On the plane back to China, the seats of me, Xiaoxuan'er, Wu Feng, and Hu Xiaodong were all adjacent. The four of us hadn't spoken since we boarded the plane.

I've never been so depressed to walk around by myself, going back and forth on my own. But this flight, for us, is a one-way ...

Before I went out, when I was packing my luggage in the apartment, Wu Feng said: "I promise you a divorce, and I will go to the Civil Affairs Bureau to change my certificate after I go back." ”

I was stunned for a few seconds, and then I came back to my senses and said, "Okay..."

I don't have too many words to describe my feelings at that time, anyway, my heart at that time was like a white horse. It's just that time doesn't fly anymore...

The roar of the plane, the fifteen-hour flight, the screeching of gears against the ground, and my nervous heart.

During the fifteen-hour flight, every time I crossed the clouds, I thought again, or the crash, or the end, I don't want to hold a broken heart after landing, and I have to pretend that I don't care to exchange the red book for the green card.

In the past fifteen hours, I have been reminiscing about the former Wu Feng. He didn't propose to me, he didn't pursue me, he just treated me very naturally, and then we got married as a matter of course.

Before he proposed, he loved me for a long time in the name of a friend, but after he got married, he said that he didn't know what to do to love me more than before.

Our relationship became complicated and cumbersome because we got a legal certificate and slept in the same bed.

When they didn't come together, everything could be tolerated, I persuaded him to find a girl to fall in love with, and he persuaded me to find a man to marry.

Maybe it's because of this proof that formalizes my relationship with him, and the possessiveness thing will make a stalk out of it.

As a result, I can't tolerate sand in my eyes, and he can't tolerate me to have the slightest doubt about him.

Ever since we got that red book, we have always kept in mind our fidelity to our marriage. Thinking about not making mistakes all the time, it always backfires.

I thought, we were all wrong...

Why can't you be as calm as you were before you get married?

Why are we friends before marriage, talk about everything, face everything calmly, accept all the mistakes of the other party, but can't after marriage?

Or are we putting the cart before the horse, because this marriage contract is starting to become selfish?

After landing, Hu Xiaodong helped me with my luggage, and Wu Feng quietly walked up to us and said to me, "Otherwise, let's go at noon tomorrow." I'm tired and want to go home and rest. He handed me Gu Xiaoben's consignment note with a cold face: "Gu Xiaoben will arrive later, you can pick it up then." I'll go first..."

I stopped Wu Feng, who turned around and pulled up the suitcase, and I whispered, "Wu Feng!" Can I give you a hug in the name of a friend?! His back was very hesitant, and I added weakly, "That's all..."

He turned around with red eyes and pulled me into his chest, and he tried his best to hide his trembling, saying, "I haven't hugged you for half a year... Even in the name of a friend..."

His hot tears rolled down my neck and then into my chest, and my tears could not be held back for a moment. Tightly grasping the corners of his clothes behind him, biting his lip to restrain himself from crying and not trembling.

I have a terrible memory, but I can only remember every word you ever said.

I'm cold by nature, but I just want to be your little princess.

I still love you, but we can't go back...

Our lives are constantly being done between meeting and parting... I can't accept all of this with confidence, and I can only promise that we will never meet another lover like ours...

His face was buried in my neck and shoulder, and his voice trembled and he asked me, "Why can't I go back?" ”

Even though I pretended to be tough, my voice was very hoarse: "Because we don't have a moonlight treasure box, no matter how many times we recite Prajnaparamita, we can't go back to the past..."

"I don't want to lose you like this... I was wrong Gu Ningdai, I was really wrong...... Let's stop making trouble, don't hold on, it's really tired, let's start again... All right? ”

"Wu Feng, how can there be so many restarts? If you want to start over, I don't need to give you the opportunity at all. A lot of opportunities are not given by others... Tomorrow at noon, I'll wait for you..."

After Wu Feng left, Hu Xiaodong asked me: "You still love him, you also know, he also loves you, why can't we be together?" ”

"So tell me how to start over? Just pretending to have amnesia and moving back to his house? I need a bright prospect of a fresh start, and if he can give me what I want, I think, I'm willing to wait..."

"So, no matter how hard I try, I can't do it, right?"

"Xiaodong, if it wasn't him in the end. I decided to live my life alone with Xiao Xuan'er. I feel like I have a lovely daughter and a big smart dog, so it's good to live like this. My love is limited, and I want to marry love. And my love is Wu Feng... I want to wait for him to start over, and I'm sure he'll figure out what exactly I want one day. ”

"It is said that time is good medicine, but what heals me is only skin wounds, you and I are really alike..."

