School drawer.

The classroom is densely packed with desks, books, and people.

At the end of class, students need to lean slightly to the side to get in and out of the hallway.

On the desks in the classroom, there is another kind of freedom.

Some miscellaneous books that have nothing to do with textbook knowledge are circulating freely.

The old repeaters have a variety of books and exchange them with each other.

The new repeaters bought various books at the nearby bookstore and participated in the exchange.

Everyone used it to pass the lonely time of class during the day.

It's so weird here: the more people there are, the more classes there are, the more lonely they are.

The teachers on the podium, no matter what the repeaters are reading in class, as long as no one makes noise and no one drives them away, the teachers will continue to talk about the lesson in front of the students who are pretending to be reading.

The Repeater Department ranks its position according to the grade.

At that time, iron rice bowls were popular, and being admitted to university was to solve the job. Therefore, 99.99 percent of those who have passed the college admission score line have gone to study.

Zeng Danqing is only 13 points away from the college admission score line, which is considered a high score in the university that he was not admitted. At first, he sat in the best position, in the third row. The first and second rows are all girls.

Monthly exams are held here, i.e., once a month. Every time he took the test, Zeng Danqing's position was one or two rows back. After a semester, his position was in the penultimate row.

The further back he sits, the more miscellaneous books he can see.

When he sat in the third row, he watched "Dream of Red Mansions" for a week, and it was dark.

The book is full of Yan Ruyu, and there are almost no bright flowers in the world.

All his thoughts are looking for a peerless face in the book.

On days without Xiaoqin, he turned a blind eye to the women around him.

Zeng Danqing, who has been immersed in "Shooting Surprise" for a long time, has experienced "lewdness" several times in fragments and chapters. In "Dream of Red Mansions", he saw the lewdness in the whole link, and he was lewd to the end. And Jia Baoyu is only thirteen or fourteen years old, that's it, the girls around her are still serving, hugging left and right, so it's not enviable.

He often flipped through the chapter on Baoyu's first trial of cloud and rain, "The attacker touched the root of Baoyu's thigh, and it was cold and wet." Baoyu likes to attack people, soft and charming, and leads the matter of the clouds and rain trained by the police illusion with her. Every time he saw this, his heart was filled with joy.

He rummaged through the specific details of the matter of the police illusion training Yunyu, but there was no such thing at all. I had to think about the words repeatedly, thinking about what was wrong. At the extreme moment, he couldn't help it, inserted one of his hands into his trouser pocket, touched the root of his thigh, pressed the hard thing, squeezed it tightly, and after a while, moved slightly.

In front of him, on the left side of the second row, sat a girl. She has a delicate appearance and is very cute. Ear-length black hair, flowing and shiny.

Whenever she imagined the things that the police illusion trained Yunyu, Zeng Danqing looked at her back and silhouette blankly, and suddenly felt that she treated herself like an attack on Baoyu, gentle and undressed. So he was numb and comfortable.

In this small and oppressive space, he finally let himself be released and got a moment of pleasure. Time is no longer tormented.

His only joy every day is to look at the girl's back and think about it. He could see her so clearly so close, he could even see the tiny hairs on her neck. Her skin was so fair and smooth. He seemed to feel the delicacy and warmth of her skin.

He wanted to be a fairy, why did he teach Baoyu about Yunyu, she was a woman, how did a woman teach a man, and what details did she teach?

He never figured it out. Because the book only uses four words "clouds and rain" to summarize the past.

He thinks that "Dream of Red Mansions" is not as specific as "Shooting Surprise", but he also doesn't know anything about the concretization tutorial of "Shooting Surprise" mentioned above.

He thought, Baoyu was thirteen or fourteen years old, someone taught that, why am I almost eighteen years old, and no one has come to teach this? Why don't I have such a dream? If Baoyu hadn't been taught "clouds and rain" in his dream, what would Baoyu do? Why should there be a "lewd" plot description in the book, and it should be delicately portrayed?

Chinese teachers often say that "Dream of Red Mansions" has a very high status, but they have never heard them say that there are such emotional plots in the book.

Probably involved in adultery, the teacher didn't mention it. In addition to arguments, narratives, and lyrics (mostly expressing the feelings of the motherland's rivers and mountains), there are no words about the true meaning of love in Chinese textbooks.

He couldn't find any example of what love is between men and women, and what love is.

Is it sinful for me to have such lustful thoughts? Are these reactions natural?

What do I want to know about the structure of the human body, and what is the structure of the woman's body?

He was confused.

At that time, there was no Internet, and most of the books in bookstores could not be found. Zeng Danqing didn't even think to really inquire about it.

Under the dense desk, there is no light. With his hands in his trouser pockets, no one suspected anything. Moreover, Zeng Danqing's movements did not make any sound, so naturally they did not attract anyone's attention.

In his heart, he was terrified, thinking that he was doing such an "adulterous" thing in public, which was extremely bad. I want to be completely restrained, but every time I am depressed, I finally indulge and can't extricate myself.

He also thought that Cao Xueqin's writing could be written down and passed down through the ages, why can't I think about it nonsense?

As for whether this will affect his studies, he doesn't think about it at all. In his mind, he had no awareness of reading at all.

He finally felt that women are made of water, and there is always something gentle and lovely. He was like a treasure jade, and when he saw a woman with a beautiful face, he rejoiced.

So he let go of the corners of his eyes, and he felt that most of the women around him were beautiful, except for a few girls who he thought were extremely ugly.

When he was thinking about "clouds and rain" in bed at night, he couldn't see the girl in the front row, so he would imagine all the girls with beautiful faces he had seen around him.

He has a good memory, as long as it is a girl with feelings that he has seen during the day, his smile can be reproduced in his mind.

So many women's kindness and gentleness, shallow chanting and low singing, graceful, graceful, gentle moments, looking back and smiling, Yingge Yan language...... He was like Jia Rui looking at the treasure of the wind and the moon, got into the mirror, and met once.

Among the objects of imagination, he did not add Xiaoqin to it. Although he still thinks about her occasionally, most of the time, he thinks that Xiaoqin is very noble, and if he is as down-and-out as I am, he is no longer worthy of thinking about her, she is like a dazzling and bright star in the sky, and he is the black mud on the earth. Xiaoqin became his dream that will never be out of reach.

So in this imagination, he felt that he was lowly, and he didn't dare to imagine the noble Xiaoqin at all, but only dared to "do whatever he wanted" to imagine the same "lowly" women around him.