22 May 2006

I couldn't sleep at night, and subconsciously reached out to touch the cigarette case on the bedside table, only to find that the cigarette had already been smoked.

What happened last night in the family courtyard house came back to mind.

I couldn't understand all my actions at that time, how could I do such a thing to a child, she was still so young, only eighteen years old, just an adult.

I thought of the four words of drunken disorder.

Han Jingqiu is right, men are animals who think on the lower half of their bodies. I just didn't expect that one day, I would be among them.

May 23, 2006

In the morning, Yao Lie said that he couldn't get through my mobile phone, so he took it out and found that it had been automatically turned off.

After charging, I saw several missed calls and unread text messages after turning on the phone, all from one number.

I saw "Lolita" resting next to my desk again.

I remember Humbert, the male protagonist of the book who is paranoid and obsessed with little girls, and I can't help but wonder if there is another Humbert living in the depths of my heart.

At 1:23 p.m., I received a text message from a little girl.

Ask me if I've ever had lunch.

At this point, it should be self-study in the afternoon.

When I was about to reply, I remembered the events of that night again, and the ghost chose to turn off the phone by mistake, perhaps because I was afraid that her phone would come again.

She shouldn't have spent too much energy on a married man.

24 May 2006

The old Ning couple next door forgot to bring the key when they went out, and they couldn't get in when they came home in the evening, so they called and wanted to climb through the window of my house.

Returning to the family home, he picked up a roll of scotch tape in the dining room with a wrong word on it, Convetine.

remembered that the little girl sat at the table and did her homework that night, she should have fallen behind.

25 May 2006

After dinner in the evening, I turned on my phone again, and there were several missed calls and no unread text messages.

Turn off the machine again before going to bed and do it subconsciously.

……

28 May 2006

In the afternoon, I received a call from my mother and rushed to the hospital to see her sitting on the edge of the hospital bed peeling apples for Han Jingqiu.

I didn't expect Han Jingqiu to call my mother to Yunnan.

When I returned to the army at night, I picked up a cat on the road, only the size of a hand, very cute, blue-gray fur, and barked like a newborn child.

29 May 2006

In the morning, I was woken up by the sound of a kitten, I should be hungry, and after washing my face, I went to the supermarket to buy a can of milk for it.

Having drunk a fifth, the little one has a good appetite.

……

1 June 2006

In the past two days, the kitten's spirit was not very good, as if it was sick, and I took it to a nearby pet hospital.

The little guy has achondroplasia, which is probably the reason for the abandonment.

I learned from the doctor about the breed of the little one, the Carthusian cat, and later found out that the little one is still a female cat.

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7 June 2006

Today is the first day of the college entrance examination.

Driving past a high school, there were many parents standing in front of the school, and vehicles were forbidden to honk.

At noon, I went back to the dormitory, first went to feed the cat, and the little guy squinted and lay on the balcony to bask in the sun, as if he was a little older and more beautiful than when he first came.

8 June 2006

When I woke up in the morning, I found that the weather was good, which was perfect for a training day.

Lao Qi brought his son to the army, and during the college entrance examination, all the students in the first and second years of high school were on vacation.

At lunchtime, Lao Qi mentioned that his nephew in his hometown was also taking the college entrance examination this year, and the weather there was not very good these days, and it rained heavily yesterday.

If I'm not mistaken, Lao Qi seems to be also from City B.

9 June 2006

Mother came to the troops in the afternoon.

Lao Qi served as his father's guard when he was young, and he was about the same age as his eldest brother, and he could talk to his mother very well.

I went to get a bottle of hot water, and when I came back, I just walked to the door and heard them mention the college entrance examination.

Now the pressure on children is getting bigger and bigger, and some can't think about it, and jump off the teaching building directly when they don't do well in the exam.

Mother echoed Lao Qi's words: Who said no, I just heard my daughter-in-law say in the hospital that her niece fainted in the examination room and was sent directly to the hospital.

Is that the little girl?

When I got home, I took out my phone from the drawer, and when I turned it on, it has been quiet, no phone calls, and no text messages.

……

11 June 2006

In the evening, Yao Lie came to the dormitory and found the kitten he had picked up, and named the cat before leaving-Nuomi.

I called the little guy with 'glutinous rice', but the little guy didn't respond, I should not like the name.

12 June 2006

I went to the supermarket today and bought a cat nest for the little guy by the way.

The little one seemed to like it very much, and lay down in it, and refused to come out again at dinner.

13 June 2006

When I came back and opened the door, the cat nest was empty, and I found the little one under the sofa, biting something and playing with something.

tang

When I took it, it was a roll of transparent glue.

