One day, when classes were closed and the morning light in Paris was about to illuminate the earth, Xiao Ke called and said, "Today is your birthday, how are you going to spend it?" ”

I didn't wake up at all: "I finally didn't have a class today... You still don't want me to sleep until I wake up naturally. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ”

"I've asked a friend in Paris to buy you a cake. Send me the address in a moment, and I'll ask him to send it to you. ”

"Hey... Xiao Ke..."

After my drowsiness was expelled by Xiao Ke's phone call, she hung up without allowing me to finish.

I asked her on WeChat: I haven't finished yet, why are you in such a hurry?

She replied to me: International calls are too expensive, and I want to save money to buy milk powder for my children.

I replied to her with a string of ellipses.

Xiao Xuan'er was not woken up by the call, and when I got up to go to the bathroom to shower, she was still drooling and falling asleep.

I'm in a good mood, and someone will remember my birthday and help me buy a cake.

I have a habit of listening to music in the shower. After entering the bathroom, adjust the water temperature, I turned on the mobile phone music player, when I put the mobile phone on the side of the shelf, after the moment of the mirror, I suddenly found that I am very much like my mother in the mirror today, in fact, I have a photo of me looking back and smiling in my mobile phone, and she is also very like her...

Those who know me well know that my music library is full of sad tunes...

When the song "It's Me Who Is Wrong" is played, this sentence is played: Who's crying, who's laughing, if you don't listen, there's no more, there's nothing in the dark, it's what I think, you give me an amber and I mistake it for the Milky Way...

My heart suddenly cramped...

In these years, I haven't been serious about my birthday. Everyone knows that birthdays are difficult days for mothers.

I heard from my aunt that my mother had a difficult birth when she gave birth to me, and the sixth day of June in the lunar calendar of 90 years was particularly hot.

It wasn't until I had my own child that I realized this feeling of being a mother. The feeling of being able to sacrifice oneself to protect one's children...

It's been 18 years since my mother left me...

I was nine years old... Now I'm twenty-seven years old, and I'm twenty-eight years old...

Suddenly, tears flowed down my face, and the pain of longing mixed with remorse... I'll never forget what my mother was like when she died... I can't forget the phrase "I love you!" "It was never spoken...

The sound of water coming from the shower, the sad song coming from my phone, and the sound of me sobbing...

I walked into the bathtub barefoot and sat with my legs crossed... The face is buried in the legs, and the tears flow with the water from the shower...

Over the years, I seem to have experienced a movie with no ending. Say goodbye to one journey after another...

After so many years, all the stories are like "Hot Mom Times" forever unfinished......

It wasn't until the fifty-two songs in my phone were looped twice, the water in the bathtub gradually cooled, and the water flowing out of the shower became less and less, that Xiao Xuan'er came to knock on the door, anxiously clamped her legs, and slapped the door and shouted: "Mommy, you open the door quickly, I'm about to pee." ”

When I cleaned up my mood and walked out of the bathroom in my bathrobe, my dad was buttoning the sleeves with one hand, and Hu Xiaodong and Wu Feng were there.

When I saw my dad in a suit and leather shoes ready to go out, I asked, "Are you going to go out?" ”

"I have a very important meeting tomorrow, and I have to go back to Beijing today! Xiao Xuan'er doesn't leave, if I have to be with you, I won't take her back. ”

"Dad... Do you have to go today? ”

"Gotta go today... What's wrong? Is there something wrong? ”

Somewhat disappointed, he turned around and went back to his room to change his clothes.

After I got dressed, my dad stood outside my room and knocked on the door, and he said:

"Daughter, today is your birthday, you come out after changing your clothes, I'll give you some money, you go buy what you like. Daddy can't spend your birthday with you anymore. ”

I'm suddenly very wronged, do I have to use money to get it? My birthday, I'm not happy, even my anniversary, my dad, Wu Feng, including Gong Xiaoyi, all like to use money to solve problems!

Am I short of money? If money can solve the problem, I can! What else do I want them for?

I miss my mom so much, I especially want to ask her, is it worth it? After she left, did my dad still spend all his time drinking and marrying another woman?

