I didn't turn around, I didn't answer, I just looked at Erhai in silence, the wind stirred up a trace of ripples, it was very cold now, but I had a feeling of heat, the trembling in my heart continued, for me, this moment is really a torment.

Maybe what I do, the decision I choose is an unspeakable risk, I may be wrong, maybe I am right, but no matter what is wrong for me, I will do it after all.

"Liang Jiafeng, you told me that all this was a joke on you."

Instead of being silent like me, she stood beside me and asked me eagerly, I didn't dare to look at her face, but I knew that she was in pain at this moment, but there was still a hint of illusion, and I wanted to break her illusion.

"It's true, I'm not kidding."

I still didn't look at her, but looked at Erhai, who was not calm, and said calmly, I want to pretend to be calm, so that Qilei can believe me, and then scold me, and even beat me, this is what I want.

Qilei heard it, she didn't speak immediately but looked at me, of course I looked at her with my peripheral eyes, but I didn't dare to look at her, at this moment Qilei's appearance was unusually ugly, of course it was ugly, and now she was my wife.

"Okay, since you have made a decision, but I will not do things according to your decision, I will not divorce you, you tell me, where is Wang Xiaoyan now?"

Qilei looked at me and said in a deep voice, the whole person is in a state of volcanic eruption, of course, it has not erupted yet.

"I won't tell you, and I'm not in a hurry about our divorce, just show it to my parents, I don't want them to be sad during the New Year."

I continued to speak calmly.

"Then you can break my heart?"

Qilei looked at me and said angrily, there was even a hint of a smile on her face, of course, it was a bitter smile, and the wind blew, making her smile even more bitter.

"Qilei, I'm sorry for you."

I didn't want to explain too much, but I said it to her very seriously.

"I don't want to hear sorry, your one word of sorry is not enough, even ten thousand sorry is not enough, but I want to hear your reasons, what are your reasons for telling me?"

Qilei said to me word by word, seemingly gritting her teeth, I was speechless when I heard her words, but finally said: "There is no reason, I want to go back, you can also find a place to live, and we will go back to Hangzhou together tomorrow." ”

That's all I can do now, but I know she doesn't want to hear me.

"Liang Jiafeng, I don't blame you, I also understand when I chose to get married, after all, the union between you and me is completely because you want to get married, you are different from me, I love you, but you don't love me, in fact, I can fully predict the current situation, but I am still unwilling, we finally got married, but we didn't get together for a long time before we divorced, do you think I can just let go? It's been a long time, it's been a long time, and I've become a habit. ”

Qilei kept up with my pace and said with emotion, every word touched my heart, I wanted to hug her at this time, I was sorry for her, I was really sorry for her.

But in the end, I didn't move, I didn't even say anything, and I quickened my pace, very fast towards the hotel where I lived, Qilei who said a lot of words still followed me, talking her heart, and at the same time crying, but I have been ruthlessly ignoring, even when I walked into the hotel, I walked to the front desk to open a room for Qilei, even if there is no divorce, I have to separate from her, I can't imagine how Qilei feels now, it must be very sad and angry, right?

However, Qilei calmly took out her ID card and took the room card, coincidentally her room was at the opposite door from me, and I was quite helpless.

When I opened the door with my key card and was about to enter the room, Qilei stood behind me and followed me into the room.

I quickly turned my head and looked at her with a stern expression, and then muttered helplessly in my heart, then turned around helplessly, turned on the light, and quickly walked into the bathroom.

I finally knew why Qilei was so calm, because she wasn't going to sleep alone, but with me, and the door-to-door room was open.

Although I only urinated, it took me ten minutes, I went to the toilet, washed my hands, then washed my face, and was about to take a shower, and then I heard Qilei's voice.

"Haven't finished going to the toilet yet? I'm going to get on, come out quickly. ”

Qilei said angrily, I have a feeling that neither Qilei nor I have just happened, this may be what I wanted, but it has happened.

I could only reluctantly open the door of the bathroom, and then saw Qilei who looked not so calm but very calm, and then walked around her without words, and walked out of the bathroom, and she also walked into the bathroom, I heard the door of the bathroom closing, and then sighed deeply, the whole person is in a state of exhaustion, I don't know what to do tonight, what do I and Qilei want to say? How do we get along?

