……

“…… Xiao Yuan, you can take Xiao Gui back, after all, you are his mother, how can you ignore your own children......"

"Mom, you better let Xiaogui follow you, it's really inconvenient for me to be here now."

"What's wrong with you, isn't it just that you've found a boss? I know this, and I don't mean to stop you, but you shouldn't treat your own son like a burden...... Besides, Xiaogui has always been a sensible child, and even if he follows you, he will never cause you trouble. ”

"Since you think he's sensible, wouldn't it be better to keep him by your side? It just so happens that you are only one person now, and I am relieved to let Xiaogui take care of you. ”

"Yes, he accompanies me, I can naturally have someone to rely on, but this is not good for the development of the child...... I am old and ready to retire, and I can't give my child the best conditions in terms of life or education, even if I want to keep him by my side, I can't delay him......"

"You don't have to worry about life and education, I will give you another living allowance, and send it to you along with the next month's child support. With this money, you don't have to worry so much. ”

“…… Xiaoyuan, why can't you carry it?? Can flesh and blood be bought out with money? He's your only son! ”

"Who's the only one?"

“…… What did you say? ”

"Mom, I forgot to tell you, I'm pregnant, and I'm the child of the boss you just talked about. We've also checked it out, it's a boy, so he's ready to marry me next month. ”

"You...... Is that why you don't want to be underestimated?! Afraid that he will block your way to marry into a wealthy family?? ”

"You can't say that. Mom, people's hearts are flesh and blood, not to mention that Xiaogui is still a piece of meat that fell from me, how can I not hurt him. But as you said yourself, Xiaogui has always been sensible, and in my opinion, he is too sensible, and he is sometimes really calm for a child of his age. Although I am his mother, but he grew up I felt that he was not close to me, since I divorced his father, every time we met after a long time, he did not feel warm to me at all, where is this like a mother and son. ”

"Can he be blamed for that? You say he's not close enough to you, so why don't you want to think about how you behaved as a mother?! From the divorce to the present, or even before the divorce, how much have you managed him? How much have you cared about?? How much do you know about your son when he grows so big?! ”

“…… Yes, I know I'm a failed mother, but you have to admit that it's true that he was too calm. Like this time his dad died, how many times did you see him cry? At least I haven't seen it once. Do you think this kid was born cold? I can't cover it hot—"

"Xiao Yuan! How can you say that about your own son?! If the child hears this, it will be heartbroken......"

"Isn't he asleep, he can't hear...... In short, that's all I have to say, I definitely won't take it away, and I don't feel comfortable raising a cold-hearted child by my side, since you feel so sorry for him, then I will also entrust him to you, the money will not be less, and other things will be please......"

“……”

…… Listening to the sound coming from outside the door, Yu Guiwo curled up in front of him on the bed, trying to restrain himself from crying.

On this day, his father's funeral had just been completed.

Yu Gui knew that the reason why his grandmother called his mother was so that he could follow his mother's side, people said that "a child with a mother is like a treasure, and a child without a mother is like a grass", it was fine when his father was there before, but now that his father is gone, grandma doesn't want him to be an orphan without his father's love and mother's love, thinking that it is better to live with one of his parents than to live with her as an old man all the time.

However, what his mother had just said was clearly audible to him, and every sentence was like a knife stuck in his soft heart, which had not yet learned to defend himself.

That's ...... His own mother......

Why would she reject him so much? Why don't you want him so much......

Could it really be that the reason, is it because I think he is too cold-blooded......?

"No matter how you cover it, you can't cover it hot", "You are born cold", "Raise a cold-hearted and cold-hearted child by your side...... My mind was like a virus, and I was mixed up by these words over and over again...... It's like a magic sound, no matter how hard he tries, it always lingers.

What is it like to be disgusted by your own mother......

Probably, it will make you even start to question why you exist in this world.

……

Yu Gui never imagined that after many years, he would actually hear similar words from another person he cared about so much.

Coldness should already be a euphemism.

What they really want to say is actually cold-blooded and ruthless...... He? Maybe, maybe they're right, he's really such a person......

Just like now, when he came out of Yan Shu's house, he obviously felt so uncomfortable that he was about to suffocate, but he couldn't cry, only his body was shivering.

In any case, if a person can't cry, it should mean that he is not sad to that point.

That's what everyone thinks, doesn't they? If you don't cry until you cry hysterically, you can't be really sad, and if you don't laugh until you can't breathe, if you don't have asthma, you can't be really happy, these are the criteria that everyone uses to measure a person's feelings.

