heart! ”

"You are only suitable to find a woman who only wants your material things and not other aspects of you to live your life! Having said this, I think about it now, you will feel sneered, I didn't want you at that time, your ability was limited to giving me love, and then you had a mansion and a luxury car, and I couldn't wait to include all the women in the world in the harem, which god gave you the courage to make you forget your roots? Do you know how disgusting it is for a man who can be changed by money and power? ”

"That's thinking too much. I really only had that once! ”

"Do you love her, then?"

"I've only loved you!"

"I don't love her, you tmd still sleep with her, it's really disgusting!"

“……”

I didn't want to talk to this man for a moment. Sometimes I really don't understand how many equal parts a man's heart and body can be divided!

I suddenly remembered a crazy sentence in the circle of friends a while ago: Men often regret not having a relationship with a woman, and women often regret having a relationship with a man.

I don't understand, how can I be embarrassed to sleep together if I don't love it?

When I got to the airport, I said, "Don't get out of the car, I hate it when anyone sees my back as I leave." Take care of Xiao Xuan'er, and if you are on a business trip, you can send her to my dad. She was about to go on summer vacation, and I told my dad to wait for Xiao Xuan'er to take her to Paris to find me during the summer vacation. So, even if I leave, she will follow you, and it won't delay you to pick up girls! ”

He was about to speak, but I waved my hand to stop, and I said, "That's it! Just send it here! I left him with a very dashing back, waved my hand behind him, and didn't look back.

I only brought one suitcase on board. The rest was moved back to my own house. Wu Feng and I didn't leave anything that belonged to me in the same home.

Before I went out, I put the real estate deed, marriage deed, car keys and house keys on the table in my bedroom. I was the only one on the property deed we shared, and I was the owner of the sports car he gave me, and he used to say that if he changed his mind, he would have nothing. How could I give him nothing... It's his, and I'll give it back to him.

I once read a book and there is a classic sentence that says: The best mentality in love is that everything I give is a willingness, and I will never mention it. I would be very grateful if you would reciprocate. If you are indifferent, I will not be discouraged. Until one day I don't want to love you like this, then let us be separated and happy!

I don't know how he would feel when he saw the letter and the shiny diamond ring, but I finished it crying.

When I pulled my suitcase and left, I looked back, all the memories of this home are still there, vivid, the corners of my mouth are very sweet, but my heart is very bitter...

The letter said――――――

Brother Feng, in addition to using a pen when I sign, I haven't written so many words with a pen for a long time, please don't complain about my font, it doesn't matter, the important thing is that this is the first time and the last time I will write to you.

Before I lifted the pen, I had accumulated a thousand words in my heart, but I didn't know how to open my mouth when the words came to my mouth.

Shouldn't we toast the past with a glass of wine? To make an irony of the freedom we are about to get...

You once asked me when I fell in love with you, and I lied... Actually, I fell in love with you at first sight when you first appeared and bought my house...

I was thinking, how can there be such a good-looking man...

I know that the rice I cook is very delicious, how could Xiao Xuan'er not eat it if it is delicious. I'm really sorry, Brother Feng, for letting you eat the dark food for so long. I'm going to force you to eat it all...

Don't eat late-night snacks in the future... Otherwise, your abs will be in vain... If you're hungry in the evening, go to the fridge to find a bottle of yogurt or an apple. I told my aunt at home, I told her to make sure there was plenty of yogurt and fruit in the fridge... Because I know you're going to be hungry at night... But it is impossible for an aunt to come home at night to take care of her grandson and stay to help you cook supper.

Brother Feng, I know you haven't changed... Because the way you look at me never changes.

But you know what? I knew I was so happy when I was pregnant. I especially look forward to seeing how happy you will be when I share this joy with you. I'm also looking forward to the scene where I go hand in hand with you with a big belly to buy baby products... But all of this is gone... That's right, you're the one who did all this...

But Brother Feng, I believe you love me... But so what......

Life may be like this, those who say they can't give up in their lives have given up, those who can't be lost can't be found, and the people who say they love have gone away.

Brother Feng, may we be well with each other in the years to come...

After getting off the plane, I wandered around the streets of Paris in winter with my suitcase.

Paris preserves so much of me and him, and there is an old tattoo parlor in that old alley, and the smiling face on his chest is fixed in this shop.

I still remember my dad and Xiao Xuan'er's disgusted faces that couldn't accept his chest tattoos, and I still remember him saying that he felt good... I remember him asking me if I knew about Wild Roses in Paris, and I remember the café at the end of the tattoo parlor...

But after all, I said I'm sorry... Or left the good in those two years...