Chapter 35: Vulnerability
Ye Wei wandered the streets with her eyes blank. The surrounding scenery is refreshing, and the fragrance of flowers on the ground has been drifting, but this beautiful scenery has not entered Ye Wei's eyes.
It's strange, just now she was still as ambiguous and embarrassed as Lian Xunqin, she was awkward. But thinking about it, a sense of uneasiness quietly came to her heart, and she couldn't avoid it.
Ye Wei always thought that she had been able to stop her heart, but even Xun Qin's small move defeated her and made her vulnerable.
Long ago, she gave up hope. Without hope, there will be no disappointment. If you don't expect all kinds of friendly treatment from your friends, you won't be tired of their momentary neglect; If you don't expect to get something you give, you won't feel sad because you have paid so much and have been taken for granted; If you don't expect Donler's life to come true, you won't despair because of his lies...... If you don't look forward to God's mercy, you won't be angry with God because of your cruelty!
And now, if you don't look forward to integrating into this world, stay with this group of friends, stay in the ...... Lian Xunqin's side, isn't it, when he leaves, he won't be so miserable?
Ye Wei's self-protection has long become a habit, even if she knows that they will not hurt herself, but the fragility hidden in her heart is still telling herself that only staying away is the most correct choice. I thought that I had already found a reason to stay here and found an object of trust, but it turned out that she still couldn't take that step.
Ye Wei, Ye Wei, what you always thought was strong, turned out to be just an excuse for your cowardice? Haven't you been expecting someone to treat you sincerely, what? When someone who treats you really appears, don't you have the courage to get closer?
With a throbbing pain in her heart, Ye Wei squatted down in pain while covering her heart, but a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth. It turns out that it is you who have never had the courage, but you have been complaining about others.
My heart will still hurt, it will hurt! She thought she had forgotten what pain was.
Isn't there a saying that 'mourning is greater than heart death'? Now that my heart still hurts, doesn't it prove that I am still alive? I should be glad that I still feel pain!
In fact, she is not afraid of pain, she is afraid, afraid that she will not even feel the pain.
Her eyes were slightly moist, and she struggled to get up from the ground, and the scene in front of her became blurred. Her thoughts seemed to be far away from her body, and her legs moved forward uncontrollably, and her steps were vain.
Ye Wei closed her eyes, trying to bring her reason back to her mind. What the hell was she thinking? Isn't nothing happening yet, and why is this self-pity?
Suddenly, her arm was pulled hard, Ye Wei's body rotated with the force, and she bumped into Lian Xunqin's arms, and when she raised her head, she saw the face full of worry.
It's rare that there is still such an expression of worry on his face. Ye Wei thought in a trance, and patted her head in annoyance, when is it, and she still thinks about this.
Lian Xunqin looked at her confused appearance: she frowned, and then suddenly raised her hand and knocked it on her head. He was shocked, this is, what's going on? Quickly reach out and grab her masochistic hands.
"What's wrong with you?" Lian Xunqin frowned, thinking to himself, is it because of his act of giving her a scarf? But why is it uncomfortable to be like this?
His voice drifted into Ye Wei's ears, and Ye Wei reflexively shook her head.
"Your face is like this, and you still say nothing?" Lian Xunqin gritted his teeth in anger, and the hand holding her couldn't help but increase his strength.
He just saw Ye Wei running away shyly, and knew that she was embarrassed, so he walked slowly behind her, thinking that it would be okay to send her home like this. But I didn't expect her to walk like a ghost floating on the road.
He had known Ye Wei for so long, and he had never seen her like this. She has always been a strong cunzii, very well-behaved, very sensible, and knows how to be sympathetic to the elderly, and her grades are good. But after being injured and losing his memory, he has always had a trace of distance and loneliness.
The Ye Wei he knew before, just like an ordinary girl at this age, would always talk about celebrities, TV series, shopping and boys, etc., every time he was by her side, he was always harassed impatient by these non-stop topics, so he didn't have a good impression of Ye Wei.
But since she was injured, it gave him a different feeling, without that impatient words, but he became the kind of person who made people very close, obviously exuding a kind of 'don't get close' atmosphere, but it still made people feel at ease and wanted to get close to her.
There are no more words, and her temperament has become calmer, making herself very comfortable with her.
He still remembered the smile on Ye Wei's face, light and elegant, so soft and touching that his heart skipped a few beats. The smile also seemed to cross the distance between them.
But now, the current Ye Wei seems to have no soul, her eyes are empty, and her expression is in a trance. It's like she's not from this world, it's like ...... It seems that if the self just now hadn't reached out to grab her, it would have disappeared in a blink of an eye.
He laughed at himself - how could she have such a stupid idea, isn't she right in front of your eyes? It's so close, how can it disappear like air in an instant?
But when he saw the pale expression on the face of the person he was pulling, he couldn't even be expressionless.
Damn, what's going on, don't you ...... yourself Didn't you just wrap her in a scarf? How did it come to be like this?
"What the hell is going on with you? Are you so resistant to my approach? Lian Xunqin's strength became stronger and stronger, and the thought that her paleness might be caused by his own proximity caused him to rise with anger and a trace of sadness, so that his facial expression was very strange now.
"I ......" The force from his hand made Ye Wei's mind slowly return, and her eyes were no longer as empty as just now, but brightened.
She found herself imprisoned, and looked down to see Lian Xunqin holding her waist. She whispered, "Can you let me go first?" ”
Ye Wei closed her eyes tiredly, and reached out to pull away Lian Xunqin's hand that was holding her.
"I'll send you back, and you won't look at what your face looks ugly like." Lian Xunqin's voice couldn't be resisted, and he didn't take away the hand on Ye Wei's body, so he helped Ye Wei slowly move forward.
Ye Wei opened her mouth, but she didn't know how to refuse, she had long since lost the strength to resist with Lian Xunqin.
She could hear even Xunqin's concern, and she could clearly hear the hoarseness and discomfort in his voice. But she didn't know how to comfort him, so was it none of his business? I don't even believe myself when I say it, let alone him.
Habit is a kind of poison, if you are used to Lian Xunqin's sincere treatment now, he will withdraw from the day, what should he do?
Lian Xunqin paused, frowned, paused, and said, "Ye Wei, if you don't adapt to my approach now, I won't force you, but one day you will have to adapt to me." You know what? I can't say no! ”
Ye Wei raised her head and looked at Lian Xunqin's resolute face, her heart was full of confusion, and she wanted to ...... Do you want to believe him?
She knew that he was sincere now, but the uneasiness was so violent that she couldn't resist it. Sincerely now, but what about the future?