The withering of cherry blossoms - endure a thousand times

The cherry blossoms in Osaka are blooming again.

Shinobu stood under the cherry blossom tree and watched the pale pink cherry blossom petals fall one by one, leaving a deep mark on the ground with the sharp katana in his hand.

A maid bowed from afar and said, "Young Master Patience, the head of the family will pass you on." ”

He put the knife back into its scabbard with a beautiful flower in the air, and walked barefoot on the ground, with no expression on his handsome face, and no light could be seen in his dark and beautiful eyes, as if life was only dead and silent.

The maid led the way in front, her body trembled slightly, she didn't dare to approach this young master, I heard that he was moody, but in fact it was not moody, just because you couldn't see any joy and anger on his face at all.

In the hallway, his mother in a kimono stood in front of her with clogs and stopped him.

"Whatever your father says, don't speak, don't offer to go," she said. ”

He just raised his chin slightly, and walked past her without squinting, as if he had never seen her.

There was a sigh behind him.

A sneer appeared on his lips, looking evil and handsome, but no one would understand the unspeakable loneliness in his heart.

The people in the main hall had already arrived, and in the middle was his father, the head of the Shinobu family, surrounded by his brothers and sisters, half-brothers and sisters, many of whom were wearing military uniforms, and their expressions were the same cold mockery, and he walked in without speaking, silent.

His father said, "The Emperor expects someone to go to Kyushu and bring back the prosperity of various places, and I swear to the Emperor that my people will be able to accomplish this task." ”

His eldest sister came out and said, "I have a spy poppy under my command, and one person can definitely complete the task." ”

His father shook his head and said, "No, the poppy should go on a more difficult mission." ”

His brother said, "I have a good man. ”

Everyone is trying their best to compete for the position of the head of the Ninja Family, and everything he does now about the Ninja Family is to add points to inherit the position of the head of the family in the future, but he stands quietly on the side and does not speak.

His mother, heh, his mother never wanted him to fight for anything, she only wanted to be recognized by the children left by his father's ex-wife, and never thought about him, no matter how sincere his feelings were, there would be nothing left of such indifference.

He stood up and said, "Father, go son." ”

His father looked at him, nodded his head, and said, "Let's go tomorrow." ”

He turned around and left, stepping on clogs with a knife in both hands and going out, looking at the bustling people in Osaka, the smell of oden filling the air, and a woman in a kimono standing in front of the stall.

He walked over and didn't speak.

The woman revealed a gentle smile: "Patience Foot-kun, it's still the old rules, right?" ”

He nodded slightly.

After a while, a portion of oden to his liking was placed in front of him.

The woman sat in front of him and smiled softly: "Shinobu Jun, I'm going to follow my brother to Kyushu tomorrow, so you won't be able to eat the oden I made in the future, but I still hope that we can meet one day, remember that my name is Qiushuijing." ”

He ate oden without saying a word, and when he was done, he got up and left, thinking that since we could meet, he would have something to say tomorrow.

He came home and didn't pack anything, his father had prepared it for him, but he didn't look at it.

He went to Kyushu, he didn't meet the autumn water mirror, he stepped on the mountains and rivers and stepped on the floating world a few times for fear that he would stagger her if he stopped, but he never heard from her again, only heard that the spy codenamed Poppy kept killing the warlords of Kyushu, and every dead warlord was often in the place where he left.

He finally stopped thinking, it was too difficult for so many people and so many things in this world.

People kept asking him where he was from, and he never answered.

Some people say that the world is very small, but it will go from east to west in a few days, but he thinks that the world is so big, otherwise why would he always not meet her.

As far away as she is from him, this floating world will be as big as it is.

Even if he dreams of him, the unspeakable words in the dream are asked again and again, in the final analysis, it is only to seek a question and answer that is Jefiyeh.

He finally saw her, she was in Shanghai, with a ruffian man.

The man asked her, "Water mirror, this is." ”

She said, "This is the senior I met when I was studying at Yamato, and he was very good to me. ”

He just laughed, and the smile never reached the bottom of his eyes, even if he smiled and looked closely, he could see his loneliness.

Let her say, he doesn't object, he doesn't care anymore.

During the night, he was left in his house by the man.

She stood in the moonlight, as devout as a believer, and the moon veil shawl, she held out a qiē and a coil.

She's Poppy, the most powerful spy under his eldest sister, and she's only on a mission when she first meets him under the cherry blossom trees.

He remembered every time he met, he wondered if it was just for the task, and he laughed, if there were gods, he would know that he sold his soul to demons.

He has never been happy in this world, so why should he need others to be happy, he doesn't want to endure it anymore.

He heard his own gentle persuasion, he pursued her like every normal man pursues the woman he loves, only more and more attentively, he is the one who can do the best if he wants to.

He watched her affection for him grow deeper and deeper, and he smiled more and more sincerely, genuinely disdainful.

It's so cheap, this woman, he thought, all the women in this world are so cheap, you just need to give something insignificant enough to make them believe that you love her.

They will be willing to pay for it, just like his mother will leave Kyushu for his father to live a prosperous life in Osaka and become a stepmother of a group of children, in order to please his father, she will never care about him a little, just afraid that his father will no longer like her.

And she, as long as she is given a little sweetness, she will say anything regardless of it.

He gave her the position of wife and named her Shinobu Sakurako, and she was so happy that she seemed to have the whole world.

He is as calculating as every man who seeks fame and fortune, and even if he becomes the young head of the Shinobu family, he will become the head of the family after the war, and he has inherited the position of Osa, but he will not save the deepening desire for destruction in his heart.

Because of emptiness, because of loneliness, I want to kill.

She is trapped in the Golden Triangle with the woman who once thought she was a man, and the conditions proposed by the drug lord are rejected by him, and he thinks it is not worth it.

That night, he drank sake all night, and when he was drunk, he wore a ronin costume and brandished a katana to cut off the cherry blossom trees in the courtyard.

He looked at the bright moon in the sky, remembered her face, her gentle smile, remembered that night when she was holy and naked under the moonlight and reverently told the past, he remembered that he named her Shinobu Sakurako, she was stunned and satisfied, he thought that she might have known that he was lying to her, but she was willing.

In fact, he did not lie to her, he had wanted to have a home, a gentle wife and a smart and clever son, he had thought that she would be his home.

It's a pity that it's just Zeng.

After the war, all the Fuso troops withdrew to Fuso, and he saw the soldiers happily shouting to go home.

He looked at the blue sky and the white sun, and finally couldn't help a tear, where is his home, it turned out to be her, and now?

He began to think about her.

It turned out that he was just homesick.

After signing the contract, he left a letter with the password they used most often.

He said, "I'm sorry."

After all, he still can't live in this world without her, his life has long been nothing to look forward to, except for her, but after hearing the news of her death, he has no reason to live again.

The moment he cut his abdomen, he seemed to see her standing on Huangquan Road and smiling at him, just like before the oden.

The cherry blossoms in Osaka are blooming again, and the girl under the tree will never appear again that year, and some people will never appear again in this life.

Just like the withering beauty of cherry blossoms falling on the ground, some people leave the most glorious years of his life in the years, and the rest of the time will inevitably make people miss him.