I stood in front of him in a daze, my mind quickly searching for how to keep him.

Do you want to sit on the ground and hug his calves pretentiously, and weakly beg him not to go. Or just like in Qiong Yao's drama, I threw myself into his arms and told him, I really love you.

When I didn't listen to my actions, he said lightly: "You have been forcing me not to believe you. ”

"I don't know what that means."

"Don't understand? Don't you have even a shred of shame in your own heart? Is it so fun to pedal two boats? ”

"I don't know if it's fun or not, please forgive me for my stupidity, can you tell me directly?"

"Are you that interesting between me and Kunyuan?"

I was stunned: "He's my hair small." You know! ”

"Hair small? Fa Xiao did what a boyfriend should do. ”

When I heard this, there was a hint of joy in my heart, and he was jealous again.

I firmly believe that if I coax him a little, he will lose his anger.

I quickly removed my tense face, smiled all over my face, and said, "I don't want you to worry about me!" ”

"I'm not worried if I'm not by your side, am I?"

If he hadn't said this to me, I'd have continued to drown in the faith that might easily conquer him.

He told me, "I'm getting engaged." I knew her before I knew you. You also have a favorite, so this four-corner show is too boring. ”

I wanted to open my throat and roar, but when I opened my mouth, the sound was hoarse. "Hu Xiaodong, I finally began to believe in love again. Are you just trying to teach me a vivid lesson and teach me that the love I want is simply not there?! ”

He always watched quietly and I didn't speak.

"You're scaring me, aren't you? I know you're mad at me, but Kunyuan is my little hair! I'm just a little bit with him! "I cried.

"Gu Ningdai, where have you been earlier? Why did you go earlier? "I couldn't read his expression again.

If I had changed the time and place, I would have told him, "Why did I go earlier?" You just hit the ground when I was two years old! ”

But in this sad night, I just whispered almost pleading: "I'm late, can you wait for me any longer." ”

He looked at me sadly, and I told myself that he was reluctant.

I walked over and shook his arm gently, trying to get a hint of sympathy: "Don't be angry, okay?" You don't like me to get too close to Kunyuan, so it's good for me to stay away. ”

He unhurriedly shook off my hand that was holding his arm: "Don't do this, okay?" ”

I saw that his face was full of inconsequentiality.

I realized that he never loved me. I'm still stupidly fantasizing about being with him for a long time.

I understand, Jin Xiaoya is right, it was impossible for me to talk to him, I was always too good at fantasy, too self-righteous, and too wishful thinking.

He turned around, stopped before opening the car door, and said to me nonchalantly: "Next week is my engagement ceremony, and if I have the honor to invite the first heir of the Gu family, I will be very moved." He suddenly whispered, "You're going, aren't you?" ”

Why should I go? His ability to rub salt on other people's wounds is really getting better and better.

What's going on here? Which link is true and which link is fake? Could it be that the previous qiē was just a game made out of boredom?

I warned myself that I must firmly believe in my beliefs, tears are the cheapest attitude, after all, crying is my own problem, it has nothing to do with him, even if I am comforted, it is all perfunctory and has nothing to do with sympathy.

He turned his back to me, and after not hearing my answer for a long time, he turned to look at me.

I had already burst into tears, and I quietly watched him so, so, so, so far away in front of me. Why is it that all of a sudden, when it's so close at hand, is far away?

Does he really not love me?

Should I be silent, maybe he just said casually, should I keep him, will he turn back?

He turned around with a wry smile at me, and at the moment when he was about to open the car door, I yelled at him: "Hu Xiaodong! Didn't you say your heart is with me? Didn't you say I'll give you back my heart when you come back? I'll give it back to you now. From then on, we didn't owe each other. ”

Even if I want to lose, I have to lose chicly, I figured it out, it doesn't matter if I hug his thighs, or hug him behind my back, he doesn't love me, and all the entanglements I do will attract spit. If he wants to quit the game he created, then I, the participant, can only obey.

