There is nothing more eternal than losing, and yet I have gained so much eternity, and that is really beyond my reach.

Love is drifting away from me.

It happened to be Saturday, and I took my daughter to Kunyuan's engagement ceremony, but Xiao Ke had to follow me alive and dead, so I had to bring her with me.

Kun Yuan stood not far away, wearing a suit and leather shoes, and his hair was shiny.

Xiao Ke asked me maliciously. "What do you think!?"

"Although I have mixed feelings now, there is only no embarrassment in these feelings."

I used to do whatever I wanted in Kunyuan's world because I felt that even if the whole world didn't want me, he would always protect me.

Now that my only guardian is gone, I have to protect myself, from now on I only love my family, my children, my career, and my life, and the other qiē is insulated from me.

The master of ceremonies on the stage asked the guests in a passionate voice. "Let's play a game, what would you say to the bride and groom if you had time now!?"

The audience suddenly had different opinions.

If it's really too late, I want to rush over and say to him: If I really have a next life, I will definitely not choose this way. I will definitely choose to keep a proper distance from you, and I will not let you go astray again, brother.

But the second Kun Yuan turned around, I looked at his back and thought gloomily, he will have his own children in the future, and he will not be full of Xiao Xuan'er in his heart. He's going to have a family of his own right away, and he's never going to be for me again

Habit and greed are terrible to exist.

Leaving the wedding, I went to the yogurt shop alone, because I finally started to be curious about the post-it notes written by Kunyuan.

I can recall his handwriting when he wrote these words, but I realized it later, and I was stupid.

He said, I hope Gu Ningdai will always be happy.

He said, "I knew she was going to leave sooner or later, but she didn't know I was in tears."

He said, I haven't forgotten anything, it's just that some things are only suitable for deep hiding, Gu Ningdai, I love you, so much so that I don't have the strength to hug you anymore.

He said

I looked down one by one, took them off one by one, and glued them back together.

I'm distressed, but it's only because I'm distressed. Habit makes me get carried away.

On the second day of Kunyuan's engagement, I was in a state of no control, coughing all night, and I felt that I was about to have abs.

In the morning, I dozed off in front of the sink with my toothbrush in my mouth, and the doorbell scared me like a curse. I reluctantly woke up to open the door.

The moment I opened the door, my sleepy eyes wanted to close forever.

In addition to Kun Yuan grinning at me, there was another stunned man who smirked at him: Kun Yuan's fiancée.

I had a mouth full of toothpaste bubbles and shouted inarticulately, "Wow Kao, are you two swollen?" Even though I quickly shut up, I didn't avoid the toothpaste foam spraying on Armani's black suit in Kunyuan.

"Why are you emaciated like this?"

I saw the delusion in Kun Yuan's evil eyes, and even his tone was meaningful.

"Because I coughed all night!"

"Really?"

"Does it seem fake?"

"Ahem" These two dry coughs were warnings from Kunyuan's fiancée, but I could only pretend to be stupid and think that she was just trying to resolve the embarrassment for me. She then asked me in a pretentious manner, "Sister Dai, don't you invite us in and sit?"

My mind cleared up instantly. "Thanks to my sister's reminder, you see that I only know that I have forgotten the basic etiquette with this poor person, please inside, please inside."

Kunyuan's fiancée passed by me arrogantly, looking like she didn't take me seriously.

But it doesn't matter, according to the rules, she is my younger sibling, and I should accommodate her. I convinced myself and followed her to the living room.

In my living room, Kunyuan's fiancée asked Kunyuan to serve tea and pour water for her in the posture of a heroine.

This lady took advantage of Kunyuan's absence to kindly remind me: "Sister Xiaodai, I don't care what the relationship between you and Kunyuan was, anyway, from now on, there is no hope for the two of you." ”

I was just about to warn her about to pay attention to the words used in my speech to my mother, when Kun Yuan walked into the living room, and he asked me, "How has your kitchen changed?" ”

I sat straight on the side in a cold sweat, muttering in my heart: Kunyuan, can you not show that I know you very well? Even if you can't, can you not forget her save zài, don't

As soon as you turn around, you call out my nickname softly?

Just as I was shivering, Kun Yuan turned around, and I coughed hard and reminded him with my eyes from time to time.