I don't want to talk, I just want to have a quiet birthday... I'm about to be thirty years old, and my beautiful age is about to pass, and my mother has been away from me for eighteen years, is it difficult to have a meal with me on her difficult day?

I didn't reply to what my dad said, I just sent a message to Xiaoke with tears in my eyes, I said: For a moment, I miss my mom very much...

She sent a string of hugging emojis and said: You still have us!

I said, "I was taking a shower just now, listening to a song, and I turned my face to see myself in the mirror." I couldn't hold it all at once... My heart hurts...

She said: If I were by your side, I could give you a hug and accompany you for a day of shopping... But I'm not with you, so you have to take care of yourself and take care of yourself.

I said, "But I can't control my emotions at all, especially on my birthday today, and I suddenly find that I am more and more like my mother...

At this moment, my dad was a little impatient, and his tone gradually became anxious.

"I put the money on the table in the living room, catch the plane, I'll go first..."

I was so annoyed that I rushed over and opened the door, yelling at him, "You only know money!" Money! Money! Have you asked me what exactly I want? I rushed over and picked up the two wades of dollars he had left behind and threw them at the feet of him and Wu Feng.

Hu Xiaodong and the two of them looked at me dumbfounded, Xiao Xuan'er just quietly walked over and picked up the thick two wades of money and put them back on the table, and then went back to the bedroom without saying a word and closed the door.

After that, there were only four of us left in the living room...

The bell of time struck by, and my dad didn't say a word.

Wu Feng spoke first to break the deadlock, he said: "Something happened to the place where our father and mother were going to open, so..."

I interrupted him mercilessly: "Mr. Wu Feng, please pay attention to what you say, he is my father, not our father!" Am I related to you? ”

Hu Xiaodong saw that the situation was not right, so he came over to comfort me. He said, "What's the matter, how did you come out of the shower and become a different person?" ”

I avoided Hu Xiaodong and yelled angrily at my dad directly: "From childhood to adulthood, you will always use money to send me away." I'm in a bad mood and ask the babysitter to take me to the playground, or ask someone to take me to a shopping spree. Yes, you have money, you have what you want in this life, you have what others have, and you have what others don't have! Ask for money and have money! Powerful and powerful! The characters who call for wind and rain just don't have time to spend with me and my mother! Now my mom has been gone for eighteen years! Eighteen years, you know? You're still so virtuous, and you'll never know what you're up to! ”

"Xiao Dai, isn't all this for you and Xiao Xuan'er?"

"Don't have so many excuses? For us? That's for your own selfish desires! To satisfy your own competitive spirits! ”

"Doesn't the world I conquer have to be yours sooner or later?"

"Huh! Did I say I want it? Did I say I'm rare? I don't have to be rare if you like it! Don't use your set of values to measure the happiness I want! Do you know how much I envy those ordinary families? Do you know how envious I feel when I see those girls around me who are loved by their parents and fathers? Do you know how much I want to be like them, to have a whole family, to eat home-cooked meals with my parents instead of a five-star restaurant? Do you know how envious I feel that when they are spoiled by their dad, their dad will never take money to perfunctory? Right! You will definitely say that I am not content, and how many people will envy me in a life like this! Luxury cars! Mansion! Daddy! Hauf! But I'm not uncommon! ”

Wu Feng couldn't listen to it anymore, he yelled at me angrily: "You are enough Gu Ningdai!" You're baffled, you know? ”

"Am I enough? If you don't say it, I almost forgot that I still have you Wu Feng! The routine of coaxing a daughter-in-law is always smashed with money! Buy a luxury car! Buy luxury! Interesting? Have you ever asked for what I want? You think I care about the rags you sent me? As long as you can buy things with money, the old lady can give them all by herself! ”

My dad said, "Little Dai, you should be content and understanding!" ”

"That's right! I should be content! Aren't you all able to cover the sky with one hand, and can you do everything with money? Yes, I should understand, don't you say you love me more than one another? That's great! You give my mother back to me, show your skills? ”

Wu Feng: "Don't make trouble with Xiao Dai unreasonably!" ”

"Am I vexatious? Everything I want seems to you to be vexatious! Only when you hit me with money is I gladly accepted it? Then I ask you, am I short of money? You don't know what I lack, what I want, how embarrassed are you to say you love me? ”

I grabbed the bag on the sofa and slammed the door, only Xiao Xuan'er chased out.

