He Cheng's father is a person who is not good at talking, and he never takes the initiative to call He Cheng, every time He Cheng calls him, he mechanically asks He Cheng if he eats well and how his work is, and then falls into silence. But He Cheng felt more clearly his father's concern for him, the love that was never expressed in words! Listening to his mother's words, a scene naturally appeared in He Cheng's mind: at this moment, his gray-haired father stared at a certain place in a daze, without any expression on his face, no sadness or sigh, only the eternal and unyielding unyielding that had been tempered by these years.

With his mother's story, He Cheng remembered that every time he went to his second uncle's house when he was a child, when he came back, his pocket was stuffed with snacks by the second uncle, such as big bubble gum, crispy noodles, hawthorn skin, etc., which could not be eaten at home. The second uncle was married off by his son-in-law, and he was half an aunt, and because of this, the cousins were very willing to go to the second uncle's house as guests. He still remembers that the family conditions of the second uncle's family were the best, because the second uncle was a driver that year, and the driver at that time was a popular profession, and he could accept apprentices like a professional master.

He Cheng's eyes showed a pampering smile of the second uncle, eased his nerves, and said firmly into the phone: "Mom, what are you talking about, the second uncle is Dad's brother, but he is also my own uncle, it is important to save people, I still have 12,000 yuan here, I will call you tomorrow!" Tell Dad not to say such things, what to say to return us, how much have I spent on you since I was a child"

"No, it's 10,000, and you have to save some money for self-defense! I told your brother, he agreed, you two 10,000 each, we don't expect your second uncle to pay back this money, alas! I'm sorry for you! He Cheng's mother couldn't stop sighing on the phone.

"Mom, what do you say? Okay, let's not talk about it, let Dad not worry too much, I'll call me tomorrow for the money, you should also pay more attention to your body, and I should go back for a walk. He Cheng didn't want to say any more, the self-blame in his heart made it difficult for him to calm down, and he didn't want his mother to worry.

Hung up the phone, He Cheng was in a trance, he hadn't slept for a day and a night, when he put the phone into his pocket sideways, his head was dizzy, his body was crooked, and his buttocks on one side suddenly hung in the air, and he almost fell down. He Cheng reacted quite quickly, quickly threw away the wine bottle in his hand, turned around quickly, changed his sitting to his stomach, and grabbed the edge of the wall with both hands. used the last strength of his body and climbed up, fortunately He Cheng was relatively thin, and the only bit of physical strength left in his body really pulled him back from the ghost gate, otherwise he would have really fallen down just now.

Leaning against the wall, He Cheng slowly sat down, the beer bottle on the ground had been shattered, and the beer foam was bubbling on the ground. He Cheng is like a puddle of mud now, and he can't even move a finger. At this moment just now, he really tried the slightest taste of death, feeling the sweat all over his body, He Cheng thought to himself, it turned out that he was still afraid of death subconsciously.

Early the next morning, beads of sweat appeared on He Cheng's face, who was curled up on the bed, and he opened his mouth to say something, but he didn't say anything, obviously having a nightmare. Suddenly, a violent vibration of the mobile phone and an alarm bell woke He Cheng from his nightmare. As usual, He Cheng turned over, slid the phone screen, looked at the time, and found that today was Sunday, closed his eyes and fell asleep again. The next moment, He Cheng jumped up from the bed like a big carp that had been electrocuted. After a brief scrubbing, He Cheng got dressed while walking, took his bank card and went to the nearest ATM. After completing a series of operations, he clicked on the balance inquiry, leaving only the poor "1985" four Arabic numerals, but He Cheng was relieved, looked at the ATM screen and said to himself: "Oh, it's just right, it's my year of birth!" ”

After that, He Cheng called back, told the family that the money had been remitted, and asked about the situation of the second uncle over there, I heard that he was still waiting to make up the money, He Cheng didn't want to ask more, although he was very concerned in his heart, but he was afraid of hearing any bad news, and for the second uncle's affairs, he felt very guilty, guilty that he had no money, and that he was weak in ability, and many times he always liked to blame these things on his own head.

On the way back, He Cheng answered a phone call, the phone was called by the landlord, and at the end of the month, the landlord came to call for rent, He Cheng touched the only few banknotes left in his pocket, sighed helplessly, and thought about how to survive this month, and finally the landlord told He Cheng that the rent would be raised again from next month, which made He Cheng angry and greeted the eighteenth generation of the landlord's ancestors. "Nima's, why don't you go and rob the bank!" He Cheng muttered. Although the landlord said that he would increase the rent, even if it did, it would be the cheapest rental house in the area, and He Cheng didn't dare to look for another house.

