In the next few days, Li Shuo didn't go out, Wen Xiaohui would come for an hour or two every day, watching him eat the food, and then he would leave with confidence.

Except for pretending to be calm and light when talking to his mother on the phone, Li Shuo was a little decadent most of the time. He is a good-looking person, but fortunately, only Wen Xiaohui saw him now.

These days, there is always a sense of unreality in the clouds, sometimes I feel that the qiē I heard that day is a dream, and sometimes I feel that the qiē with Zhao Jinxin is a dream in itself, because reality should not be so dramatic, nor should it be so ugly. In any case, it is difficult for him to accept that he will sink so much, he intellectually knows that he should freely say goodbye to the failed past, but emotionally he can't, this kind of despair of seeing himself out of control but helpless and powerless to save is the most painful for him.

This time, it didn't work to tell yourself the truth.

On Monday morning, Li Shuo received a call from his assistant asking why he hadn't arrived at the office yet.

At that time, Li Shuo hadn't woken up yet, and he was a little dazed when he heard this question.

The assistant paused: "Mr. Li, you won't still be sleeping, right?" ”

Li Shuo suddenly remembered that today he was going to Ennan to study the quarterly report, and the assistant had reminded him as early as when he was still in Yangcheng, but his mind was very empty now and he didn't remember anything.

Li Shuo rubbed his eyes: "I'm sorry, I'm ...... Drink like a fish. He casually made up a clumsy excuse, he hoped that he drank too much, and when he woke up, people would wake up, unlike now, when he didn't get drunk, he couldn't get up.

"Wow." The assistant sighed, "Mr. Li, I've been with you for four years, and you've never delayed work, so it's not like you're out of love, right?" ”

The assistant was just a casual joke, but Li Shuo's heart tightened, as if someone had torn off a fig leaf in public, and his whole body trembled.

Seeing that Li Shuo didn't speak, the assistant realized that he was speechless, and hurriedly said: "Mr. Li, I'm joking, if you are not feeling well, just rest at home, and we will report to you after we finish studying." ”

Li Shuo knew that he was scaring the little assistant, he had an easy-going personality, and he got along with his subordinates like friends, and today's abnormality - whether it was forgetting important business or not being able to make jokes, it was indeed enough to surprise the people around him. He covered his eyes with the back of his hand and said tiredly: "Well, send a summary to my mailbox, and call at any time if you have any questions." ”

"Yes."

After hanging up the phone, Li Shuo slowly lowered his hand, picked up the remote control on the bedside table, and opened the curtains.

If sunlight can really kill bacteria, it is best to kill his decadence. He just lay like that in a patch of sunshine, with a ridiculous reverence.

It wasn't until the sun baked his brain a little dizzy that he got up from his bed and staggered into the bedroom.

In the mirror, a bearded face was reflected, the upper eyelids were swollen, and the lower eyelids were bruised.

He looked in the mirror without blinking, and the more he looked, the more angry he became.

Why do you want to make yourself this virtuous......

He took off his pajamas vigorously, walked into the shower naked, and turned on the faucet without hesitation, it was early autumn, the water temperature was very cold, he was stimulated and trembled, and his skin instantly appeared with goosebumps, but at the same time it was very happy.

After taking a shower, he shaved in the mirror, but he didn't know whether it was difficult to concentrate, or his eyes were dry and swollen, a knife cut the skin, and the blood instantly flowed down his chin, he took out a tissue to cover the gap, and the tissue was quickly soaked with blood.

He threw the razor in a fit of rage, and his hands were weakly propped up on the washstand, unable to lift his head for a long time.

Zhao Jinxin's frivolous sentence "haven't had enough fun" inexplicably sounded in his ears again.

Haven't had enough fun.

Haven't had enough fun.

What was Zhao Jinxin's expression at that time? Mocking? Smug? What is Shao Qun's expression? Contemptible? Cheap? He only knew that he was standing outside the door at that time, and his face seemed to be burning in the next second.

His cultivation is not enough, and his mind is not broad enough, so that he still can't let go.

He clung to the marble table, his finger bones turning white from the force.

Suddenly, the doorbell rang.

Li Shuo was excited, raised his head, he thought it was Wen Xiaohui coming, and hurriedly wiped the blood off his chin, put on a bathrobe and went to open the door.

The moment the door opened, he froze.

What appeared in sight was not Wen Xiaohui, who carried a bunch of large bags and small bags every day, with a hearty and beautiful smile, but Zhao Jinxin, who was expressionless.

Li Shuo felt that the blood was frozen in an instant, and then the tiny blood vessels broke and exploded in his body one by one, and there were bursts of pain in his body. He subconsciously lowered his head, not wanting Zhao Jinxin to see his wolf bèi, his hands clenched into fists behind his back, and said in a deep voice: "Come and get something?" Just give me the keys to my house. ”

Zhao Jinxin stretched out his hand to him: "Your chin ......"