Xiao Xuan'er followed me very sadly and asked me, "Mommy, why are you angry?" ”

"I just want loyal companionship, is that hard!"

Xiao Xuan'er patted her chest: "There is me!" ”

I gently took her little hand and said, "Everyone's birthday is a mother's hard day." The world is so unfair. Every time Xiao Xuan'er celebrates her birthday, I always feel very happy, because there is nothing better than seeing Xiao Xuan'er grow up healthily. But every time I have a birthday, my heart aches because the person who suffered for me and witnessed my growth and gave me life disappeared from my life. Xiao Xuan'er, I'm actually pretty bad. While asking my father to give up his career to accompany me like a child, I can't accompany you wholeheartedly for the sake of my career and dreams. ”

"Mommy, it's okay. Because when I grow up, I want to be as strong as Mommy. ”

"Will you understand me? I rarely accompany you for the sake of dreams and goals, can you understand? ”

"I rarely had time with you when I was in school! You don't love me all the same! ”

"Xiao Xuan'er..."

"Huh?"

"I love you!"

"I love you mommy too!"

"Why do you look like a big man, I feel."

"It's obviously a girl..."

"I mean feelings! Do you feel understood? ”

"Then I still feel like you're Superman! But you are not either! ”

"Well, today is my birthday, and your grandmother gave me life 27 years ago today, so let's celebrate your grandmother's great dedication."

"Let's have enough fun!"

"Good! Have enough fun. ”

We went crazy into the middle of the night in Paris and my phone didn't turn on, so all day, it was quiet.

We went to the roadside café and ordered a cheesecake, which was a birthday cake. Xiao Xuan'er ate very happily, and I had no appetite all day.

I didn't want to go back to the apartment because I didn't want to face the mess in the morning. So I found a villa-style apartment to live in, which can be regarded as comforting myself.

I didn't turn on until I went to bed. The first text message I received was from my dad, who said, "Baby girl, I'm about to board the plane." Dad doesn't ask you to understand, and he doesn't blame you for being wrong. Daddy just wants the best for you. Just like you want to give Xuan'er the best... Daughter, you are the most loved person by dad in this world! I know you're losing your temper not only because you miss your mom, I know you want me to spend your birthday with you. But baby, there are hundreds of employees in the company waiting for dad to feed, and I can't be selfish enough to live up to the staff's following because of my daughter's birthday. This is an important meeting, a meeting about the future of the company. But Dad promises, this meeting is over, and I will accompany you on a trip! The two boys had already ordered the cake for you the night before, and we actually had a gift for you. Cherish what is good for you. If you like it, Dad will accept it. ”

I know the last sentence, "Daddy accepts whatever you like." "Referring to my feelings...

I didn't reply to anyone's messages. Not long after, I posted a night scene in the circle of friends, Hu Xiaodong almost has a dog's sense of smell, and he actually found me with this night scene photo.

I asked him, "You won't set up location on my phone, will you?" You said you found me by photo, why don't I believe it? ”

"It's not just the photos. I just came to this hotel, and the hotel front desk didn't tell me the room number. It took me a lot of effort to get the front desk! ”

"Got it done with money?"

"Of course it's with wisdom, do you think I'm Wu Feng? I looked up a picture of the two of us, and I said that my wife came to the room with the child and the phone was turned off after the opening. It's possible that the phone is out of battery, so I need to find you quickly. ”

"And then the hotel told you the room number?"

"No! I checked your mobile phone number, your ID card and passport number, I can recite it backwards, what's so difficult about this? ”

"Drinking? Drink some wine with me! ”

Hu Xiaodong and I sat by the pool, shaking our wine glasses and talking.

I asked him, "What about Wu Feng?" ”

Hu Xiaodong smiled: "After you left, he was angry." He'll help you get your birthday present ready before he comes. The result is today..."

"How do you know he's ready for a present?"

"When you took a shower in the morning, he took it out to show off, it's a diamond ring!"

