Hearing the crisp jingle of the key outside the door, Yu Zhenzhen jumped up from the lazy sofa and rushed out a few steps.

"Senior, you're back--" Yu Zhenzhen's last word "yes" was stuck before he finished speaking, and the next second he exclaimed: "Didn't you have an umbrella, why are you still drenched like this?!" Eh - where's my umbrella?? ”

"The wind was too strong and blew it out." Mai Qixian handed the bag in his arms to Yu Zhenzhen, and added: "I'll pay you back." ”

“…… Blown out...... I ...... a big black umbrella with steel and iron bones" Yu Zhenzhen couldn't believe his words, but seeing that Mai Qixian was almost soaked but protected his bag of things well, he was embarrassed to ask again, so he could only accept this answer as the correct answer.

"Senior, go change your clothes, it's all wet." Yu Zhenzhen picked up the corner of Mak Qixian's T-shirt with two fingers, shook the water and said.

Mak Qixian nodded, turned around and went into his room and closed the door, Yu Zhenzhen heard the stumbling thought that he should be changing his clothes, so he sat on the sofa in the living room with the bag and opened it.

"Huh, donuts? …… Huh, cake? …… Huh, senior? As soon as Yu Zhenzhen looked up and saw Mak Qixian just walking out, he tied up his two arms and held the cake while holding the doughnut and asked curiously: "These are all mine?" ”

Mai Qixian couldn't help but smile when he saw his expression: "Are you greedy or not, it's all yours, can you finish eating in one night?" ”

"It's going to be a long time coming, and besides, you don't like sweets." Yu Zhenzhen pursed his lips, put down his arm and thought seriously for two seconds before asking, "Do you want to give you one?" ”

“…… You eat, you eat, you eat, fat to death. ”

"Eh, don't be envious, my physique is born not fat! No stress! Yu Zhenzhen had already opened a box of cakes with a smile as he spoke, and was about to take a knife and fork to eat, but Mai Qixian glared at him helplessly and then walked to him and sat down.

"What horror movie would you like to watch?" Mak Kai-yin turned on the TV and asked.

"Hmm......" Yu Zhenzhen just took a bite of the cake, the fork was still in his mouth, and he said twice: "It's okay, the more scary the better, is there a recommendation?" ”

"You ask me? Didn't you say you wanted to watch a horror movie, and you didn't even think about what to watch and watched wool. ”

"Didn't I think about it yet?" As soon as Yu Zhenzhen's words fell, he heard the doorbell ring twice.

"Who's going to come at this time? Property? He leaned his neck and poked his head towards the door, then turned his head to look at Mai Qixian: "Senior, go open the door, it's inconvenient for me to hold my hand." ”

Mai Qixian rolled his eyes directly, and stood up speechlessly: "What kind of sin have I done, and I have a bearer than me." ”

Yu Zhenzhen sat there and couldn't close his mouth happily: "You bought the cake, I am eating it so face-saving, do you still blame me?" ”

"Shut up and eat yours." Mak poked his finger symbolically twice in the head and walked over to open the door.

There are not many people who know the address of him and Yu Zhenzhen, so Mai Qixian has roughly guessed who the person is. However, when he opened it and saw Li Chujin standing outside the door, his expression still showed a moment of stunned and a touch of distress that was so fast that he could barely grasp it, but he calmed down in an instant.

"What are you doing here?" Mak Qixian put away his feelings and asked lightly.

Li Chujin was holding the umbrella in his hand, and his body was already soaked, and the long hair that was scattered from the back of his head was still dripping down, and the brown luster against the pale complexion on his face made his whole person look inexplicably a kind of crystal clear beauty, which was particularly pitiful.

"Can I go in and talk?" Li Chujin looked at Mai Qixian with a somewhat complicated look in his eyes and asked.

Mak Qixian was silent for two seconds, and his tone was still very flat when he spoke: "Is there anything else we need to say between us?" I don't think that's necessary. ”

"It's necessary!" Li Chujin suddenly reached out and grabbed Mak Qixian's wrist.

His hands were extremely cold, and when he touched the skin, he felt as if the coolness had seeped through his bones, and Mai Qixian's heart couldn't help but tremble slightly, and the strength in his body seemed to be forced away by this coldness.

"What are you doing here?" When he spoke again, Mak Qixian's voice was a little astringent.

