Chapter 235: Shadows in the Sun
"Senior Sister Shiyu, what do you mean by this?" The air in the carriage, which had a relatively normal atmosphere of joy just now, instantly froze, and after everyone looked at each other for a long time, finally Kazuya spit out a sentence simply.
"Well, isn't that a normal thing? I'll graduate in March next year, and as a graduate student, it's natural to be considered to be automatically leaving the club, right? ”
"Hey, Kasumigaoka Shiyu, you're not running away, are you?" Ying Lili stood up, glanced at Shi Yu with some confusion, and said a little angrily, "If this game this time can't tell whether my original art is more attractive or your script is more attractive, does it mean a tie?" I'm not going to agree to such a far-fetched answer! ”
"Moreover, although our club has a little school style, this is just for the convenience of our club room, and this club itself will not be transferred because of the far-fetched requirement of someone to graduate, right?" Kato also looked at Shiyu beside him with some excitement, with a hint of panic and anxiety in his face, such Kato's expression, Kazuya is also the first time to see it, obviously, for Kato, this matter is definitely an unexpected thing that he doesn't know how to solve for the time being.
In this somewhat neurotic atmosphere of everyone, Shi Yu shook his head helplessly and said, "Well, there's no need to be so nervous, right?" I just can't come to the classroom after school every day to stay with you, can I? After all, if I'm going to Hayao University, it's a bit too difficult for me to come to Tounosaki's classroom every day after school, right? ”
"So, what does Senior Sister Shiyu mean?" Kazuya asked a little nervously, if Shiyu really chose to leave, it would be a huge blow to everyone in the community, he and Yingli Li didn't talk about it, they made a lot of efforts and sacrifices, and Lunya and Kato, who wanted the community to continue to unite together, were also a huge question mark about how to accept this reality, so when Shiyu said that sentence lightly, Kazuya looked at Kato for the first time, And Kato's somewhat terrifyingly unnatural expression also proves his thoughts.
However, the next words of Shi Yu seemed to relax his nervousness a little: "So, of course, I can't participate in your club activities every day, but it should be no problem to write a little manuscript or something, and the cooperative relationship can still be preserved!" ”
"So, Senior Sister Shiyu means that you won't leave, right?"
"Or do you think that Blessing-Software won't come to me to write a script in the future?"
"Well, that's it!" Kazuya sighed heavily, and sat down with some peace of mind with Ying Lili and Shiyu, who had already stood up on the side.
And Shi Yu, whose face was somewhat incomprehensible, still showed a slightly gloomy look in the gap that no one could see.
From the time she made this decision, she knew that this decision would not be accepted by everyone, and she could even imagine the uproar that might be set off in the club if she was going to announce her withdrawal, at that time, maybe Kazuya would use all kinds of magical means to keep her again, maybe this time the attitude of wanting to leave her behind would be more intense, because she was sensitive, she could feel it somewhat, Kato Kazuya, the persistence of the integrity of the community, especially Kato Megumi, The importance of her in the now somewhat isolated situation.
If you are retained like this, then you can't really be retained, although she has already made the decision to change jobs, and asked the Machida editor to contact Akasaka Zhuyin, but Shiyu believes that she is such a fragile person, if she is retained in this group of people who she also values, she who is ready to leave the community alone may really give up because of her fear and worry.
However, Kasumigaoka Shiyu knows that there are too many times when he is weak, and it is precisely because of weakness that he will make himself appear to be in a position to retreat on the issue of feelings, to a certain extent, she has realized the deliberate hindrance of the Machida editor's relationship with Kazuya, for this, she was originally very puzzled, but now, she has somewhat understood - the somewhat false love affair that has not been determined, rather than waiting, it will be more decisive to completely break up.
However, the way of splitting must not be that kind of violent one-cut, before this two of his own departures have shown this, and although he is very hesitant many times, but he is not weak at all in execution, not to mention, if he leaves at this time, not only will he not get the support of Ying Li, but it will make Ying Li Li feel more guilty, which is also what she doesn't want to see that may happen to Ying Li, who cherishes her own affection.
Therefore, this time, Shi Yu took a somewhat cunning and helpless move, that is, all members of the club lost their position to persuade themselves. After the initial apparent resolute desire to leave, Shiyu took the initiative to retreat, vaguely hinting at a move that seemed to have agreed to stay, but in fact did not say anything.
After graduation, of course, I can't participate in the club's after-school activities every day, but this does not mean that I can't participate in other free time, or in other free time, in other words, with the progress of Blessing-Software's work, most of the tasks are not completed during the club activities but through retreats or in a short period of time. Before the others realized this, Shiyu gave them a vague impression that "he could continue to write for the club".
And when Kazuya asked if he could stay, Shiyu didn't explicitly tell Kazuya that he could stay, but asked in a playful way, "Do you think Blessing-Software won't come to me to write a script in the future", in this big context, everyone will think that Shiyu has hinted that he will stay. However, in fact, Kasumigaoka Shiyu here did not make any statement, and Blessing-Software may continue to ask for his help in writing the script, but because he is only cooperating with the community as a "cooperative", the most important thing is that it is up to his side to decide whether he will agree to the other party's request.
And when it comes to rejecting the other party, because at this time, no matter who you are, you can't find a reason why Kasumigaoka Shiyu must agree, and after shirking it many times, the other party will not have enough time to make games, so you can only be forced to solve the script by yourself, and the moment Blessing-Software's script writing is separated from herself, your relationship with this community is cut off.
