"You're crazy! You're completely insane! How can you ......"

Lu Tianhua pushed open the door at this moment. He didn't know what his father wanted to say next, and he couldn't guess it, let alone he didn't guess it at all. At the age of 4, his mind is as pure as glass, and he doesn't actually think about it when he hears a lot of words, and if he has no ideas, he naturally has no conjecture for continuation.

But 4 years old is also the age when all human emotions are most sensitive. Although he had no ideas and was very ignorant, he felt some of the most basic likes and dislikes in those conversations. No, it's not just likes and dislikes, it's actually a stronger feeling of love and hate.

He was dazed and realized Erniang's hatred for his mother, with hatred for himself, and love and hate for his father.

But when he pushed the door open, he appeared in front of his father and Erniang. After Erniang was stunned, she only had complete love in her eyes when she looked at him, a mother's inseparable love for her child. The hatred he had ignorant of a moment ago disappeared in an instant. At this moment, he only felt Erniang's love for him, so he hugged Erniang tightly.

But he looked at his father, and he didn't feel love. All he felt was ...... After his father saw that he was hugging his mother closely, his father sighed, and his eyes instantly dimmed, as if he had suddenly aged ten years. There was a little self-blame in my father's eyes, but he just seemed to have given up and was powerless to recover. He gave up his love for Erniang, or rather the nostalgia out of responsibility. He gave up on himself, he never loved him as a son anyway, he only thought of himself as his future heir.

Lu Tianhua panicked for a moment. Ignorantly, he also realized that his father seemed to have made a decision. And that decision made my father breathe a sigh of relief. It was after passing the blame for his sins to others, and although he could not be completely at ease, he selfishly only felt a lot of relief on his shoulders.

4-year-old Lu Tianhua has experienced a living nightmare that played out in front of his eyes a year ago. After experiencing the baptism of his mother's disappearance, he has heard and seen the whispers and complicated expressions of others. In his early childhood, when he was the best and fastest learner of human nature, he absorbed too much and was too precocious.

He suddenly connected the whole story.

A year ago, Erniang came to the door crying. Mother kills killers. Erniang was helpless, powerless to resist, and hated her mother. Hated my father. I hate my weakness even more, and I hate it so much that I lose my mind. The mother is helpless, but she has to resist the charge of cruelty and ruthlessness. I hated my unfaithful husband, I hated this woman who suddenly appeared and was perhaps pitiful but hateful, and I hated myself even more for letting my young son witness this bloody process, and I hated it so much that I hated it...... She was even more afraid. I'm afraid that no matter how many times I wash it, it will still erode the blood of her whole heart, and I'm afraid that my son will be affected. I'm afraid that I'll die.

Lu Tianhua remembered the last time his mother looked at him before she died. There were so many emotions in his eyes, too much, that he couldn't tell them all at the time, and he didn't know them all. But he knew. Mother, I can't bear him.

During this year, my mother became more and more emaciated. Erniang climbed out of the deepest hell again. She was really crazy, but selectively forgotten. Perhaps self-deception. But she's much better.

When she saw Lu Tianhua, she went crazy again. She frantically transferred all her love, her love for her daughter who had formed but had no chance to take a look at the scenery of the world, to Lu Tianhua. No one can say that her love is fake, but it is not so real.

Maybe today she told the truth. In fact, in her heart, she knows the truth. But she deliberately drove herself insane, revenge, and the only salvation for herself.

Lu Tianhua couldn't condemn Erniang anything. Reprimand? He didn't know the word yet, but he already understood the emotion, and he condemned his father.

Lu Yuqiao, the culprit. He hurt two women who gave him all their love, but it didn't seem to be affected. He's still physically and mentally sound, he's still out there. Yes, he was in charge. Fortunately, he was on the road on his mother's last day, and he didn't let her face death alone. He took good care of Erniang and gave her the best medical rehabilitation. But he is also extremely irresponsible. These two women want nothing more than more company from him and an explanation that is cruel but true.

No, explanations are all superfluous. In fact, what they want is a heartfelt apology from him. Then, they had to have a step to forgive him before they could let themselves go.