Li Chujin held him tightly and refused to let go, his expression was unusually insistent: "It's okay to talk for a while, just give me a little time, I have something to say to you...... Listen to me......"

"......" Mai Qixian listened to Li Chujin's last tone that was almost pleading, and his nose couldn't help but become sour.

At this time, Yu Zhenzhen had already walked out of the living room, stood behind Mai Qixian and interjected cautiously: "Senior, come in and talk, I'll go back to the room first." ”

"You don't need to avoid it, he'll leave right away and continue watching your movie." Mak Qixian said without looking back. Feeling that the pressure on his wrist was a little less in an instant, he lowered his eyes and didn't look at Li Chujin's current expression, but his heart continued to fall as if he was weightless.

However, Yu Zhenzhen didn't listen to him and went back to watch the movie, but walked a few steps closer and persuaded: "Senior, blocking people at the door is not a gentleman's hospitality. No matter what happened to you and this senior before, we can't do such a degrading thing. ”

As he spoke, Yu Zhenzhen slanted his eyes and saw the umbrella Li Chujin was holding in his other hand, which was his own, and he knew a little more in his heart.

He walked behind Mai Qixian and almost stood close to him, and said in a low voice: "Senior, don't be nervous, you obviously can't let go, why bother each other." ”

"......" Mak Qixian pushed Yu Zhenzhen from behind, and said in a deep voice: "Go back to your room." ”

"Gotcha! Then you guys talk slowly! Yu Zhenzhen simply responded and disappeared in a flash, and the door was closed tightly.

Mai Qixian was also a little tired when he saw his little roommate so "eye-catching", and then saw that Li Chujin was still holding himself weakly, and the expression on his face was already a little trance, and he still couldn't make up his mind to continue to drive him away.

"Come in." Mak Qixian finally stepped aside and pulled Li Chujin in.

"You go in and sit down." After he finished talking to him, he withdrew his hand, then went into the bathroom and took out a dry bath towel, went into his room and picked out two dry clothes, and threw them to Li Chujin, who was standing next to the sofa in a daze, and said in a nonchalant tone: "Wipe it dry and put it on, don't look back, you have to blame me for being sick." ”

After hearing this, Li Chujin raised his eyes to look at him, his eyelashes were still stained with undried rain, and he looked wet, as if he was about to cry.

Mak Qixian couldn't help but look away from him, and deliberately said coldly: "Do you wipe it or not?" ”

“…… Well. Li Chujin squeezed out a low voice, but the hand holding the bath towel and clothes was trembling slightly, and although he agreed, he didn't make any other moves for a long time.

After waiting for a while, seeing that he was still standing there fixedly, Mai Qixian couldn't stand it anymore, walked over and pressed the person directly on the sofa, took the bath towel and clothes, and said indisputably: "Take off your shirt." ”

Li Chujin subconsciously looked up at him, but after a while, he obediently did so.

Mak Qixian threw aside the wet clothes he had taken off, dried the water on his back for him, and draped the bath towel on him, "You wipe it yourself before, wait for me." ”

After Mak Qixian finished speaking, he turned around and went to the bathroom, and when he came back, he had an extra dry towel in his hand.

"Is it all right?" Mai Qixian walked over and stood beside Li Chujin, and when he saw him nodding, he said again: "You come over a little sideways, dry your hair first and then change your clothes, otherwise it will get wet again after changing." ”

"Hmm......" Li Chu turned his back to Mak Qixian obediently, and then felt him hold his hair in the palm of his hand through the towel and wipe it gently.

……

“…… Let me tell you, New York is humid in winter, and it is easy to catch a cold without drying your hair after taking a shower, even if there is heating in the room......"

“…… Xiao Jin, do you think the atmosphere between the two of us is particularly warm now? It's like a real couple......"

“…… □□ head wiping master? You're so heavy-mouthed, haven't you really had that much fun......"

……

Somehow, Li Chujin suddenly remembered this past.

Although Mak Qixian often helped him wipe his hair after being together, the New Year's Eve was the first time, so he was particularly impressed.

It was on that night that he kicked him out of the house because of Lin Chen's relationship.

That was probably the first time that Mak Qixian had a serious mess with him......

He didn't take the initiative to contact him for a few days, until later he couldn't help but pretend to call him by mistake.

At that time, he knew in his heart that he had hurt Mai Qixian, and he knew that he had done wrong, but he didn't want to admit it anyway, but even so he was forgiven in the end......

