Hearing her inquiry, looking at her empty eyes, I don't know what kind of situation I am in, except for heartache, the palm of my hand on the white table trembles, I am silent, I can't speak, as if my mouth is stuck with duct tape.

"Why don't you speak?"

Qilei's words of inquiry resounded again, and a look of confusion appeared on her face, but I was still unable to speak, I wanted to tell her that it was me, but I was at a loss for everything, and I didn't know what had happened before.

I looked at her, I looked at her silently, but I couldn't look at her like this all the time, I saw him buy a bottle of yogurt, and when he walked into the restaurant, he also saw me, I saw it very clearly, he saw my expression change for a moment, he was shocked, he obviously didn't expect me to come, I would be here, maybe my arrival disturbed his relationship with her, right?

He was stunned for a moment and quickly walked to the table, also silent, no one spoke, he looked at me, and I looked at him.

"Smile, is that you? Why don't you speak? ”

Xiaoyan asked again, and when he heard Xiaoyan ask and smiled, he hurriedly replied: "It's me, you eat first, I met a classmate, I went out to talk to him." ”

Obviously the smile was saying to me, he wanted me to go out, and then communicate with him, obviously he also saw that Xiaoyan, who had lost her sight, did not see me.

"Okay."

Xiaoyan agreed, and then calmly ate the noodles.

And I watched her eat noodles, stared for a moment, then looked at her and smiled, quietly stood up, and walked to the door.

I hurriedly walked out of the hotel, standing not far away waiting for Smile, and Smile came out quickly, and before I could speak, he said to me, "Why are you here?" ”

"Tell me what the hell is going on?"

Instead of answering his question, I asked him.

"Didn't you see that?"

smiled a little and said a little low, I can see his heartache, Xiaoyan has become like this, he is not better than me.

"Then tell me, when did she go blind?"

I asked him eagerly.

"You don't need to know, you go, you don't have anything to do with her anymore."

The smile was very low and said to me, very cold.

"But I hear you don't seem to have anything to do with her, do you? You weren't together at all, tell me when Xiaoyan became what she is now. ”

I still asked him anxiously, and I didn't care about his coldness and unhappiness with me, what I want to know now is about Xiaoyandong, the cold wind is blowing, blowing my bitter cheeks, and my heart is so bitter, I really can't imagine how Xiaoyan can be blind, when did she become blind?

"What's the use of saying that? You don't know her suffering, and now it's time to pretend about it. ”

There was not a trace of a smile on his smiling face, and his face was indifferent, as if he wanted to leave now.

"I don't know how she will be, if you don't tell me, I'll ask her myself."

I looked at him and said calmly, if he still doesn't say anything, I'm going to go to Xiaoyan and talk to her.

"Don't bother her, she's fine now, you come to disturb her now will only bring trouble to her life, I advise you to go, you have your life, she has her life, even if I'm not her now, but I've at least been by her side, and you? Where were you in Xiaoyan's most difficult time? ”

Smiling and looking even more ugly, he asked me loudly, and I didn't refute when I heard his words, I don't know when Qilei became blind now? If it's when you break up with me, I can't accept it, accept my mistakes, and if it's after breaking up with me, and I'm blind for a while, my guilt isn't so strong, I'm actually afraid to know the truth, but I want to know the truth.

I didn't want to talk to him anymore, I just turned around and walked to the hotel, I had to go to her now, and ask poor her everything.

But the moment I turned around, the smile grabbed my wrist, and it was clear that he didn't want me to go to her.

"You can't go."

He said to me with a smile and angrily.

"I have to go, I saw it today, how can I leave like this?"

I said firmly, but I also asked myself in my heart, should I go to her, what if I learned the truth? I don't know myself.

"I must not let you disturb her life unless you step on my body."

The smile was extremely angry and yelled at me.

Just as I was about to open my mouth to respond, I heard a voice, and I looked at the source of the sound with a shudder.

I saw her walk to the door of the hotel with difficulty, her hand was still touching the existence that could be touched, looking at her at this moment I couldn't tell the feelings, my heart was aching, her eyes were already filled with tears, obviously she heard our conversation, but also learned of my arrival, in fact, I was afraid of such a moment, at this moment I didn't know what to say, I heard her slightly uncalm don't make noise, we were quiet, and the smile was very fast to her side, nervously supporting her, said with concern; "How can you come out alone?"

