The autumn breeze was bleak, and the street trees on the side of the road seemed to have lost their leaves overnight, and laid a thick layer on the asphalt pavement.

Lin Shanshan held the mobile phone in her hand and looked at the street trees outside the window, and her heart was unprecedentedly calm.

From summer, tossing to autumn, the leap of two seasons, it is time to have a head.

Lin Shanshan got out of the car at the gate of the community, because of physical discomfort, she was walking in small steps slowly but didn't want to go to the door of her house, and actually saw the man who should have appeared in the hotel room

Lin Shanshan let out a long sigh, feeling tired inexplicably, maybe yesterday's events were really stupid, but when she touched her conscience, she didn't regret it.

"You"

Qin Jian looked at Lin Shanshan parked not far away, carrying her bag, just looking at herself quietly, obviously still dressed neatly, but Qin Jian could see a bit of a wolf bèi feeling.

"Don't Talk Yet"

Lin Shanshan raised her hand a little weakly to stop what Qin said briefly. Then he looked Qin Jian up and down, casual denim trousers, and a plain casual shirt on the upper body, which was very simple and very new, as if it was a new dress bought today.

Stopped, and the pain in his lower body eased for a while before he said slowly

"What I want to say has been told to you, what do you want to say?"

Qin Jian pursed her lips and looked at Lin Shanshan for a while before asking slowly

"Are you alright? How did I come back from the hotel by myself? ”

"I'm fine, you should know that's pretty cool. As for the fact that I don't come back from the hotel, then I'm still staying in the hotel? ”

What Lin Shanshan said is a matter of course.

"You know I didn't mean that"

Qin Jian looked at Lin Shanshan and said with a sigh for a while. After speaking, I thought about it and said again

"I'll go back to the hotel, you're already gone."

Lin Shanshan looked at Qin Jian, and then looked at Qin Jian calmly and said

"Why do you want to go back when you're already gone?"

Lin Shanshan said, holding up a smile, but her eyes were cold, she took a few steps forward and stood straight against Qin Jian

"Then you tell me, since you have already left, why do you want to go back? Do you know what kind of choice you would face if you went back? You've made your choice. ”

"It's not an option, and I'm not leaving."

"Okay, you're not leaving, then let me ask you, how much do you remember yesterday's events?"

Qin Jian listened, and unconsciously thought of what happened last night, counting it, in the next two lifetimes, Qin Jian never even had his first kiss and yesterday

His gaze darkened a little.

"Remember, all."

Lin Shanshan's breath stagnated, she looked away a little uncomfortably, smiled, turned her head to look at Qin Jian again, and said

"Okay, let's take care of that."

Lin Shanshan swallowed her saliva, took a few steps back, looked at Qin Jian, and said

"We're all adults, and I'll take care of what happened yesterday, if you need me to be responsible. Of course, if you still have Jiang Xiaoyu in your heart, then it should be regarded as a spring dream. It's a two-choice question. ”

Lin Shanshan looked at Qin Jian's increasingly frowning brows, and Lin Shanshan laughed again. looked at Qin Jian seriously

"Qin Jian, there is one thing between us that we tacitly avoided, and now we have to bring it up again. About who you are. ”

"I know who I am."

"Do you really know? Qin Jian, haven't you noticed it yourself, you can't tell who you are! ”

Lin Shanshan's heart was sour, but she felt pitiful and pathetic when she looked at Qin Jian's cold and calm appearance.

"At first, I said that you were reborn, and you admitted it yourself, but have you ever thought of other possibilities, such as you are crossing over, you and the Qin Jian I know are not the same person at all! Or maybe you're just like me, having a real, almost indistinguishable dream? It's just a dream of yours, but you substitute yourself, and you can't tell whether you are Qin Jian in reality or Qin Jian in your dream, do you really love Jiang Xiaoyu? Is it you who loves Jiang Xiaoyu, or is it the person in your dreams? Do you really know? ”

Lin Shanshan spoke very slowly, and every word was very clear, but every word was poked into her heart one by one like a steel needle.

After a while, Qin Jian was shocked to realize that his back was cold, and when the autumn wind blew, the chill was biting

"I'm so familiar with you, even if you've changed so much, but I can still tell clearly, it's always you, it hasn't changed, you're on your body, I'm familiar with too many things, I even think in a trance that this qiē is just your prank. Even when you were drunk last night, I couldn't form an army, but Qin Jian, this memory not only affects you and me, but also affects the relationship between you and me. ”

"Shanshan"

Qin Jian closed his eyes slightly in pain, and his head seemed to ache faintly because of last night's drunkenness. But his heart was sour, and Qin Jian couldn't tell why this sourness.

"After so many months of tossing, my feelings for you have been tied and no longer pure. If you are still immersed in the memories of your previous life, then last night was my last goodbye to him. If you"

Lin Shanshan bit her lip and looked at Qin Jian's eyes

"If you will, then from last night, this is our beginning."

After speaking, Lin Shanshan raised her hand slightly in the direction of Qin Jian, her fingers were white and slender, Qin Jian could almost imagine that it must be soft and delicate to hold it, and it could be soft to the tip of her heart.