Mak Qixian was so accommodating to him at that time that Li Chujin now feels tightness in his chest and difficulty breathing when he thinks about it now. Who would have thought that what was once the least cherished would become the most missed today.

At that time, it was just ordinary......

Li Chujin's tears suddenly poured out uncontrollably.

At first, he was still biting his lip desperately to keep himself from making a sound, but after a while, the sobbing sensation became more and more obvious, and even though his back was already tensed, a slight shaking could still be seen, and Mak Qixian's hand stopped.

Knowing that he had noticed that he was crying.

But after waiting for several minutes, Li Chujin didn't hear Mai Qixian speak, nor did he see him come and pull himself, in this kind of waiting, the whole person seemed to be gradually getting colder, and one minute at a time, people could clearly feel the fear of losing something but being powerless.

However, I don't know how long it took, just when Li Chujin felt that his whole body was about to be frozen, he suddenly heard Mai Qixian's extremely hoarse voice from behind him.

He said Xiao Jin, what do you want me to do......

Li Chu was stunned for a moment, then turned around suddenly, and saw that Mai Qixian's eyes were also red, and there was heavy exhaustion in his eyes.

He looked at him and asked softly, but very seriously, "Xiao Jin...... What else do you want me to do? ”

"When I chase you and cling to you, you always annoy me, and you think I restrict your freedom. But I'm letting go now...... I've let it go...... I give you back the freedom, let you do what you want, see whomever you want, and be with whomever you want, so why do you want to come back......"

Mak Kai-yin's expression was full of sadness, as if every word he said required the strength of his whole body.

Li Chujin only felt that his throat and eyes were very blocked, and he tried several times before he finally made a sound: "I didn't come back because I wanted to see you...... I want to be with you...... I just want to be with you! ”

"You just want to be with me?" Mak Qixian repeated it gently, but there was a touch of coldness in his eyes, like a knife blade, which hurt people.

"Xiao Jin, do you really want to be with me, or are you just used to my kindness to you and can't leave me, can you really tell the difference yourself?" Mai Qixian smiled bitterly when he said this, and then said: "I am in your heart, probably at best, I can be regarded as a high-level spare tire with feelings...... It is an object that you can call at your disposal at any time, always giving priority to your wishes, always taking care of your feelings, but as soon as I raise the slightest objection to you, it will immediately make you unhappy, and then I can only compromise and coax you. All you want, just such a person, isn't it? ”

Mai Qixian's words fell into Li Chujin's ears, as if every sentence turned into a bayonet and pierced his heart and lungs, □□ blood was still dripping from the tip of the knife. He watched his blood spread all over the place, but the pain was numb.

"What you say, are you all from the heart?"

Li Chujin felt that he had used a lifetime of restraint to keep himself calm and asked this sentence.

One last confirmation, it really last. Use what little self-esteem he has left.

"Do you really think that in my heart I just think of you as a high-class spare tire?"

Li Chujin finished the question with great difficulty, but what he got was Mak Qixian's silence without saying a word. It's a default.

"Yes......" Li Chujin whispered to himself: "It seems that there is really nothing to talk about." ”

He ripped off the bath towel on his body, walked to the other end of the sofa and picked up the shirt he was wearing when he came to put it on again, turned his head to see that Mak Qixian was still standing there with his back to him in the same posture just now, wanting to say goodbye but feeling that he couldn't say it anymore.

So be it.

Li Chujin walked to the door, opened the door, and after pausing for more than ten seconds, he finally opened the door and walked out, without looking back.

And after he left, Mak Qixian suddenly sat on the ground, buried his head in his knees and choked loudly.

"Senior! Hey seniors! Yu Zhenzhen suddenly came out of the room at this time, ran to Mai Qixian and shook his shoulder vigorously: "Senior, what are you still sitting here!" Is it useful to sit here and cry? Everyone is gone! If you have time to cry, why don't you hurry up and chase it! ”

“…… Eh, did you hear me?! Is it funny that you're masochistic like that? Go and chase the people back!! ”

“…… Ignore me, right?! Mak Kai Yin! Yu Zhenzhen saw that Mai Qixian had always ignored him, and finally became anxious, and patted him on the shoulder and said, "Are you stupid?!" Can't you see that people are serious about you, too? I've never heard of anyone in my life reacting to their own high-end spare tire, are you blind? Why do you have to hurt someone you really like and like you? ”

"Hey!! Did you listen?! I sue you, if you don't chase after you, you will definitely regret it--yes--eh-" Yu Zhenzhen didn't finish speaking, but Mai Qixian suddenly stood up, his body couldn't help but lean back, but Mai Qixian grabbed him and threw him on the sofa.

