Chapter 228: Why Cry
"Huh? Is this already the last one? ”
Lu Tianhua stared at Lu Haoran, watching him rummage through the suitcase, and then he slammed into Lu Haoran's dark eyes. At this moment, he panicked, afraid that he would cry like this. But he endured it and wittily found an excuse.
"It's the last one, it's all torn. You can help me throw them away. ”
"Oh, good." Lu Haoran agreed without thinking about it, and then lowered his head and picked up the rags all over the ground, hugged them and ran out.
Lu Tianhua looked at the back of Lu Haoran running out in a hurry, and then glanced at the ground, estimating that Lu Haoran would have to run two more times to finish throwing them all. He didn't move, and letting Lu Haoran throw these rags was just an excuse to break him up, but I'm afraid that Lu Haoran will run back and continue to throw the second batch after a while.
Lu Tianhua suddenly grabbed a piece of cloth on the ground and wiped his face indiscriminately. He felt it, his eyes hot, and an itch spread down his cheeks.
He had already exposed too much in front of Lu Haoran, but this time, he couldn't let Lu Haoran see his tears no matter what. He doesn't like tears, that's something only the weak have. My mother used to wash her face with tears all day long, and then she lay on the bed with numb eyes. The day Erniang fell in a pool of blood, the traces of tears on her face made him unforgettable for the rest of his life. On the day of the last quarrel between Erniang and her father, two lines of blood-colored and crazy tears were reflected on her face, and how many sad jade stones were burned. When she hugged herself tightly and cried unscrupulously, there were only the helplessness and struggle of the weak.
The mother died. Erniang hypocritically lives in the beautiful dreams she weaves. Sadly, they are only weak after all. They were so pitiful that in the end, even the courage to cry quietly alone disappeared. They hid their tears in different ways, but in fact, deep down they never stopped crying.
On the contrary, Lu Yuqiao's man has never shed tears. He can't be considered a winner. But he didn't lose much.
Lu Tianhua looked down on Lu Yuqiao from that day, and while Lu Yuqiao gave up on him, he also completely despised Lu Yuqiao's identity as his father, but he hated the tears of his mother and Erniang even more. The love these two women have for themselves, whether they are born with them or deliberately substituted, is true. He couldn't help but feel sorry for them. He couldn't help but hate the tears they had left behind.
Shed tears. may be the second disgust for Lu Tianhua after skirts. He never thought that one day he would be able to breathe something out of his eyes that disgusted him. He never felt like a weakling. Tears of the weak. You can only get useless sympathy.
In Lu Tianhua's eyes, sympathy is only a charity for the giver, not for the salvation of the weak. So being weak is not worthy of sympathy in itself. What they need is not sympathy at all. Pity. The weak themselves have given up on the pursuit of salvation.
When his mother died, he did not cry. He was always smiling at Erniang. In the face of people he doesn't need to disguise his smile, he can treat them coldly.
He has always had no good face for Lu Haoran. Why was Lu Haoran able to provoke his tears?
Lu Tianhua is 7 years old and understands the emotions of the world much more than two years ago. But this moment. Lu Tianhua was at a loss again.
"Da! Da! Da! ”
Hearing the faint sound of footsteps, Lu Tianhua suddenly got up from the ground. Then he rushed to the door and locked it.
"Click!"
"Huh?"
"Bang! Syllable! Syllable! ”
"Tianhua, Lu Tianhua, why did you lock the door? Open ......
Lu Tianhua slid down the door panel in a dejected manner. Ren couldn't stop tears sliding down his cheeks uncontrollably. He didn't give Lu Haoran any response, and he was powerless to answer him. Feeling the vibration of the door panel, Lu Tianhua couldn't hear Lu Haoran's bewildered and worried voice from the door away. Lu Haoran also persisted for a long time.
But in the end, it was quiet.
Lu Tianhua faintly listened to Lu Haoran's depressing footsteps. He finally walked away.
Lu Tianhua never cried. Lu Haoran has not been gone for a long time. But he did feel like his heart hurt. The pain was so painful that he subconsciously grabbed the placket of his chest. In fact, he didn't care whether Lu Haoran noticed that he was crying, but he still didn't want to cry.
