"Vomit" Xia Lili covered her chest and vomited.

She barely ate anything, but she still vomited a puddle of sour water, and after she vomited, she wanted to vomit.

"It's disgusting," Qiu Guhan's voice was calm, "At first, I also felt very nauseous, and I vomited like you, but, later, I was so hungry, so hungry that I forgot that I was a human being, so hungry that I fought with others for the flesh of the dead, so hungry that I felt that uncooked human flesh turned out to be so delicious, better than anything I had eaten before"

"No, don't say it again" Xia Lili breathed hard, looking like a dead person who had been eaten;

"In this way, can't you stand it" Qiu Guhan looked at her calmly, "You like this, how do you love me, how can you accompany me for the rest of my life"

Xia Lili's body trembled violently, and her pale lips trembled, "I, I said something wrong, I, I will definitely be able to hold on"

"Hehe," Qiu Guhan actually smiled, his eyes turned thick, and asked again, "Have you ever seen the white bones of a dead man?"

Xia Lili felt that it was difficult to breathe again, "see, see"

She wasn't sure if she had actually seen it, because all she had in her head was drift snow and couldn't think about anything else.

But she felt that she must have seen it, and she must answer it that way.

"Have you ever seen a thousand, ten thousand, tens of thousands, or even hundreds of thousands of white bones" Qiu Guhan was smiling, but there was no smile in his eyes, not even any feelings and feelings that human beings should have, "just piled up together, piled up with huge valleys, white, cold, and endless, glowing in the sun and snow, so spectacular that people will never forget it at a glance." ”

It's as if he's telling a legendary story that has nothing to do with him: "No one knows how high these bones are piled up, and no one knows how many people have to die to pile up a mountain of bones like that." When the wind blows, the bones that are not visible will make a whining sound, as if they are singing, and as if they are crying, night after night, and so on."

Xia Lili's face was pale and trembling like fallen leaves in the wind.

She wanted to tell Liuxue to stop talking, and wanted to beg Liuxue to stop talking, but except for trembling, she couldn't move, and even her lips and tongue seemed to be numb.

"At first, I was scared, I was very unaccustomed, and I was shaking every night," Qiu Guhan said calmly, "but slowly, I got used to it, and I got used to falling asleep to the song of the white bones." Every day, I walked by the valley of bones, and at first, I was scared, and I trembled like you, and I even had to climb to climb over, but then, I got used to seeing these bones every day, and greeting them every day; ”

"Because," he laughed slightly, "I will become one of them at any time, these piles of bones are probably my only home, how can I be afraid of them, afraid of my future self"

"The first time I saw the Valley of Human Bones was in winter." He continued to smile, "It was very windy, it was cold, it was snowing, I was so cold, just like you are now, hugging and shivering. Then I saw the bones, and I was so stunned that I couldn't move, and I was kicked by the overseers and rolled on the icy mountain road. These wounds"

He pointed to a few faint scars on his chest and neck, "That's when it was scraped." ”

"However, I don't feel any pain at all, because the fear and cold, which are so deep that I can't see the end, have penetrated deep into my bone marrow and blood, until now."

He squinted his eyes, smiled so brightly, and the two rows of neat and beautiful teeth shone brightly, "Since then, I have never forgotten the fear and coldness at that time, and I will never forget Jì in the future, and I will never forget Jì in this life." ”

Xia Lili finally sat down on the ground, her cloak fell off, looking frightened and cold, so cold that her whole body seemed to be frozen and unable to move.

"But, Riri," Qiu Guhan's voice suddenly became soft, "it's not the most terrifying, it's not the most terrible, it's not the most painful. ”

"Do you know what the biggest pain is" he asked softly as he looked at Xia Lili.

Xia Lili's eyes widened and she shook her head in fear.

She didn't dare to listen to what he was going to say next, but she couldn't control her body not to listen.

"My mother, in front of me, was forced to drink poisoned wine." Qiu Guhan was laughing, but her eyes and voice had no emotion, "I just watched her vomit blood, fell to the ground, her body trembled violently, and then she slowly stopped moving, cold and hard." No matter how much I screamed, how I cried, how I told her to shake her, she didn't respond."

"Woo woo" Xia Lili finally cried, but her voice was very low and hoarse.

"Lili," Qiu Guhan was still so calm, "at that moment, the drift snow you knew and wanted was already dead, and there was not even ash left; ”

Xia Lili looked at him with a hazy tearful face, her eyes full of pain and despair.

I don't know if it's for her or for him.

"Qiu Liuxue died at that moment, and the memories of being the Seventh Prince, as well as the memories with you, all became memories of the previous life at that moment." Qiu Guhan said slowly, "Then I went to hell." And the memories in hell are the memories of my life, the real memories. ”

"Until now, everything I remember and feel started from that moment, and my current life also began from that moment. And the memories and feelings about you are already far away, far away to the gap between this life and the previous life. ”

"Lili," he said calmly, "what you love is just the autumn snow of the child who didn't know the pain and cold in the past life, and would accompany you carefree." In this life, Qiu Liuxue is called Qiu Gu Han, because his bones are always afraid and cold, and you can never erase the fear in his bones, nor can you warm the cold in his bones. ”

There is only one person who can face and overcome his fears.

There is only one person who can warm his bone-chilling cold.

"I, I can" Xia Lili suddenly had the strength, trembling and crawling to his feet, hugging his feet hard, trying to warm his cold body, "In the past, when you were most painful, fearful and desperate, I couldn't be by your side, but, but now it's different, now, now I will definitely accompany you"

She understood what he meant.

He faced and endured a long period of loneliness, fear, pain and despair alone, and she was not by his side, not even knowing what he had experienced and endured.

So, she missed the opportunity to fall in love with him.

And only now did she discover the drifting snow, no, how cold Gu Han's body was, it was already April.

"Lili," Qiu Guhan reached out, took her hand, and put it on his face, "You see that this face is immaculate, but you can't see the holes under this face. You see me dressed brightly and beautifully, but you can't see the tip of the knife against my neck and the shackles on my feet, and you can't see the darkness and coldness in my heart. Such a you, not what I want, such a me, not what you think"