Before I reunited with her, I thought of her, missed her, and hated her. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info but after seeing her, I found that the once simple obsession had long been made into a rich liquor by time, drunk, and dreamy.

On that day, I stood on the high white jade steps of the Donghe Palace, looking down on her in a gorgeous dress from far and near, and I was slightly nervous. It had been a long time since such emotions had appeared in my heart, and I was inexplicably amused.

After a few years, her face is still gentle and beautiful, her eyebrows are like distant mountains, and her glass-colored eyes seem to be able to see through people's hearts. It's just that...... There is less of a girl's agility and aura, and more of the precipitation and fatigue in the eyes. Yes, I can see that.

The moment she saw me, her face was pale, and her slender hands trembled slightly. Finally, he bowed his head slightly, covering his eyes full of joy, guilt, helplessness or surprise.

At the same time, I was relieved, and a flood of joy swept over me. It turns out that she hasn't forgotten me, it turns out that she has been guilty, and it turns out that I am not a dispensable passerby to her.

But what about remembering? I could only look at her from afar, and I couldn't even say what I liked her like Zheng Yu did. Because I don't deserve it, my body is already dirty. However, I am also unwilling, unwilling to be deceived by such a sanctimonious hypocrite, unwilling that once little fairy-like existence will be drowned by the dust of the world, unwilling to be at the mercy of fate like me and unable to extricate herself.

In this life, I just want to watch her quietly and watch her be happy.

When I visited the princess's mansion at night, I saw the sword with green beads again. It was my personal possession many years ago, and it was the only thing left after my family was wiped out, a magic weapon that sharpened iron like clay and blew short hair. That's when I'm young and vigorous, and if I like it, I like it, and I just want to be nice to her, and even give everything to her. So in Luojia Sacred Mountain, I gave her the binding knife for self-defense.

She held the knife and looked at it for a long time and chuckled: "Xiaoyun, you can't steal this knife, right?" ”

At that time, she called me Xiaoyun, which made Gu Mingxuan very unhappy all the time. I was very happy, even though I knew that she was just taking care of me like a brother. But so what's the matter, isn't liking her just the way you should fight for it?

One year later, on my way back to Donghe from Xiliang via Chenzhou, I met a teenager. With a sword on his back, he smiled innocently and harmlessly, and was beaten half to death for the girl he liked, and thrown in the center of the road. I think he is very much like me when I was younger. So I accepted him as my only apprentice, Chu Feng.

Actually, I didn't treat her well, and even took her away and locked her in a water prison to trap Gu Mingxuan. I spoke to her of the most vicious things, and I told her all the tortures I had endured in the sacred mountain of Luojia, which I had not intended to tell anyone. I don't know what's wrong with me, I look at her and I don't control it at all. But after saying that, I regretted it again when I looked at her pale eyebrows, what was the use of saying this? Let her repent? Or do you want her to atone for her sins? She should be ...... me I'm totally disappointed.

Later, when Concubine Yue returned to Beijing, I felt that this was an excellent opportunity. She and I are also subject to the Xiliang Wu Clan, but her ambitions are obviously greater. But it's a pity that she has a muddy son who can't hold up the wall, and he has never known how to be a dog and a horse, and he is a fairly good chess piece. Every eroded night, when I humiliated under him, I would involuntarily think of such a pair of glass-colored eyes that were so bright to the extreme, but in an instant I wanted to wash them out of my mind, because it was a blasphemy against her.

Gu Mingxuan has never been a good match for her, and Zheng Yu is not even worthy of one of her fingers, how can I let these two people get their wish. What's more, there is still a life-and-death enmity between me and Gu Mingxuan.

So, under my bewitchment, Zheng Yu wanted to take power step by step and trap her step by step. But I also know that with her years of business in the government and the opposition and her friendship with Zheng Yu, it is impossible to force her into a corner. Only by putting it to death can it survive the catastrophe. So someone has to sacrifice, and Qingluan, her sister must become a victim in the political whirlpool. I don't think I'm doing anything wrong, but I still feel guilty about her.

But the funny thing is that Gu Mingxuan later chose to make the same decision as me, Qingluan must die. He regards her as life, but he is also ruthless and regards human life like a mustard. His cold-bloodedness was hidden under the warm exterior, like a sprawling poppy full of poison.

So I didn't hesitate to reveal Gu Mingxuan's true face in front of her eyes through Zheng Yu's mouth.

I knew she was going to be in pain, and she was going to die of pain. But as long as the carrion is removed, the wound will heal one day. At that time, I will send her to a quiet and wonderful place, a place where no one can find to live quietly. watched her marry a wife, and her children and grandchildren were around her knees.

However, I never expected that she would end it all in such a decisive way. When the news of her death broke, it dawned on me if I had been wrong in the first place. Am I personally pushing the people I love the most onto a path from which to be lost? Am I the damn one? I shouldn't have come out of the Luojia Sacred Mountain at all, I should have buried my bones there and quietly been a lonely ghost.

Great compassion is silent, but for me there is only emptiness. If you have never gained it, you will not have the pain of losing, but why is it so painful as if the heart that has not beaten for a long time?

If all of them are to blame, and I, how am I going to live from now on?

A-Ning, I want to meet you sooner in my next life, okay?