Alexandra's words left Emma in silence, as well as memories. The beauty of the past seems to be like this, it is incomparably simple, just a smile is enough to light up the world, just a white shirt is enough to warm the time, just a look is enough to turn the world upside down.

Laughter, joy, sorrow, pain...... All of them are so simple that even a midsummer afternoon sun rain can make the mood soar.

That summer afternoon, the pouring rain, the bewitching red umbrella.

"Again, it's easy to hate. Maybe it's because the man's beard isn't shaved clean, or it's a nose hair......" Alexandra laughed as she spoke, and even Emma burst out laughing, "Either it's because this man's font is ugly, or he has a burp when he walks, or maybe his nails are a little longer, and then we don't like it, or even hate it." ”

A detail, a detail that borders on boredom, can make the whole world bright or dark, happy or sad. This is ...... "youth." Alexandra's voice came, causing Emma to be stunned, and suddenly, as if she understood something, but seemed to be even more confused, she drooped her shoulders and fell into her own thoughts.

Fifteen years old, the same age as a flower and a bone.

Alexandra couldn't help but smile, once she thought that youth was nothing special and different, but only those who have really experienced it know that at the age of fifteen she first realized the complexity of the world, at the age of fifteen she understood ignorant love for the first time, and at the age of fifteen she dreamed of the future for the first time but feared the future......

Of course, she is only seventeen years old this year, and she has still not been able to come out of the journey of youth, and she doesn't know when she will come to the end, but she looks at Emma who is dazed in front of her. But Alexandra's mood fluttered slightly, "This is called youth, this is not real love, let alone real love." ”

Emma looked up, her rosebud-like face was bewildered, Alexandra couldn't help but close her eyes, thinking back to her experience in the past two years, "It's just a momentary shock or touch, we will have a crush on someone because of a certain moment, and this feeling will gradually disappear because of a certain moment." ”

"This ...... Is it a bad thing? Emma hesitated. Asked hesitantly.

Alexandra was stunned, obviously not expecting such a question, but she found that she couldn't answer it either, so she shook her head, "I don't know either." But I guess, it's not a good thing, but it's not a bad thing either. Alexandra also fell into her own thoughts, "Maybe. We will gradually understand that love can be simple or complex; Life is the same, it can be simple. It can also be complicated. ”

Alexandra seems to be clear her mind, but it is not an easy task, she is only seventeen years old, and she is also groping her way on the road of youth. "I think everybody is an individual, he can't be simply white or black. He may still be red, orange, green, gray, or rainbow. At this, Alexandra laughed, and Emma rolled her eyes helplessly.

Seeing Emma's expression, Alexandra gently pinched the tip of her nose, which made Emma's whole face wrinkle, like a bun, "It's like you, what we see is only your side, but you show a different side at home, at school, and at auditions." Everyone is so complicated, but as soon as we meet the right person, everyone will be simpler. ”

"So...... Are things getting simpler or more complicated? Emma looked at Alexandra and said with a heavy heart.

Alexandra laughed, "I can't answer because I'm still on this path, I haven't gone far since you, I just know that this is growth." Maybe it's not good, it's even painful, but we all have to go through it. Alexandra retracted her smile and whispered, "Remember? When I was a child, a smile was a smile, tears were tears, black was black, white was white, and all one qiē was so simple, but only when we truly experienced the emotion of tears in laughter can we grow. ”

Emma fell silent, emotions are never so simple, the qiē of childhood is so simple, joy, sadness, disgust, anger, fear...... Every love is so simple. However, as they grow up, they come to understand that emotions are mixed, joy and sadness are two sides of the same coin, disgust and fear often go hand in hand, and the power of anger and sadness is surprising.

Just like she is now, she can't distinguish her exact feelings, disgust, anger, fear, joy, sadness, etc., etc., etc., etc., it seems that each of these feelings is mixed together, and finally turns into bitterness on the tip of the tongue, which makes people confused. So, is that called growth?

Not far away, the girls' discussion had shifted from the scandal to makeup, the Los Angeles Times was thrown aside, and Emma looked at the blurry picture on the entertainment page from afar, and then only felt a pain in her temples and closed her eyes in chagrin.

