As long as there is competition, human beings will have the idea of wanting to win, no matter how much a person shows his indifference to fame and fortune, in essence, this is biased towards hypocrisy, retreating from the competition, not because he does not want to win, but because he is afraid of competition, or because he wants to protect something more important, in short, if he can tell the person in the competition a law of victory, then no matter who will not hesitate to adopt it.

For a period of time, Kato often thinks about the reason why he gave up competition, and the reason for Megumi Kato's withdrawal, which is in front of Kazuya, in front of Eiriri, is very simple - that is, there is something he wants to protect more, that is, the club of Blessing-Software.

But what do you really think? Is it really because you want to protect this society? Or is it just my own fear? Even Megumi Kato, who is always in a state of heightened clarity, is not very clear - or even if she does, she is afraid to admit the answer, and humans will always deny their timidity and withdrawal.

Kato didn't know if Shiyu and Ying Riri had ever had the idea of retreating, or judging from her judgment, she only knew that, at least from her point of view, although it was sad and painful, but at the moment of withdrawal, she had a momentary sense of relief, and the previous fear of the unknown future was completely gone, and what remained was only the reality that she was most accustomed to observing as a bystander.

This is the identity that Kato is most accustomed to for more than ten years, an absolute observer, an observer in the absolute sense, without taking any risks, without bearing any pressure of competition, this situation is of course absolutely easy. So, when she learned that Kazuya had already chosen Eiri, Kato's mood didn't fluctuate much, she liked this situation where everything was stable, she liked this situation where the club could continue to operate stably after it stabilized, and of course, she also liked this situation where she could continue to observe everyone with peace of mind without intervening.

However, this kind of liking, this appreciation, almost collapsed when she saw Kazuya standing side by side with Yingli Riri. What made Kato feel instinctively panicked was that a feeling of emptiness and dissatisfaction instinctively surged up from the bottom of her heart, and although she quickly suppressed this emotion that she should not have, the rapidity and turbulence of that emotion were completely unexpected by her.

The feeling of regret for the original choice that appeared in an instant also made her feel extremely frightened.

"So, in addition to controlling your facial expressions, when you really adjust your mind, is your skill still not at home?" This is after trying his best to disguise the serene expression he is used to, Kato silently complained to himself in his heart.

Similarly, when she saw that Eriri on the train could sit next to Kazuya as her girlfriend, and Ayase could sleep unscrupulously against Kazuya, Kato still showed an unpleasant factor in her heart, although this unpleasantness was forcibly suppressed because of her early preparation, but she still felt a little sentimental when she thought that she could only sit side by side with Shiyu on the seat of the train on the other side to warm each other.

It was at this time that Kato made a small determination of the emotion in his heart that he had not been sure about before, although it was likely to have come to an end before it began.

Looking at Kazuya and Eiri who put a flashbang on a small scale, even she was surprised that when Kato suddenly realized that she could complain in her usual bland and unwavering tone, she realized what a strange habit she had developed for herself in her usual state.

Kato Megumi's character is always stable and stable, if this kind of character is only established in the eyes of others, it's fine, but what's even more terrible is that Kato himself, who didn't deliberately want to create this kind of character image, agrees with this image in the eyes of others in his self-perception, and unconsciously shows it, it's a little scary, although he still vents his emotions when he wants to, but when he doesn't deliberately want to vent his emotions, he has become accustomed to this kind of face that reassures others, For her, this is tantamount to putting a heavy shackle on herself.

If she is an observer, of course, she is qualified to do this, but as an observer, the most important thing is not to have your own emotional orientation, if you have your own emotional orientation, then as an observer, you will be very aware of your hypocrisy, because you are using this observer's mask to deceive yourself, to find an excuse for yourself to hide your true feelings.

"Well,If you think about it like this,It's really a little bad.,I didn't think of this at that time before.,Now this situation.,This kind of self-deception situation.,It's really a bit annoying.。 Kato looked down at his hands, feeling the feeling of his long hair being pressed by Shiyu leaning on him, and muttered to himself.

"Uh, Kato, did you just say something?" Kazuya, who had been paying attention to Kato's expression and expression very sensitively since his interaction with Eiri Pear just now was caught by Kato, looked at Kato who was squirming his lips and asked.

"Hawkers,I'm just thinking.,If Aragaki-san-san and Eiri pear are also like this in future club activities.,Will I not be able to accept it and leave.。 Kato said such a sentence half-truthfully, and what made her feel a little uncomfortable was that she did not notice the slightest unnaturalness when she said it.

"Ah, this, well, if you have club activities, well, you'll pay attention, you see, Ying Lili has to paint, and I may have to take care of the football club, so I say, haha, ah-la-"

"--I was able to relax because I knew this!"

"Although I feel like you didn't say anything rude, I still feel a little uncomfortable!"

"Delusion, delusion!"

Even though he said that, he still felt Kato's somewhat dazzling gaze, so Kazuya and Eiri still moderately distanced the two from each other a little.

"Well, this kind of problem, since it has appeared, then it has to be remedied to some extent!" Kato looked at Shiyu, who was leaning on his shoulder with some headaches, and Shiyu, who was not the oldest senior sister in the group at all, and Ayase, who was still sleeping soundly on Kazuya's shoulder at the other end, thought so, "Although I can't think of any good ways for the time being, but the best way is generally to keep my distance, considering that the third year of high school will be divided into classes, so there will be less contact with him during class, and if the club just maintains a normal range of interactions, it should be able to adjust slowly, right?" Time is the best antidote, after all, like that idiot—"

Kato's eyes looked at Ying Li Li with some complicated and doting eyes, and continued to think: "It's also a very rare thing to be able to miss someone for ten years like that stupid person!" ”

"However, it looks like the future is dark, it's so annoying, so at least give me a reason to feel like I'm not so miserable this wave!" Kato blinked to himself and looked up at the ceiling of the carriage, "At least, the club still exists!" The community itself that caused this reason still exists! ”

That's right, as long as the community can still exist, one's withdrawal is meaningful, no matter what the real reason for one's withdrawal is, but one's only need to believe that one's withdrawal is to maintain the community itself. This is the most simple and simple idea in Megumi Kato's mind right now.

