13. Regret and sorrow

At eight o'clock in the evening, the cold wind in the park was raging, making the already cold winter more and more shivering, obviously, it was cold on this big night, who had nothing to come out to blow the cold wind, so the park was almost silent.

Under the yellowish street lamp, there was a faint white mist around the light, and under the street lamp, a long figure stood motionless, obviously wearing a thick down jacket, but it did not look bloated at all, but showed his slender straight long legs to the fullest. I saw him raise his hand to look at his watch from time to time, as if he was waiting for someone.

It was too early, the president stared at the watch on his wrist, half past seven, the sky was still slightly white and not completely dark, what should I do?

I have been struggling with this matter for the past few days, especially today, that kind of anxious mood is simply a torment, wanting to retreat but faintly looking forward to it, all kinds of contradictions are mixed. Will a suit and coat look too mature and old? Casual or sporty, will it look tender? Down? Will it be bloated and ugly, it is the first time in his life that the president cares so much about what he wears. What did you say when you met? What will he say? How do you answer yourself? The president took a deep breath, and until he stood here, he was still struggling with these things.

There were still ten minutes, and there was a feeling that I wasn't ready. Hands and feet become stiff because they haven't moved for a long time, or maybe it's because they're nervous. The president looked in the direction of the door, could it be that he was in the wrong place? No way, that's what he's talking about, this street lamp

Just when the president's frozen hands and feet were about to become numb, there was a sudden sound of footsteps not far away, almost between lightning and fire, and the body reacted first. The president didn't know which tendon twitched and hid in the tall bushes behind him, because his feet were numb, and his body suddenly went limp.

It's embarrassing. The president froze there in a daze, his heart was like a thunder drum, and in a squatting posture, the water droplets on the leaves pierced his frozen face, what the hell are you doing.

At this moment, the mobile phone in his pocket suddenly rang. The president reflexively held it down, and at that moment, listening to the footsteps gradually walking in, the president's heart rose to his throat, but fortunately, the man stopped when he walked under the street lamp, and the president stiffened his face and breathed a sigh of relief.

Quickly turned the brightness of the phone to the darkest, and all the sounds were turned off to mute, and then he stiffly opened the WeChat message, he didn't know what he was doing.

Zhang Yang: Where are you? I've arrived.

The president almost collapsed in his heart, but fortunately it wasn't a voice. Looking through the gap in the leaves and looking at the figure under the street lamp, you can see his slender and straight thighs, and you can't see the upper body, but seeing him walking around in place constantly, it must be very cold.

Where's it going? It's early, but now it's out? Isn't it too embarrassing. The president had a dark face and was extremely annoyed, what did he do just now?

Can't make it to a meeting? No, it's so insincere, didn't you say that it was eight o'clock tonight; Traffic? Won't it come again in the end? What to do? The president looked at his feet walking around with a stiff face, and for the first time in his life, he didn't know what to do.

Time passed like this, minute by minute, and the president's whole body stiffened, but he didn't dare to move, and he didn't know how to answer him, so he froze there. Twenty minutes passed, Zhang Yang was shivering from the cold, the breath exhaled under the street lamp was like a cloud of white mist, Zhang Yang looked at his phone again and again, but there was no reply, which made Zhang Yang very puzzled, the small circle is usually not like this, is there something wrong? If so, he should also sue himself.

At this moment, Zhang Yang's mobile phone suddenly rang, and when he took it out, he saw that it was Xiaopang.

"Hey Chubby?".

"Lao Zhang came to dream, how about a night of drinking?".

Dream is the KTV they often go to, they usually drink all night there, especially who to celebrate their birthday or something, the three of them are very familiar, Zhang Yang is a little entangled, he left, what should I do with the small circle?

"Who are you with?".

"Who else can there be, just me and Da Heibei, waiting for you here", Xiaopang suddenly sighed, a little more stunned than usual, "I'm going to graduate soon, and I'll all go our separate ways in the future, maybe I can get together in the Year of the Monkey, especially you, you will become a big star in the future, and we won't be able to see it if we want to."

Zhang Yang's heart moved, and he was suddenly a little sad, "Okay, you wait for me."

Hanging up the phone, Zhang Yang hesitated for a while, he really wanted to meet Xiaoquan, the matter between the two had to have a result no matter what, but if he could, he was willing to become friends with Xiaoquanquan. At this moment, the WeChat prompt sounded, and Zhang Yang's eyes lit up, and sure enough, it was a letter from a small circle.

Xiaoquanquan: Husband, I'm sorry, I have a temporary emergency, and I can't go.

Small circle: ┭┮_┭┮

Zhang Yang's heart sank, and in the end he could only regret leaving. I can't tell what the mood is, there are regrets, there are disappointments, there are entanglements, in short, it is uncomfortable.

Zhang Yang: It's okay, then when you have time, call me.

Only, solved on the phone.

Zhang Yang left and went directly to find Xiaopang and them, he didn't know, not far from the street lamp he was walking around just now, he left for ten minutes, and then slowly stood up from the depths of the flowers, his lips were pursed, his face was stiff, the cold air around him was worse than the air around him, and his deep eyes were firmly fixed on the position where Zhang Yang had just stood, not knowing what he was thinking.