Is he a good guy? Or is he a bad guy?

Suddenly Emma remembered this year's Oscar night, "You're obviously a good person, but why do you always have to act like a jerk?" She yelled at him angrily, venting her bad feelings without any disguise, how did he answer at that time? Memories have become blurry.

She thought she could clearly remember every detail of the relationship between the two of them, but this was not the case, all the details of that night had become flickering, and only a halo remained, like a dream that had not awakened for a long time - in the dream, all the qiē were so real that it was impossible to distinguish between reality and dreams, but after waking up, the real dream quickly began to fade and blur, and finally only a halo of déjà vu remained, hidden in the deepest part of the mind.

"Maybe I am."

Emma finally remembered, he was standing by the door of the taxi, his proud spine unmoved by the night wind, the raging wind swept up a large area of darkness, surrounded him, and the dim street lamps could not dispel the thick night, he just stood in place, as if he only needed him alone to support the whole world, and then he replied indifferently and calmly, "Maybe I am." ”

There wasn't much emotion in that cold voice, just a calm and calm narration of a fact. There is no self-pity, no getting carried away, no arrogance, no self-pity, no evil spirit, just ...... It's just calm, like a calm lake.

Perhaps, he was never a good person, just wishful thinking on her part; Perhaps, he was originally a bad person, but her momentary delusion caused a misunderstanding; Perhaps, the dangerous and cold-blooded image of the night before was his true face, but she didn't want to believe it.

Therefore, she should stay away from him, she should completely stay away from such a dangerous person, she should keep her distance sensibly. That's a good thing, at least she's recognized him in time, isn't it? Just like Little Red Riding Hood, he recognized the true face of the wolf in time, avoiding not only his own danger, but also his grandmother's doom.

But...... Is this really a good thing? Or is it a bad thing? Why can't life go on and on? Why can't things continue to be simpler? Why do they have to grow up? Why is the world of adults so complicated? Why do emotions have to be so mixed? Why can't liking be like, and disliking can't be disgusting?

She remembered their first meeting, and she thought it was so far away, that all the images were blurred, and only a few fragments remained, but in fact it was the opposite, every detail of that rainy afternoon was so vivid that it seemed to be playing out before her eyes.

"Hey, handsome guy."

She shouted like an idiot, and then his footsteps stopped, still holding the bright red umbrella in his hand, the smile between his eyebrows slowly seeped out, light and deep lit up the blue eyes, thrilling blooming with a thousand brilliance, the moment of gentleness turned into eternity, as if the whole world had stopped.

So, is he a good guy or a bad guy? Or is he both a good guy and a bad guy?

"Emma." Alexandra looked at the tossing and turning annoyance and anxiety of Xiao Nizi in front of her, and couldn't help but widen her eyes with curiosity, "So, the conversation we just discussed was Lancelot-Strello?" ”

In the distraught, Emma had no way to react, she was directly stunned in place, her brain fell into a state of panic, and she couldn't even think. Should she admit it, or deny it? No, her concern just now was really because of ......

"Students!" The shouts were accompanied by a few crisp applause, which attracted the attention of Emma and Alessandra, and the chaos in the whole room calmed down in an instant, everyone looked at the door in unison, and the acting teacher walked into the classroom again, and his eyes immediately turned to Emma, with a hint of inquiry and warning, "The break is over, we should start the second class." ”

Emma let out a long breath that even she hadn't noticed, and she stood up with some urgency, pulled Alessandra's arm, and then returned to her place, ready to enter the acting class. Alessandra also knew that Emma was not in a good state, and the teacher must be staring at her, so she could only put the topic aside for the time being and return to class.

Emma adjusted her breathing, forcing herself to kick the mess of thread in her head into the corner and focus on the acting class for the time being.

At the same time, with a "poof", Cole sat in his office and was stunned, and even the coffee he had just drunk in his mouth squirted out. (To be continued.) )

ps: Today's first update, there is still one last day left for the double monthly pass, I beg for everyone's support!