I walked to the living room and turned on the big TV, which was bigger than the TV at home, after all, I lived in a very luxurious room with a sea view, and the bathtub LCD TV was readily available.

However, I saw that the TV was a bear infested, I watched an episode, Qilei opened the bathroom door, walked out of the bathroom, when I turned my head to look at her, I was sluggish, because Qilei was actually taking a bath, she was wrapped in a bath towel, her hair was wet and scattered on her shoulders, very beautiful, very beautiful, but I lost my mind for a moment and came to my senses, and said lightly.

"Why don't you go back to your room and take a shower?"

However, after I said this, I was helpless and secretly scolded myself for being a fool.

"This is my room, you're not big or small, and now you still see bears infested."

Qilei said to me with a smile.

"Hehe, I want to find out the missing childhood, no, you can also watch it together, and also find the childhood."

I also smiled and said that I didn't think too much about it at this time, trying to make us all happy, so I didn't go to other things for the time being.

"I've always been in childhood, okay? Who is in the same old age as you. ”

Although she said this, she still sat on the sofa wrapped in a bath towel, ready to watch the bears come out, but she was not far away from me, but sat very close to me, and it was extremely close, so close that I could smell the scent of her body, the smell of shampoo, the smell of shower gel.

Our wife and man, but at this moment became embarrassed, I could only carefully watch the bear infested and then hide my embarrassment, but Qilei did not move, it was also carefully watched the bear infested, the two of us are also a pair of wonderful, just like that, when the bear infestation began and ended, I finally couldn't bear it, Qilei was completely tempting me, I just got up quickly, and then said: "I'm going to sleep, you go back to sleep, go back to Hangzhou tomorrow." ”

"I said this is my room."

Qilei said calmly, as if nothing had happened to us at all, but I knew that she was in disguise, and she suppressed her deepest emotions in her heart and showed her unwarranted emotions.

"Well, here's your room."

I said helplessly, and then quickly walked to the bedroom, and Qilei unexpectedly followed me, and also walked into the bedroom, obviously we must do the obligations between husband and wife today, but at this time I was a little embarrassed, extremely embarrassed.

I habitually stood in front of the window, looking out the window, the Erhai Lake was still there, the starry sky was still there, and my mood had not changed, it had always been like this.

I don't know what Qilei is doing or thinking now, but I know that we are going to sleep in the same bed today, and although we have slept many times, this time it is completely different, a complete difference.

I stood for a long time, and when I turned to look at Qilei, I found that Qilei had already slept on the bed, and I was really helpless, but it seemed that she was asleep, and she slept peacefully, but I walked to the bed, looked at her, and saw tears flowing out, which was really a helpless helplessness for me.

I stepped forward and gently wiped away her tears for Qilei, and then slowly lay down on the bed, lying on her side, but with my back to her, I was afraid that she would suddenly open her eyes and look at me.

However, when I turned to think about something, I was hugged, and it was tight, and I knew that Qilei was not asleep at all.

And the moment she hugged me, my body trembled, as if we were not husband and wife, I had no words, no movements, and Qilei didn't speak, as if we all cherish this moment, this moment of warmth, nothing needs to be done, nothing needs to be said, only need to feel each other, only need to exist as long as the other party still exists.

Perhaps after tonight everything will be different, and my heart will become troubled and lost, and then I can't help but shed tears, tears on the sheets, and in my heart.

We didn't say a word this night, we didn't even say a word, we were all so silent, very tacit, and then I didn't know who fell asleep first, maybe it was me, maybe it was her, and the next day it seemed to come faster.

When I opened my eyes, I found that it was already dawn, and Qilei was still holding me, hugging me tightly, as if she had been hugging me tightly all night.

I didn't move, just lay quietly on the bed, lying down calmly like this, didn't open her embrace, didn't disturb her rest, as if I was also afraid of losing her peace at this time, I understood that after going back today, it was completely perfunctory, no matter what, I had to choose to accompany Xiaoyan, about pity, about guilt, about everything.

This was my choice, and the choice I had to make, and I walked like this for half an hour, thinking about it a lot, and then I felt that Qilei had moved, and she seemed to wake up.

"Are you awake?"

"Yes."

"How long?"

"Thirty minutes."