"What the hell are you afraid of?" This sentence hit Qin Fei's heart hard.

yes, what the hell is he afraid of? After experiencing the pain of seeing Cai Wei's blood all over her body, Qin Fei already understood what the nameless fear in his heart was before.

He was afraid of losing her, both in her body and in her affection for him!

But even if he realized this, what could he do, but he couldn't put it into his mouth with such a simple sentence. He can pull the bow of five stones, and he has the strength of a thousand catties, but even if he has the courage to move mountains and seas, even if he has exhausted all the strength of his body at this time, he cannot express the fear in his heart, because the deeper and longer the wound, the more indescribable.

Qin Fei closed his eyes dejectedly, as if he wanted to completely isolate the darkness that shrouded his body in front of him, but the darkness and coldness that shrouded his heart, how could he avoid it and escape?

Seeing that he was silent, Cai Wei said tentatively: "Your Highness is afraid that if you promise sincerity to me and make an oath to the mountain, I can't say that one day I will betray my oath to you like that Sun Xuemei, and hurt you instead?" ”

When she first read the history books when she was a child, she often wondered why the famous and good ministers contained in the history books who did not die well, why they would commit all kinds of unbelievable stupid deeds after making meritorious contributions and becoming famous, and ruined the previous good deeds, such as Zhao Wuling Wang, Xiang Yu, Han Xin, and those who were close to them, such as Li Cunxuan of Zhuangzong of the Later Tang Dynasty, Yang Guang of the Sui Dynasty, and so on.

When asked about her father, her father said: "Intelligence is of course extremely important to people, if you want to make meritorious achievements, you must have extraordinary talents, but if you want to make fame for a long time, in addition to intelligence, it depends on the temperament of the person." For example, although Xiang Yu tried his best to sweep the mountains and cover the world, he destroyed Qin in three years, divided the world, and widely sealed the princes, and the government came out of it, called the 'overlord', which can be called a miracle of the world. However, because of his self-cultivation, he struggled for his personal wisdom and did not learn from the ancients, and only knew the courage of his husband; And the woman's benevolence, stubbornness, and self-use, and death to save face, as a result, five years of death in her country, died in Dongcheng, and she did not feel guilty and did not blame herself. ”

For example, although Yang Guang is talented, shrewd and capable, he is so happy with his achievements, and he is intoxicated with the great achievements of the first emperor through the ages, so he wastes money and money, and ruthlessly destroys the great foundation of the Great Sui. If these people had not been able to perceive the defects in their temperament, they would not have ended up with all the lamentable ends. It is Lao Tzu who said, 'Those who know others are wise, and those who know themselves are clear'. ”

Since then, she has known that true wisdom is to be able to know what people know, and since she was engaged to Qin Fei, she began to ponder about His Royal Highness the county king, and the more time she got along with him, the more things she heard about him from others, the more she saw and understood this person more clearly.

She once asked her father why even the sons of one mother had very different temperaments. Her father told her: "In addition to the natural endowment, the temperament of a person is also closely related to the environment in which he grew up, the upbringing of his parents, and the differences in life experiences, and how the parents treat the child is particularly important." If a person has not been loved by his parents since he was a child, and he is often laughed at by others, he or she is more likely to have an inferiority complex and be cowardly and timid. If it was originally smooth sailing but suddenly encountered a big change, it will also change its mind, or go with the flow and fall into the quagmire, or be tempted to endure it, and judge the two people before. ”

She knew Qin Fei from others before she met her, Mama Du once said that when he was young, his biological mother Concubine Jin did not take good care of him, and even the palace maids who served him were not very attentive, and as for his mother-in-law, Concubine Yingchuan, she would not take much care of him. I think that because he has lacked care since he was a child, he has a violent and irritable temperament at a young age, and he often beats and scolds others. And when he reached enlightenment, the Empress Dowager Sun did not invite a famous teacher to teach him, so that as he grew older, he was still a gentleman, until he met her father, he began to study literature, and I think his transformation began at that time!

But even seven years ago, when he was confused and unskilled, he was still tempted by a woman, and wanted to elope with her and stay with her for the rest of his life.

Regarding this doubt, Cai Wei didn't know how many times she thought about it in her heart, and she had already come up with an answer, saying that she was bitten by a snake once and was afraid of the well rope for ten years, and it was expected that this must be related to Sun Xuemei. But she also knew that Qin Fei was extremely reluctant to mention the name of this woman now, if she didn't have a perfect certainty of a single blow, she didn't dare to rashly uncover his scars, and when he didn't want to face it, she forcibly tore open his wounds.