However, the more clearly she sees, the more dangerous it is at this time, because she has to dance on the tightrope while seeing clearly where everything is wrong. Now, however, even Kato himself does not realize that slowly, the community itself has become the last straw that frees her from her own doubts.

If it weren't for this life-saving straw, all the things that Kato could believe in and hold on to would have exploded, and what would happen next, when the dancer fell off the tightrope, would have been something that would have happened, and no one would have thought about it, and everyone would have ignored it, satisfying themselves with the self-deception of "this will never happen".

And now Megumi Kato is exactly like this.

"However, should I say that I saw the unexpected side of Kasumigaoka-senpai?" Kato glanced at Shi Yu, who was still leaning on his shoulder, with a little headache, and complained helplessly, "Such a soft senior sister, if others see it, it will set off a bloody storm in the school!" ”

"Indeed," Kato's complaint didn't expect others to reply, but now I always feel that this situation is a bit awkward Kazuya, and he still forcibly joined the conversation with Kato, "So I really haven't seen Sister Shiyu sleep so soundly!" Speaking of which, every time I work with my senior sister, I fall asleep first, and I let my senior sister take all kinds of photos, and I suddenly feel very sad! ”

"So Kazuya-kun is envious? No problem, if you sit on my side, I can sleep on your shoulder, or maybe Xiaohui's shoulders are really a little short or a little uncomfortable now! ”

"Sister Shiyu Kasumigaoka who is pillowed on my shoulder, is it really good for you to talk like this-eh, when did you wake up, senior sister?"

Not only Kato himself, who was complaining, but also Kazuya and Eiri Rinai, the three of them looked at Shiyu, who opened their eyes and was full of smiles, and asked a little at a loss.

"That's right, I woke up just when Kazuya-kun and Xiaohui said 'unpleasant feeling'! You don't think I'm talking in my ear, can you? ”

"Well, such people still exist, right?" Kazuya helplessly glanced at Ayase, who was still leaning on his shoulder, obviously not pretending to be asleep, and said.

"But it's a pity, even if he agrees to let me do this in the future, I'll be a little restrained! After all, the current Kazuya-kun is a person who has a girlfriend.,If I say this kind of thing again.,So the cute girlfriend adults don't know what to do with me! Shi Yu squinted at Ying Lili and said with a sneering smile.

"Hey, Kasumigaoka Shiha!" Ying Li Li originally habitually wanted to be mad at Shi Yu, but this feeling of madness forced herself to pinch herself when the anger value was still enough, and finally, a little depressed, Ying Li Li said, "You better pay a little attention, although I know that you are teasing Kazuya, well, it is true that it has never been put into practice, but-uh, you know-"

"Tsk, you see that you are now practicing your girlfriend's rights immediately, it's really envious - but it's also quite fun for you to get angry halfway through and then stop, and you still feel guilty for 'snatching' Kazuya-kun from me? Well, with this feeling of guilt, I'm satisfied! ”

"Kasumigaoka Shiha! You guy! Under Shiyu's repeated teasing, the reserved Ying Lili who finally began to lose what he wanted to keep at the beginning finally broke out as usual.

However, this time, Shi Yu stopped a little unexpectedly early: "Okay, girlfriend, I was wrong, I won't do this to you in the future." ”

This also made Ying Lili, who had just saved up enough anger value, feel like she had punched the cotton.

"However, I suddenly think that Xiaohui, who has long hair, is also very good! I didn't think of it before, although the shoulders are not wide enough, but they are more or less enough, um-"

"This, Senior Sister Shiyu, can you pause?"

"Huh? Kazuya-kun, ask? ”

"When did your relationship with Kato become so good, call Kato's name or something, or 'Xiao Hui', and even Ying Li Li is just called 'Hui'."

"Well, actually, I have this question! Kasumigaoka Senpai, although I'm very happy to be able to call me by my name, but I always feel a little uneasy when Senior Sister says this kind of thing, or how do you say it? ”

"After all, the same person who is a defeated dog has become you!" Shi Yu said as a matter of course.

"Well, a lost dog or something—" Kato replied with some confusion.

"So I just want to deepen my relationship with fellow losers with the same experience, after all—" Shiyu sighed, revealing a somewhat complicated expression.

And at this time, he also realized that Shi Yu was a little abnormal, the previous Shi Yu in Ying Lili's house, seemed unusually silent, and now Shi Yu seems to be a little too "lively".

"So, Kasumigaoka-senpai, I feel that you are a little now, um, strange?" Kazuya looked at Shiyu and said uncertainly.

"Ah, is that so?" Shi Yu raised his head, shook his head, then brushed his sideburns, and said, "I'm sorry, when I'm a little depressed, my acting skills are a little exaggerated?" ”

"Well, acting or something, you don't need acting in front of us, right? Well, if Shiyu-senpai is really sad, like I'm going to make amends, or punish me or something-"

"No, I still need to!" Shi Yu shook his head and said, "Well, at least, in my last days in this community, I still don't want to bring you too sad memories, right?" ”