In the early hours of the morning, "Bi Yue" in his sleep and high fever, tears quietly slipped into the pillow at the corners of his eyes.

……

In a small mountain village in the northeast surrounded by mountains on three sides, there lives such a family.

Grandfather Bi Fu suffered from uremia and was paralyzed on the kang all year round;

When his uncle Bi Tielin was twenty-three years old, he was convicted of "hooliganism" and went to prison because he kissed a female intellectual, who had not yet returned to the city, and it has been seven years since then.

Grandma also knelt down in front of the government and shouted wrongs when the uncle first entered, and within two months of returning to the village, she hugged Bi Yue, who was crying and panting, and swallowed her last breath with her eyes open, and she didn't blink an eye.

From that day on, eleven-year-old Bi Yue slowly became speechless.

Why do girls do this?

Because Bi Yue, who was holding the firewood behind the firewood stack, witnessed with her own eyes that it was the uncle of the female intellectual.

She complained to herself, if she hadn't sued her grandmother and uncle for being wronged, wouldn't her grandmother who loved her the most not die so early?

This has become a scar in the heart of a young girl, a hurdle that can never be overcome!

……

Later, she and her twin brother Bi grew up.

They have become the talking point of the thumbs up in the village, and at the same time, they can often hear the sighs of the villagers after they are proud of them.

Because her family is poor, and because the Bi family has a lot of foreign debts, what she can borrow has already been borrowed.

Because I was afraid that my uncle would be guilty in it, it would be difficult to send food and drink, and later I added the cost of my grandfather's uremia treatment.

How poor is it?

I was admitted to university, but I couldn't pay for the road and couldn't go out of the mountains.

For the cost of the journey, for other expenses after arriving in Kyoto, Bi Cheng went to the brick factory to carry bricks to earn money.

For the money, the money owed, and the money that is lacking in front of her, Bi Yue feels that it is really boring to live.

Why? Why did she and her brother get into college at the age of sixteen, but they still haven't changed their lives! Who can give an answer, sue sù sù sixteen-year-old her!

……

"Nell, isn't it just the cost of the road?! Daddy just sold this bone for you to study! ”

A middle-aged man of 1.8 meters, carrying a hoe and dry food on his back, resolutely stepped into the famous dangerous mountain in the local area.

Legend has it that there are wolves there, and ten go in and eight can't come back;

It is said that there are treasures that are special to the Tohoku region, and if you find them, you will be rich.

The eldest daughter and eldest son were both admitted to the university in the capital, not only the dragon and phoenix fetus of the thumbs up in ten miles and eight villages, but also the smart sister and brother, who doesn't say that his daughter is a Wenqu star!

The whole village said that there was green smoke coming out of the ancestral grave of his old Bi family, and Bi Tie felt that life finally had hope as soon as he thought about it!

This dark-skinned, simple man set off the day after his children received their college admission letters, and he risked his life to enter the mountains.

His purpose is very simple, to send his children to college, and to send them away from the small mountain village to the big city!

However, Bi Yue and Bi Cheng didn't expect that their college admission letter and the result of their desperate study would make their father lame.

Bi Yue's tight string broke the moment she saw her father being carried back.

……

"O Niel, my silly Nier! Your father's legs and feet are gone, that's his life, why can't you think about it? He doesn't regret going into the mountains! He was in a hurry and didn't dig anything! Having a father like us has delayed you, and you are digging your mother's heart by practicing yourself like this! ”

Crying in pain, Liu Yafang touched Bi Yue's face distressedly with her big thick hands.

During these days, Liu Yafang's eyes seemed to be blind from crying, and everything she saw was a little blurry.

Grandfather Bi Fu, who was lying on the kang, watched his eldest son Bi Tiegang drag an injured leg to get off the kang to see Bi Yue in a hurry, and leaned against the fire wall in vain like powerlessness, the old man tilted his head to the other side, and instantly burst into tears.

The door creaked......

Bi Jinzhi, the only aunt who is the second, lifted the dilapidated door curtain, grabbed Bi Yue, who attempted suicide, and slapped it twice, and a slap print immediately appeared on Bi Yue's face.

After the fight, in the exclamation of Bi Yueniang Liu Yafang, Bi Jinzhi hugged his niece who was lying on the kang in a daze, and suddenly cried and muttered hoarsely:

"My aunt pays for you! I'm here for you! Satsuki! ”

Bi Jinzhi regretted it in a trance, why didn't he pick a good ...... when he got married

This is the first time Bi Yue has been beaten since she was a child.

Ten-year-old Bi Chen dragged the sixteen-year-old Bi Yue's face turned red and expressed:

"Big sister! I went to the brick factory to carry bricks, and I carried bricks with my brother! You don't, you don't ......"

The ten-year-old boy turned his head so stubbornly that he didn't want to shed tears, but the tears didn't listen to him, and they crackled and flowed down with snot...... Please don't scare me, sister.

……

The scene two years ago, Bi Yue at that time, was like a mist Xuan who had crossed over at this moment.

Their eyes were full of tears, but they didn't want to open them, and the teardrops slipped from the corners of their eyes, flowed into the cracks of their hearts, seeped into their bone marrow, and spread throughout their bodies.

Through the memories of her original body, she lay on the iron frame bed and clenched her fists tightly.

seems to be fighting for Bi Yue, and fate is making efforts;

It seems to encourage yourself to have the courage to feel it;

seems to be helpless, whether it is a big city or a small village, this tragedy that can always be seen in the world.

……

Bi Yue went to college, and the Bi family went out with two college students, which was incredible for the Bi family at that time.