She waited quietly in the darkness for Qin Fei's answer.

After a long time, Qin Fei finally sneered: "What's the matter, what's not it?" ”

Cai Wei rubbed his back lightly and said, "Your Highness, don't you believe in yourself, or don't you believe me?" ”

"If Your Highness just doesn't believe me, then stay with Your Highness, and after a long time, Your Highness will naturally know my heart. But if Your Highness doesn't believe in yourself, then no one will be able to untie this knot for you unless Your Highness is willing to try again. ”

"Only...... I can unravel ...... myself," Qin Fei muttered to himself.

"If Your Highness himself does not have the confidence to open his heart to accept my love for you again, it will only be in vain if I want to get close to His Highness and try to warm His Highness's heart, because the more I treat Your Highness, the more Your Highness will be afraid that one day I will suddenly withdraw this love for Your Highness, and 'fear of love' will push me farther away."

"But Your Highness, I'm not Sun Xuemei, although I don't know how she could make Her Highness infatuated with her back then, and even wanted to elope with her, but I'm sure that in her heart, she must have no sincerity towards His Highness from the beginning, so there will be calculations and injuries to His Highness later. And I was disgusted with His Highness from the beginning, after seeing His Highness's personality, I gradually attracted His Highness, and I couldn't help it, for the first time in my life, I knew that it was like to love someone, I just wanted to stay with you for a long time, and accompany me to old age, it was for you to take my life, and I would not hesitate at all. ”

"But I also know that a person may not be afraid of anything, but he is afraid of his own demons, and a person may be able to overcome any difficulties, but he cannot overcome his own knots. If His Highness only failed once and never dared to fight in the love field again, I would not say more than half a word, anyway, in this marriage, I have been disappointed twice, and it doesn't hurt to have one more time, and when I go to live in Sealand for a few years, after forgetting all about His Highness, I will find a good marriage. I'm not as timid as someone, I only lose once, and then I don't dare to be emotional, even if I am disappointed the more times, I will still be defeated again and again, and I can't say that the next time I am happy, I will be able to turn defeat into victory! ”

She touched Qin Fei's reverse scales three or four times tonight, and now she deliberately provoked him like this, so annoyed that he tore her hand away, and didn't care if he could see it clearly at night, he turned around and pinched her shoulder and said, "Zhou Caiwei, you want to leave for a while, and then you say you won't leave, what do you mean?" ”

Cai Wei gently pulled his left hand off her shoulder, held it between her hands, and said gently: "I only have one meaning, that is, I hope that His Highness can see his heart clearly, do you want me to stay and experience the various tastes of these two feelings with me, or ...... You and I are on each side of the day, 'with one heart and parting, and sorrow to the end of old age.'" Since 'marrying and obeying the husband', then it is up to His Highness to decide where to go between you and me. ”

In the game that unfolded between the two of him this night, Qin Feiyin lost the opportunity at the beginning, it can be said that he was defeated all the way, and after being ruthlessly beaten by Cai Wei a few times, he was finally forced to the last moment that decided the outcome of the game.

All Cai Wei's actions that night made him extremely soberly realize that if he still pushed her away this time, then he would really lose her, forever and ever.

This game is about the chess game of love between the two, is he shaking hands and making peace or abandoning his son to admit defeat?

Is it to admit that he is not afraid of heaven and earth, but he is afraid of his own knots, he can't get out of the shadow in his heart, and he is a fragile person who can't overcome his heart? I'd rather give up the happiness that is at my fingertips for something terrible in the future that may not happen.

Still is...... I believe in her once, and I believe in myself once, and if I bet like this again, I still have half of the chance to win, but if I lose again......

The thick night shrouded the two of them, Cai Wei couldn't see the expression on Qin Fei's face, she could only feel that the big hand she held in her palm seemed to be trembling slightly, followed by another cold big hand covering her palm, as if she wanted to take her hand away.

Isn't it still going to work? Could it be that she had been thinking about it for a month, and the idea of drawing salaries and increasing the motivation from the bottom of the kettle still couldn't shake the shadow in his heart and make him willing to give it a try?

She held Qin Fei's hand tightly and tried to make one last effort, "Qin Fei, you have held my hand countless times tonight and let go, although I am not a man, I also have the pride and dignity of our daughter's family, if you let go of my hand again this time, I swear, I, Zhou Caiwei, will never hold your hand again in this life!" ”

The hand paused, but still resolutely removed her hand, freeing the other from her palm.

Again, he let go of her hand