The parents were so tired that at night, the mother fell asleep next to her son, while the father fell asleep on the bed of the patient next to him, which was from the city, that is, he went back to his house to sleep after the injection during the day, and came again in the morning during the rounds, and the bed was empty at night.

Shen Pang saw that his mother was sleeping a little off, so he immediately moved to the side, gently stuffed the pillow under his mother's head, and was stunned for a while, and then saw the paper on the bedside table, and then remembered the strange old man he had seen in the park before.

The words were naturally written on the paper, and Shen Pang looked at it with the light, headless and untitled, and the eyes were "seeking spirituality, chasing the mysteries, although the Tao has a door, the traces are immedieable" and other ancient words, which seem to understand whether they understand or not, and when they read it, they seem to think that it is about the meaning of cultivating spiritual ability in the mind.

When he looked back after reading a word, Shen Pang was stunned, only to see that this word had disappeared, and what he was holding in his hand was just a blank piece of paper!

This old man really has a bit of a "Jianghu" style, it is estimated that this paper is written with a substance mixed with invisible drugs, which is not very unusual, and now there are many scammers who use this thing to sign contracts and write IOUs or something.

Fortunately, his ability to remember this article has worked, recalling this word, although some of them still don't understand, but this whole text is engraved in his mind.

After pondering for a while, Shen Pang determined that this was an article about breathing and practicing qi to restrain the mental ability in the brain, from a traditional point of view, this may be the so-called "qigong", and from the perspective of fiction and history, this may be an unreliable "internal strength".

Shen Pang naturally doesn't believe in those flying gods, but if he is as smart as he loves to learn and ponder in everything, he can't sit still, anyway, he can't sleep when he lies in bed, so it's better to just think about it and practice, and if he gets tired of his brain, he will fall asleep, otherwise he will be even more tired if he thinks too much!

The old man didn't talk about a form of this thing, unlike the image in movies and television, pinching the lotus finger and meditating, etc., but even if there is this exquisiteness, Shen Pang will not pay attention to it, that is, he feels that he has insomnia and forces himself to fall asleep and count one sheep, two sheep, and three sheep.

I don't know when I fell asleep, I don't know when I woke up again, I didn't see my parents when I opened my eyes, there was only one person lying on the adjacent bed in the ward, a man in his thirties, very haggard, with a stubble beard, and a mole on the right side of the bridge of his nose, which was very conspicuous.

When the man saw Shen Pang staring at him, he shrank his hand and said angrily, "What do you think I'm doing?" Want to peek at my hole cards? ”

Shen Pang was stunned, he didn't know what he meant, and when he was pondering, he heard someone saying in his ears again: "I'm doing ward rounds, wait a minute, take the box of urine and feces to the nurse's station!" ”

Shen Pang was stunned again, woke up in surprise, and opened his eyes only to realize that he had just had a dream.

The nurse was on rounds, the father was still awake, and the mother was busy preparing small plastic boxes for urine and feces.

Shen Pang still had the picture of the dream he had just dreamed in his mind, and he couldn't help but look at the furthest bed next to him, and he couldn't help but be stunned!

The patient in the bed went through the discharge procedures yesterday, the bed was empty, and now there is a nurse nursing the new patient, and the patient is accompanied by several family members, sitting on the edge of the bed without saying a word, Shen Pang happened to see most of his face in this direction.

With a pointed face, a dark face, a stubble beard, and a mole on the right side of the bridge of his nose, isn't it the man he saw in the dream just now?

Shen Pang was stunned for a moment, trying whether this was a reality or still dreaming, and gently bit the tip of his finger, it hurt, not a dream.

Could it be that I have the rare ability to dream and see the future?

However, after a while, Shen Pang denied the possibility that he had the super ability to dream of the future, because the man raised his eyes to look at him, and when the two looked at each other, the man avoided looking at him, and did not say the words "peek at his hole cards" as annoyed as in the dream.

After her mother finished her trivialities, she wiped Shen Pang's face with a hot towel, and Shen Pang smiled: "Mom, let's do it myself, it's a little soft, but it's not to the point of being a waste." ”

Shen's mother likes to see her son's spirit, and she feels that her son's spirit is really better than yesterday's, so she went out to buy porridge again.

As long as a patient of Shen Pang's level eats, he basically only has "porridge", Shen Pang is a young man who is growing up, and he can still drink some porridge, and if he changes to the elderly, he will only have the share of nutrient solution.

After noon, he did chemotherapy, Shen Pang was in pain again, and when he was struggling to endure it, he wanted to use the method of counting sheep to survive, but this was not insomnia, the method of counting sheep had no effect, gritting his teeth and thinking of the strange old man's qi training method, when he thought of it, he couldn't help but use that method, when he focused on it, the pain of chemotherapy was invisibly reduced, which made Shen Pang more focused on that method.

After the chemotherapy was over, the nurse pushed the seemingly sleepy Shen Pang out, and quietly said to the haggard and anxious Shen Pang's parents: "Your son is very brave, he didn't say a word, and among the patients doing chemotherapy, I haven't seen anyone stronger than your son!" ”

Shen's mother couldn't close the gate with tears all of a sudden, and after returning to the ward, she wiped her tears and said to her husband: "Dad, child, since you ...... If the doctors have said so, why should we insist that our son suffer that sin? It's better to let my son spend this last time happily......"