He is a bastard who has chosen to evade his emotional responsibilities. He is cruel, although he also has his troubles, his unwillingness to face. But when he did these things, why didn't he think of what he had to bear afterwards?

Outside, he is a hero, standing up to the sky. But in fact, he is a complete coward, a coward who has hurt all his family thoroughly.

Now even his only son, he chose to escape and give up at this moment.

Lu Tianhua understood his father's eyes. He gave himself to Erniang completely. He has to bear his sins, and he has to bear his responsibilities to Erniang.

Lu Tianhua did not let go of the instant cunning in Lu Yuqiao's eyes. Son? Heir? He thought he could have more?! Tiger poison does not eat children, but he, Lu Yuqiao, thinks that he still has the capital to have more, and he gives himself away lightly! Giving himself this he thought he could easily have more alternatives.

Lu Tianhua stared at Lu Yuqiao tightly, his gaze gradually cold. And Lu Yuqiao's gaze staring at Lu Tianhua gradually became a little more oppressive.

"You are my son, I gave you life, so now is the time for you to reciprocate."

"Okay."

Lu Tianhua glanced at Lu Yuqiao one last time, and his eyes unconsciously showed a trace of disdain.

Lu Yuqiao was stunned, but when he wanted to carefully identify Lu Tianhua's eyes, Lu Tianhua had already looked away.

Lu Tianhua stared at Erniang's side face, and his hands subconsciously slid down to the hem of the pajamas, clenching it so tightly that his hands trembled. He didn't understand, at this moment he had realized how disgusting he was with women's clothing. But he had already made a decision to numb his newly awakened dislike for women's clothing.

Lu Yuqiao left the next day and never returned to the mansion again. Lu Tianhua didn't know, and he didn't care if Lu Yuqiao started to use his capital to get more substitutes for himself outside. Anyway, he has been replaced. And I'm glad I was replaced.

Only Lu Tianhua and Erniang were left in the mansion, and it seemed that Yiqiē had returned to the way it was before Lu Yuqiao did not come back. Erniang didn't even seem to remember that Lu Yuqiao had come back. She still loves Lu Tianhua and loves him wholeheartedly. Give him all she can think of that is best for him.

But Lu Tianhua could no longer show an innocent smile to himself as cute as a porcelain doll in the mirror. He volunteered, volunteered to dress like this, but he no longer felt that he looked good dressed like this.

On the contrary, Lu Tianhua began to hate himself and felt that he was dirty.

His skin is so white, and he always wears a fragrant and neat dress. Many of the servants who remained in the mansion praised him in person. Occasionally, when he goes out, parents and children of ordinary people in parks or shopping malls are also very amazed by him. He is indeed lovely. It's beautiful. But as long as those people knew that he was actually a boy. The ...... in their eyes in an instant Make him feel dirty!

Smell a rat? 鄙shì? Surprised? Sympathize? …… In the end, it's like watching a monster.

Erniang may be stupid in some ways, but she is not so crazy that she can't feel the eyes of others. At the very least, she sensitively felt that something was wrong with Lu Tianhua. She took Lu Tianhua out of the street less and less. Some of the most perineum-worshipping or tongue-chewing faces in the mansion have also gradually disappeared.

Lu Tianhua didn't care that he rarely had the opportunity to go out and play. Although this age is the most fun. But he's tired of it. He is tired of children his age who ignorantly like him because he looks good. They don't like themselves at all!

Lu Tianhua didn't care that there were fewer and fewer voices in the mansion, and it was a little eerie. He can't remember before he can speak, and after he can speak, he rarely talks to his subordinates because of strict etiquette. Well, he hadn't been taught that rigorously. He just watched the way his mother treated her subordinates. There is a kind of learning, kind. But he took the initiative to draw the boundaries of estrangement.

He was never a naughty and noisy child. He was getting quieter and quieter, and no one thought there was anything wrong with him. Maybe no one really noticed that he was getting quieter, right?

He knows more and more how to disguise himself in front of Erniang. He smiled at Erniang and coquettishly at Erniang, they were all so innocent, as if he was really happy. No one would have thought of it. A child over four years old can already disguise so thoroughly without a single flaw.