I put it in the pen holder, I don't know how it ended up here.

The little one drank a little too much milk at night, shrunk his paws, and lay on his back in the cat's nest and hiccups, looking ruffian.

On a whim, he shouted 'little girl', and the little guy suddenly turned his head, and there was still a little chaotic blue membrane in his bony cat's eyes, and he screamed cooperatively.

Do you like the name too?

14 June 2006

I went back to Fengcheng today.

I haven't told my parents about the divorce yet, and I don't want them to worry too much.

At dinner, my mother asked me if I wanted to change my local mobile phone number in Fengcheng.

Just now, I took advantage of the time to build a small cabin for the 'little girl' in the yard, but the 'little girl' didn't seem to like it very much, and she didn't adapt to the new environment.

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18 June 2006

In the afternoon, I went to the business hall to buy a new card, and when I left, I brought back the old card.

Probably because there are more than a hundred dollars in the card.

The aunt at home said that the 'little girl' had been screaming all day, and she didn't drink her milk, so she went to the cabin to see the tower, and lay there dejectedly, her nose was wet and a little cold.

After dinner, he carried it back to his room.

I'll sleep with me tonight, and I'll buy you a cat kennel tomorrow, little girl.

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22 June 2006

After returning from the army, Political Commissar Zhang's house next to him was very lively, Political Commissar Zhang's grandson took the college entrance examination this year, and the whole family was ready to stay up late tonight and wait for the results to be checked in the early morning.

I heard laughter from next door just now, and I should have been admitted to a book.

But it was too loud, and it woke up the 'little girl'.

Suddenly a question came to mind, the college entrance examination system in different provinces is different, and the score requirements of the previous book should also be different, right?

23 June 2006

Temporarily replaced Lao Xu to come to City B for a meeting.

I don't understand why I recommended myself after Lao Xu said that he couldn't come, which is not in line with my character, maybe it was the heat in my head at that moment.

When passing by the family home, I went to Han's house to visit Han Yongsong, there was no one at home, only Sister-in-law Tang and the orderlys.

I didn't expect to meet a little girl at Zhang Jijia's house.

When I heard her voice in the living room, I was stunned for a moment, before coming to this family home, I should have thought that Ye Jiming's home was here.

The kid who called me every night lost a lot of weight, as if the wind would blow and he would fall.

The way she looked at me was full of grievances and resentment.

If you are a normal child, after what I do to her, you should avoid me like a snake and scorpion, resentful and hateful in your heart, and maybe there will be fear, right?

Sitting in the car with her, I noticed her gaze, and felt inexplicably restrained, and I never felt tormented.

She said I was unkind, but I thought I was mean.

The man who was called her little uncle by all the time, and had educated her in a righteous and strict manner before, but now he kissed her and his wife's niece in turn, and even had some kind of dirty thoughts about this teenage child in the dead of night, isn't such a man shameless?

I didn't want to make her cry, but I couldn't find a better way, so I could only watch her cry and get out of the car and leave.

Little girl, you are still too young, and when you look back one day, you will be grateful for my rejection of you here today.

24 June 2006

At noon, I went to a barbecue restaurant with my comrades-in-arms to eat, and met a little girl there again.

There were three boys with her, one of whom sat with her, who had never seen her before, and couldn't help but look at it twice.

It's a very Sven boy, he should like little girls, otherwise his eyes won't be staring at her all the time.

When I went upstairs to the box to eat, I was a little absent-minded, and I heard Yao Lie say that the red-haired kid who sat with her had been to the armed forces department in the morning, and because he spoke in a smooth tone like a gangster, he suddenly felt a little uneasy little girl, thinking of her rebellion, and called downstairs under the pretext of calling.

I saw her in the aisle, pulling and pulling with the boy, and the two seemed to be very close.

Thinking of Yao Lie's words, worried that she would be deceived, and wanted to send her home, but she refused, and her rejection of me was obvious.

The complicated feelings disappeared on the second floor when she saw the little girl take a taxi and leave alone, in fact, she knew the importance and said that she wanted to go with the boy just to be angry with me.

On the way back to City B, Yao Lie suddenly mentioned the little girl and said that yesterday I saw her standing at the entrance of the headquarters waiting for me.

On such a hot day, my clothes were soaked with sweat, so I should have waited a lot of time.

I can't tell you how I felt at the time, but it's all in the past.

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I was going to finish the upload at once.,I found that it's too late.,Upload it first.,Anyway, the 11th diary will be written.。 Qun Mo Da~