"Diamond ring?" I have the greatest contempt for Wu Feng in my heart, this is really worrying about emotional intelligence after marriage. I asked Hu Xiaodong again: "What about you, what about the gift you prepared for me?" ”

"Isn't it here?"

"What?"

"Me!"

"Oh my God, what do I want you to do! It can't be used as a cover, and it can't be eaten as a meal! ”

"What you said, there is no wind and rain with me, only rainbows!"

"You just fart. The wind and rain that once gave me a little? ”

"Not anymore..."

"Come on. Or have been friends for the longest time. Don't tease me in the future. ”

"It's good to be friends! I don't lack friends! All I lack is you! ”

"Wouldn't you be fine without me?"

"When I couldn't see you, I really thought that the past between us was stranded at the bottom of my heart. But after meeting again, just a glance, the clouds of the past are enough to make my heart collapse. ”

I didn't know how to answer him, and I wanted to change the subject, so I pretended to be relaxed and said, "Let's drink until dawn." Don't overdo it by indulging your stomach once in a while. But how is this night so long? ”

"As long as there is your night, no matter how long it is?"

"You say, if Wu Feng suddenly appears and finds you in my room, will he explode!"

"I guess he's going to hit me up."

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but smile. "I feel the same."

There's a magical law in the world that the last thing you want to happen is fulfilled if you say it. It wasn't long before another little wild dog with a keen sense of smell found my room.

After all, he was late, and the best reason had been exhausted by Hu Xiaodong, so the front desk didn't buy it at all, but he ran in, calling my name while running, no way, the waiter in Paris was too stupid, and when he arrived at the door of my room, the waiter subconsciously blocked the door, and Wu Feng immediately determined that this was my room.

He stood at the door of the room and shouted my name: "Gu Ningdai! ”

At first, I thought I was hallucinating, and asked Hu Xiaodong: "Why did I hear Wu Feng calling my name?" ”

He looked at me blankly: "I think I heard it too!" ”

So a magical scene happened, when the hotel manager chased after me, I just opened the door, and I was shocked: "Wu Feng, why are you here?" ”

Manager Wu Fengchong spread his hands and said proudly: "What." I said, I'm her husband. ”

The manager looked at me hesitantly: "But... Who are these two gentlemen? ”

I was helpless and said, "Neither of them is either." But that's okay, you guys go back to work. Both gentlemen are my friends. I gave the manager $200 and I said, "Here's compensation!" Sorry for the inconvenience! Sorry! ”

I thought that what would happen next would be a bloody storm between men, and with Wu Feng's virtue, he would definitely do it first. As a result, Hu Xiaodong and I all thought too much.

Hu Xiaodong erected a defensive thorn all over his body, Wu Feng glanced at him lightly, and said, "You know where she is, why can't you report her safety to me?" Do you know I've been worried all night bro? ”

I stepped forward to relieve Hu Xiaodong: "I didn't let him tell you." But here we are, let's have a drink together. ”

Wu Feng drank too much this night, only Hu Xiaodong and I were the most sober, and he said something that I still remember vividly, causing me to cry and laugh.

He said, "Before we had a fight, you said I was possessive, and asked me why I just wanted to sleep with you." I'm telling you now, possessiveness is that you can only be slept with by me alone. Love is, I just want to sleep with you alone. ”

"Wu Feng, do you have anything else on your mind besides sleeping?"

"If I don't snap, then I'd rather play with men."

Hu Xiaodong, who was sitting among us, said a more classic sentence with a cold face, he said: "Possessiveness is such a thing, being handsome is a domineering president, and being ugly is a psychopath." Wu Feng, you almost became a pervert, you know? ”

Wu Feng waved his wine glass and said, "Hu Xiaodong, Lao Tzu loves her more than you." Before I met her, I had never thought about getting married. I haven't thought about anyone else since I got married to her. It's not like you, kid, grandson, who got engaged to other women when you chased her! Now you're back chasing her, you're not disgusting. ”

Hu Xiaodong wasn't drunk, so he didn't answer...

I just watched quietly as the two of them borrowed wine in front of me to strengthen their courage and perform to their heart's content...

Wu Feng also said: "I have lost a lot of things, but I have never felt pity. It wasn't until I lost you that I realized that my life has no meaning but you..."