He Cheng went back and slept on the bed again, and when he got up, it was already three o'clock in the afternoon, and he still didn't feel that he had slept well. I got up and took a shower, and it took half an hour to shave off his beard, He Cheng's beard grew thick and thick, and it was even covered in pieces, even under his chin, if he didn't shave for a few days, he could become a little old man in a few days. He Cheng washed his face with facial cleanser again, and then dressed neatly and went out in the mirror a few times.

Although He Cheng's residence was made like a kennel by him, he still pays great attention to his image when he goes out, although he will not dress up like a girl, but he is also neatly dressed, wearing a casual shirt and pants, and a pair of black and shiny casual leather shoes on his feet.

Eating is the least concern of He Cheng, and every time he fills his stomach casually. For eating, he is not picky at all, spicy, fragrant and numb, and eats some of them. Because of the tight economy this month, He Cheng had to choose cheap and affordable rice noodles to satisfy his hunger.

Needless to say, He Cheng, who had disappeared after a few bites in a hurry, got into the Internet café again. This time, instead of playing games, he tried to find something online. He decided to tighten his belt and buy a computer, second-hand is fine, as long as he can type, he has just experienced a series of changes, determined to code words well, write well, he feels that this is the only way out for him now, but he can't continue to play like this, so muddy and nightmarish.

In the end, He Cheng saw a cheapest computer on a second-hand computer network, judging from the photos, this is a very old old desktop computer, as soon as he saw it, He Cheng remembered the computers he came into contact with when he was in a microcomputer class in junior high school, which is a very old computer. The small display has a large body, the shape is the same as the old black and white TV set, and he has never been able to figure out what is contained in the big lump behind such a small screen, and he has not yet figured out this question. The main unit is the kind of bulky and large rectangular box, the chassis is very old, and even the photos can clearly see the slightest rust.

In the last few photos, you can also see the dark blue screen of the computer flashing and flashing, it is said that this is caused by the inconsistency of the screen flickering of the computer and the camera, of course, these He Cheng does not understand, for the computer, he only knows how to use. However, He Cheng also has some experience in buying second-hand things, as long as things like this can be used, there is no need to worry about the rest, and finally He Cheng took down this antique-level computer at a price of 250 yuan.

There's a reason why he would choose such a computer. He Cheng is very aware of his virtues, playful, no persistence, and very poor self-control. He was afraid that he would not be able to control himself from doing anything else if he bought back a normal computer, and he would not be able to devote himself to writing, which would be contrary to his original intention. He wanted to cut off the distractions in his heart from the root, maybe only in this way could he feel at ease. In addition, if he doesn't want to starve to death this month, he can only accept the price of less than 300 yuan.

After the online payment, He Cheng lamented the speed and convenience brought by the current network, but also sighed at the speed of shrinking of his bank card number, he really didn't know how to spend money, more than half of his salary every month was filled into this virtual network, and many times he didn't know how to spend it. However, he remembered the money this time, because he felt that he was very similar to the number "250".

After the business was done, He Cheng of course had a fierce battle in the game, and he wanted to say his final goodbye to the game. But this goodbye was a bit long, and when he went back to his kennel to sleep, it was already 2 o'clock in the morning, tired and he lay on the bed, turning sideways to read the e-book, which was a way for him to hypnotize himself, and every night he didn't know when he fell asleep.

"Later, I finally learned how to love" Early in the morning, the violent vibration of the mobile phone next to the pillow and the ringing of high decibel decibels woke He Cheng up. The ringtone set by He Cheng is a song he likes very much, and this song always reminds him of that girlfriend from a few years ago. Maybe in his heart, what he loves and cares about the most is this girlfriend, but it's a pity that he didn't cherish it at the beginning, He Cheng has always felt so emotional. Since this girlfriend, He Cheng has not looked for a girlfriend again, because this girlfriend has always occupied his heart, and he can no longer accept other girls.

Before this, He Cheng had always thought that he was not a very single-minded person, and he had talked about a few girlfriends before the girl, but when it came to breaking up, he didn't feel how sad he was, let alone shed tears, and he didn't do too much to keep it. He has always felt that the kind of love in the TV series is exaggerated by the actors, he doesn't believe that love will have such great magic, let alone that he will be deeply in love, in his heart he is a big carrot.

But this girl made him feel what true love is: such love is unforgettable; When he broke up, He Cheng could clearly feel that his heart was hurting, and he really experienced this feeling of heartache, it was a feeling that even felt pain when he breathed. Once I heard others say that it was very heartbreaking up, He Cheng thought it was someone else's contrived, but since then, he no longer thinks like that.