Because of my ignorance, because I trusted my eyes too much, because my mistaken belief made me unable to accompany Xiaoyan when she was in the most difficult time.

Looking at her eyes lost their brilliance, I still held her palm tightly, even though I have this wife now and have my own life, but my actions are involuntary, my heartache drives my movements, and the smile that supports Xiaoyan is angry and said to me: "Are you deaf, Xiaoyan doesn't want to see you, don't you understand?" If you don't go, then let's go, Xiaoyan let's go. ”

Xiaoxiao took Xiaoxiao's hand and was about to leave, but Xiaoyan didn't make any moves, and said very calmly: "Xiaoxiao, you go to dinner, I'll have a few words with him." ”

"Xiaoyan."

smiled but said unwillingly.

"If you don't want to eat, just leave, I can go home alone."

Xiaoyan said lightly, blindly walking towards the empty ground while speaking, but at this time, the smile was said to me: "Liang Jiafeng, let me tell you, you take good care of Xiaoyan, if something happens to her, I can't spare you." ”

I didn't want to say anything more about the smile, I just turned around and hurriedly caught up with Xiaoyan and hugged her, after all, we were on the road, very dangerous, but I was holding her, the feeling at this moment was extremely heartbroken, and I couldn't say that it was uncomfortable, so I just supported her like this, didn't speak, didn't speak, just walked quietly, the cold wind that slowly blew through, blowing her long hair, but her empty eyes were not even confused, just stupidly looking at the direction that she couldn't see.

"Xiaoyan, how did you spend this time?"

I was silent for a long time and asked her, but she was supported by me, walking, calm, and did not answer my question immediately, but smiled slightly, extremely bright, but I felt that such a smile was very sad.

"Of course, it's a happy day, don't feel uncomfortable in your heart, it's really okay, don't blame me for choosing to leave you in the first place, this is my choice, even if I do it again, I will choose this way, so don't say this, everything is over, we're all living well now, isn't it good that no one bothers anyone?"

Xiaoyan's words made me not know what to say for a while, maybe for me and her, the so-called intersection is just the past, right? But when she left me because she was blind, I misunderstood her, and I felt sick to think about it.

"Xiaoyan didn't let me face it with you when you were in the most difficult time, don't you believe me? Think I'm going to leave you? ”

I said to her with some indignation.

"How can we be happy together? Told you, your daily time is to take care, how do you work? How to fulfill your dreams? ”

Xiaoyan still said calmly, but I could see it clearly, there were two lines of tears on her cheeks, she cried, tears flowed from her empty eyes, but the hot tears just flowed out were bleak by the wind, her tone trembled a little, she couldn't continue to hide her feelings, just like me.

"You are too self-righteous, we are lovers, we will always share blessings and difficulties, even if my dreams are not as important as yours, but you choose to leave alone, bear alone, if everyone is like you, then who will believe in love? It's ridiculous that I really thought you didn't love me anymore, and you were with someone else, and even hated you for a while, and took your promises as bullshit, but at this moment I feel how stupid I am, I was wrong, I really hate myself at this time, I want to cry, I just feel distressed. ”

I said seriously to Xiaoyan, tears flowed out of my eyes, crisscrossing my cheeks, the wind seemed to laugh at me, the cold air could not bring warmth, it only brought a sense of irritability.

"Don't say it, if it wasn't the end of our intersection before, then take today as a node in time, I hope we don't have to disturb each other in the future, you now have your own life, can't you abandon your wife and come to me? I don't want you to be sad and melancholy, I left you like this, I don't want to see your difficult life, I hope you can be happy, Jiafeng, I'm really fine, I'm really used to this kind of life, you don't think I'm pitiful or anything, no, I'm very happy, I have parents to accompany me, friends to talk to me, even if I don't get married in this life, I'm happy. ”

Xiaoyan still looked at the direction she couldn't see, and said to me in a trembling tone, but her face was still calm, even if there were crystal tears on her cheeks, she saw it very openly, but I couldn't see it at this time, I didn't know what mood I was, and I didn't know what I was thinking, but I knew that I was helpless in such a situation, and my mood was inevitably a little melancholy.

