Seeing the picture in front of me, no matter how good my personality is, I can't stand such a moment, looking at other men hugging my woman in public, which reminds me of the picture of Ling Chao hugging Li Qingshu, and the picture in front of me is the scene of the cold wind and bleakness, the bright lights of the stage are the gray street lights, all of them are restored, and I want to rush to the stage in anger, but I cowardly turned around and walked out of heaven with a guitar on my back, the focus of heaven is no longer me, and I can't look directly at the picture under the street lamp.

I can't be resolute after all, no, I can't do anything to be resolute.

My mind was as cluttered as a garbage dump, whether it was Xiaoyan's nervous vote for a smile or an illusory and real picture, I couldn't stay in heaven anymore

I crossed over from a bustling bar to a somewhat desolate world, and my mind was still so disordered, I wondered why I still think of her blindly, whenever I encounter something similar, I will think of her, is there any use in being so persistent? What else is there to like for a woman who can't forget her former lover?

"Bingbing, you wait."

At this moment, I heard Xiaoyan's urgent cry on a desolate night, and the cold wind reminded me that a man who can't forget other women is worthy of being liked by others. What do I have to be liked by Xiaoyan? I'm just a damn being, I only know this stupid attachment, even cheapness.

I didn't stop my pace, but continued to move forward with my guitar on my back, although the new cement road was not full of potholes, but it was so difficult, the reason why I ignored Xiaoyan, because at this moment I felt that I was a dangerous person, I was afraid that I would hurt Xiaoyan in the future, maybe it would be tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.

"Scum, where have you been? Why do you suddenly say goodbye, don't you know how worried I am about you? ”

Xiaoyan kept calling out to me behind me, but what I heard was such a voice, maybe it was the voice in my dream? The voice of the convict's hope, there was a figure in front of me, and I waved my hand, and the closer I walked, the farther the figure got away from me, but I still saw the face that matched the winter, and when I was about to continue to chase her, my arm was grabbed, and my dream was awakened, a fantasy to be exact.

"Bingbing, can you not be childish, you listen to me."

Xiaoyan stood in front of me panting, and said with some eagerness.

"Yes, I'm just childish, in fact, you should promise him when you smile and confess that night, he is really better than me, I am not worthy of you, I am not worthy of you at all, I keep you, you should also refuse, I am a cowardly guy who has achieved nothing."

I grabbed Xiaoyan's shoulders with both hands and said a little crazy.

"Bingbing, what are you talking about? What happened just now is not what you see, I voted for Smile, there is a reason why he won, don't get me wrong, don't say these angry words, and don't say anything unworthy of me in the future. ”

Xiaoyan's face showed an eager look, stared at me with those beautiful eyes, and said very seriously.

I didn't speak, I just kept shaking my head, silent, but shaking, and 'doing' sports with the cold wind, "Bingbing, you have me, you have lost with a smile, which is better, which is more important, me or the so-called first place?" Smile is a good person, after I came to Dali to take special care of me, I use this first place to express my gratitude to him, but also use this first place to make a break with him, I have nothing to do with him from now on, just a passerby, do you understand? That's why I voted for Smile to let him win and make you lose. ”

Xiaoyan's eyes had tears, tears that I misunderstood and were very aggrieved, but how could she understand that this was not the point at all? I was just confused and unhappy about Xiaoyan's vote for Smile, and the reason for my upset was Smile's sudden hug and words.

Xiaoyan is really well-intentioned, or so kind, a simple vote contains so much, and it is indeed as Xiaoyan said, I have her, I have already won, and the smile is a mess, but did I really win?

"Xiaoyan, I didn't misunderstand, I didn't blame you, I didn't say this, it's hard for me to match you in this state now."

I let go of Xiaoyan's somewhat trembling shoulders, turned around and didn't dare to look at her, but looked at the sky hidden by the clouds, and said bitterly.

"Me"

"Ryuye, your name is Xiaoyan? But I still like to call you Liuye, a glass-like leaf, unique in the world, which makes me smile from time to time, but your heart is blinded, covered by faint love. I was so happy just now, but I couldn't be happy when I heard the reason why you voted for me, and I was even very sad, but I still smiled, even if you want to be a guest with me, or you have treated me as a passerby, but even if it is a passerby, I will have a faint smile in front of you, I hope my smile can always be remembered in your heart, and the smile will always accompany you, whether it is me or the smile that I show, it is the same, there will be a period later, Ryuye. ”

While Xiaoyan was talking, a smile suddenly walked in front of us from the night, and said a series of words to Xiaoyan very sincerely, very sincere and sincere.

"Butterfly, I hope you can treat Ruye well, even if I really want you to leave her, but I still hope that I will understand from what Ruye said to you just now, you win, I lose, even if I win the game and get the first place, it's just a charity, if you can have Xiaoyan, I will lose a mess, I envy you, although you are a bastard."

Standing beside me with a smile, watching me say word by word, even at this time he maintained his usual smile, I really think he is a psychopath, or is he just so sane or has figured it out?

I turned around, looked at the smile full of smiles, not embarrassed at all, and said with the same smile: "Hehe, then thank you for envying me as a bastard." ”

I don't have much to say to him, the calmer I smile, the more irritable I become, and as for the relationship between me and Xiaoyan, I don't want others to point fingers.

Smile looked at me deeply and turned into the night, I looked at his back and understood that he would not give up on Xiaoyan, and what about me, a bastard who never cared about Xiaoyan? Will it?

"Bingbing, the matter between me and Smile has been dealt with, you don't have to worry, as for what you just said that your current state is not worthy of me at all, I don't understand"

Xiaoyan gently took my hand and asked me softly, Xiaoyan said that it was a passer-by or a passer-by, and Xiaoyan didn't talk to him from the time she appeared to the time she left, but I don't know how to answer her question, am I telling the truth?

"It's just that I have to work now without a job, I want money without money, and I don't have a reputation for writing books, so I'm in such a state."

I also held Xiaoyan's hand, and I didn't say it comprehensively, I still hid the truth.

"I don't care about this, Bingbing should understand."

Xiaoyan's palm was slightly stronger, and he looked up at me slightly and said seriously.

"But I care."

I said it just as seriously.

"Bingbing, you didn't resign from the company, just a vacation, after we return to the company in a few days, you are still the sales team leader, with your ability sooner or later you will be promoted, then the money will come naturally, as for you to write a book, write a few more books will naturally get better, what you said is not a problem, we will stay in Dali for a few more days, and then go back to Hangzhou, you can't escape, even if you are in the same city with her, you have to live a wonderful life, understand?"

Xiaoyan said to me in a serious and commanding tone, I was very embarrassed to say it, and I couldn't help but deliberately avoid my gaze, and asked myself silently in my heart: Can I?