Chapter 35: Go
My grandfather is gone, and it is not painful to go. As for death, my grandmother told me stories in the early days, and she told me a lot of stories about her relatives, but they all seemed to be the same, just like McDull's mother told about the intention: a person who was so good suddenly went to cook, walked to the stove (the original text seems to be a stove or something), and then suddenly collapsed and died.
This kind of story, which sounds neither scary nor sad, does not seem to even have a little excitement, with a kind of commonplace, like going to cook every day.
There are also painful ones, I've heard of them, but the ones I've seen that are painful should be grandma, although they are nothing compared to those stories that sound moving.
In my impression, I feel that my grandmother is so pitiful, and what makes me feel like this the most is her teeth.
A few crumbling teeth, seemingly about to fall out at any moment.
Actually, objectively, I also think that my grandfather is even more pitiful, because all his teeth are gone, all of them are dentures.
But I just think that grandma's feeling is more shocking.
Grandma is very good to me, although grandpa is very good to me, but I think grandma is warmer.
She has a feeling that makes people feel very quiet and comfortable.
And she is very welcoming to people, busy cooking and greeting.
Grandpa is also very enthusiastic, but it is a very lively, very flamboyant kind, telling you about the past that he thinks he is very great or something.
It's my grandmother who has complete teeth, and she seems to be very strong, but I don't have any impression of my grandfather, but I've heard some rumors, a very casual person, I can't imagine it.
One of the reasons why my grandmother made a deep impression on me was that she was tormented by illness.
I've always felt that grandma and grandpa are not in a completely equal relationship, and it's obvious that grandpa has the upper hand.
But this seems to have become a habit and tacit understanding, grandpa enjoys the feeling of dominance, and grandma seems to be satisfied with the situation of being in charge of household affairs.
I felt like I felt a sense of inner shock when I saw her, and I thought she was the one who was more painful.
It was also all of a sudden that one day, she left.
It seems to be so quiet.
I dream of my grandmother, sometimes I dream of my grandmother, but I don't seem to dream of my grandfather, maybe he was alive before, and maybe it won't be like this in the future.
I have dreamed of many people, and I have also dreamed of Xiao Junjun.
It seems to be a half-cut dream before I suddenly want to pee in the middle of the night.,It's basically like I'm making dumplings.,Xiao Junjun said that he can catch dumpling wrappers and other kind of dreams that have no nutrition and no content.。
I think dreams are a continuation of reality, and many dreams are as real as reality, making it difficult to tell the difference.
There are really not many dreams about the opposite sex, in fact, the kind of exaggerated science fiction themes are the theme of my dreams, such as a volcanic eruption, an earthquake, and an out-of-body soul.
At first, I was interested in the opposite sex, but it actually started with a dream.
Speaking of which, I dreamed of it before, and I only dreamed of Inke.
The dream of him is actually not the real him, but a mixture of Xu Zhimo, the old Shanghai swinger, and a very idealistic person.
It's the kind with long round eyes, with an uninhibited smile, and good at flirting.
Actually, it was an idealized thing when he was very young, and I don't think he himself was much worse than that.
And it's not for a mere mortal like me.
I don't have their kind of carefree and easy, nor do I have that kind of publicity, and I don't have that kind of pungency and that kind of bravery.
Most of the time I'm really too introverted and too honest.
Ran away, and then got back to the topic.
People will eventually die, or heavier than Mount Tai, or lighter than a feather.
However, most people in life, like grandma, grandma, grandpa, etc., are not as good as Mount Tai, nor are they considered to be feathers.
Grandpa said: "People die like lights go out"
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More appropriately.
It is that kind of death, like a fallen leaf falling in the autumn wind, like the ripe fruit falling in an orchard.
Grandpa also said that when people are old, they are like "ripe melons"
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I think he probably saw through this many, many years ago.
Speaking of reality, it is probably necessary to take the computer science level 3.
The content of the third level is very boring, there are a lot of common sense things, and it's too late to memorize by rote, so I gave up decisively, and when my mother watched it, I memorized it for a while, and I was done fooling the past.
Actually, I don't know what to do.
Perhaps, if I haven't passed the teaching qualification, the next time I apply for the exam, I will get chemistry, and my chemistry will be so bad that I don't know anything about organic chemistry.
Why don't you change to math and learn some calculus.
Sometimes I feel at a loss, sometimes I feel miserable, and sometimes I feel angry.
But if you think about it, it's just how you think it should be, and how it doesn't.
Or you position yourself higher than others actually do to you, and you feel that others treat you badly.
However, if you don't have any pre-positioning for yourself, or you don't have any expectations or evaluations of things, your joy and anger will cease to exist.
I watched a lot of movies, and sometimes I wonder what I really am.
Later, I felt that it was really not that extreme, but just like a normal natural phenomenon, seeing what others expected you to do, you would want to develop to the top.
When encountering bad phenomena, they will also be very angry.
When it comes to choosing, you will hesitate to consider how you can be happier and more comfortable.
In the absence of a big difference in interests, it is better to make others feel better.
Like a flower, a small grass, strive for more sunshine and rain, in the storm, will be helpless to bow their heads, there are butterflies and bees flying on it will also feel happy, saying that their photosynthesis is conducive to air purification will feel that they are amazing is a good thing, it is said that they can not withstand the wind and waves transplanted in the greenhouse will also be a little depressed and some yearn for the sky, the extremely harsh climate will also be afraid, and the general wind and rain will also feel bearable.
After all, you can't do the great good and evil in the movie.