Changming Fanwai is love or obsession (end)
What really changed him was when he was five years old, when his mother died, and he thought it was a depression and illness, because she was always sullen and could only laugh when the emperor came to see her. But overheard the doctor say that his queen mother had been poisoned.
He remembered what his mother had said to him before she died, Chen'er, you have to protect yourself in the future.
For the first time, he wanted to escape from the cage. But he couldn't.
After several tosses, he took advantage of others' contempt for his age, and easily took out the words of the imperial doctor, the person who poisoned him was Yi Guifei, and if the queen died, she would be the next queen, as the only prince, he was naturally placed in Yi Guifei to raise.
When he saw her alone, he showed a mockery that did not match his age, and his voice was immature, but with endless coldness, "Do you think that if you kill my mother, you will be able to become the queen?" ”
Concubine Yi was startled, and was almost stopped by this five-year-old child, but after all, she had some scheming, so she smiled at him and said, "The queen is sick, don't talk nonsense." ”
He snorted coldly again, "Concubine Yi is really a noble person who forgets things, if you really forget, I can recall memories for you, and several doctors from the Tai Hospital can also help you." ”
Yi Guifei's face changed, she looked at him as if she was warning, and pinched his face hard, "Don't talk nonsense, children, otherwise something will happen." ”
He didn't hide, he still looked at her coldly, "It's a pity that I didn't know, otherwise I wouldn't have let my mother die in vain." Now that I know, don't even want to be a queen in your life. ”
Concubine Yi slapped him in the face, almost hoarse, "You shut up for me!" "After all, it's a child, even if the cheap concubine has already lightened his strength, the corners of his mouth are still bleeding, and his face is scratched by her armor.
He seemed to be very satisfied with the wound on his face, and in the next few days, he resigned the emperor's imperial edict, and the emperor sensed that something was wrong and came to see him. Naturally, the wound on his face was found.
He deliberately hesitated, saying that he accidentally injured himself, and the emperor sensed that something was wrong. didn't say anything, but the next day he entered Yi Guifei's palace without notification, but saw him slap Yi Guifei again.
The emperor was furious on the spot and asked Yi Guifei why, but Yi Guifei was hesitant. He cried next to him and said that the queen was poisoned, saying that he just wanted to ask if it was true, but Concubine Yi Guifei didn't allow him to say it, otherwise he would make himself look good. Anyway, it was a five-year-old child, and it was normal to cry, and the emperor felt ashamed of him, so he gave a cup of poisoned wine to Concubine Yi.
The emperor was upset and left without waiting for Concubine Yi to drink the poisonous wine, but he stayed. Concubine Yi was crying and refused to drink, so he asked her to be arrested, and then he broke her mouth open, and all the poisonous wine was poured into her mouth by him.
Concubine Yi died in front of him foaming at the mouth.
It was the first time he had come into such close contact with a dead body other than falling snow. When Xue Xue died, her face was very calm, but Concubine Yi had a hideous face, and her eyes were wide open, as if she was dying.
He was not afraid, as if he had just stepped on an ant.
He thought that Xia Changming in his previous life was dead. He is the prince of Luochen, this world, this country, and he can no longer handle things with the thinking of his previous life. If he wants to live, many people may die, but history has always been like this, and it will be a success.
He thought, he was going to live, whoever stood in his way. He won't let it go again, for himself, for his deceased mother, and for her who will be reunited sooner or later.
Later, he was suddenly crowned the crown prince, and a mansion was given outside the palace, and his father chose many reliable people for him, and he began to cultivate his own power, and many wandering orphans were taken in by him, and he gave them a chance to live, and they would naturally use their lives to repay his kindness, and he felt that there was nothing wrong with it.
He is more and more good at playing with power tricks, enveloping people's hearts, sometimes thinking of his previous life, he feels more like a dream, Luochen and Changming, they are two people at all, maybe they are the same polite and gentle on weekdays, always with a smile on the corner of their mouths, but Changming is originally that kind of person, and Luochen is just a disguise.
Although he has changed, he still remembers the most important girl in his life, he has always felt that he came here to meet her again, what he did was to give her a stable life in the future, if he couldn't even protect himself, how could he protect her?
It's just that after living in this world for fifteen years, he has turned himself into a person he doesn't even recognize, but he has never met her, and he even begins to wonder if maybe she is not here at all.
For fifteen years, consciously or unintentionally, he inquired about many girls his age, but no one was like her.
After fifteen years, he suddenly realized that he couldn't remember what she looked like. Fifteen years of worrying about his stomach has become a habit for him, at first he survived by this obsession, until now, he has long been accustomed to life without her. Even if she doesn't show up, he will continue to live here safely.