After a while, the president clenched his stiff fist, and his feet finally stopped being numb, but he left. It's really embarrassing, how unbearable I am, just missing it like that.

Zhang Yang came to the private room where they often packed, and sure enough, Da Hei and Xiao Pang were there, two dozen beers occupied the entire table, Da Hei was smoking on the sofa, Xiao Pang was singing, Zhang Yang walked directly to Xiao Pang and released the original sound, this product is incomplete, how can Da Hei stand it.

"Lao Zhang is here", when Xiaopang saw Zhang Yang, he stopped singing, and came over with a smile, and Da Hei also snuffed out the cigarette butt.

The three of them sleep in the same class, this is a rare fate, and the relationship between the three is not ordinarily good, they all eat and club together, and share everything together, except for girlfriends, of course.

Zhang Yang took a cigarette from Da Hei and put it in his mouth, he usually doesn't smoke much, except when he is in a bad mood. Da Hei casually lit it for him, and suddenly, a puff of smoke sprayed at Xiao Fat.

"Lao Zhang, you are sick, why don't you bully me for not smoking", Xiaopang hurriedly bypassed, said in his mouth, but skillfully opened three bottles of beer in his hand and pushed it in front of the two.

Zhang Yang poured a big sip of the whole bottle, and then he didn't have a good airway, "Don't you smoke?" You're a dead house."

"Hey, hey, why don't you two wait for me", Xiaopang hurriedly picked up the wine bottle and touched Zhang Yang and Da Hei's wine bottles twice, until he took a few big gulps, and then glared at Zhang Yang, "Say you don't smoke if you don't smoke."

"Soft-footed shrimp," Da Hei sarcastically said.

"Cut~ If your girlfriend gives you a death order, I'll see if you dare to smoke", Chubby glanced at Da Hei.

"Hmph~, my girlfriend isn't so boring".

"Whose girlfriend is bored, she's good for me", Chubby was unconvinced.

"Even if my female ticket doesn't let me smoke, I won't be so cowardly in front of my brother."

The two of you look at me and say a word, the brothers are still the brothers before, but they can't go crazy together like they are now in the future, for a while, the five tastes are mixed, and together with the regret that I didn't see the small circle just now, Zhang Yang only felt that his chest was depressed, so he poured a few big sips of wine.

Only then did the two find out that Zhang Yang was drinking alone, "That, Lao Zhang, we didn't mean it", Da Hei apologized.

"What wasn't meant to be?" , Zhang Yang wondered.

"Speaking of you, you're not an ex-girlfriend with your girlfriend, haven't you broken up for more than half a year, are you still thinking about it?" , Xiaopang said a little disapprovingly, "If you want me to say, this woman will leave when she leaves, there is nothing to worry about, you said that you two have been good for four years and she will leave, what is this, if you want me to see her, she is not a good bird."

Zhang Yang was stunned, he didn't expect them to misunderstand himself, that person, speaking of which, he really had less and less time to think of that woman, and he had completely forgotten about it recently, and the time he spent thinking about her was far less than he thought of the small circle, which was a fact that he couldn't laugh or cry, even if he mentioned it now, he was obviously relieved of her.

Seeing Zhang Yang's silence, Da Hei hurriedly kicked Xiao Fat, "Don't care, he's used to being open-mouthed."

"It was meant to be".

"Shut up!".

Zhang Yang smiled suddenly, "You two, I'm not thinking about her, I forgot about it a long time ago, the past is over, what's the use of thinking about those, I can't afford to let it go?" ”。

"Look, I'll just say that Lao Zhang doesn't care about that woman that much", Chubby glared at Da Hei proudly.

"Well, you've figured it out," the big black shrugged.

"What are your plans for the future?" , Zhang Yang suddenly spoke, and the smoke in his mouth was gently sprayed into the air like a messy worry in his heart, and then dissipated little by little.

"I'm ready to go to graduate school", Da Hei suddenly leaned back and lit another cigarette.

"Graduate school entrance examination?" , Zhang Yang's eyes were full of surprise, he hadn't seen him for a few months, and it became too fast, "Didn't you say you wanted to work directly?" I remember that you already got the offer of XXX when I left", Da Hei said, he wants to be a software engineer, and it is much better to engage in software development in a large company than to stay in school and study, not to mention that he has always disliked reading, why is he going to graduate school now?

"His girlfriend is in graduate school, what if he doesn't get dumped as a graduate student", Chubby laughed.

Zhang Yang was stunned for a moment, so it sees, D University is a well-known university of technology in China, and it is also a famous monk school, and Da Hei's girlfriend is the same level student of the most expensive foreign Chinese college in the school, and there are more girls in the whole school. It is said that the grades are very good, it turned out that he was guaranteed to be researched, no wonder Da Hei is going to be admitted to graduate school, and the XXX headquarters is in another province, 108,000 miles away from here. It's just that, for the sake of his girlfriend, he gave up such a good job opportunity.

"Do you regret it?".

Da Hei took a few puffs and said lightly, "What do you regret, you have to give up."

Zhang Yang was shocked, there is a give-and-take, this is indeed the truth, just like himself, half a year ago, he would not believe that he would not be a programmer ape but an actor, but, giving up what he always thought of as the future and becoming an actor, he got an unexpected joy, he unexpectedly liked his current profession.