"So, although I deceived you, I didn't lie!" Looking at Kazuya and the others, who were rejoicing somewhat, Shi Yu sighed softly.
Even at this time, even Shiyu didn't know very well that she still had a hint of inexplicable desire to let the other party discover her design, but Kato, who should have been very keen at this time, or Kazuya, who was particularly concerned about Shiyu's situation, were just rejoicing in the integrity of the society, and did not discover the truth of the matter.
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However, the person who discovered Shiyu's anomaly still exists, and that is Ayase, who has been sleeping on Kazuya's shoulder.
It is impossible to expect the four people who have made such a big noise not to wake Ayase, although Kazuya has been careful not to make a big move that affects his sister's rest, but when the sound of the four of them chattering and discussing came, Ayase still woke up from his sleep in a blur.
However, she wanted to raise her head from Kazuya's shoulder, but she hesitated when she heard the content of the conversation between the four, although she didn't know what kind of mood she was in now, but Ayase knew that if she got up, in front of herself, an "outsider", the discussion of the four about the community would automatically end.
That's right, Ayase is now an "outsider" - although she has the closest relationship with Kazuya, and although she has a good relationship with Kato and Eiriri, she is still an outsider when it comes to club activities. And, judging from the club visit she worked on last time, she didn't feel like she could simply fit into that environment, and if she could simply cheer him on as a supporter during Kazuya's soccer game, then while Kazuya was busy with that, Ayase would find that she didn't even have a foothold.
So, deep down, Ayase knew that she was jealous of Eiri and them, because the other party could talk to Kazuya about things that he couldn't communicate with Kazuya. But Ayase also knew that her inexplicable jealousy was abnormal, so most of the time, she would accuse herself of this incorrect mentality with some hatred. However, this does not stop many times her impulsive approach.
This is the current practice of lying on Kazuya's shoulders and pretending to be asleep, and continuing to listen to the conversation between the four of them, from the dialogue, Ayase realized that this seemingly random discussion can determine the continuation of the community to a certain extent, and hearing such a conversation made Ayase feel a sense of joy that she had eavesdropped on some secret.
It was in this context that Ayase overheard Shiyu's conversation. Maybe it's because he can only focus his energy on the other party's words with his eyes closed and ignore many other facial deceptions, or maybe it's because Shiyu wants to give up and deliberately deceive, but there is a complex feeling of hope in his heart Ayase is also particularly able to empathize, and at the moment when Shiyu said those words, Ayase heard the other meanings contained in it.
If it was Ayase in the past, she would not hesitate to stand by Kazuya's side at this time, even at the risk of offending Kazuya and Shiyu, she would tell Kazuya about it, but this time Ayase hesitated, and some inexplicably remembered the slightly tingling feeling that Kazuya who hugged Yingli pear brought to herself, and Ayase thought with some anger:
"You've made me unhappy, even if it's only for a moment, and you've made me unhappy, so it's okay to take this kind of thing as compensation, right?"
"But is that really okay?" Remembering the first quarrel between his brother and sister caused by his irresponsible temper before, Ayase hesitated again.
"It's okay, it's okay not to tell my brother about this matter, and my brother has no right to blame me, he didn't find the problem himself, do you still have to rely on me to help him find out? Besides, he didn't know I knew about it, so it didn't matter. ”
Ayase's heart is now like two villains fighting, and she is a little frightened to find that she has actually done a lot of things that violate her common sense today, such as taking Kato and Shiyu to find Kato and Shiyu without asking for it, and eavesdropping on the conversation of the four people in the club at this time, and for example, in this situation, it is rare to have this kind of little girl's temperament of deliberately concealing the truth.
This series of his own wrong behaviors made Ayase feel a little ashamed, but there was an inexplicable sense of accomplishment, which was a strange feeling brought about by the collapse of the image of a good girl who had been maintained in front of her brother for fifteen years.
Ayase often listens to her best friend Kirino complaining about her brother, and even criticizes Kirino for her brother's somewhat impolite behavior, and she also feels that the Takasaka family's brother-sister relationship model is absolutely abnormal, and only her own attitude towards her brother is the most ideal.
However, this most ideal model is being torn apart by herself little by little, Ayase has always been the good sister who wants to work hard to help Kazuya, and has always been the sister who has full respect and longing for her brother, but she will also find that the mentality of being a little rebellious with a little bit of rebellion, the mentality of a little revenge when she is dissatisfied with some of Kazuya's actions, is absolutely no problem.
Ayase can also know that Yihe is also spoiled by herself, and her little girl's mentality is definitely forgivable.
"If you already know this, why should you be so strict with yourself? Why can't I be asked to do something more in line with my heart? ”
While muttering to herself, Ayase's heart produced those thoughts that once made her feel indescribable, a little ashamed, but now she felt that she could try.
"No way!" But soon, Ayase suppressed this idea fiercely, and the strict tutoring and his own strict self-restraint still defeated Ayase's impulse at this time, "You can't have this kind of thought!" If you think like that, you can't predict what you're going to do next! ”
"But if it's just a little bit, it should be fine, right?"
But even so, when a seed begins to take root and sprout, it is difficult to stop external forces.
Just as Ayase was caught in the predicament of the war between heaven and man, Kazuya also noticed the movement of his sister on his shoulder, and asked a little strangely, "Ayase, are you awake?" ”