“…… Maizi, we've known each other for four years, and you tell me the truth, in your heart, am I a particularly cold person......"

"Actually, I know my own problems...... It's hard to get close to people, and you always want to keep your distance from the people around you...... However, once I really recognize someone, the relationship after that must be sincere...... Can't just pretend ......"

"Do you know what Yan Shu told me just now...... He said that he felt that I didn't really care about him that much, and that I didn't like him that much, and that I was just playing the role of a boyfriend with him...... And the reason he came to this conclusion was that I was too calm...... He thinks that when I get along with him, I rarely have a large emotional fluctuation, and I have always been calm and rational, so he thinks that I don't care much about him in my heart......"

"But that's not the case......"

"I don't know when I started subconsciously restraining my feelings...... It should have been when I was very young...... At that time, my parents were not divorced, but they quarreled every day, and I heard that my mother always said that giving birth to me dragged her down, and because of me, she couldn't pursue the life she wanted as she wanted...... That's why I was so scared that she hated me...... I'm afraid that my mother won't want me if I don't look good......"

"At an age when other children can still get tired of being spoiled by their parents, I have been trying to make myself as sensible as possible...... At least on the surface, it has to be...... At that time, when they quarreled strictly, they would smash things at home...... One time I happened to be hiding between the TV cabinet and a large vase in the living room, and neither of them noticed me until my mother smashed the vase with an ashtray and found me crouching there......"

"It was still summer, I had little clothes on me, and I had several cuts on my face and body from the fragments of the vase...... But I didn't cry even then...... Didn't even say a word...... I'm afraid I'll upset them even more if I'm spoiled......"

"And in fact, I was pretty lucky afterwards...... Because of my injury, my parents didn't quarrel anymore for the time being, but took me to the hospital together...... Before that, we hadn't been out together as a family of three for a long time......"

Yu Gui drank as he spoke, and said while drinking, he had already opened the fifth bottle in a while.

“…… Maizi, do you know how much I didn't want the two of them to divorce at the time...... I just want to live well with my mom and dad...... As long as they can reconcile, let me do whatever I want...... Unfortunately, they ended up parting ......"

Yu Gui gasped two more breaths when he said this, and the feeling of tightness in his chest made him a little uncomfortable, so he stopped and continued: "After my parents divorced, I thought that this was already the worst thing that could happen to me...... Really, I thought so until my dad died in an accident...... But who would have thought that life would be much crueler than I thought......"

"Actually, I was really desperate...... Particularly desperate...... But I didn't dare to show this kind of affection in front of my grandmother...... Grandma is sad enough, and if she sees me sad again, she will be even more miserable...... So I can only endure it, and I can only force myself to suppress all my feelings...... No matter how many times a person cries in private, no one else should find out...... I don't want them to sue Grandma ......"

"But the way I am...... But my mother treated me like an emotionless person...... She doesn't want me, she'd rather give a large sum of money than take me back to her......"

"Wheat, you say...... Do you think I'm doing something wrong...... Isn't it because I let myself be more wayward and won't lose so much ...... If I had vented my thoughts and feelings earlier, wouldn't they have misunderstood me like this......"

"But I've really gotten used to it...... It's been like this for so many years......"

"I also know that it's not good to suppress my feelings too much...... But if you don't keep yourself calm, it's hard to control what you say when you're angry...... I've experienced how hurtful some unscrupulous words can be...... I just want each other to deal with things calmly and not hurt our feelings because of unnecessary quarrels, is it really wrong......"

"Yan Shu, why can't he understand...... Why accuse me of not caring about him...... It's because I care too much that I don't want to hurt him, and I don't want the conflict to develop to the point of no return......"

“…… Wheat...... What should I do now...... What should I do......"

Yu Gui's voice stopped here, and he couldn't speak anymore.

And after he stopped, there was silence on the other end of the phone for a long time.

Yu Gui was lying on the table and waiting, in fact, he felt so nauseous that he wanted to vomit now, but his body and spirit were so weak and tired that he couldn't do it, he had no strength to move at all, and the whole person felt a feeling of drowsiness, and he felt very cold inexplicably, and his body would tremble uncontrollably every few dozen seconds.

Just when he was almost about to fall asleep, Yu Gui vaguely heard a sentence floating out of the phone: "Where are you now?" ”

"Hmm...... I don't know ......" Yu Gui's eyes couldn't open, and he said in a vague voice: "I came out of Yan Shu's house and walked all the way...... Keep walking...... It's ......"