His seemingly lonely back was stretched long under the street lamp in the dark night, and the moment he turned around, I almost blurted out: I love you, I love you very much, if you want to stay, I will go over and hold your hand.

I put myself in a very low position in this game, I was afraid that he would be depressed, so I could only wronged myself to put it low, but even so, he still left. This play, which was rendered by my stupidity, played what he thought he liked the most, and in the end, it was still lost

If we had known one day earlier, I shouldn't have dreamed of it, and naively thought that it would be eternal, and I thought that I would hold his hand for a lifetime.

I looked at the black Poussin that was gradually disappearing from my sight, and I actually cried and laughed.

Do you have a memory like this, laughing and thinking, but crying red eyes?

My mind was full of images of him.

He would laugh and joke with me: "Gu Ningdai, what do you think about dressing like an eighteen-year-old girl?" ”

I scolded him very seriously: "Is your brain crowded? Is this a problem with clothes? It's the reason for the face! It's a face! ”

He would suddenly calm down, turn his face to kiss me, and then turn away and pretend that nothing happened.

He would stand on the top of the hill and confess to me under the gaze of everyone.

He would pop up behind me when I needed it and pull me into his arms.

He would carry me home on his back when I was drunk.

He'd fight with other men because of me.

He was carried on my back and walked slowly on the beach.

He couldn't help but laugh next to me, and I asked him, what are you laughing at? He'll say, "Did I laugh?"

He would say to me, "Gu Ningdai, you know what. You are poison. ”

He will dislike me for being a picky eater, and he will dislike me for rushing to pay, and he will always frown and educate me: "I sue you Gu Ningdai, you have to hand over such a thing as paying the bill to a man, do you know?" ”

All the memories of him are stuck in my head.

I want to make all these memories flow into tears.

Who put whom in the heart? Who promised whose past, in the end, a dream, an empty one.

I took out my phone and restored his memories, a photo of him frowning at being bullied by me, and a laughing face. There is information that we amuse each other.

I distinctly remember that his uncarded phone had only my number stored in it, and I remember that I left countless selfies of my own in that phone. One day, I was drunk in public, I took the 5S at hand and opened the album and found that there was no photo in it that was mine, and I left tears and nose in my mouth and pointed at Hu Xiaodong and scolded: "You big turtle, what did I do wrong, you want to delete my selfie?" Everyone looked at me in fear, Zhao Dongdong pulled back his phone with an unspeakable look, and then tried his best to despise me. So I yelled even more dead and alive, scolding Hu Xiaodong for being a turtle, and after a while, Hu Xiaodong couldn't bear to take out another 5S from his pocket and rushed at me: "Open your dog's eyes and see if you just took my mobile phone?" My phone is here! I sat next to him, crying and shouting, while looking at Hu Xiaodong's mobile phone with my big confused eyes, and grinning when I opened the photo album and found that every selfie I had taken was there. Zhao Dongdong was still protesting beside me: "Mr. Hu, I advise you not to take her out from now on to embarrass her!" "Just because of this, Hu Xiaodong will take it out whenever he is happy, and come to me to find excitement.

I think the most suffocating thing is these memories that no one can take away, those immutable and frozen pictures, and those words that are sincerely finalized. Those so-called eternity, those frozen pictures, those unspeakable goodbyes.

I suddenly remembered something, and I wanted to say something to him.

Can you wait for me before he holds hands with others, I want to go with him. I don't want to leave those opportunities to anyone else.

If he still loves me, can he wait for me at that intersection where we have met a hundred times, and I will speed up my pace and run to the place where he is.

"I love you!" Even if those three words are late, I don't want to miss them again.

I ran out of the neighborhood trying to catch up with his car.

But no matter how I ran, how I cried, how I shouted, I could no longer see the slightest trace of him standing in the great street.

I sat on a bench not far from the convenience store, and the street lamp was very sympathetic to me, and it tried its best to illuminate me, as if to say to me: silly girl, the sky will always be bright.