It was Zhao Shugen, the village chief in his fifties, who pushed open the door of this house full of sorrow.

Turning the corner, Zhao Shugen called Bi Fu "uncle". As soon as he entered the door, he shouted to the old man who was paralyzed on the kang:

"Uncle, the big leg thing...... Alas! Don't get angry, Xiaoyue, I and the folks! ”

After shouting, Zhao Shugen entered the house, looked at Bi Jinzhi and Liu Yafang and continued:

"What a glory you say this must be, Glory Ancestor! Xiaoyue grew up watching me, and the golden phoenix finally flew out of our ravine! Brother and sister, I've got this for you. ”

Bi Yue, who had been closing her eyes, instantly stiffened her body and listened calmly.

A cotton hat was piled with money, and in that hat there were food stamps, pennies, and a dime......

"That's all, the old and young masters of the whole village made it together! Xiaoyue and Dacheng are good children who grew up in front of the old and young masters, and they were admitted to Capital University, and our faces were all shining, and we had to read anything! Let Dacheng Ma slip back and don't ask for money, the foreman owes him money for the bricks, and I'll ask for it when I catch up! ”

Aunt Bi Jinzhi took the cotton hat with trembling hands.

Bi Tiegang, who was lying in another room, was holding a leg with a board, he felt that his heart was blocked, and he had a lot to say but couldn't say it.

The seven-foot man had not dared to fall down since he was injured, and at this moment he fell crooked on the kang along the wall of fire, covering his face with his hands, his shoulders twitched, and his whole body seemed to be drained.

The old village chief Zhao Shugen looked at the thin Bi Yue, and lit the cigarette bag and pot before persuading:

"Xiaoyue, uncle tells you, this person's life, you have to encounter some difficulties, your road is still long, you have to go to the capital, you have to go to the capital to study hard!

In the future, there will be ability, and the faces of the whole village will be bright!

The big guy doesn't want anything else, just want to have a chance with Dacheng one day, we can sue others, look, Bi Yue and Bi Cheng are college students who went out from our poor Zhaojiatun! Who said that the mountain nest can't fly out of the golden phoenix! ”

was discussed by Liu Yafang crying, Bi Yue didn't open her eyes;

was slapped twice by her aunt Bi Jinzhi, and Bi Yue didn't dare to open her eyes to face it;

But at this moment, when she listened to the persuasion with a strong local accent, she opened her eyes and was helped by her mother to sit up.

At the age of sixteen, a girl who skipped a grade all the way, passed the test, and was excellent in character and learning just to spend a few years less on tuition, finally ignited a spark in her heart.

The pair of clear teary eyes looked at the cotton hat in her aunt's hand......

In the midsummer of that year, when the enrollment time was about to pass, Bi Yue and Bi Cheng left the small mountain village called "Zhaojiatun" with the money that could no longer be zero, and her mother's steamed steamed buns in their pockets.

The sister and brother stood on the mountain and looked at the village with smoke curling, and looked back at the unknown road they were about to embark on.

I could hear the men, women and children of the village;

He seemed to be able to see his father standing at the head of the village on crutches;

Grandpa, who has not liked to talk in recent years, shouted when they turned and pushed open the door:

"I'm going to have a breath!"

This scene is engraved in Bi Yue's blood and bones, which is the reason why she has not had enough food and clothing in college for two years, and she has long suffered from depression, but she can maintain her grades at the top.

……

Ai Xuan's nails were picked in the palm of her hand.

She saw the sixteen-year-old girl at the time, tugging at the cloth pocket with both hands, climbing two mountains in a row with her thin shoulders, and then Bi Yue stood on the street blankly, she seemed to know that the outside world was different from what she imagined.

Bi Yue took the train for the first time;

For the first time, Bi Yue learned that in Kyoto, you can't just walk, you have to learn to reverse to find your destination;

For the first time, Bi Yue found that some of her classmates could eat white flour steamed buns at once;

There are many, many things that those watery eyes don't know......

Ai Xuan struggled with a high fever and kept shaking her head.

For the helplessness of his previous life and the helplessness of working hard, he has endured more than himself for Bi Yue's psychology.

Only she understands that Bi Yue is sick, and she has long suffered from major depression.

She obviously couldn't read the book for a long time, she was full of exhaustion, and the panic caused by the decline in her physiology was invading her every day, but she couldn't let go of too much.

Ai Xuan suddenly cried, she felt that Bi Yue was leaving!

She clenched her fists, and Bi Yue let go of her hand;

Because Bi Yue was relieved, she knew that she would empathize.

"Who? It's not annoying! What are you crying in the middle of the night? Yuan Lisha from the dormitory shouted in a sharp voice.

Bi Yue forced herself to get up, and she stood in the hallway looking at the silent university campus outside.

Her mind was spinning, spinning the real Bi Yue bowing to her as she left.

At dawn, "Bi Yue", wearing a red dark checkered shirt, black pants, and black lace-up cloth shoes, stood on the campus of Kyoto Normal University in the 80s.

She was looking up at the loudspeaker, which contained "Words of the Yangtze River" belonging to this era:

You come from the snowy mountains, and the spring tide is your style;

You run towards the East Sea, and the storm is your spirit;

Thou hast come from time immemorial, and the great waves have washed away the dust;

You run to the future, and the sound of the waves echoes in the sky.

……

"Bi Yue", whose eyes are red and swollen, looks at the vibrant campus.

It turns out that this is the eighties,

It seems that she wants to compose poems that belong to Ai Xuan and Bi Yue in the 80s!