Ding Chuan walked into his mother's bedroom, which was very neat, and there was no trace of change due to his mother's departure. On the old wooden table, many photos of Ding Chuan's childhood are pressed with glass. He reached out and slowly pulled open the drawer, which contained nothing but a diary.

This is my mother's diary, and she has been in the habit of keeping a diary since her early years. Ding Chuan opened his mother's diary with some sadness, and the handwriting in it was very neat. The last one was written by my mother the day before she died.

This diary truthfully records what Ding Chuan's mother experienced before she died. In Ding Chuan's memory, his mother was a steady woman. never shouts and screams, and his words and deeds are full of the dignity of everyone's ladies. Although she is not a man, she is calmer than many men.

Otherwise, if he had to be replaced by an ordinary woman, Ding Chuan would have been imprisoned back then. How can there be a career that is now flourishing. Everything he had was because he had a bold mother.

But did my mother really do the right thing back then? If you do it right, why should your mother and herself be tortured for so many years? In the last entry of the diary, my mother's handwriting is very messy, and it must have been written in a hurry.

On July 14, 2015, it was cloudy with light rain.

She still follows me like a shadow, 10 years, I don't know how to repay what I owed her, but as long as Ding Chuan never comes back, then all things will end with me. I've been living alone for so many years, and it's almost over! Maybe using my life to pay for her life is the best ending. The only regret is that I can't see the day when Ding Chuan gets married and has children, so this matter must be decided, it must be made!

Is this some kind of agreement between the mother and her? Probably not! Maybe it's just wishful thinking on the part of my mother.

"Bang dang!" The wind blew the bedroom window open, and a cold wind blew in his face. Ding Chuan just wanted to step forward and close the window, when he suddenly ...... Behind the curtains fluttering in the wind, there is suddenly the silhouette of a woman!

Ding Chuan was frightened by the woman who appeared out of thin air, he suddenly stepped back, and fell on his mother's bed. This silhouette is so familiar, could it be her? I don't know if it was because of fear or nervousness, cold sweat flowed down his back.

The wind outside the window was still blowing violently, and a drop of cold rain fell on Ding Chuan's face with the strong wind. He looked up at the curtain again, it still fluttering in the wind. Only this time, there is only snow-white wallpaper in the back......

"Do you love me?" Xiaoxi asked Ding Chuan with teary eyes.

“…… Love ......" Ding Chuan didn't say anything else, because he didn't know what to say. The two of them are really at a loss now, is this the "desperate situation" mentioned in the book?

"It's getting hotter and hotter, and my stomach is running out. Why don't we run?" Konishi asked Ding Chuan tentatively.

But Ding Chuan shook his head and said, "Run? You're thinking too simply, do we have money? Where can you run with a big belly?"

Xiaoxi heard Ding Chuan say so rational, and said with a wry smile: "Yes, with your current age, I will starve to death wherever I go." But if I had told my family, my parents would have beaten me to death!"

Ding Chuan said helplessly: "My mother won't give me good fruits to eat, once this matter is broken, you, I will never have the face to see people again!" Maybe, maybe we'll be separated forever......"

Hearing Ding Chuan say that the two would be separated, Xiao Xi raised his head and asked him, "Do you really want to be separated from me?"

"I, of course I don't want to be separated from you......" Ding Chuan didn't continue.

"Chuan'er, if I want to be separated from you, I'd rather die!" Konishi shouted with some emotion.

After Ding Chuan heard this, he hugged Xiaoxi violently, crying and said, "Me too, I don't want to be separated from you when I die!"

Xiaoxi cupped Ding Chuan's watery face with both hands, and said gently: "Then let's die together, so that you don't have to think about the future, it doesn't matter if you lose face or not!" Okay?"

Ding Chuan closed his eyes and thought for a while, then nodded heavily.

After making this decision, both of them went home, changed into their favorite clothes, and then met in Arashiyama Park. The sky is blue in spring, with a few white clouds floating in the sky. Xiaoxi was alone, sitting in the small pavilion staring at the white clouds in the sky, thinking that once upon a time, he was also so white! But now...... She never thought that the words "bead fetus dark knot" could be used on herself!

After a while, Ding Chuan came from not far away, holding a bouquet of wildflowers in his hand, and slowly walked in front of Xiaoxi. Ming Xiaoxi is wearing his favorite red sweater today, and his immature and fair face is slightly red from the sun, which is very good-looking. Ding Chuan was a little stunned...... Such a good-looking, and such a young girl, is going to Huangquan with her, is it fortunate or unfortunate?

