He Cheng, who looks very strong on the outside, is actually very fragile inside, he lives in a world set by himself, and he wears a thick layer of camouflage in life and reality. He doesn't want others to know him too well, so that he thinks that he is no different from others, so that he doesn't feel inferior. But he never minds others confiding in him, he is kind by nature, whenever a friend or colleague complains to him, He Cheng is very patient to comfort the other party, until the other party is relieved. In this way, He Cheng is very popular among these colleagues and friends, and all those who are familiar with him like him very much and are willing to play with him. But he likes to be lonely, to live in his own world, to live alone in a virtual network.

In a small Internet café near He Cheng's rent, there is a person sitting in front of a computer in a dark corner, and this person is He Cheng. As a string of words appeared on the computer screen, "The killing machine is already super god!" Please, who will kill him! At this time, He Cheng's face was a little red with excitement, but it was still difficult to hide the decadence and tiredness on his face, "Haha! , look at you guys pretending to be forced again! He Cheng laughed happily, then collapsed in his chair, lit a cigarette, and continued his killing business. Concentrated, he was very happy to kill in this virtual world, and he was very happy to be killed. Only in this virtual killing world can he put aside all the troubles in the real world and immerse himself in this short-term happiness.

Happy times are always short-lived, and suddenly the computer screen shows that the balance is insufficient, please top up. At this moment, He Cheng felt that a long time had passed, and then he felt a headache, and endured the swelling pain in his brain, he habitually took out his mobile phone and looked at the time, 17:50, the time of the day passed like this, in fact, there was time on the computer, but now He Cheng's mind was a mess. He struggled to get up from the chair, touched his face with his hand, his face was greasy, the small Internet café space was illuminated by fluorescent lights like day, the room was full of clouds, he looked up at the light, and suddenly felt that his eyes could not see clearly, in a trance, he closed his eyes for a while before opening them, feeling that he was not blind.

At the same time, He Cheng's stomach was shriveled and hungry, but he didn't have the slightest appetite, he had a slight stomach problem, as long as he was hungry for a long time, he couldn't eat, and he vomited in severe cases. He Cheng walked into the toilet with difficulty, turned on the faucet, washed his face fiercely, and then looked at himself in the mirror, with a scruffy beard, a sallow face, and deep eye sockets, just like the zombies in the American drama "The Walking Dead", he felt like he was about to die. However, this feeling is not the first time He Cheng has appeared, he is not disgusted by this feeling, sometimes he finds this feeling very enjoyable.

It was already completely dark, He Cheng stumbled to pick up two bottles of beer from the commissary, bought some peanuts, and a lot of fast junk food, he did not go back to the kennel like rent, but walked straight up the stairs to the roof of the building where he lived. The roof of the building was empty, but there were still a few broken bricks placed in the corners, which happened to serve as seats for He Cheng to drink every time.

He Cheng opened a bottle of beer, raised his head and took a big sip, the cold beer was cold in his throat, which instantly made He Cheng sober up a lot, he put the bite open bottle cap in the palm of his hand and looked down at this faint light, "Haha" He Cheng laughed loudly, laughing so much that tears came out, he actually won the lottery, and another bottle! It seems that there is a saying that is still well-said, there is no endless road.

He Cheng carried a beer and ate two potato chips, he did not sit on the brick in the corner, but turned over and sat on the low wall of the top floor, hanging his feet in the air, and his feet stood upside down, for fear that the double flip-flops would fall, but he was indifferent, and his face was light and light. More than ten floors high-rise, He Cheng just sat on the edge of the hug, if he was seen by an aunt from the community below, he would definitely call the police immediately, and thought he was going to jump off the building.

Although the area where He Cheng lives is some distance from the city, it is also very prosperous, and almost all of this area is built on the mountain, and the terrain is relatively high. Sitting on the top floor, He Cheng can overlook the night view of most of the area.

He Cheng looked at the brilliant coastal city, countless neon lights kept flashing, and the stars in the sky reflected each other, the towering high-rise buildings set off more grandiose, one by one asphalt roads in the moonlight silver glow like a sleeping dragon. Looking at the asphalt road, He Cheng suddenly remembered a song, Zheng Zhihua's "Sailor", there is such a sentence in the lyrics "The asphalt road in the city is too hard to step on the footprints" Yes, who can leave his footprints in this cold and hard city? This is a song that He Cheng has always liked very much, and perhaps singing this song can give him the courage to live.