Think about it. It was like the first time he had cried. Why are you crying? Lu Haoran didn't hurt him, right? Here, no one hurt him, right? If he wasn't hurt, why did he cry like this?
Crying, will it be for other reasons? So, what is the reason for that?
Lu Tianhua slowly lay down on the floor and buried his ordinary cheeks in the rags, so that his tears would be absorbed by the cloth by themselves. The other half of Lu Tianhua's face was diagonally facing the ceiling of the room, and he stared at the ceiling, all his strength being spent on finding answers.
This room, although two years later, is still familiar to him. After all, this room is actually kept exactly the same as it was two years ago, and it seems that someone has deliberately maintained it so that he can wait for his arrival again. It was Lu Haoran who did it, right?
He also seems to have mentioned that he still keeps his clothes from two years ago. It's been two years, and he's too small to wear anymore, so why does he keep it?
Lu Tianyang was very polite and friendly to himself. Therefore, he will show his politeness and friendliness to Lu Tianyang to some extent. It was nothing more than that he smiled at himself and smiled at him. They are the same generation, but the age difference is too much, and the words are not enough to speak. What kind of love, the seniority is there, and Lu Tianyang can't treat him as a younger child out of etiquette. Anyway, when he arrives here, Lu Tianyang is a guest of honor for himself. Don't interfere much, just because the blood is connected after all, so the friendship of the landlord is extremely good. It's also very satisfying for me.
Lu Tianhua knew that Lu Tianyang must have a good understanding of his situation. Obviously he was a boy, but the first time they met, he was dressed as a doll. Lu Tianyang saw it, but he didn't have a surprised expression at all. Fortunately, Lu Tianyang's expression did not show any disdain. He smiled at himself, very polite, and full of understanding. undoubtedly won some favor from Lu Tianhua. So he agreed to stay here.
He also knew that he had come to stay at Lu Tianyang's house temporarily. However, Lu Tianyang's attitude. Let him stay voluntarily.
And the next day, when he appeared in front of Lu Tianyang wearing a dress borrowed from Lu Haoran that was obviously not suitable for him to wear, Lu Tianyang was stunned for a moment. However, Lu Tianyang still smiled politely at himself in the next moment, still with an expression of complete understanding. Even when he saw Lu Haoran's cloth shoes on his feet, which should be very precious, Lu Tianyang did not have any dissatisfied expression.
He wore that dress and those shoes that day. Lu Haoran complained to Lu Tianyang that it was really inappropriate for him to wear that dress for a day, of course. He knew that Lu Haoran's purpose was to hint around the bush that Lu Tianyang should buy him some new clothes that really suited him. Lu Tianyang kept a polite smile all day long. Didn't say much.
The next day, Lu Tianyang personally took himself and Lu Haoran out on the street and came to the mall. All he bought was new clothes and new shoes for him. Although Lu Haoran also purchased two new sets of clothes appropriately, he knew that the purpose of coming out this time was to buy clothes for himself.
After that, he changed into his new clothes and shoes. The cloth shoes embroidered with Lu Haoran's name were properly placed in the glass cabinet in the hall.
Lu Haoran looked at himself who had changed into new clothes. His face was full of joy. Lu Tianyang looked at him, still with a polite smile on his face.
In fact. I'm grateful to Lu Tianyang, right? His attitude is not too intimate, but he has always maintained a polite and thoughtful detachment, which really satisfies him.
Why is Lu Haoran not like Lu Tianyang?
As soon as he came up, he grabbed his hand affectionately. Treat him like a little sister and want to take him to play. This undoubtedly disgusted Lu Tianhua. So when he arrived in the backyard, when there were only the two of them left, he immediately couldn't be more cold to Lu Haoran. I didn't give him a good look at all. He didn't leave, he just sat next to him. He had a face written on his face that he didn't know what he had done wrong. But he didn't ask, just endured his cold eyes.
As a result, he knew that he was a boy at night. After being surprised, it was finally written on his face that he knew what he was wrong. But instead of apologizing, he became more enthusiastic. It's as if his way of apologizing is "Let's make it close, it's not a thing"!