He handed the wildflowers in his hand to Ming Xiaoxi and said, "Xiaoxi, I have never given you any flowers, just now I walked all the way and saw that this flower was blooming beautifully, so I thought that I should pick it and give it to you."

Konishi put the flower in front of his nose and sniffed it, and said with a smile: "It's so fragrant......"

Ding Chuan left his mother's room with some lost souls, was it his hallucination just now? Are you just as sick as your mother? He dug up his mother's case in the living room, which had his mother's medical certificate over the years. In fact, as early as a few years ago, my mother was diagnosed with schizophrenia and aggravated depression.

So all these years, his mother never allowed him to come home to see him. When she is sick, she never says a word to outsiders. She has always used drugs to control her illness, at least when she is outside, she should look normal.

But Ding Chuan knew that his mother's illness was caused by himself. If it hadn't happened back then, maybe she would have lived a easier life over the years, right? And Xiaoxi, because of one mistake, but he has to make up for it with more mistakes, and the result is more wrong than wrong!

After putting his mother's case back in its place, it was not too early for Ding Chuan to see the time. Let's stay at home tonight...... He went back to the room he had been living in, as if he had just left.

When he lay down on the bed he had once lived, a familiar smell made him feel emotional. If I hadn't transferred to that middle school, if I hadn't gone to a small hotel with Konishi, if I hadn't promised Konishi to die together, if I really did it...... Will things be better than they are now? Or will it be worse?

Thinking about it, sleepiness hits...... Ding Chuan fell asleep unconsciously, and then he dreamed of his mother. She is no longer as dignified as before, and her clothes are even a little messy. She kept saying something to Ding Chuan, but Ding Chuan couldn't hear it clearly.

"Mom!" Ding Chuan woke up from his dream in a hurry, and he looked at the time on his phone: 2 o'clock in the morning. Ding Chuan sat up from the bed, and just as he wanted to get off the ground, he saw a wisp of black under the mattress. He touched it casually, like human hair. Who knew that this unknown thing was pulled back under the mattress with a swish......

Ding Chuan was shocked, quickly got out of bed, stood next to him and observed, he wanted to see what was doing ghosts. But after watching for a while, there was no movement, Ding Chuan was a little unwilling, he slowly walked back to the bed, and suddenly exerted his strength and opened the mattress violently!

The scene in front of him made Ding Chuan's scalp tighten, and he saw deep blood marks under the mattress...... The colors are red and black, and obviously they were not drawn at the same time. What is this? My room shouldn't have been occupied all these years! With the mother's character, even if there are relatives in the family, they will not let him live in her son's room. But where did this bloodstain come from?

Lying on such a bed, where is Ding Chuan still sleeping! He went to the couch in the living room, lit a cigarette, took a deep breath, and tried to calm himself. I still remember that when I first went to school, my mother always said on the phone: There is a ghost in the house, but she refuses to say what this ghost looks like. After saying it a few times, he stopped mentioning it, and this matter still made Ding Chuan worry for a long time. Later, my mother said that she suffered from depression because she had lived alone for many years, and told Ding Chuan not to return to this home. When her illness is cured, she will move in with Ding Chuan.

Who knew that my mother left because of an illness that she had never experienced before...... Without warning. She should have a lot to say to herself, but Heaven didn't give her that opportunity. What did my mother want to say in my dream? Ding Chuan could see that she was very anxious in the dream, dancing and wanting to express something to herself, but he couldn't understand it at all.

"Nanshan South, Northern Autumn Sad ......" Ding Chuan's mobile phone rang suddenly.

"Hello?"

A gentle voice came back from the phone: "Honey, are you home?" How's things going?"

Ding Chuan heard that this was his current girlfriend, Su Honghong's voice, and he said impatiently: "It's so late, you still haven't slept yet?" You don't have to worry about my side of things, you can help me take care of the company!"

"Okay, good, my big boss, I promise to complete the mission!" Su Honghong said a little mischievously.

Ding Chuan just wanted to explain something more to her, but the signal of the mobile phone was murmuring at this time. He couldn't hear what Su Honghong was saying, he could only hear some harsh voices. Ding Chuan reluctantly pressed the phone and leaned on the sofa a little tiredly. The night outside the window was as dark as ink, and at this time, I was afraid that everyone had fallen asleep. It's just him, and he can't sleep at night......

