While she was asleep, I quietly got up and went to the bathroom. The rose petals in the tub were thick and covered my body like a quilt.

I closed my eyes, put on my mask, and enjoyed the misty water vapor in the bathroom.

This feeling is the kind of feeling I used to go to the large bathhouse full of water vapor with my mother when I was a child.

In fact, it's not that time flies, but that you run too fast. When I was a child, I always wanted to sleep like an adult. So we can't wait to grow. Later, when we finally woke up, we found that we had grown up, and we had no hesitation to abandon our childhood, and we could never go back. So we began to miss in our dreams. Panicked in reality, indifferent in memory.

Maybe it's because I've been soaking for too long and I'm tired, and I'm accompanied by the occasional low sound of water droplets. Slowly, let out a long breath.

I was indulging in my own movie, and An Xiaoke's voice came from the monitor: "Sister Dai, open the door!" ”

I opened my eyes suddenly: Xiao Ke? Isn't she supposed to be in Hengdian?

I quickly wrapped my towel around and went to open the door.

The second An Xiaoke saw me, his face was full of profoundness.

My wet hair soaked my shoulder, and I was stunned for a moment: "Why are you here?" ”

An Xiaoke, 25 years old, I am 11 days older than her.

met her in the crew in Hengdian, and she was turned away by the assistant director as an extra, and the specific process can be omitted.

Afterwards, I introduced her to my set, and she made the transition from an unreliable extras to a supporting role, and then sublimated again and again.

I lazily leaned back on the sofa and looked at An Xiaoke: "Aren't you going to film?" ”

"Didn't I hear that Xiao Xuan'er was injured! You say I don't come to see how you can rest assured? She glanced at me casually: "Xiao Xuan'er is asleep?" ”

"An Xiaoke, are you crazy? Your position in the crew has finally stabilized, and you don't want to die if you leave your job and run over? If you don't sign a contract, there is no liquidated damages? ”

She knew that I was more serious, and she was quiet for a while before she dared to tell me: "Sister, I don't want to do it, I want to come back to take care of Xiao Xuan'er." ”

"What's wrong? Someone on the crew bullied you? "An Xiaoke's abnormality was a wake-up call for me, and I examined her abnormality.

"I just don't want to do it." She replied to me in a hesitant manner.

I don't want to go on, she must have her own reasons. Even if you know the truth, it's better to leave it like this.

It is indeed not easy for her to be a helpless girl in the crew, and there are depth charges buried everywhere in the film and television industry.

"If you don't dislike it, follow me, I'll call next door and ask if his house is still rented. But before I do that, can I go take a shower?"

Follow the instructions to the landlord next door to pick up the keys and pay the rent by the way.

When I came back, it was rush hour, and my car was stuck not far from a barbecue restaurant, and I was bored knocking on the steering wheel and looking around, the traffic jam was like cardiovascular and cerebrovascular paralysis.

I was finally waiting for the road ahead to clear a little, but my limbs short-circuited. The picture that greeted me was so beautiful that I really didn't dare to look at it.

I remember the first chapter of Bao Jingjing's 33 days of broken love, and the moment I saw my girlfriend and boyfriend trying perfume in Xintiandi, I felt that the world was spinning, and the word was so appropriate.

It's like I feel the same way I see Hu Xiaodong and Jin Xiaoya walking into the barbecue restaurant together.

That man should be by my side at this moment, because I listened to his love words and accepted his confession.

I don't want to think about it, I immediately sobered up, maybe, these love words were just pasted on my body, nothing more.

Well, you're not a fuel-efficient lamp, and your sister isn't someone to mess with. I'm going to find out what kind of mentality is that binds you two disgusting people together.

I slammed the door on, and the car behind me honked.

Someone yelled at me, "You're sick!" Let's go, you! ”

I did have a sickness, and I was forced to do so by God, a good screenwriter. I was exhausted by the unspoken rules of the plot.

I want to ask him, and I want to ask myself, are we too young to assert ourselves, or are we too weak to stand up to gossip.

I turned my back on the hustle and bustle behind me, and I was faced with the unknown, and I didn't know if I was qualified to question if I was qualified. So, as soon as I walked to the barbecue stand, I hesitated.

There was anger in his heart, and he didn't have the proper identity to yell and make a fuss.

The barbecue master turned his face to me and asked, "Girl, what are you eating?" ”

I shook my head and turned to walk away.

"Huh? Don't eat you! The barbecue master's blank doubts sounded behind me.

