Chapter 14: The Past Is Like Smoke
Qi Shunmin died in a car accident more than 20 years ago, which was the pillar of her family. She was a teenager at the time, and she had two younger sisters, and only one older brother was in college. So, she was under more pressure to feel helpless.
However, her mother was fortunately a very strong woman, and did not let her and her sisters drop out of school, and with the help of relatives and friends, they completed their studies one after another. However, in Qi Shunmin's young heart, he has always been sad about the loss of father's love. Therefore, she has always longed for a sense of belonging, so that a lonely heart has a haven to take refuge and inhabit.
She later graduated from secondary school and became a teacher. However, because she has a heart that longs for her father's love, she found her first husband Zhang Pengfei who was a few years older than her eldest brother.
At that time, Zhang Pengfei was almost at the age of establishment, and he had also experienced falling in love with several women, so he knew the mentality of girls at that time. He is also a teacher, and he is a colleague of Qi Shunmin, when Qi Shunmin appeared in his field of vision as a beautiful teacher at that time, it naturally attracted his attention. When he cared for Qi Shunmin with an empathetic feeling, he captured Qi Shunmin's heart very smoothly.
In fact, when Qi Shunmin insisted on marrying Zhang Pengfei, he was opposed by his mother's family, because Zhang Pengfei was much older than Qi Shunmin, and he had several love experiences. However, Qi Shunmin is not only a simple girl, but also very willful and persistent, although she sometimes has contradictions in her heart and struggles with her thoughts, but because she was a new teacher at the time and needed the help of a senior teacher like a big brother like Zhang Pengfei, she finally accepted Zhang Pengfei's feelings without hesitation.
Zhang Pengfei married Qi Shunmin, and he had a feeling that an old cow eats tender grass, and naturally he loves her very much. However, the sweet period of marriage cannot last forever. After Qi Shunmin gave birth to his daughter Juanzi, his freshness towards Qi Shunmin was not as strong as when he was in love.
For a man, what is easy to get is often ignored and not even known to be cherished, even if the other party is priceless.
But Qi Shunmin is a little woman who is very dependent on her life, and she likes to be surrounded by the tenderness given to her by the other party, so she naturally can't bear Zhang Pengfei's indifference to her.
However, Zhang Pengfei is a self-righteous man, once Qi Shunmin relies on him too much, it makes him fluttery, and he almost lifts his tail to the sky. Whenever Qi Shunmin expressed his 'bad behavior', he also deliberately reserved to use a little family 'cold violence' for her. As a result, this severely hurt Qi Shunmin's heart of obsession with love. As a result, the contradictions between the two accumulated more and more, and the number of quarrels was frequent.
Qi Shunmin's heart, which originally longed for a better family life, was almost as shattered as a dream after being hurt. Although he divorced Zhang Pengfei several times, he finally didn't have the courage to take this step. After all, she still has a bond with him - Juanzi.
Later, Zhang Pengfei was promoted to an administrative position with his experience and qualifications, became a vice principal, and bid farewell to the three-foot podium. Qi Shunmin had already studied in guò a few years ago, and was promoted from a primary school teacher to a junior high school teacher, and was transferred to another school, which is now No. 2 Middle School. As a result, they are no longer in the same school, and the distance between them is increasing.
In terms of housework, when Zhang Pengfei married Qi Shunmin, because Qi Shunmin was young and couldn't do housework, Zhang Pengfei took on most of the housework. However, when Zhang Pengfei didn't take Qi Shunmin so seriously, he naturally let go of those housework and let Qi Shunmin take it. Whenever the two of them got off work and Qi Shunmin went into the kitchen to cook, he would sit in front of the computer and play games...
Qi Shunmin is also a very stubborn woman, so she is naturally unwilling to be his 'old mother'. Zhang Pengfei was helpless, so he told her that cooking and housework should be done in shifts, and when each other were at home, he would do one, three, five, and two, four, six, Qi Shunmin, as for Sunday, it depended on the situation, whoever needed to eat at home would do it.
Zhang Pengfei felt that this arrangement was very reasonable, and he did not abuse his wife, but he actually proposed such a clear division of labor with Qi Shunmin, which had already hurt Qi Shunmin thoroughly.
Qi Shunmin finally couldn't bear the married life full of cold wars, so he filed for divorce in anger. As a result, to her surprise, Zhang Pengfei readily agreed, and at the price of leaving their common house to Qi Shunmin in exchange for her to give him freedom.
Qi Shunmin's angry words at that time turned out to be such a strict consequence, which couldn't help but make her stunned. She only woke up after the smell - Zhang Pengfei must have someone outside!
When she felt betrayed by her feelings, she suddenly had a heart-rending feeling. After she and Zhang Pengfei completed the divorce procedures, she locked herself in the house alone and carried out a crazy self-masochistic behavior...
Fortunately, her daughter Juanzi was won by her, which gave her some comfort. Otherwise, she may lose the courage to live.
However, she still couldn't extricate herself emotionally, so she sought excitement on the Internet.
At that time, she knew a Beijing male netizen named 'Linyuan Xianyu' on the Internet, who was later Chen Xuewu.