But I can't wait, I want to sue him, I love him. Can you bring me into his world.

I trembled and picked up the phone to call him, but he didn't speak.

I was awake in this silence. I know, this silence is telling me that no matter how hard I try, I can't go back.

So I smiled awkwardly, and said lightly but sobbed: "Thank you, thank you for escorting me on this short journey." Thank you, thank you" I kept holding the phone, and he was also listening quietly on the other end.

I told him, "This is the last time I'll say goodbye to you, because we won't see you again." ”

What I didn't know was that when he heard my voice, he tried to hold back the crying, banging on the steering wheel in pain, and the song "I Will Be For You" was always the same in the car.

What I didn't know was that he shook his shoulders on the street behind me and said to me in his heart, I'm sorry Gu Ningdai, I love you, so I set you free.

What I didn't know was that his mother arranged for him to go on a blind date after seeing the news of Tieba, and he has been protesting silently at home.

When his mother asked him indignantly: "That Gu Ningdai, what's so good?" ”

"Because of the feeling she gave me, other people's women would never be able to give me."

"That's what you didn't encounter!"

"Didn't come across? Hehe, even if you meet it, what can you do? There is only one Gu Ningdai in this world. ”

Shanghai.

Tong Yao yelled into the phone: "If you like someone, you can't kill it." She took a sip of water in one gulp and continued: "What I want is very simple, I just want you to show up when I need it, be by my side when I'm sad, you call me when I'm not by your side, you can't do it with such a disgraceful request, what else do we talk about, goodbye!" ”

Home.

An Xiaoke coaxed Xiao Xuan'er to sleep, stood on tiptoe and walked out of the bedroom to pick up the phone, on the phone, Sui Xiaokai said to her: "I feel that I will never disbelieve in love again." Mr. Hu loves Sister Xiao Dai so much and broke up, what else is eternal. ”

"Broke up?" An Xiaoke exclaimed incredulously: "Impossible! This is absolutely impossible, Sister Xiao Dai just went to the appointment happily. ”

"Next week, Mr. Hu is going to get engaged, and I heard that it was the words of the matchmaker, so Mr. Hu was at home for a whole week. I sue you, you must not sue Sister sù Xiaodai. ”

"Yes, you say."

"The poster of the post bar was found out by Mr. Hu."

"Huh?"

"Also, Mr. Hu asked me to ask you to tell Sister Xiao Dai, there are three days left before Monday, you see"

"Are you human? Let her go to his engagement ceremony! Do you think this is a series? ”

When I dragged my tired body home, An Xiaoke had already hung up the phone and was waiting for me with red eyes.

"I'm back, you go home and sleep." The house I rented for her was one floor above my house.

"Sister, I want to drink, let's drink up your two bottles of Lafite."

I know her, and she knows about it.

I tugged at the corners of my mouth and tried to squeeze out a smile: "Okay." ”

We waved our tall bottles and took a sip of wine with red eyes.

At Sui Xiaokai's house. Hu Xiaodong asked drunkenly: "You said everything you said." ”

Sui Xiaokai shook the wine bottle: "I said it, but Xiao Ke'er didn't plan to tell Sister Xiao Dai." ”

Hu Xiaodong smiled bitterly: "Do you know why I promised my mother to be engaged to that woman?" ”

"Why?" Sui Xiaokai burped and squinted drunken eyes, looking intently at the high-flying prince in front of him.

"Because Gu Ningdai really loves me, with her temper, when that day, she, even if she doesn't make a scene, will call me in advance and beg me not to leave."

Sui Xiaokai didn't know what to say: "Is this really good?" ”

at my house.

An Xiaoke tentatively: "Just now Xiaokai called and said that Hu Xiaodong was going to get engaged in three days. ”

I jerked my dizzy head and said with red eyes, "I know! ”

"Are you going?"

I bowed my head and sat up straight with a rock: "Go, of course!" He wanted me to see him victorious, and I went to see enough. ”