"You can love someone to the dust, but no one will love you in the dust. So in my world, in addition to love, in addition to him, there is also Xiao Xuan'er, as well as piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, work, dreams, life, and my father. I can live my life by anything, but I don't want to compromise in a relationship. So I hurt a lot and I won't tell him, I just hope that what I get is what understands me... Instead of relying on ears to understand me... I don't want to be in the dust, I want to walk in the sea of flowers! ”

I took Xiao Xuan'er's hand and walked towards the airport, and I said to him, "Brother Dong? ”

"Huh?"

"You men are actually quite stupid......"

"Huh?"

"I'm starting to be afraid that Wu Feng won't understand my intentions..."

"Why?"

"Because you men can't even understand women's words, let alone understand their hearts!"

"How so?"

"That time, I asked Wu Feng to go to the kitchen and brush the dishes and chopsticks. He obediently did so, he really just brushed the dishes and chopsticks, and when I went to check, the dishes were still lying quietly in the sink. ”

"Is there something wrong? It's you who didn't express it clearly! ”

"Another time he was still playing Honor of Kings at three o'clock in the morning, I was so noisy that I couldn't sleep, so I sat up and yelled at him, I said, you don't have to sleep today, go to the living room and play all night. He actually said happily like a flower, wife, why are you so good to me today! ”

“…… No...... Is there something wrong? ”

Seeing Hu Xiaodong's bewildered expression, completely unaware of Wu Feng's mistake, I instantly felt that it was me who was brain-dead, and I forgot that he was also a man!

"That's right, it's not your fault, it's just that you deserve to be single!"

"No, I still haven't figured it out, is there something wrong?"

"You're wonderful! There's nothing wrong with that! ”

"No matter how beautiful the spring breeze is, it can't compare to your smile, and those who haven't seen you won't understand." Hu Xiaodong laughed and hummed a song.

"Li Zongsheng's song! It's so good to sing! "I was amazed by the way he hummed.

"If you like it!"

"I like it! Good! ”

"Hahaha!"

"Hee-hee-hee!"

There's nothing wrong with chatting with him and listening to his cappella tunes, and there's nothing wrong with the feeling of leaving all your worries behind and deliberately hiding them. Anyway, I'm like that, I like to treasure every day as the end of the day, anyway, no one knows which will come first, tomorrow or the accident!

Hu Xiaodong sent me and Xiaoxuan'er back to my house, and before leaving, he said: "It seems that in your heart, I am not even an ex-boyfriend." ”

"It doesn't matter what your identity was before, what matters is now, you are my important iron buddy!"

"It's good to forget about the past..."

"The real forgetting is not to stop remembering, but to think of you occasionally, and there will be no waves in my heart. You're still someone I'll remember, but you're no longer a spark in my heart. ”

"I see... I'm very grateful to have met you in Paris this time, and let me get to know you again, I used to hold on to it, and now he makes me relieved by your words, thank you for your honesty, girl. ”

"So, Brother Dong, when are you going to invite me to drink your wedding wine?"

"I can't see you happy, I won't love others..."

"Didn't you say you were relieved just now?"

"It's just that I'm not as guilty as before, and it's not that I've given up. Think too much about you, fool. ”

"Brother Dong..."

"Huh?"

"I don't want someone to trust for life, but someone who loves each other deeply and believes in it. You still don't understand, for example, you and I before, two people who really love each other, will not lose to the family gap, will not lose to the height and age, will not lose to the third party or the ex, will not lose to gossip, will not lose to the opposition of parents. You will only lose to not cherishing, not working hard, and not trusting! You were the same at the beginning, and I am still now! ”

"I confess that it was my ignorance that hurt you in the first place. But you know what? Now you really took revenge on me. Because your words and deeds can't hide your joy for him, you giggle when you're together, you giggle when you call, you giggle when you send messages, you smirk when others mention him, I've bumped into the eyes of the two of you countless times, that's what love looks like to people, but I don't understand, what you women think. Why did he admit his mistake and say that he would start over, but you still didn't accept it. ”

"After the age of hearing everything. All I want is to be grounded. ”

"So this steadfastness, you only want what he gives?!"

"That's right! As long as he gives. So, I just hope he can be mature enough, you know, he caused me to lose my baby that I was looking forward to, and if he was mature enough to be sensible, he and I wouldn't be what we are. ”

"He is this dead virtue, you think he loves carelessly, but in fact you touch all his nerves. Ha, as his rival, I don't think I should speak for him. "Brother Dong's smile was very stiff, and my smile in response to him was also...

The next afternoon, I waited in the waiting room of the Civil Affairs Bureau until dusk, until I was the only one left in the hall, and a staff member came up to me and said, "Sorry, we're off work, please come back tomorrow." ”

I'm glad he didn't come, and I'm disappointed that my phone hasn't ring...

I saw a lot of couples happily going in and coming out with red books, and I also saw a few pairs of backs who went in and out with cold faces...

People come and go, drifting away, and the people sitting next to me are getting fewer and fewer...

I looked at my phone in frustration and said to the staff, "Thank you!" ”

When I walked out of the hall, the sun was already hiding behind the mountain.