Shen's father was silent with a dark face, what his wife said was right, he knew very well that his son's disease could not be cured, but he just didn't want to give up trying and working hard, and when he thought about it, he felt right, he made his son suffer with his "selfish desires", but his son completely followed their wishes, and gritted his teeth and did not object no matter how painful he was.

Father Shen's eyes were red, his heart was like a knife, his throat was blocked and he couldn't speak, but his head was a little harder, the kind of scene in movies and television where the white-haired man sent the black-haired person was just watching the drama without feeling before, but now he feels the heart-rending pain in it!

In fact, Shen Pang didn't fall asleep, he came out of the chemotherapy room, he was still immersed in the pleasure of practicing qi and restraining his spirit, and the pain of chemotherapy had long been gone, as if he was doing it on someone else's body, and his mind was completely the method in the old man's article.

It's strange that when he used to think about things in his head, it was just "thoughts", and ideas were very nihilistic, just thoughts, just thoughts, but now the "thoughts and thoughts" in his head seem to be tangible things, although it is impossible to touch the sensation with his hands, but there is a kind of tangible and tangible thing in his mind!

I slept for three hours, and when I woke up, I felt "hungry", and Shen Pang opened his mouth to say to his mother: "Mom, I'm hungry!" ”

"Hungry? Oh, there is porridge, there is porridge, there is porridge......" I don't know if my son intended to comfort her, when she drank porridge a few days ago, she could see that her son was "hard stuffing".

But at this time, Shen Pang was really hungry, Shen's mother served him three times, seeing that he still had an unfinished expression, she didn't dare to give him any more, people who are seriously ill or have just recovered from a serious illness can't eat too much food, they can only drink some porridge and soup and other liquids, not to mention that Shen Pang can't get better at all!

After drinking a few bowls of porridge, Shen Pang felt that his spirit was good, so he stretched out his hand and tried it, feeling powerful, and said that he was going to take a walk in the park downstairs.

Shen's mother hurriedly asked Shen Pang's father to accompany him, and she quietly went to ask the attending doctor if her son's situation was "back to the light"!

Shen Pang actually wanted to go downstairs to the park to see the strange old man he saw yesterday, although the old man was pretentious, but the thing he wrote on the paper was really useful for enduring pain, so I would like to thank him and ask some things I don't understand.

It's a pity that the old man is not there, and he didn't see the old man appear after sitting in the park for more than half an hour, so Shen Pang went back to the ward at the urging of his father.

After returning to the ward, the attending doctor and the nurse came to check on the male patient in the first bed, and after the examination, the attending doctor said to the patient's family: "The patient's disease is brain stimulation, mental confusion, physical examination and brain CT are not problematic, the symptoms are not very serious, but there is a trend of serious development, you still go through the discharge procedures tomorrow, transfer to the psychiatric hospital, the disease needs symptomatic treatment to be effective!" ”

As soon as the patient heard the doctor's words, he squinted at him and sneered: "You bashi said that I am mentally ill? I see that you are mentally ill, I have won the jackpot of five million, you look down on me, I will take the money to stone you to death, and you ......"

The more the patient talked, the more angry he became, pointing his finger at the tip of the nose of one of the women in his family and saying: "I know that you look down on me the most, and your parents, your sister, and your sister also look down on me, now it's okay, Lao Tzu is rich, tell them all to get out......

Shen Pang is still the first time to see a real "psychopath" patient, and he has only seen it in TV dramas before, listening to this man's words, he should be a door-to-door son-in-law, it is estimated that he has suffered a lot of "cold eyes", and he usually thinks about winning the lottery jackpot, playing cards and winning money, etc., as the saying goes, only when you think about it is you think, mental illness must also be persecuted from all sides, and the pressure on all sides is too huge to lead to insanity.

The patient seemed to be very excited, the nurse came to forcibly inject a tranquilizer before falling asleep, and several family members discussed things in a chattering manner, and after a few hours, they dispersed, leaving only the patient's wife.

Shen Pang has been lying with his eyes closed, looking like he is asleep, in fact, he is practicing the old mantra, although he still does not believe in these qigong things, but it is undeniable that this mantra can help him "distract" and "analgesia".

Although he didn't open his eyes, Shen Pang's senses seemed to be particularly sensitive, and after more than ten o'clock in the night, the patients in the ward and the family members who guarded them almost fell asleep.

Shen Pang seems to be in a very good spirit, and there is a picture in his mind: the patient, the family, the state and position of each person sleeping or lying down, and even the movement of breathing and breathing, heartbeat, etc., are clearly reflected in his mind!

The presentation of this picture seemed to make Shen Pang enjoy it very much, but this picture that made him feel comfortable did not last long, the mental patient's tranquilizer had passed, he took a breath, woke up and opened his eyes, and got up and sat around again.

Shen Pang's movement to him pulled the strings in his head, and he also stared at him with open eyes, the eyes of the two people touched, and in an instant, Shen Pang suddenly felt that his whole body trembled, and the heavy feeling in his mind was so heavy, so heavy, like a fisherman hooking a particularly big fish!