Until he met Lu Haoran. Somehow, he actually took off all his disguise. Jointly. He exposed his true nature to Lu Tianyang.

He unabashedly revealed his dislike for women's clothing in front of Lu Haoran. He didn't even know that he also knew how to vent unscrupulously. He was unceremonious to Lu Haoran. He didn't have to pretend to smile at all, and he didn't want to. He could even generously let Lu Haoran look at him, watch how he disguised himself in front of Erniang, and watch how he was hypocritical in front of others.

He knew that Lu Haoran was not stupid, he must have understood.

But he didn't seem to care. How could he not care at all? How could he?!

I haven't seen him for two years, and he is completely happy to welcome him again. Obviously, when he left last time, he deliberately didn't say goodbye to him, deliberately didn't take away any of the things he gave him that he actually liked very much, and even deliberately changed back into women's clothes himself. He watched himself leave at the window, and he saw it. Obviously, he showed in front of him how much he hated women's clothes, but he hypocritically put on the women's clothes he hated the most. Shouldn't it be you who is disgusted?

He didn't loathe himself. He actually really likes himself. He still likes himself!

Lu Tianhua was very excited. He's not stealing, he's not hating, he's just ...... I don't know how to face Lu Haoran, how to face Lu Haoran's liking for myself. This is the first time that there is a person who knows that he is a boy, knows that he wears women's clothes, and even knows the darkness in his heart, but actually likes this true self.

Lu Tianhua thought that he didn't know how to face it, but in fact, he had subconsciously chosen to expose more of himself in front of Lu Haoran. The more he is exposed, the more certain he can be that Lu Haoran likes to be his true self. However, if you expose too much, the more certain you are, the more you know how to be afraid. He was afraid of losing this ...... Too many adjectives, such as hard-won, or treasure, or ...... No adjectives, no adjectives can measure the weight of being loved.

He was so entangled, he began to struggle while packing his luggage. Then looking at a box of all his most beautiful "favorite" dresses that Erniang specially packed for him, his disgust for those clothes exploded instantly. He hadn't even thought about cutting these dresses before, not even throwing them away. But at this moment, he was not satisfied with destroying these dirty things with guò scissors. He's going to tear them to shreds with his own hands!

The moment Lu Haoran suddenly pushed open the door of his room, he was stunned, because he panicked and didn't know how to face Lu Haoran at all. He looks crazy, doesn't he? His crazy appearance was also exposed in front of Lu Haoran......

No! It's not him! He's cold, he's indifferent, he's hypocritical, he's ...... But he was never a hysterical lunatic. No!

He was so afraid, he was so afraid that this strange self would finally disgust Lu Haoran. He was so scared, so he was so scared...... Lu Tianhua suddenly realized that he actually cared so much about Lu Haoran!

It turned out that he was actually very greedy for Lu Haoran's liking for his true self. That's why he was relieved and bold to be his true self in front of Lu Haoran. This trembling but unbridled and willful exposure was the deepest desire in his heart. When the desire becomes a reality and is still tolerated, how can he not be moved, how can he not rejoice? But......

“…… Come on, I'll tear it for you. You see your hands are torn red, I have a lot of strength, so let's come. ”

What the?

"Tear up!"

Lu Tianhua looked at the skirt that had been torn into two pieces in a daze, completely stunned.

Lu Haoran, how cheerful are you? Actually less roots and tendons to this kind of Cheng dù?!

Lu Tianhua didn't care at all that his extreme dislike for those women's clothes was exposed in front of Lu Haoran, and he never hid it. But he never expected that Lu Haoran had no doubts about himself who was so hysterical and crazy. Not only did he not suspect it, but he even stupidly ran over to help him personally eliminate those hateful skirts.

Lu Tianhua suddenly felt that his heart was suffocated, and a strong warmth instantly invaded his nasal cavity, and then attacked his originally dry eyes. He had to try his best to widen his eyes, and he had to stare at one place without looking at it in order to barely suppress the surge of his tear glands. He subconsciously stared at Lu Haoran