Qin Jian moved, almost raising his hand to hold her and take her into his arms. But at the same moment, the memories of Jiang Xiaoyu and her previous life came flooding in her mind, and she couldn't tell the reason, but her arms were like a thousand pounds, she couldn't lift them, and she couldn't give her what she wanted

He, as she said, is not pure, and that memory is like a nightmare, even if he holds her now, he can't give it all.

Lin Shanshan also looked at her outstretched hand in a daze, her stiff fingers moved slightly, clenched her fists slightly, and took it back

"Oh, it's the right thing to do, so I can die."

Lin Shanshan said, chuckled again, took a deep breath and exhaled and said

"Since you are the Qin Jian who still loves Jiang Xiaoyu, then you are no longer the Qin Jian I know, are familiar with, and like. In the future, when we meet each other, we will smile, nod, and simply say hello. Each returned to its own place, whether it was a neighbor or an alumni. Just like a stranger to get acquainted with again. ”

Qin Jian looked at Lin Shanshan and moved her lips, but she didn't know what to say, she only felt a sense of powerlessness coming over her, like floating in water, unable to die, and uncomfortable.

"From the moment I turn around. Tell him for me that I miss him so much, and, goodbye. ”

Qin Jian was still silent, frowning slightly, looking at the people in front of him, his eyes were obviously like a broken starry sky falling, but he was still smiling. There was some pain in my heart, so much pain that I wanted to sit on the ground, and I wanted to hold my heart and breathe

Qin Jian knew that from beginning to end, who Lin Shanshan was talking about was herself, or not

Without waiting for Qin Jian's answer, Lin Shanshan didn't say much, took a deep look at the person in front of her, and then turned around and left neatly

*****

Lin Shanshan opened the door and saw two huge suitcases in the living room, Lin Shanshan was stunned

"Aunt Wu? Is my dad back? ”

"I just arrived in the morning, and I'm still sleeping."

As he spoke, he couldn't help but ask Lin Shanshan

"I called back yesterday and said I'll be back later, why did I come back at this point, and I slept outside last night?"

"Oh, well, I went out with my classmates, and I was supposed to go home and sleep later, but I had an accident and spent the night outside."

Lin Shanshan said, changed her shoes and prepared to go upstairs

"I didn't sleep well yesterday, I'll go back to my room and sleep for a while, and if my dad wakes up later, I'll talk to him."

"Okay."

Aunt Wu said and asked again

"I'll give you a hot glass of milk first, and I'll bring it to you later, and then you can drink it and go to sleep."

Lin Shanshan was stunned for a moment, then nodded

"Okay."

Saying that, Lin walked slowly to her room, Aunt Wu stood and looked at it a few times, and always felt that Lin Shanshan was walking a little strangely, but she didn't pay attention to it, and turned around and went to the kitchen to give Lin Shanshan hot milk.

Outside the house, Qin Jian looked at the closed door, and couldn't see the situation in the living room clearly through the balcony, but he still looked at it so persistently, standing

Qin Jian himself didn't know what he was looking at, or what he was waiting for. And the empty feeling in my heart belongs to which oneself

Qin Jian didn't know how long he had been standing so stupidly, he only smelled the fragrance of vegetables from every household and began to waft, and his feet began to become numb and unconscious, so Qin Jian raised his feet, and walked to the CC that was placed on the side with some difficulty, looking at this snow-white CC car that had been driven for several years, this was still picked by Lin Shanshan at the beginning

Thinking of this, Qin Jian frowned, pulled the car door, got into the car, and drove the car directly into his house

However, a turn, a distance of dozens of meters, made Qin Jian feel very far away for the first time

Inexplicably, I remembered that Lin Shanshan once said: Qin Jian, look, my house and yours are just a few dozen meters away, if there is no such turn, it would be fine, you go to the balcony or garden, I can see you at home.

Qin Jian only felt a little headache and a little weak, sat in the cab, and sat for a while before getting out of the car and getting out of the garage to go back to the room.

"Coming back? Did you eat breakfast? ”

Li Yun, who heard the sound, hurriedly walked out, saw that it was Qin Jian, and with a happy face, he hurriedly asked.

"Hmm, I ate it."

Looking at the surprise on Li Yun's face, Qin Jian realized that he had rarely gone home in the past few months, and it wasn't like this before.

Thinking of this, Qin Jian was stunned again and shook his head

"What's wrong?"

Li Yun looked at Qin Jian and suddenly shook her head a little painfully, hurriedly took a few steps forward, and asked

"It's okay, I didn't sleep well yesterday, I'll go upstairs to catch up on sleep first."

"Okay, then you have a good rest, close the curtains, and I'll call you again at lunchtime."

"Hmm."

Qin Jian answered softly and walked towards his room Li Yun looked at Qin Jian's back and frowned, Qin Jian was getting more and more wrong

Today is even more wrong

Qin Jian has been sensible since she was a child and has her own ideas, Li Yun looked at it, but still couldn't help but ask, her son is very good, no matter what she can handle by herself, she has always known it.