He Cheng looked at the countless speeding cars on the road stupidly, and sighed in his mouth, such a big and prosperous city, people have their own houses, their own cars, and their own homes, and there are beloved people at home, what about themselves? There are so many buildings in sight, why doesn't one of them belong to me; There are so many cars, the road can be paved when it is congested, and which one belongs to you; There are so many people in the world, except for men and women, why don't they have a girlfriend until now Thinking of this, He Cheng has an urge to jump down, whenever he is depressed and comes to the top of the building, he will think so, but this is just thinking about it, no matter when he is very sensible.

He is not afraid of death, but he knows that people do not live entirely for themselves, although he can be like this, get rid of pain. But what about family? What about parents? What about people who care about themselves? What will happen to them?

He Cheng hummed "Sailor" while drinking, a sip of wine and a puff of cigarette, swallowing clouds and spitting fog, blowing the mountain wind, and his mood suddenly improved a lot. Laughing at himself, He Cheng thought: The ancients borrowed wine to eliminate their sorrows, and now people can not only borrow wine but also smoke to eliminate their sorrows, hehe, this can be regarded as a kind of progress of the times!

"Later, I finally learned how to love, but unfortunately you disappeared in the sea of people, and later" The mobile phone rang, He Cheng put down the wine bottle, took out the mobile phone sideways, and glanced at the mobile phone screen displaying "Mom! He Cheng tried to calm himself, cleared his throat, touched the answer, and said in a relaxed tone: "Hey, Mom, haven't slept yet?" My nephews are asleep! Is there something wrong with this late hour? "He Cheng has an older brother, and the elder brother has been married a long time ago and has given birth to two children, both boys, known as the two construction banks. He Cheng is very fond of his two nephews, and the two little ones are very smart and cute, and they are also very likable.

"Well, they're all asleep! What about you? Is it okay over there? My mother asked with concern on the phone.

"Okay, I'm fine, it's not always like this! Mom, is there something wrong with you calling me so late? He Cheng continued to ask. He knows very well that his mother usually calls him during the day after he gets off work, and rarely at night, unless something happens.

"You have to take good care of yourself when you're out there alone! Hey, what are you doing now? Why is there such a big noise on the phone? He Cheng's mother asked with some concern. She knows He Cheng very well, her son is usually in front of the computer in the rented house at this time, knowing her son Mo Ruomu, although He Cheng changed his tone just now, he Cheng's mother still heard the difference in his tone.

"Mom, what didn't I do? I ate too much today, my stomach is bloated, take a walk outside, you don't have to worry about me, your son and I have been out for so many years, you can put a hundred hearts! He Cheng comforted.

On the phone, He Cheng's mother sighed and said with more concern: "Son, you must be good outside, even if you don't make much money, you must pay more attention to your body, don't always lie in front of the computer, it's not good for your health, it's okay to go out and exercise." If you feel tired, go home to rest, although money is important, it is something outside the body, the body is the most important, you must eat on time" He Cheng listened patiently to these nagging, and finally he couldn't help but interrupt the endless nagging on the phone, and the last few words of his mother's nagging were obviously crying, and an ominous premonition made He Cheng feel scared.

He Cheng asked eagerly, "Mom, what's going on at home?" Tell me, stop nagging! At this moment, his heart was anxious, and he was even more afraid, he was afraid to hear the news that he did not want to hear.

"Alas!" He Cheng's mother sighed deeply, and then said: "Mom and Dad are fine, they are all fine, it was your second uncle who had an accident and suffered a cerebral hemorrhage, and is now being rescued in the hospital, but"

From his mother's account, He Cheng learned that his second uncle was very sick and urgently needed surgery, but the operation cost 100,000 yuan, which was an astronomical amount for an ordinary or even somewhat poor family. In this moment of crisis, the preciousness of family affection is highlighted, and blood is thicker than water is an eternal truth. In the end, after discussion, everyone decided that in terms of the brothers and sisters of the same generation as the second uncle, each family must pay 20,000 yuan for his treatment. In this way, He Cheng's father spread 20,000 yuan, and the rest He Cheng also has an uncle and an aunt, and there are 60,000 yuan for each household of 20,000, and all the remaining insufficient will go to the relatives on the second aunt's side. He Cheng's father was originally a carpenter, but then the profession of carpenter gradually declined, and his father has been following others to do some decoration work, and he can't make much money a year, just enough to maintain the family's livelihood. Now that it's all of a sudden, it's sad for his father.

"Son, your father's money for working in the first half of the year is still owed in the hands of others, and it is estimated that it will not arrive until the end of the year. He was embarrassed to say to you, but your father said that he would return it to you when the time came, this is his brother, he is responsible, and he hasn't even slept for the past two days! ”

He Cheng held his mobile phone and listened blankly, the indescribable sadness in his heart was more self-blame, self-blame himself for being so useless, the old father at home is still working hard every day, for the eldest brother and himself, for this family, their parents have paid too much.