Konishi hugged the wildflowers tightly in his arms, maybe this was the last bouquet of flowers he received in his life......

"Are you ready?" She asked Ding Chuan gently.

Ding Chuan was a little stunned, yes! Are you really ready? But he still nodded at Xiaoxi and said, "Well, I'm ready, let's go up the mountain!"

"Okay, you must find a beautiful place...... At this moment, Ming Xiaoxi still didn't know what the real death was.

The two of them walked on the path in the forest under the illumination of the setting sun, and the scenery around them was so beautiful that it was unreal. Ding Chuan had never found out that there was such beauty here, which made him a little reluctant. Such a beautiful view, you can't see it when you die. He is not as innocent as Konishi, and death is not a relief for him, but eternal destruction......

Two people walking on the road, one thinks about chic and liberation after death. The other is still thinking about whether there is a glimmer of life.

Finally, Konishi stopped. She turned back to Ding Chuan and said, "Chuan'er, let's stay here, stay away from the road, and no one will bother us in the future."

Ding Chuan didn't speak, but silently took out two skipping ropes from his backpack, which he stole from the school's gymnasium.

Xiaoxi pointed to a tall locust tree with his hand and said to him, "This is it!" The branches are too tall, so hang the rope. ”

Although Ding Chuan was very hesitant in his heart, there was no stagnation in his hands, and he hung the rope very quickly. Ming Xiaoxi looked at the two skipping ropes that were blown by the wind and sighed softly...... She thought of her mother, and felt a little sad in her heart. If my mother found out about her death, she would definitely be sad. That's right, that's what happens when she doesn't believe in herself.

Xiaoxi, who was resentful in his heart, rushed into Ding Chuan's arms sadly: "Chuan'er, it's still hello, you can pick me up!" I'll go first, and you'll follow. ”

Ding Chuan was ruthless and lifted Xiao Xi up!

Ming Xiaoxi regretted it the moment he was hung up by Ding Chuan! She truly understood what death was, and the fear she had never felt before made her tremble. She wanted to say to Ding Chuan: Let herself down, but she couldn't say a word, so she could only grab Ding Chuan with her hands in vain.

Looking at Xiaoxi's painful and hideous expression, Ding Chuan slowly retreated. In his subconscious, maybe he hopes that Konishi will disappear, then all the problems will be solved, right?

Konishi looked at Ding Chuan, who was gradually retreating, and seemed to understand something...... She glared at him unwillingly.

Xiaoxi's most eyes made Ding Chuan unforgettable. There is untold resentment and resentment. He was a little frightened by this sight, and almost climbed down the Arashi Mountain.

Ding Chuan entered the house covered in mud, and his mother noticed his strange appearance at a glance.

"Ding Chuan, what's wrong with you? Why are you panicking like this?" Mother asked uneasily.

"Mom, I, I might be in trouble!" Ding Chuan stammered a little because he was afraid.

His mother frowned, and asked him a little puzzled: "Don't panic first, speak slowly, and explain things clearly."

Ding Chuan swallowed his saliva and said, "Me and Xiaoxi in the class, we ......"

After listening to her son tell her what happened to herself, the mother broke out in a cold sweat. Looking at her only son, who was at a loss, she was silent......

After a moment, the mother sighed heavily, as if she had made an important decision. She said to Ding Chuan: "Let's go, I'll go to Lanshan with you, maybe Xiaoxi can still be saved."

When Ding Chuan heard that his mother was going to Lanshan, he was afraid to death. But seeing his mother's determined eyes, he had no choice but to nod in agreement.

In the dark night, the mother and son walked on the path of Arashiyama with one foot deep and one foot shallow. This Arashiyama Park is a well-known haunted park in the area, and it is usually sparsely populated, let alone in the middle of the night.

When Ding Chuan usually came with Xiaoxi, he didn't think that this place was as eerie and terrifying as it is now! He followed his mother closely, and now his mother was so tall and warm in his eyes.

Seeing that he was about to reach that place, Ding Chuan suddenly grabbed his mother and said, "Mom, it's just ahead."

Mother looked at the place Ding Chuan said, and could vaguely see that there was an inanimate object hanging from a lush old locust tree. That should be the Xiaoxi in Ding Chuan's mouth, and his mother gritted her teeth and continued to walk forward. But Ding Chuan stood still and didn't move, watching his mother walk forward nervously......