“…… Is it a bar? You give the phone to the person in the store. The other end said again.

When Yu Gui heard this, he obediently called a little waiter who happened to pass by, pushed his mobile phone out and said, "I'm sorry...... Can you do me a favor......"

The waiter here was no longer surprised by the drunk customers in the store, and understood what he meant at a glance, picked up the phone and reported the address of the store very neatly, and then returned the mobile phone to Yu Gui.

"Sir, please wait a moment, your friend said to come and pick you up immediately." The waiter said politely.

Yu Gui nodded and fell down again, although there was still a faint doubt in his heart, he didn't know how Mai Qixian was going to come to pick him up in Taiwan, but at this time he really didn't have the strength to think about anything again, and this thought flashed away.

Anyway, it doesn't matter if someone comes to pick him up or not, he just wants to sleep and die now, and he loves other things.

After Yu Gui thought about it like this, it seemed that in the next second, he was completely unconscious.

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The wings of his nose fluttered slightly, and he smelled a faint smell of disinfectant water between breaths.

It was as if he had been wandering for a long time, and had been in an ethereal space, but at this time, he felt that his consciousness was slowly being pulled back by this smell, and his strength was not strong but very long-lasting, leaving him no room for reversal.

As consciousness gradually returned, the sensation in the limbs gradually returned.

At first, I only felt that my body was very light, as if I was in a vacuum, and I couldn't feel gravity. Gradually, the body became heavier and heavier, so heavy that it seemed to be pressed under something, and it was completely unable to move, unable to lift even a point.

At the same time, the consciousness in the internal organs also slowly returned. In addition to the nausea that makes people feel stuffy, the more obvious feeling is pain, the pain of being a demon.

It's as if the whole stomach is being treated as a rag, twisting it vigorously, squeezing out all the acid in it, then releasing it and refluxing, then tightening it again, and so on......

This kind of grinding pain is not as pleasant as a straight blow or a knife...... Why did he have to wake up, if only he could pass out in pain......

It stands to reason that stomach pain will get better after a while, but after a few minutes of enduring it, the pain became more and more intense, almost reaching a record high, and Yu Gui finally couldn't help but snort from his throat.

As soon as he spoke, a voice next to him immediately asked softly, "Yu Gui?" Are you awake? How does it feel? ”

The voice seems to be ......

Yu Gui tried to tell the difference, but at this time he only felt that his brain was like a dead machine, numb, and could not process any information, so he had to try to open his eyes a slit, until the figure in front of him gradually became clear from the blur He recognized who this person was.

Mr. Ye ...... Why are you ......" Yu Guiyi opened his mouth only to find that his current voice was terrible, broken and dumb, like a pile of sand in his throat.

Ye Xu stepped forward and stretched out his hand to probe his forehead, then bent down to look at him carefully, and said with a slight sigh of relief: "You asked me this?" If you hadn't called me at night and got drunk, I wouldn't have run out in the middle of the night to be a babysitter. ”

"I ......" Yu Gui's mind was still not very clear, he had no impression of Ye Xu's words, and he felt that most of his memories before this were blank.

Ye Xu looked at his confused expression and couldn't help but pretend to sigh with disgust and said, "Okay, I'm not going crazy with alcohol, I'm kidding you, you just drank too much and finished talking about your words for the next three years." ”

"......" Yugui continued to be confused.

"Isn't it, don't you remember at all?" Ye Xu finally realized the problem, frowned at him, and his expression became stern.

Yu Gui didn't know whether to nod or shake his head, but at this moment, his stomach throbbed violently again, and he couldn't help but shrink down and close his eyes tightly.

"Yu Gui?!" Ye Xu was taken aback by him, and quickly leaned down to check his situation, and found that he pressed his hand tightly on his stomach and immediately understood, patted him on the shoulder twice and said quickly: "You wait, hold on for a while, I'll call a doctor." ”

After Ye Xu finished speaking, he strode out. And Yu Gui just realized that he was in the hospital at this time.

He should, just drink too much...... Why do you come to the hospital......

As soon as Yu Gui tried to clear his thoughts, his head hurt as if he was about to explode, and his stomach hurt him that he might faint at any time, so he could only give up reminiscing for the time being.

What happened between last night and then......