Li Shuo's eyes changed, and he opened his suddenly.

There was a "snap" sound, like a slap in the face that I don't know who it was thrown, and the places where it was touched, the bones collided, the skin rubbed, and the pain was spicy, and both of them froze.

Li Shuo knew that he had overreacted, but he couldn't restrain the resistance in his body, and said coldly: "It's just a shave, give me the key." ”

Zhao Jinxin lowered his eyes and took a step forward, wanting to come in.

Li Shuo didn't get out of the way, he blocked the door: "Your things have been packed." He bent down, picked up a bag from the door, and threw it at Zhao Jinxin's feet, if Zhao Jinxin didn't come, he was going to throw it away, he stretched out his hand and repeated, "Key."

"I'm here to send you materials, you didn't come to today's meeting, I'm worried about your ......" Zhao Jinxin shook the information in his hand.

"I just overslept." Li Shuo took the information and said in an accentuated tone: "Key." ”

Zhao Jinxin stared into Li Shuo's eyes and said softly, "I didn't bring it." ”

"Then throw it away." Li Shuo is about to close.

Zhao Jinxin held up the door, raised his head, looked directly at Li Shuo, and said solemnly: "Li Shuo, I'm sorry." ”

Li Shuo's heart trembled, and a wave of anger rushed straight to his head, and he held back: "I don't accept it, get out." As he spoke, he was about to close the door again. But the hand holding the door didn't know how strong it was, Li Shuo didn't push it hard, he narrowed his eyes: "What do you mean." ”

Zhao Jinxin pursed his lips, looked at it deeply, and whispered, "I don't want to be like this." ”

"Of course you don't want that, after all, you haven't had enough." Maybe it's because I'm used to it, and it's not a big deal to repeatedly open the wound.

"It's not." Zhao Jinxin said clearly word by word, "I didn't intend to hurt you. ”

How ridiculous these words are, but it's a pity that Li Shuo can't laugh: "Then what are you going to do?" When you haven't had enough, confess to me, say that you want to have a serious relationship, and when you've had enough, find a 'decent reason' to break up, and do everything according to your heart, this is your plan, right? Li Shuo trembled and gritted his back molars, "Why do I deserve to be teased like this by you?" Is it just because I like you? The word "like" was almost chewed and swallowed by Li Shuo, and then spit out with blood.

"Like" is one of the most beautiful words in the world, but now it has become an abomination.

"Like" why innocent, to be ruined like this.

Zhao Jinxin's eyelashes trembled slightly: "I really like you......"

"You don't deserve to say those two words." These two words are like a curse to Li Shuo now, "Do you think I don't know what you're thinking?" You're still young, you like me today, and maybe someone else tomorrow, so you want to ship. He smiled coldly, "But, I, no, think, did you hear clearly?" I don't want to. Every qiē you do makes me feel disgusting, just like your cousin, you deserve to be a family. ”

Zhao Jinxin's brows furrowed, and he looked at Li Shuo sadly: "Uncle Li, I'm sorry ......"

"Let it go." Li Shuo said expressionlessly.

“…… Thank you for my birthday. ”

"Let it go!" Li Shuo pushed him hard and staggered, and took the opportunity to slam the door on.

Separated by a door, Li Shuo seemed to be able to feel the breath that belonged to Zhao Jinxin, he gasped for breath to contain the almost overflowing grief and indignation, he squatted on the ground with his head in his hands, clenched his hands into fists, and slammed his skull a few times.

After a long time, Li Shuo got up from the ground and returned to the bathroom, his beard had not been shaved clean, the wound was oozing some blood, his eyes were red, and the whole person looked sloppy and decadent, like a lost dog.

Yes, in this game, he lost in disgrace and lost in a mess.

Li Shuo let out an angry, long low roar at the wolf bèi in the mirror, that roar made his chest tremble, that roar echoed in his mind, it had a deafening effect, as if it had roughly awakened his self that was cowering in the shadows.

This waste in the mirror is not him Li Shuo! No one wants to change him Li Shuo!

He grabbed his razor, carefully hung up the messy stubble, washed off the dried blood, and blew his unkempt hair, then went back to the bedroom, picked out a suit to put on, grabbed the keys and wallet, and went out.

He needs to bask in the sun, contact the crowd, and sweep away all the gloomy and hostile qi that lingers around him.

At the end of the day, it's nothing more than a broken love.

It's nothing but a broken love.

Li Shuo called Wen Xiaohui and asked him to eat, Wen Xiaohui was overjoyed when he heard that he was going out, and rushed to the restaurant as quickly as possible.

Wen Xiaohui was pleasantly surprised when he saw him: "Brother Li, you have been at home for so many days, you can figure it out!" ”

Li Shuo smiled faintly: "Although the things you sent are delicious, I don't want to eat takeout anymore." ”

"Hahaha, or I'll do it for you."