"It's fine."

Xiaoyan said calmly, but there was a little tremor in her tone, I don't know how she would feel when she heard my voice again, anyway, now I am heartbroken, I slowly walked to her, paused for a while, and was stared at tightly by the murderous gaze of the smile.

I finally spoke, and said to her with a trembling voice, "Xiaoyan, how did you become like this, you tell me what the hell is going on?" Is this why you broke up with me? Tell me if it's true? ”

The wind continued to rage, the sun was already high in the sky, my cheeks were swayed by the wind, and my tears lacked a pole of release.

"Liang Jiafeng, Xiaoyan doesn't want to see you, don't you understand? Would you please leave? ”

The smile standing beside her was extremely indignant, how real the vicious eyes were, and the trembling tone was all anger, but I didn't seem to see him, just looked at Xiaoyan who had lost her light, waiting for her answer, I was looking forward to her answer, but I was afraid of such an answer.

"It's been a long time, maybe I'll never see you again, right? Everything has happened, there is no need to ask in such detail, I am like this, it's good, I'm used to it, it's just that I can't see it, I can still hear it, I can touch it, at least I can talk, I can eat, I can live, I am very happy. ”

Xiaoyan said to me calmly, the empty eyes continued to sting me, she didn't want to say it, but she also said it, I understood, even if she didn't say it herself, but this was enough, I understood, I finally knew why she broke up with me, and it was so sudden, all this was such blood, I really can't imagine how painful and reluctant Xiaoyan was when she left me, how reluctant she was, why God was so unfair, why she was so kind to Xiaoyan, at this moment my tears finally flowed out, My cheeks hurt a little, is it the pain of tears? Or is it the pain of being washed away by the cold wind?

"Xiaoyan, why do you want to bear everything alone, why are you suffering? Your decision has made me a person without conscience, and I am laughing with other women when you need me the most, why? Why? Why exactly? Wang Xiaoyan, you are really ruthless. ”

My words shouted loudly in the cold wind, but they were a little miserable, I felt distressed for Xiaoyan again, I couldn't imagine the misery when she left me, I really couldn't imagine.

"Don't say it, it's all over, you have your own life now, you should take good care of Tom, love your wife well, take good care of your parents, you go, I'm doing well, I don't need your mercy."

Xiaoyan still said to me calmly, but such a calm tone made my heart tremble, and my tears were still flowing, but she couldn't see it at all, but what she could see was that she didn't have a good face.

"Are you worried about me? I don't know that you are so selfish, you are too selfish, are you blind, you think it is a burden to me, you doubt my love for you, you also doubt yourself, I can't imagine you making such a decision. ”

I still trembled and said to her, the wind continued to blow, and the passers-by stopped their pace, looking at us curiously, looking at our liveliness, and the smile was still hideous.

"Just think I'm selfish."

Xiaoyan was still calm, but I couldn't stand her calmness, so I quickly stepped forward and grabbed her trembling hand.

"Liang Jiafeng, what are you doing? Let go of Xiaoyan's hand, she has already said, let you go, didn't you hear? ”

smiled but said angrily, just to separate me from my grasp of xiao yandong's palm.

"You get out of the way, the matter between me and Xiaoyan has something to do with you, how far and how far you go."

I was also angry, smiling at me and scolding angrily, and then ignoring her, I just held Xiaoyan's hand and said solemnly: "Xiaoyan, can you tell me everything?" Tell me about your recent life, I want to hear about it. ”

"You and I are already strangers, you are now a person with a wife, don't come to provoke me, let's go, let's go."

Xiaoyan broke free of my hand and looked at me with empty eyes, but he couldn't see me. And I was right in front of her eyes, right next to her, I touched her palm, I could clearly feel her rapid breathing, she was far from being as calm as she appeared.

"Don't worry about this, I just know that you have suffered a lot now, I'm sorry for you, I'm really sorry for you."

I held her hand tightly and didn't let go, and said firmly.