Wu Feng put his hands in his pockets and stood on the opposite side of the road looking at me quietly.

His cynical appearance was still the same as before marriage, and he and I stood across the road, across the wide road, looking at each other, and the corners of our mouths couldn't help but rise slightly.

Seeing the smile on my lips, he shouted at me, "I've been waiting for you here for four hours, are you stupid?" I didn't even go in, so why are you waiting? ”

"Didn't you say a divorce?"

"Who said that?"

"You! What you said in Paris! ”

"Nonsense, I love you so much, how can I give it up?"

The cars on the road whizzed by, and the conversation between the two of us could only be by shouting.

He held up his mobile phone and pointed at it, signaling to the phone and saying, I understand it and wait for his call.

"Hey!"

"Huh?"

"Are you stupid?"

"You're stupid!"

"Don't leave!"

"Where's the old iron?" As I finished saying this, the road was quiet, there were no passing cars, and he walked towards me in the afterglow of the sun.

He said, "I'm willing to shamelessly rely on you for the rest of my life!" ”

"Didn't you say you can't be shameless for the rest of your life?"

"Which son of a son said that?"

"You!"

"Oh, is it? Then I'll love you shamelessly for the rest of my life. ”

"Not leaving?"

"I thought about it all night, and I couldn't think of the meaning of my life without you. To save a life, save me! ”

"How can I save it?"

"Let's fall in love! Unlike in the past, this time we are in a decent relationship. From this second, I chase you. ”

"It's hard to chase my sister!"

"Brother is not afraid!"

I stretched out my hand and said, "Hello, I'm Gu Ningdai, I'm twenty-seven years old this year, and I have an eight-year-old daughter. Professional writer and investment in film and television. ”

He put one hand in his pocket, raised the corners of his mouth wickedly, stretched out his right hand to hold my hand, and said, "My name is Wu Feng, and I am twenty-nine years old this year. The profession is not worth mentioning, but there is a house, a car, a deposit, and you!. ”

I smiled and said, "Have a good face and have dinner together!?" ”

I faked a glance at the Mercedes-Benz G63 behind him and said, "This rich man, our dinner may not be the right one." ”

"For example?"

"For example, I like to practice stalls. But you probably won't be with me on the streets. ”

"How about I take you to the food street and eat from beginning to end?"

"Really?"

"Of course!"

This night, we were very high, my dad called and asked if I wanted to go home for dinner, I said I was dating, he was obviously angry, but I said that I was dating Wu Feng, he instantly calmed down and said: "You can play at ease, you don't have to worry about Xiao Xuan'er." ”

After knowing Wu Feng for so long, the two of us released our nature for the first time, and this kind of friend-like freedom was unrestrained.

The food street was crowded every night, and I walked as I ate with a large meat skewer, and he hugged my shoulders tightly, as if he was afraid that I would be thrown away.

The corners of my mouth were oily, and he was particularly disgusted to wipe me clean with paper.

I said, "Wow, what a lot of beautiful women!" ”

He didn't even roll his eyelids, and said without interest: "Heh! Belle? Didn't see it! ”

If a passer-by looks back at me, he will be very proud and say, "Don't say it, there are really beautiful women!" ”

"Where?"

"In my arms!"

When I said I wanted something to eat, he would buy it for me. He would always say, "Stand here and don't move!" Don't move, just wait for me here. ”

He always disliked my appearance and said, "You don't look like this when you eat in the hotel, you fickle woman!" ”

At first, he was reluctant to eat street food, but now he is out of control by my infection.

I saw that the hydrogen balloon was so obsessed that he exaggerated it so much that he wanted to buy it all.

I said to him, "Sick?" What do you buy? ”

Under my threat, he ended up buying only two.

His tall man of more than 1.8 meters helped me carry two hydrogen balloons, which was very funny.

After eating, we sat by the river on the lid of his car and drank cold beers.

He quietly rubbed his face and tried to kiss me, but I ruthlessly blocked it with my hand.

I asked him in disgust, "What?" ”

"Kiss me!"

"Kiss the fart! It's our first day of dating, what do you think? It's not necessarily that you can't pass the test! ”

"No, I'm glad I didn't say to go to my house tonight."

"Ouch, uncle! You've thought a lot. What are you doing at your house? Look at you eating? ”

"Even if I eat it, you won't go to see it."

"Of course I'm not going. You took me home on the first day we dated? Think about it! You and other girls have done it all in one day, huh? ”

"I won't tell you, except for you, I don't have a ** for other women."

"Fart!"

"Believe it or not?"

"I decided to change your name to Wu Xiaolang. You're too prodigal! It's true! ”

“……”

I asked him when he decided to give up on the divorce.

He said, from the moment I asked for a hug, the moment he hugged me. He said that he hugged my strength, hugged my heartbeat, and couldn't give a second person...