"You can let me go."

Wen Xiaohui looked at Li Shuo without blinking, smiling.

Li Shuo touched his chin: "Well, I shaved when I shaved, it's okay, and my face is not very good, right?" ”

"But it's still handsome." Wen Xiaohui winked at him, "I'm relieved to see that you're getting better." ”

Li Shuo smiled: "I'll be fine." ”

Wen Xiaohui did not change his true colors, and kept adjusting the atmosphere during the meal, and the two of them talked and laughed.

After eating, Li Shuo proposed to go shopping.

"Let's go, what are you going to buy? I'm a near-professional buyer, and I'm guaranteed to dress you up blindly. ”

"Just take a look, it's mainly for you."

"Buy it for me?" Wen Xiaohui pointed to himself, "Why did you buy it for me?" ”

"I want to spend money." Li Shuo rubbed his hair, "I want to spend money on you." ”

Wen Xiaohui hugged his arm and called out affectionately, "Dad." ”

Li Shuo laughed. He knew that Wen Xiaohui couldn't be short of money, even if he didn't count his own high income, he still had Luo Yi to support, but his feelings needed some proper venting.

The two of them settled the bill and went straight to the mall, Li Shuo quietly watched Wen Xiaohui try on clothes, pick and match, entangled between different colors, muttering that the pants were not in good shape, those shoes were not suitable for pads, and it was so fun when he accompanied his mother to go shopping, he was never impatient, as long as the other party had a satisfied smile on his face.

Even though this likable big boy didn't belong to him, he was able to get a sense of "being needed" from him - and that was exactly what he needed right now.

After shopping for a few hours, Luo Yi's call came three times, and Wen Xiaohui couldn't hold it anymore, so he had to go back.

Li Shuo carried him a shopping bag and sent him to the car.

Wen Xiaohui smiled brightly: "Brother Li, thank you." ”

"Are you happy today?" Li Shuo looked at him gently.

"Happy!"

"Alright, let's go back." Li Shuo closed the car door for him.

Wen Xiaohui lowered the window of the car and flew a kiss at him: "Brother Li, you are good." ”

Li Shuo gave him a thumbs up: "Be careful on the road." ”

Wen Xiaohui's car drove away, and Li Shuo stood by the street, watching the car until it disappeared.

It's really uncomfortable to be alone...... Li Shuo decided to go to Sanya in a few days to investigate, and after the inspection, he returned to the United States, where his home was located.

He got into the car, hesitated for a moment, took out his mobile phone, and dialed a call: "Hey, Xiaoqi, I'm Li Shuo, are you free today......"

Li Shuo returned home, tidied up the room a little, and then sat on the sofa in a daze.

He actually regretted it after making the call, but if he refused again, wouldn't it be a joke.

He just wanted someone to accompany him, not to prove anything.

Li Shuo, what do you want to prove?

The doorbell rang, Li Shuo came to his senses, walked over and opened the door.

There was a sunny and handsome boy standing at the door, not tall, thin, dressed in a fashionable way: "Hey, brother, long time no see." ”

Li Shuo smiled: "It's been a long time, come in." ”

This boy's name is Xiao Qi, Li Shuo doesn't know his name, the two met in a bar, they have done it a few times, after meeting Li Chengxiu, they haven't been in touch again, and he doesn't know what mentality he called today, and the other party answered.

"Brother, your face is not very good, are you sick?"

Li Shuo shook his head: "I've been too busy lately, I haven't had a good rest, it's fine." ”

"Oh, look you've lost weight." Xiao Qi stretched and looked around, "Your family is so big, I've been here once, right?" I'm not impressed. ”

"I've been here." Li Shuo said, "Have you eaten?" ”

"Nope." Xiao Qi pulled Li Shuo's arm and said coquettishly, "Brother, do you do it for me?" ”

"Okay, what do you want to eat?"

"Feel free."

"I don't have a lot of ingredients at home, so I just make some of them." Li Shuo smiled, "Let's go watch TV." ”

"Hey."

Li Shuo opened the refrigerator, only Wen Xiaohui bought some dishes to make salads, or it was leftovers, he was not good at giving people leftovers, but there was really nothing to do, so he cooked two bowls of noodles.

Xiao Qi didn't pick it, he ate very happily, and told Li Shuo about his internship experience, complained about the boss for a while, and said that the male colleague's butt was upturned for a while, Li Shuo listened with a smile, he didn't care what Xiao Qi said, but this big house needs a little voice.

After eating, the two watched a movie together, watched and watched, Xiao Qi sat on Li Shuo, held his face and kissed him.

Li Shuo wrapped his arms around his slender waist and responded skillfully, but Xinhu was as calm as death.

