17 April 2006

Send the little girl to the train station in the morning.

The little girl still didn't seem to have figured it out, and her eyes staring at people were explicit and direct.

Thinking of Jiang Hui's phone call in the morning, she deliberately took the little girl to a friend's dinner that had been pushed away, and during the meal, the friend made fun of her, the little girl was very unconvinced, and repeatedly emphasized that she was an adult with a red face.

Is it really an adult?

Wearing a sweatshirt printed with cartoon patterns and combing a bun hair, what is the difference between those middle school students who walk with school bags on the road?

In the afternoon, I didn't go with Jiang Hui to sweep Jianqiang's tomb cover.

The little girl said that she wanted to apply for a university in Yunnan, and at that moment, something seemed to break out of her body.

A young girl, who has a plot of loving the army, or who has been victimized by the current TV series and novels, likes older men, is so enthusiastic that she worships blindly, and is completely out of reality with her imagination.

Is that really like? In fact, I just like the feeling of being beautified by myself.

In her, I saw the shadow of Han Jingqiu a few years ago.

The little girl's eyes are beautiful, like the last time I saw the Ragdoll cat I saw in the pet store, especially when the eyes were full of tears.

It's not indifferent, but there's nothing that can be done, and that's probably the best outcome.

18 April 2006

At half past two in the morning, I sent a text message to Xiaoya, but I never got a reply.

There was a faint guilt in my heart.

Isn't that kind of rhetoric too harsh for a teenager?

19 April 2006

Today is my mother's birthday, and my father and my wife rushed back and set up a few tables in the Yufu Building in the evening to invite guests to dinner.

It was nearly eleven o'clock when I got home, and I couldn't sleep in bed for a long time.

It should be because I drank a cup of tea after a meal.

20 April 2006

At dinner today, the mother mentioned the problem of having a child again.

can only prevaricate with words.

It's not that I don't like children, I can't tell you how I feel, it's like I suddenly lost all interest in this aspect of things.

21 April 2006

I don't know where the mother brought back a child.

Five or six months old, with a pair of big bony eyes, fleshy little chubby hands grasping the buttons of my shirt, and then wetting my pants and removing diapers, she was a little girl.

The little guy grinned toothlessly, smiled badly, and tugged at the buttons for a spin.

A very subtle feeling, indescribable.

22 April 2006

I am going to go back to Yunnan tomorrow and solve Xiao Zhanfo, and some of the aftermath work has not been completed.

23 April 2006

I was a little surprised to see Han Jingqiu at Yunnan Airport, I didn't expect that the person who was supposed to go back to City B would sneak here and take a flight with me.

She refused to go back to City B and insisted on living in a house in the family home.

24 April 2006

In the afternoon, I received a call from Han Jingqiu, saying that she had made a large table of dishes at home, and the implication was obvious.

casually found a reason to refuse.

I don't know when it began, I couldn't stand her intimate actions intentionally or unintentionally, maybe it started when the Han family saw that scene, or earlier.

25 April 2006

Busy with work.

26 April 2006

Keep busy.

……

2 May 2006

At noon, I went out with Yao Lie and chose a restaurant to eat, and there were six or seven students in school uniforms at the next table.

There is indeed a high school in the vicinity.

From the words they were talking to, I could hear that they were worried about the upcoming three models.

The college entrance examination is on June 7th, and it seems to be coming soon.

……

7 May 2006

In the evening, I helped Lao Qi go to school to pick up his son, and met a female student at the door, who kept following me and calling uncle.

I looked in the mirror when I was shaving just now, but I wasn't that old.

I don't know how I became an uncle.

8 May 2006

After finishing work, as soon as I returned to the dormitory, I learned that Han Jingqiu had come to the army in the afternoon, and I didn't wait for anyone to leave again.

Is there something wrong with you as a couple? Lao Qi asked me.

I don't want to talk about it, and I don't know how to talk to others about the difficulties I encountered in my marriage.

married Han Jingqiu back then, which had nothing to do with love.

If she hadn't been injured in the Yu family, if the following things hadn't happened...... Maybe it was a mistake to decide to accept her in the first place.

13 May 2006

After all the aftermath work, go to the apartment you rented before to get your remaining luggage back.