When Qi Shunmin first met him, he asked him curiously: "Why do you have such a strange screen name?" ”
'Linyuan Xianyu' replied: "Life is like a sea. I live in a vast ocean of colors, with colorful and fresh fish swimming in front of me. I longed for one of them to belong to me, but I reached out and couldn't catch any of them. ”
Qi Shunmin's screen name is 'Flying Fish', and he originally added him when he saw that the other party had the meaning of 'envy fish', but after hearing him say this, he knew that the other party was a man with intentions, and he couldn't help but speak angrily - "Then why don't you 'retreat and close the net'?" Otherwise, you'll only have to be greedy. ”
"Linyuan Xianyu": "Oh, it turns out that you also know the allusion that 'Linyuan Xianyu might as well retreat and close the net'?" ”
Qi Shunmin replied: "This is from "Huainanzi Shuo Lin Xun", the original text said, 'It is better to go home and weave a net than to envy the fish by the river.'" In the book "Hanshu - The Biography of Dong Zhongshu", it is said that since the Han Dynasty won the world, those who often want to govern but have not been able to govern well have failed to change but not change. The ancients had a saying: 'It is better to retreat and close the net than to envy the fish in the abyss.' ’”
'Lin Yuan Xianyu': "You turned out to be a talented girl, and you know a lot of historical allusions." ”
'Flying fish': "Hehe, I'm not a talented girl, but I'm a history teacher. I'm afraid I don't know much about history than you do, right? ”
'Lin Yuan Xianyu': "It turns out that you are a glorious people's teacher, I really admire it for a long time." ”
Qi Shunmin didn't care about the other party's compliment, and asked about his profession again. 'Lin Yuan Xianyu' told her that she was a playwright and was currently writing a full-length play. I am usually very busy, and sometimes I chat with netizens on the Internet to find writing materials and inspiration.
Qi Shunmin listened to it and was not cold, but after tacitly complimenting the other party for a few words, he said that he would not disturb his creation.
Now, Qi Shunmin thinks of that netizen again when he is helpless in his feelings.
When she went online, she actually contacted 'Linyuan Xianyu'.
She immediately spoke: "Are you still busy?" ”
'Lin Yuan Xianyu': "Yes." How do you have time to chat with me? ”
'Flying fish': "I'm so depressed today that I'm sorry to disturb you." Can you talk to me? ”
'Lin Yuan Xianyu': "Oh, then why are you depressed?" ”
'Flying fish': "I'm divorced. He doesn't want me anymore. I'm feeling very uncomfortable right now. ”
'Lin Yuan Xianyu' asked her about the reason for the divorce. Qi Shunmin couldn't tell what knot she couldn't untie with her ex-husband. She had no choice but to tell 'Linyuan Xianyu' about her nearly 20-year relationship with Zhang Pengfei and the divorce...
After 'Lin Yuan Xianyu' learned what happened, he couldn't help but sigh. He could only use the guò network to persuade Qi Shunmin.
However, he immediately sighed to Qi Shunmin: "Alas, for us homeless men, how much we hope to have a home." It's a pity that some men have a happy family of their own, but they don't know how to cherish it. It's really a trick. ”
Qi Shunmin suddenly asked in surprise: "Since you are a playwright, why didn't you say that you are a daughter-in-law?" ”
'Lin Yuan Xianyu': "This matter is simply difficult to say." I've been ill-fated for the rest of my life. The same is true in the career. In my early years, because I was so busy with my career, I neglected my personal problems. But then I failed to invest and ended up in debt. Tell me, is that woman willing to marry a loser? Actually, you should have guessed from my screen name that I was single. ”
Qi Shunmin thought for a moment, and then asked puzzledly: "But after all, you are a Beijinger, and it should be easy to find a woman from other places." Why bother to be in your forties and still single. ”
'Lin Yuan Xianyu': "Haha, you are mistaken. Although I have lived in Beijing for a long time, I am not a person with a Beijing hukou, I can only be regarded as a 'North Drifter'. Now, a script that I had successfully created was in the process of filming because of the carelessness in the selection of actors. As a result, when the play was about to be completed, the actor had a style problem and was imprisoned. This drama has not yet been hit, so it was forced to be taken off the shelves. I've also been implicated. It's a pity that his hard work was strangled in this way. For an unlucky man like me, the appearance of the heroine in the life story is even more remote. ”
When 'Linyuan Xianyu' briefly introduced his misfortune to Qi Shunmin, it immediately aroused Qi Shunmin's sympathy. She blinked her eyes wide, and suddenly said, "Big brother, don't get angry, as the saying goes, gold always shines." Don't give up on your ideals. ”
'Lin Yuan Xianyu': "Thank you. You are a good woman and will definitely find your own happiness again. ”
'Flying fish': "Thank you, brother." You must also cheer up. To help you relieve stress, shall I sing you a song? ”
'Lin Yuan Xianyu': "Okay." I'd love to hear you sing. Let's speak now. ”
When the voice was connected, Qi Shunmin immediately sang a local folk song for her.
'Lin Yuan Xianyu' was very infected, so he begged her to sing a few more. At this time, Qi Shunmin, who was mentally empty, let go of his voice and sang several songs for him in a row. In this way, one of them sang with a melancholy heart, and the other listened with a lonely heart.
Under the influence of such a special environment and a different mood, their two moods couldn't help but collide together!