When he was fifteen years old, a guest suddenly came to the house, he felt that person was very dangerous, he was definitely not an opponent, and he was thinking about how to deal with him, but that person sued him and wanted to ask him for a favor, if he agreed, he could stay here and listen to his arrangement, that person was a witch doctor in Miao Jiang, and his medical skills were superb, and it was not an exaggeration to say that he was in the world, and the most important thing was that this witch doctor was good at refining poison and refining Gu, which made him very tempted, so he agreed.
This witch doctor's name is Xiao Aotian, and he found him because he wanted him to take in a girl named Qiyue, but this girl was a maid from Beiqin Liuyan.
He listened to Xiao Aotian talk about the cause and effect, but he was noncommittal, but it was just a maid, and it was no big deal, so he said hello to the emperor and ran directly to Yanjing in Northern Qin.
He thought it would take a lot of work, after all, it was still more troublesome to dig people in other people's houses, but God gave him a favor and saved a half-dead girl on the way, who was the person he was looking for.
Qiyue was covered in injuries, he thought that he couldn't be saved, but he was still saved by Xiao Aotian, so he was even more determined to leave Xiao Aotian.
I don't know what the reason is, Xiao Aotian refused to see Qiyue, and he didn't ask much, after Qiyue woke up, in order to express his respect for Xiao Aotian, he deliberately deigned to see her, an ordinary baby face is really a little ordinary.
Although he knew everything about Qiyue, in order not to make her suspicious, he symbolically asked her if she had any family, and she really said no, it seems that Xiao Aotian has never seen her. So he naturally left her as a maid.
He asked her name again, but the expected Qiyue did not appear.
She said, Xiao Luoxue.
Xiao Luoxue? He couldn't believe it, and couldn't help but repeat it in a low voice, but he didn't dare to ask more, what if she was? What if she's not? His heart was pinched, fifteen years of hard waiting, he really waited for him, but the greater the hope, the more cruel it was after the failure, he didn't dare to ask, fifteen years of tempering he had already learned to hide his feelings, he thought, the coming days will be long.
Considering that it was disrespectful to use the country's surname as a name, he changed her name for her, only called Luoxue, and she did not object, her eyes were shining, as innocent and playful as Luoxue in her previous life. It's just that he can't be sure, it's just a name, what if he recognizes the wrong person?
Sleepless at night, he unintentionally went to her house, but woke up to hear her calling her name, and then there was a burst of sobbing.
That name is not falling dust, but Changming.
He thought he had finally met her.
He quietly paid attention to her every move, but let him discover an incredible thing, she died before him, but came to this world later than him, according to his inference, it seemed that it was the day he went to Beiqin to save her.
He thought, if Xiao Aotian knew that his daughter was stiffened by Li Daitao, would he be angry and kill Luoxue? So he said that he didn't want Xiao Aotian to see Luoxue, and he was afraid that Luoxue wouldn't want to stay in the prince's mansion and cause trouble when he saw him, so he locked Xiao Aotian up, but Xiao Aotian would eventually see Luoxue, so he went to the prison from time to time to talk to Xiao Aotian about Luoxue, Xiao Aotian always listened with a smile, he thought it was very good, Xiao Aotian accepted Luoxue as a person, even if he found out that Luoxue was not Qiyue in the future, he would not hurt her because he had feelings for Luoxue.
It's just that he himself is a problem, Luoxue has always been lukewarm to him, and he doesn't have much reaction, she is such a person, but he didn't dare to mention it to her in his previous life, what if she broke with him again? Even if he was just self-defeating in his previous life, it was just a temporary indulgence, but betrayal is betrayal, and if it were him, he would not forgive.
He thought, that's it, as long as she is by his side, it is enough, he was not Changming in his previous life, Luochen in this life and Changming in his previous life are already two people, he thought, as long as she can fall in love with herself again, it doesn't matter if she hides it from her for the rest of her life, the catastrophe of their previous life has passed, and in this life, it should be fate.
It's just that providence makes people, providence is too good at making people, the love catastrophe of the previous life has passed, but what is ushered in is the love catastrophe of this life, he wants to get her until he dies, but she is in love with others wholeheartedly.
Twenty-seven years, exactly twenty-seven years, he waited for her for twenty-seven years, read her for twenty-seven years, how could she fall in love with someone else.
He was almost crazy about her, but she never changed her mind.
Even when she was on the line of life and death, she refused to return to him.
She really didn't want him anymore.
She showed her innocence and coquettishness in front of him, washed her hands and made soup for him, and feasted on him, just to take his life.
Twenty-seven years, he couldn't tell whether he loved her more or was obsessed with her.
He was tired, he knew, he would never get her again.
Twenty-seven years, two lives, he finally gave up.
Love calamity, love calamity, between them, there is indeed love, but in the end, it is just a calamity.
He said, falling snow, in the next life, I will forget you, you will forget me, we, don't meet again.
She said, OK. (To be continued.) )