But he didn't pay any attention to my storage and asked me gently: "Junjun, do you drink black tea or green tea?" ”

I froze instantly.

The lady sitting next to me replied shyly: "Green tea, I heard that green tea is slimming!" ”

I instantly felt embarrassed and stupid.

Now and then, I think who I am!

The more restless I was, the louder the beautiful lady named Junjun next to me was sipping tea.

I quietly asked her, "Is it good?" ”

She squinted at me and nodded, then continued to 'smack'.

Kunyuan, are these two people coming to me to be funny?

"It's good to drink, it's good to drink!" I instantly felt that I was hypocritical, just this tea, or I asked for it from my father's company, and I heard that green tea can remove the odor in the toilet. It's not that I didn't want to say it just now, but when I found out that it was this tea, Kunyuan had already sent the cup to Ms. Junjun's hand.

"You two have tea first, I'll take medicine first, otherwise I'll really have abs. Take a break. "I admire my wit so much, but it's good that I have a cold, otherwise I don't know what reason I could have left for so long except to go to the toilet.

After a while, Kunyuan was yelling in my direction in the living room. "Gu Xiaodai, did you eat arsenic by mistake or what's the matter? How is it gone? ”

I knew that Kun Yuan would definitely come over to see what was going on, so he simply poured the whole bottle of medicine in his hand.

"Are you committing suicide in a slow way, Gu Ningdai?" Kun Yuan knocked off the medicine in my hand at once, and yelled at me nervously.

"Shhhh Be quiet! I saw that the little master in the living room didn't notice it and became relieved: "First, my life is so good, why should I commit suicide!" Second, do you have to eat all the medicine in your hand? Can't I just count them? ”

"You'd better live well!"

"Or else?"

"Otherwise I'll never see you again"

"Kunyuan, it doesn't matter if you see it in the future or not, the important thing is that you have your own family, you have to be responsible. In the future, I will also start a new family, and then my husband will be the one who protects me. And now, it won't be you who will protect me. I'm going to count on myself! ”

"I don't know what else I can say, anyway"

"Then don't say it, once was once, we all have the responsibility and obligation to look forward, you have your fiancée, and I have my Gong Xiaoxuan. Rotten in your stomach what you can't say now, and don't say it now and don't say it later. ”

Kunyuan, thank you for appearing in my most beautiful years.

We've grown up, and we've been learning to forget, give up, understand, and say goodbye!

There are many things that we all know by heart, and there are many things that once they are said, they cannot coincide. Let's leave the most beautiful memories in the past, and don't let our memories drift away with the years.

Kunyuan, thank you for waiting, your love, and our past, let us face our hearts, say good night to the past, and say eternal sleep.

This was the last time I saw Kun Yuan on my territory, and it was a long time before I heard about him again.

Kunyuan's father sent a message to me: "Xiao Dai, come and see your godmother when you have time." ”

"What's wrong?"

"She's dying."

I burst into tears in an instant holding my mobile phone and cried in a small voice, for a while, I shed too many tears and witnessed too many life and death.

A while ago, my godmother was hospitalized, and I ran before and after running to talk to her every day, and she proudly showed off her children, and the nurses in the hospital took turns to "exhibit" a few of us every day.

Some pointed at me and asked, "You're Kunyuan's girlfriend, it's so beautiful!" ”

I protested directly: "I'm Kunyuan's sister!" ”

My godmother lay on the hospital bed and explained: "This is my goddaughter!" Ning Dai grew up with water spirit when she was young, and we liked it very much. ”

Kunyuan sat on the side and played with his mobile phone, looking like he didn't eat the fireworks in the world.

However, a good person is gone

When I felt that I was really about to go into shock, I quietly clicked on Sister Kunyuan's WeChat, and her circle of friends wrote: I really want a time machine, I really want to go back to the past.

The tears I had just stopped instantly crumbled again.

When I saw Kunyuan again, he was dressed in linen and filial piety, his voice was hoarse, and even his eyes were dull.

I wore filial piety clothes and knelt opposite Kunyuan as a daughter to guard filial piety.

I quietly looked at Kunyuan, his eyes were swollen, and my heart was hurting.

He doesn't have a mother anymore

The man who swore to me at the beginning that my home is my home, and his family is still my family, is crying like a child at this moment.

I wanted to go over and pat him, but I couldn't.