I finally know what pulled me to Dali, it turns out that this is all in the dark, I came to Dali to meet Xiaoyan, I know all this life, if you can't meet Xiaoyan, I don't know Xiaoyan becomes like this, maybe we won't have an intersection in this life, but we meet now, everything will be different, I don't know what decision will be made in the future, but now I just want to talk to her, it's that simple, it's cold outside, I can't let her be frozen like this all the time, I didn't eat much noodles just now, so I should find a restaurant.

"Don't talk about that, you haven't eaten enough, have you? I'll invite you to dinner, what do you want to eat? ”

I hugged her and asked gently, looking at her appearance I was touched every moment, and my mood never changed.

"I don't want to eat, I'm going home."

Xiaoyan was not enthusiastic, and still said calmly.

"I know what I'm going to eat, I'll take you there."

I pretended not to hear her at all, and just pulled her to the front, no matter how Xiaoyan refused, I ignored her.

I took Xiaoyan to the pancake fruit stand, and I smiled at the aunt who made the pancake and said, "Auntie, get me two luxurious pancakes and fruits." ”

"Okay."

Auntie's eyes inevitably lit up when she heard the word luxury, after all, one is ten yuan, two is twenty yuan, and she sells four of them.

"Are you going to treat me to pancakes?"

When Xiaoyan heard my words, she immediately asked me.

"yes, you must have not eaten in a long time, right?"

I smiled at her and said that my hand had been holding her hand tightly, worried that she would be hit by a car as she walked around.

"Okay, but how can you eat luxury pancakes? I can't even eat a single fritter now. ”

Xiaoyan said to me helplessly, although she couldn't see me, she also turned her face to me and looked at me with empty eyes.

"It's okay, you can't eat it, I'll eat it."

I patted my chest and said.

Xiaoyan didn't speak, but her face was still helpless, but I saw her smile for a moment, although it only disappeared in an instant, but I was very satisfied.

"Girl, you can meet such a good boy is really blessed, since you came here, this boy has been holding your hand tightly, for fear that something will happen to you, my girl is not as good as you, found an unmotivated boy, and the temper is not good, hey."

Aunt said to us while spreading the pancakes and fruits, but hearing Auntie's words, Xiaoyan and I were inevitably a little embarrassed, Aunt must not know that the so-called boy is already married, but the marriage object is not the girl who holds her hand tightly, but we don't have too much explanation, since we have misunderstood, we have misunderstood.

"Then aunt has to persuade your daughter, don't go astray, otherwise you will regret it later."

But I also said to my aunt seriously, which is a kind of response.

"Well, how could I not persuade it? But if I don't listen, what can I do? ”

Auntie spread out a pancake fruit, turned her head to me and said with a sad face, I even thought that Auntie's white hair was worried by her daughter.

"I hope your daughter can be happy, and I hope she has made the right choice."

In fact, what I said to my aunt was also to Xiaoyan, was the decision she made the right one?

The speaker was intentional, I don't know if the listener had a heart, I turned my head to look at Xiaoyan, hoping to see something from her expression, but I didn't see anything, only calm, and the tears that had dried up.

Soon the luxurious pancakes were set up, I took the pancakes and found a place where there was no wind, and then sat down like a wanderer, and Xiaoyan was also helped to sit down, I took off my coat and put her on the ground, and handed the pancakes to her.

"Eat, it must be delicious."

I said with a smile.

Xiaoyan took the pancake fruit, and brought the pancake fruit to her mouth normally, and then took a bite gently, but I looked at her but didn't eat it, I just want to watch her eat it now, I am a little angry, God, why do you make such a good woman like this? Why can't she see the sunset and sunrise? It was because of her blindness that she left me and made me wander away from my ordinary life, and I blamed God for everything, and I couldn't calm down.

"Why don't you eat it?"

Xiaoyan, who was eating the pancake fruit, suddenly asked me.

Although she couldn't see it, she knew that I hadn't eaten, and I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

"Eat, let's eat together, see who can finish it, what a huge pancake fruit."

I was stunned for a moment, then smiled at Xiaoyan and said, and then I took a big bite of the pancake fruit, and Xiaoyan also smiled calmly, and also ate, but she ate it in small bites.

The two of us sat on the steps, eating pancakes, forgetting our sorrows, perhaps not at all, while the wind was still blowing.