"Eh, senior!" Yu Zhenzhen saw that after Mai Qixian put him down, he rushed outside, and hurriedly shouted again: "Bring an umbrella--" But in fact, before he could say this, Mai Qixian had already pulled the door open and went out.

"Well, that's the right script." Yu Zhenzhen finally breathed a sigh of relief and lay down on the sofa.

And Mai Qixian's side was anxious and impatient to wait for the elevator, and rushed directly from the safe passage all the way to the first floor, ran a few steps out of the gate, and finally caught up with Li Chujin on the side of the road.

"Xiao Jin......" Mai Qixian buried his head in Li Chujin's neck, because he was afraid that he would resist, so he hugged very hard, but he didn't expect Li Chujin to struggle at all.

"Wheat ......"

I don't know if it's because the rain is too loud, Li Chujin's voice sounded a little erratic, and Mai Qixian wasn't sure for a moment whether he really called himself, but then, he heard a clearer sentence.

"Wheat...... I like you......"

Mak Qixian's eyes were wet again, tears mixed with rain raged on his face, he buried his head deeper, and also wrapped people tighter, and whispered: "I know ......"

"I'll admit that I didn't take our relationship seriously in the beginning...... But since we've been together, I've never treated you like a spare tire......"

"I know ......"

"I made a mistake for me to go to see Lin Chen without telling you in advance, I was really afraid that I would be disappointed in me after you found out, and in the end it would be self-defeating...... I'm sorry. ”

"I understand...... I was too irrational at the time......"

"Also, when we broke up, I should have explained it to you instead of saying those angry things on fire. Actually, I don't want to separate...... I really don't want to be separated at all......"

"Xiao Jin...... Don't say it...... "Mak Qixian only felt heartache at this time. Listening to the person in his arms, who had always been unwilling to give in verbally, was seriously apologizing to him and admitting his mistakes, he felt even more uncomfortable than when he broke up.

He had vowed never to let him be wronged, and said that he would be there for him no matter what happened, but what about the result...... He actually hurt him so deeply......

Mak Qixian's mood at the moment can no longer be described as self-blame. Those thoughts that originally swore that they had done nothing wrong and that they were more wronged disappeared at this moment, and all they felt with satisfaction was the sad and sad aura emanating from the thin body in their arms.

How long has it been, and how has he lost so much weight......

"Xiao Jin......" Mai Qixian couldn't help but turn Li Chujin's body around and circle it firmly, feeling the heat in the chests of the two of them become one, and he felt a little more steady.

It was as if he had been floating in the air all this time, with no direction or purpose, and the whole person was so empty that he was about to go crazy...... It was only now that it finally fell to the ground.

"I'm sorry...... I'm sorry. Mak Qixian whispered in Li Chujin's ear, and now he doesn't know what else to say to him except "I'm sorry".

However, Li Chujin leaned on his shoulder and shook his head.

"Don't apologize, don't always be aggrieved in the future, don't accommodate me everywhere and tolerate me." Li Chujin said very seriously, "Let me accommodate you too, I won't be so willful in the future." I will accompany you to watch the movies you want to watch, listen to the music you like, go where you want to go, and do what you like...... Give me another chance and I'll do it. ”

“…… Xiao Jin...... You don't have to ...... like that."

"It's a must, and I want to do it."

Li Chujin pushed Mai Qixian away a little, because the rain was too heavy, the eyes of the two people were a little unable to open, but he still looked at him stubbornly, as if he wanted to carve this person into his heart completely.

"Mak Kai-yin, I like you. You have to remember. ”

After Li Chujin finished speaking, he suddenly kissed Mai Qixian hard, and after the fierce collision of lips and teeth, a layer of blood appeared in his mouth, but the two of them did not mean to stop, but went deeper and deeper as if they were encouraged.

Probably only in this way can they feel each other's existence more deeply.

And from now on, this bond between the two will be deeply beaten into the blood and bones like a brand, and it can no longer be erased.