I saw the book "Lolita" in the drawer of the tea table.

After taking a shower, I took the book and read more than a dozen pages, and the way the stream of consciousness is written, and the whole story is almost paranoid by the male protagonist

I've heard of this book for a long time, but I've never read it.

The computer was on, and I took the opportunity to Baidu it, Lolita, in the West refers to those who wear

A girl wearing a miniskirt and mature makeup but with girly bangs.

Inevitably, the appearance of the little girl of the Ye family flashed in her mind.

It seems to fit Lolita's definition very well.

15 May 2006

In the afternoon, I received a text message from an unknown number - guess who I am?

Playful tone.

stared at the text message for a long time, and a certain guess flashed in his mind, but he felt that it was impossible, and then the other party sent it again, it was a former comrade-in-arms.

I don't know why I thought it was the little girl of the Ye family at the time, maybe it was because of the similar tone.

There is also a record of her text messages on her phone.

Looking at the date, the last text message was sent on February 24th.

16 May 2006

The weather turned hot, and today I went back to the family home to get a change of summer clothes, and I saw Han Jingqiu downstairs, as well as the man who was pulling with her next to her.

She never went back after she came to Yunnan.

That man, as I recognize, is the one I met at Han's house.

I don't remember what Han Jingqiu's face was at that time, so she went upstairs directly to get her clothes, and when she went downstairs, she chased after her for a long time, as if she wanted to explain something.

It wasn't until I drove away that I realized that I didn't have any desire/desire to try to listen to the so-called explanation.

Perhaps, there is really no reason for this marriage to continue.

18 May 2006

An old friend was on a business trip in Yunnan and took time out to meet him.

After dinner, I returned to the army, drove past a bar, and saw a man smoking a cigarette on the side of the road with a girl in his arms.

The familiar short ice blue hair, the short skirt that covers the thighs, I thought it was the little girl of the Ye family, and when I got out of the car and approached, I realized that I had recognized the wrong person.

Maybe it's because I'm old that I love to worry so much.

19 May 2006

Han Jingqiu inquired about Jiang Hui's company number and made a big fuss. Jiang Hui called at night and asked me if I had quarreled with Han Jingqiu again.

I'm planning a divorce.

When I said this, I was stunned for a moment, not because of the word divorce, but because of the firmness in my tone.

This is the first time I realized that I was already so tired of Han Jingqiu's wife.

20 May 2006

Han Jingqiu had a car accident and was at the gate of the family home.

She did not agree to the divorce.

Looking at the woman lying on the hospital bed and falling asleep, she suddenly felt very strange, obviously her facial features have not changed, but she is no longer the simple-minded, sister-like girl.

I don't know if she has changed, or if I have changed, or if we have all changed.

21 May 2006

The determination to divorce has not changed.

received a call from the hospital in the morning, Han Jingqiu took advantage of the caretaker's inattention and secretly committed suicide with a fruit knife, but fortunately rescued in time.

I can't help but remember that when she learned that she could no longer play the cello, she used this trick.

In the afternoon, the Han family arrived in Kunming.

What I didn't expect was that I would see that little girl in the ward, if I remember correctly, there is still half a month to take the college entrance examination.

Seeing her again, there is an indescribable feeling, like a reunion after a long absence.

Coming out of the ward, looking at the elevator that kept opening and closing not far away, what I thought in my brain was that the little girl seemed to be a little afraid of me, and she didn't dare to raise her eyes to look at me, was it because of what I said in Fengcheng? Or are you afraid that I will expose her previous little tricks in front of Han Yongsong?

I went to the emergency passage to smoke a cigarette, and just lit a second cigarette, I heard footsteps and looked down to see that it was her. Looking at her hesitant and even turned around and wanted to leave, a thought popped up in her brain at that time-

The little girl climbed the stairs slowly like this, in fact, just to avoid me.

Don't want to go back to the ward to see me?

This deliberate evasion was evident when she refused to spend the night with me.

After drinking with Lao Qi on the training ground, I didn't understand why I went back to the family home, maybe because of what she said downstairs, which haunted me in the middle of the night, and I wanted a clearer explanation.