Missing becomes a line

Stretching out in time

It's long enough to cut the world into two sides

He's on the spring side

Your autumn has just fallen and the leaves have just fallen

If we never see each other again

Let you miss from memory

Originally, this love could be remembered perfectly

His appearance has changed

The smell of a new partner

It was pouring rain outside the car window, and the CD inside the car was being put on Tanya's "In Remembrance", his favorite song of the past. Turning his head to look out the window, the rain blurred his vision, how long has it been since it rained like this in Dulan, the last time it seemed to be many years ago, when he was just sent here by the Song family.

At that time, the Song family, under the pressure of the Gu family and the rumors in the circle, sent him here, cut off his possible way of connecting with China, and left him to fend for himself here. That's right, he is a dispensable existence in the Song family, his father is the son of a concubine, he is already disabled and is not welcomed, and his mother is not from a famous family, the family relies on the son of the long house, with the company's dividends, barely maintaining the pitiful and pathetic pride and self-esteem of the upper class. In such an environment, if there is anything outstanding about their family that can be remembered by people in the circle, it is his face.

Maybe genes are really strong and weak, he completely inherited his mother's beauty, his mother's character, but only inherited the sex of that cowardly father. Under the influence of such a strong woman and weak man, he gradually found that he liked those of the same sex who were more independent and strong than himself and his father. He imagines himself as a flower in a greenhouse, and one day a strong and gentle man will discover him, love him, and protect him. Sometimes, when he got mad, he would go out into the street and look at the men who were sweating and toiling in the sun, but they were too rude to be who he wanted.

Later, Changfang decided to return to China for development, and their family naturally wanted to go back. He is already feminine and feminine, and he is really favored by many sons of families who do not know the truth. The appearance of Asians made him feel more friendly, coupled with their gentle and elegant temperament, which met his requirements for an ideal man, making him feel that among them, there would be one person who was his true destiny.

But he also understands that his orientation is different from ordinary people, and in a more conservative country, people like him are regarded as outliers. So he mustered up the courage to take the initiative to find the owner of the house, and told him that his father had asked someone to see his face, that he could only live a long life by pretending to be a girl until he became an adult, and asked the head of the house to keep this secret for him. Although Changfang felt that this matter was too unbelievable, he would rather believe it or not, so he agreed. So he finally got his wish and was able to enjoy the popularity of the sons of the family as a girl.

Among the sons of these families, he especially likes Lu Zhen. Not only because of his handsome appearance and gentle but detached temperament, but also because in him, he seemed to be able to see another shadow of his father in his mind.

From Gu Zhun, who was the most active in chasing him, he knew that Lu Zhen's health was not good, he had congenital heart disease, just like his father, who was born with a disability. But unlike his cowardly father, Lu Zhen in front of everyone is always so gentle and elegant, neither humble nor arrogant, even if he stands next to his domineering eldest brother, he still cannot be ignored. Handsome but not self-assured, gentle but not cowardly, being held in the palm of his hand by such a man should be the happiest thing in the world.

It's a pity that Lu Zhen rarely seems to participate in various gatherings in the circle, and there are few opportunities to meet him, which makes it even more precious. Even if they don't see it, the seeds of affection have been slowly fermented in the heart, and the thoughts are like crazy. Finally at a banquet held by the Song family, he mustered up the courage to confess to Lu Zhen.

"I like you." Four words, but he practiced countless times in his heart, his heart was like a drum, looking up at the young man in front of him, waiting for his answer.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to offend, but there's no way I like the same sex." The young man's gentle smile faded, and he looked at himself in disbelief with round eyes, and it took a long time before he said such a thing.

"You, how do you know I am!" He obviously hid it well, and even secretly took estrogen, trying his best to hide his masculine characteristics, why did he still find out. He looked at the young man in front of him in a little panic, and wrote all the confusion on his face.

"I also heard Uncle Song inadvertently mention you, you don't need to panic." The boy had recovered his usual calm and breezy appearance, as if the panic of the defendant was just his delusion. Seeing that he was not angry and did not intend to expose himself, he couldn't help but feel a little relieved, and even the loss of being rejected was diluted a little bit by his smile.

"It's just that you're still a boy after all, and you have to recover as a boy when you become an adult. So even if you disguise yourself as a woman for unavoidable reasons, you must remember who you are, don't lose yourself and take the wrong path. ”

He wanted to say that in fact, this qiē was all of his own volition, and he was such a person, whether he was an adult or not, he could not change it. But he was afraid that after he said it, Lu Zhen would dislike him as an outlier, and maybe he would sue others, so he chose to be silent, and in Lu Zhen's opinion, the overly beautiful boy in front of him listened to his words.

"I'm not going to say what happened today, as if it never happened. I still have some things to do, so I'll go back first. ”

I don't know when the boy left, I don't know how long I stood in the courtyard in a trance, until a light rain fell in the sky, and I came back to my senses, and his confession still failed.

"Yingying, why are you here, no wonder I looked for you several times just now and didn't see anyone! Come on in, it's easy to catch a cold when you're wet in the rain! ”

It's that Gu Zhun again, why do you have him everywhere you go. Song Ying, who had just fallen out of love, was very impatient and didn't want to pay attention to him at all. Let him be drenched in the rain for a while, I heard that on a rainy day, a broken love and a cold are more compatible.

"Yingying, why are you disobedient, is it because my voice was too low just now, didn't you hear it?" Running into the courtyard to hold an umbrella for him, Gu Zhun suddenly felt that it was quite beautiful for two people to stand in the rain like this, isn't it all like this in foreign movies, the two kissed in the rain. It's just that Yingying's clothes are wet, and the whole person looks like a soup chicken, which ruins the atmosphere a little, but the person is still beautiful.

"Let's go back, it's hard to stick to your wet clothes."

"I'm not going back, don't bother me."

"I didn't bother you, if you like to stand in the rain, let's go back and change our clothes first and then come back to continue standing, okay, I'll accompany you."