Well, the moment he knew that he was a girl, his face didn't show the kind of suspicious, sympathetic, and contemptuous expressions that he hated the most on other people's faces. Lu Tianhua had already faintly sensed Lu Haoran's stupidity at this time. In the face of such a fool, he mistook you for a girl a moment ago, and now that he has corrected his mistakes, you can't ask him more, can you?
As for knowing that he is his uncle, he still recognizes you as his little brother. How do you correct this to a fool? All he sees in his eyes is age, do you have to break his perception to the norm? It's too troublesome, Lu Tianhua is too lazy to bother.
That was when he was 5 years old and Lu Haoran was 7 years old.
Now he is 7 years old, Lu Haoran is 9 years old, and when they meet again, doesn't Lu Haoran still have an expression of "brother, you're back". I haven't seen each other for two years, and I really don't change my life. Can't you figure out the seniority at the age of 9? Also, what do you mean by "you're back"? Shouldn't it be "why are you here again"? How did it look like they were a family, and this was his home, and he should come back here?
So as soon as he entered the door and saw the unchanged room, the more Lu Tianhua thought about it, the more angry he became, and finally the skirt in the suitcase was damaged.
Lu Haoran is a fool, a complete fool! He was so stupid that he cried angrily!
But is he really just angry? Or is it because of ...... Why?
Unlike the one two years ago. This time, when he knew that he was going to stay at Lu Tianyang's house for a period of time, he voluntarily agreed without thinking about it. At that moment, he even had a glimmer of expectation in his heart that he didn't even realize it had.
During the last six months he lived here, he never missed Erniang. It's not that he doesn't worry about Erniang, but he knows that Erniang is going back to the sanatorium to recuperate for a while, and the sanatorium will take good care of Erniang, so he doesn't need to worry. What's more, Erniang is still accompanied by Lu Yuqiao. I really don't know if Lu Yuqiao found out with his conscience, and actually took the initiative to come back to send Erniang to the sanatorium. This is ...... for Erniang
Since she didn't remember their quarrel last time, goodbye Lu Yuqiao, Erniang's face put a happy smile on her face again. Lu Tianhua felt that this might be really good for Erniang. Of course, he also knew that this was just another dream for Erniang.
Lu Tianhua knew the real purpose of Lu Yuqiao's return this time. No, maybe not his purpose either, he just had to. He had to come back and personally entrust himself to Lu Tianyang. Although Lu Yuqiao has given up being his heir, the family has always only recognized himself as Lu Yuqiao's heir. Under the pressure of the family, Lu Yuqiao had to make an appearance.
In fact, how can the family not know about the current situation of him and Lu Yuqiao. But again, the family only considers himself to be Lu Yuqiao's heir. The family just wants to put pressure on Lu Yuqiao to make him have to act like this.
Since he wants to make an appearance, he also has to be an appearance to Erniang.
It's ridiculous! But Lu Tianhua enjoyed it very much. Lu Yuqiao's ridiculous appearance of forbearance but having to do it really made him enjoy it too much.
Of course, that's not the point, the point is. Anyway, Lu Tianhua didn't need to worry about Erniang in those six months, and he didn't miss her.
However, I don't know why, in the past two years, he has to admit that he has recalled many days with Lu Tianyang and Lu Haoran. Well, most of them are memories of being with Lu Haoran, after all, it is Lu Haoran who haunts him all day.
The memories are also very simple, there is no doubt that Lu Haoran forced himself to do this and that, or self-righteously treat him so well and treat him well. The focus of the memories is also the end of Lu Haoran's memories in his heart, and he immediately said "fool" in his heart. Fool......
He wanted to laugh at Lu Haoran. However, he was obviously scolding the fool in his heart very hard, why did those two words seem to change their tone. He's going to laugh! Why can't you laugh at it?
Lu Haoran is a fool, a fool who is overly enthusiastic and cheerful. Self-righteous fools. Can't understand cold-eyed fools. Fool who is too good to him. A fool who has no doubts about him......
In the face of this fool, he can be himself and expose himself without any worries. He can take what he wants from this fool. He could......
He could look at Lu Haoran coldly, and then let him be entangled by his side. He could look at Lu Haoran coldly, and then let him take care of himself. He could look at Lu Haoran coldly, and then ...... And then...... The cold eyes gradually became gentle