After kissing for a while, Xiao Qi frowned slightly: "Brother, what's wrong?" ”

Whether the kiss is poured into passion or not, you can tell if you are light.

Li Shuo smiled: "It's nothing. He hugged Xiao Qi's waist, pressed the boy down on the sofa, kissed him on the cheek and neck, and gently removed his clothes.

Xiao Qi tried his best to pick --- teasing him, obviously a little emotional.

The two rolled from the sofa to the wool carpet, every step of the foreplay seemed to follow the rules, but Li Shuo had an indescribable resistance in his heart, and he resisted this resistance, he forced himself to put himself in front of him, under these two contradictions, he could no longer concentrate, but was fighting against the idea in his mind against his will, and in the end, he didn't even know what his true intention was!

"Brother......" Xiao Qi whispered.

Li Shuo came back to his senses and looked at him with some panic.

Xiao Qi said embarrassedly: "If you don't have a heart, don't ...... Reluctantly. ”

Only then did Li Shuo realize that he hadn't reacted yet, and Zhao Jinxin's face popped up in a mess in his mind, which made him hate it.

He propped himself up and said in a deep voice: "Xiao Qi, I'm sorry ......"

"It's fine." Xiao Qi also got up and touched his face, "You're in a bad mood, did something happen?" ”

Li Shuo shook his head: "I'm sorry. ”

“…… Broken out of love? Xiao Qi raised his eyebrows and said.

Li Shuo was stunned and did not speak.

"Hey." Xiao Qi hugged his head and kissed his forehead, "I'm very happy that you can find me today, but we don't have to do it, you're in a bad mood, I can chat with you." ”

Li Shuo looked at this hearty boy ashamedly, and said softly mechanically, "I'm sorry ......"

"It's okay, it's lovelorn, it's human nature." Xiao Qi got up from the carpet and dragged Li Shuo up, "Come on, let's continue watching the movie, ouch, I'm hungry again, I'll order takeout, I want to eat skewers, and a dozen beers, Qi will live tonight." ”

Li Shuo smiled, feeling a lot of relief: "Okay." ”

Li Shuo ordered takeout, the two of them chatted while eating, in addition to making --- love, they also have some common language, such as football, music, a few bottles of wine, Xiao Qi told Li Shuo about his troubles at work, Li Shuo enlightened him with rich experience, and the chat was very speculative.

Before they knew it, they talked until midnight, and the two climbed into bed drunk and fell asleep.

The next day, Li Shuo woke up with a hangover, his brain was still groggy, he felt that there was warm skin at hand, and he habitually muttered: "Jinxin ......"

As soon as these two words blurted out, Li Shuo opened his eyes, and he sat up like an electric shock, staring at the person next to him.

A handsome white face sleeping soundly.

It's not Zhao Jinxin.

At that moment, Li Shuo's heart felt weightlessness like jumping off a cliff, and the feeling of a steep turn was terrifying, and he couldn't tell whether he was rejoicing or being lost.

He sighed deeply, rubbed his unkempt hair, and hesitated whether to get out of bed or continue sleeping.

Suddenly, he heard the sound of the door lock turning in the living room, and he straightened his back.

The next second, the door opened, and he turned and got out of bed and rushed towards the living room.

It won't be ......

He ran to the living room and collided with Zhao Jinxin, who walked in with something.

Both of them were stunned.

Li Shuo came back to his senses and looked at him in disbelief: "Who allowed you to come in?" ”

Zhao Jinxin didn't answer, his eyes patrolled the living room, from a pile of scraps, wine bottles on the coffee table, to a few clothes lying casually on the carpet, to the canvas shoes at the door, and finally, Li Shuo's naked upper body and kiss marks on his neck.

Zhao Jinxin's eyes changed, becoming cold and gloomy. He threw away what he was holding and strode towards the bedroom.

Li Shuo stepped forward, pushed him away violently, and roared, "Get out!" ”

Zhao Jinxin looked at him with a fierce look: "Who?" Who's in the house? ”

"What the hell is going on with you?"

"Wen Xiaohui?"

"Less nonsense."

Zhao Jinxin was about to rush to the bedroom, Li Shuo grabbed his collar and said coldly: "Zhao Jinxin, I say it again, get out, from my home, from my eyes, from my life, completely disappear." ”

Zhao Jinxin glared at Li Shuo, his eyes were a little bloodshot, and he said as if he hadn't heard it: "Who are you looking for?" ”

"Get out—" Li Shuo pushed back desperately against his chest.

After Zhao Jinxin took two steps back, his steps were like nails, and he didn't move a single step, he grabbed Li Shuo's hand, stared straight into his eyes, and then broke his fingers.

Li Shuo's face was pale and angry.

Zhao Jinxin finally broke his two hands, shook them aside, and then rushed into the bedroom without hesitation.

Li Shuo scolded angrily and chased after him.