I wanted to go over and coax him, but I couldn't.

I wanted to go over and slap it, and then tell him: "Don't do this, I feel distressed." "But I still can't.

Why was it that when I fainted a few times, he could blatantly protect me, spoil me, coax me, and accompany me. And all I can do for him is to watch him cry quietly.

I secretly looked at Kun Xiaofei beside me, she was Kun Yuan's sister.

Everyone gathered around her to comfort her, but I was the only one outside the circle.

It's not that I don't want to comfort her, it's that I don't know how to comfort her.

All of them have the same words: "Mourn, mourn." ”

I thought to myself, mourn your sister! If these two words work, will we still kneel here and cry?

I want to put all the people around my sister aside, and then tell them, you should surround her like this, it is better to let her be alone and quiet.

But I tried several times to rush into the encirclement and pull her out, but failed.

I sat aside in discouragement, Kun Yuan glanced at me, and then asked me in a low voice, "Are you sad?" ”

I raised my eyes and glared at him: "Your uncle, what do you say!" ”

I could tell he wanted to laugh, but his inner sadness quickly drove the laughter away.

"Gu Ningdai, you always can't get along with yourself, my uncle is your father"

Kunyuan, your explanation is really a bunker, I guess if your father knew, he would definitely run over and slap you to death.

"Gu Ningdai, do you remember when you were nine years old?"

"Do you mean to say the year my mom died?"

"Actually, you're really a heartless woman!"

"Open! Play! Laugh! I glared at him, intending to ignore him.

"On the day your mother died, everyone else was mourning in the mourning hall, but you were the only one who ran out. I silently followed you to see what you were going to do. "He looked very sad.

"And then?"

"And then you sit in a very inconspicuous corner with your legs crossed."

"Because I cried ugly, I just didn't want others to see it"

"Heh, do you think I don't know? You're hiding there crying."

"Don't talk about you, one is not allowed to move, two is not allowed to cry, and three is not allowed to show your front teeth!"

"I'm going to show my front teeth! I'm biased to say! Do you remember when you passed out that day? ”

Of course I remember it, because I will never forget Kunyuan that day for the rest of my life.

The day my mother died, it was very cold, my hands were frozen and swollen when I stood outside, and I fainted not long after I was depressed, and before I passed out, I heard Kunyuan shouting hideously: "Come on, come and save Gu Ningdai." ”

"Did you think I was dead that day?"

"No, I'm just just dragging you in and finding someone to get you away."

Normally, when I hear him say that, I would laugh out loud. But today, I burst into tears.

In the past two years, there have been so many relatives who have left one after another that we haven't even had time to say goodbye.

It turns out that there are really no ifs in the world, and miracles are minimal. Even prayer is a sign of kindness.

I don't know if it's because I miss my mom or his mom, or if I miss him, I just want to cry, tear my throat open and cry, cry with runny nose and saliva.

I wiped my nose vigorously, and the sound was earth-shattering. Kunyuan was still holding back at first, but then he couldn't stand it, so I saw that he stood up in pain, and he vomited.

The crowd that was originally around Kun Xiaofei instantly changed the direction of comfort, and they kept comforting Kun Yuan. "Don't cry, you must stop crying. Crying again is not as simple as vomiting. ”

I still knelt in place and cried hard, wiping my nose desperately, in fact, I knew that Kunyuan didn't vomit because of excessive sadness, he only vomited because I wiped my nose.

Ever since I was a child, as long as I wiped my nose desperately, he would vomit wildly, except today, but he would always point at me and vomit while saying, "Damn, don't you do this again, okay?" Sounds like a lot. ”

There were also people around him who whispered: "Why didn't you see Kunyuan's fiancée?" She replied, "I'm pregnant, and I'm raising a baby at home!" ”

I looked at Kunyuan and asked him, "Morning sickness can also be transferred?" ”

He glared at me: "Fuck off, you know why I'm throwing up!" ”

I shrugged my shoulders and continued to play dumb: "Idon tknow." ”

Send my godmother away, and when I settle down, I plan to say goodbye without saying goodbye.

I was about to open the car door when Kunyuan asked me behind me, "From now on, you will disappear into Kunyuan's world." The standard Gu Ningdai style. Right?! ”

I turned. "What do you mean? I don't understand? ”