This is not considered a desert escape, I only know that the world at this moment is a silent speech in my ears.

I pulled the door open and got into the car, and the car parked behind me honked impatiently.

Someone lowered the window and yelled at me, "You're sick!" Driving a Land Rover is amazing, isn't it? "I don't remember how I drove the car home, but I knew that on every road I crossed, someone was impatiently honking at me. I sat down on the sofa and listened expressionlessly to Chen Hao on the other end of the phone and said to me, "Let's go to your place to see Xiao Xuan'er." ”

I didn't have time to listen to her say, "Come on, I'm at home." ”

I sat absentmindedly in front of the sofa with the remote control and kept changing the channel, Xiao Xuan'er protested loudly: "My feet are like this, why don't you stop?" My sister and I want to watch cartoons. She snatched the remote control.

Without the remote control, I instantly fell into decline, Chen Hao looked at me: "What's the matter?" ”

I turned my face to look at her slowly, and Chen Hao's daughter saw that I was in a state of wanting to speak, so she hurriedly grabbed the word and shouted at Xiao Xuan'er: "Don't you have a father at home?" ”

Xiao Xuan'er dangled her feet in a plaster cast, and yelled at Chen Hao's child with an excited face: "If you don't know, don't say anything." My two dads! One is called Gong Xiaoyi and the other is Hu Xiaodong. ”

My sluggish spirit instantly grew: "What nonsense are you talking about, Xiao Xuan'er." ”

Xiao Xuan'er pouted: "That's it!" ”

Chen Hao's daughter relentlessly said: "You know bragging, then you call your father." I'll hear if you really have a dad. ”

Xiao Xuan'er stalked her head seriously: "Then let me ask you, can only a mother give birth to us without a father?" "Chen Hao and I are busy watching this war without gunpowder, the child's world should not be like this, but we can't stop this serious contest at all, I can only watch Xiao Xuan'er pick up the mobile phone and skillfully dial Gong Xiaoyi's number: "Dad, there is a child who said that I don't have a father, when will you come, let her see if I have a father." ”

"Dad is working overtime, you ask Mommy if she wants Dad to come home."

There was nothing unusual on the other end of the phone, as if there had never been an incompleteness between me and him.

Should I thank him for his friendship or should I refute his fakes.

"I don't care if Mommy wants it or not, anyway, Xiao Xuan'er wants Dad to come home." Before I heard Xiao Xuan'er's words, my heart was always on the edge of a knife.

She is a sensible child, an angel given to me by God. But we have pushed her into darkness, and she has to forgive us for our uneasiness all the time. I love her, but she doesn't love me as much.

My eyes glazed over, and I couldn't react.

Chen Hao's baby fell into a mess in an instant, she shouted for Chen Hao to help her find her father, Chen Hao had no choice but to quietly go to the side and dial the phone and whispered: "Do me a favor, my daughter wants to find her father, can you pretend to be it." ”

I want to say that after this phone call, my heart was like a knife, Chen Hao's baby happily flashed into the phone and kept saying with tears: "Dad, Dad, when are you coming back?" Are you working overtime like Xiao Xuan'er's father? ”

There was a trembling response from the other end of the megaphone, and the man choked up and replied, "Yes, Daddy is working overtime." But Dad promises to go back and see how you are?! ”

I burst into tears in an instant, Chen Hao too, and so did the fake father on the other end of the phone.

Marriage is like a round mirror, but our divorce is incomplete to whom.

We are mothers, especially single mothers like us, love or something is really worthless compared to children.

Late at night, I received a text message from Gong Xiaoyi, and he asked me, "If it's still too late, can you slow down and wait for me." ”

"Wait? Gong Xiaoyi, there is nothing to take for granted between people. Your obligations are fulfilled, but is there really that much between me and you? ”

After this message was sent, he didn't reply to me.

Eight years ago today, I thought that I would get eternity between me and him, but what I thought became what I thought after all.

I quietly got up and went to the study, and rummaged through the bookcases before I found the diary in the most hidden place.

I carefully flipped through my memories with Gong Xiaoyi. I suddenly found that in the world of a long time ago, I was his only one, and I was his all.

But is the heroine in this diary really Gu Ningdai? I kept asking myself.

But the answer is always crueler than dreams, such a time is accompanied by such an ending, I would rather the protagonist of this diary is not me.

But putting aside the emotional entanglement, I want to ask everyone, what did my child do wrong? What should I do to repay the happiness I owe her?