If this is the standard, then neither what his mother said in the past nor what Yan Shu complained about just now, has not wronged him in the slightest.

Does he deserve this qiē......

Walking aimlessly on the street, Yu Gui didn't know where he should go for a while.

Yan Shu obviously couldn't go back, but he didn't want to go home for the time being, so he just wandered outside.

After walking for a while, the mobile phone suddenly rang, Yu Gui took it out, glanced at it, and found that it was Yan Shu's phone and pressed it directly. Yan Shu called again, he hung up again, and after repeating it a few times, Yu Gui simply turned off the phone.

Actually, it's not that I don't want to pick it up, but I just don't know what else to say after picking it up.

Yu Gui never thought that in Yan Shu's heart, he would actually regard the relationship between them all the time as if he was fulfilling his obligations as a boyfriend, he never thought that Yan Shu would feel that he didn't care enough about him or even like him enough, let alone that Yan Shu, like his mother, characterized him as a cold-blooded and cold-hearted person.

He may not be very good at expressing himself, but his feelings for him have always been - from beginning to end...... It's all true.

My heart has been so blocked that people feel like their throats have been torn apart by someone, it swells and hurts, but the breath is stuck in the throat, and I can't go down or up, and the feeling of suffocation can't be relieved at all.

Yu Gui was so uncomfortable in the end that he happened to see a Japanese-style izakaya still open on the side of the road, so he turned into it directly, and asked the family to bring him two bottles of high degrees without even looking at the list.

Although he had never done this before, he wanted to try it today, after all, he couldn't find any other way to relieve his emotions.

The waiter quickly brought the wine, and Yu Gui drank all two bottles in less than twenty minutes.

He found that when he was in a very depressed mood, the taste of the wine that he would have thought was very spicy was not so obvious, and although it was still not a pleasant drinking experience, at least he was no longer repulsive, and a few sips like drinking mineral water were gone.

"Excuse me, get me two more bottles." Yu Gui greeted the waiter after drinking. He felt quite sober at this time, except for a little dizziness, there were no other obvious symptoms of drunkenness, so he couldn't help but feel a sense of accomplishment when he thought about it, and felt that his alcohol consumption had increased so much unconsciously, which was quite powerful.

"Drinking alone...... It's so boring......" After drinking the third bottle, Yu Gui was already lying on the table, and he muttered to himself: "No wonder the wheat must be pulled with me last time......"

“…… I don't know what he's doing now...... The trip to Taiwan is not smooth...... Why don't you give us a call and ask? Hmmm......"

Yu Gui's hand is not only unstable but also has little strength now, and it took seven or eight attempts to reach into his pocket and successfully hook the phone. He fumbled to turn on the phone, waited for the main page to come out, and groped for the "Recent Calls" column with his already somewhat blurred vision, and then clicked on Mak Qixian's name.

After dialing it, the sound of "beep-beep-" on the phone rang for a long time, until Yu Guidu was a little impatient to wait, and was about to hang up when he heard the sound of the phone being connected from the receiver.

"Hey, Yu Gui?" Mai Qixian's voice on the phone didn't sound very real, Yu Gui estimated that it was because of the effect of alcohol, and his hearing had also deteriorated, so he apologized to the other party first: "Maizi...... Excuse me...... Is it affecting you if I'm calling now? Are you playing outside? Are you with Li Chujin? It's inconvenient to answer the phone......"

"......" seemed to be saying something on the other end of the phone, but Yu Gui didn't hear anything clearly.

He lay there and gasped for breath before continuing, "Maizi, I may, may not be able to hear what you're talking about...... Can you just let me say it, you can just listen...... Just for a moment...... I promise it won't take you too long...... I'm really ...... I just want to talk to someone...... But I couldn't find anyone else...... Only you...... Just a moment, a few minutes, okay? ……”

This time, after Yu Gui finished speaking, he heard the other side seem to say "Okay", and then he exhaled a long breath, and at that moment he felt extremely grateful in his heart, grateful that someone was finally willing to listen to him.

However, a few seconds later, just as Gui was about to speak, as soon as the first word of the first sentence came out, he felt saline welling up in his eyes without warning. The small stream of liquid snaked down his cheeks and slid down the corners of his mouth into his mouth, the wet and salty taste that made him frown.

"Maizi, you say, do I really have to be a particularly cold-blooded person......" Yu Gui finished saying this sentence first, and then picked up another bottle of wine and poured a large sip directly into it, which was used to dilute the uncomfortable salty taste in Fang Cai's mouth.

It's really salty.