"yes. WwW.lwXs520.cOM" The nun sighed with emotion, and when she looked at him again, her eyes were unconsciously condemned, "Congratulations to the Lord's Day/Day to wash your face with tears...... looked at the pitiful ......, "Such a gentle and beautiful woman, why is she willing to abandon it ruthlessly?" Now that people are gone, what's the use of coming to repent now?

"She ......," Li Xuan's throat seemed to be blocked by something, and after a while, she continued to ask, "Did she mention to you where she wanted to go...... Maybe...... ...... for the future What are the plans...... although Master Jixuan has made it very clear: Xiyan has been in a trance since he arrived in the nunnery, and there is a faint sign of pessimism and abandonment...... But he still had a glimmer of hope - and that was his only hope.

The nun thought about it, and finally just shook her head helplessly. A woman who was abandoned by her husband's family...... What future will there be?

……

Xiyan's bags are very simple, and they have long been sorted out and left for the family to pick up.

A few half-new clothes, a few small pieces of broken silver...... The only thing that could be called "massive" was a scroll.

He vaguely guessed what it was, and the hand holding the scroll trembled slightly.

The scroll slowly unfolded in front of his eyes, and his face became more and more pale.

Under the tree, the beautiful girl snuggled meekly on the young man's shoulder and slept soundly.

I don't know when a line of inconspicuous small words was mentioned next to it:

Acacia tree, sue acacia, the heart is the same, you don't know.

……

He clung to the scroll and staggered out of the meditation room.

Just yesterday, when he learned that she didn't go with Yun Heng, when he heard that her life and death were uncertain, and when Yun Heng personally said that she only had him in her heart, he didn't dare to think about whether she still liked him.

After he treated her like that and hurt her like that, did she still like him?

But now......

She said, "Heart-wrenching."

On the wedding night, she was crushed by him and ravaged so hard that she was covered with bruises and could barely get out of bed.

Less than a month after getting married, he left her in Chenxi Pavilion and ignored her, and let his subordinates despise and neglect her.

After reconciling, she gave him a purse made by himself, but he thought she was not sincere, took advantage of her meekness, deliberately demanded excessively in bed, and insulted and forced her on the second day, so that the fetus in her womb was not protected, and she almost died.

And then to the later...... They have been through so many things, and he promised her that he would protect her and treat her well in the future...... But when he knew that she was not framing Ning Ruo for a miscarriage, he divorced her without asking the reason......

His sunset--

No matter how he bullied him, he will bear it silently;

No matter how much he is wronged, he will smile at him......

She said...... The heart is the same.

He wanted to laugh, but at last he knew what she wanted—after all these years, he could finally be sure that she still had him in her heart, and that she had always had him! But he wanted to cry even more...... Now, what does it mean to him to know this qiē?

He didn't deserve her at all, never did!

………………

This year's spring seems to have come very early, and not long after the year, the weather is gradually getting warmer.

The garden is full of purple and red, especially the begonia flowers bloom just right, so bright and warm red, always with vitality.

When he was young, Xiyan always liked to pick a begonia hairpin in his hair. She was born bright, and she was very suitable for such a delicate dress. Sometimes on a whim, I will choose a big and red flower, and personally pick it for her to don't put on.

It's just that since marrying him, she hasn't used that color again......

Li Xuan was a little distracted, and suddenly heard babbling singing and harmony from the other side of the stage. I suddenly remembered that today E-Niang invited a few close Mrs. of the family to come over to listen to the play, and it has probably begun.

Thinking like this, he suddenly heard a man sing, "...... Occasionally, the heart is like a bond, by the plum tree. Such flowers and plants are loved by people, life and death are as people wish, and no one complains...... "indescribable tactful grievances."

He froze.

I remember that year in the Chengde Courtyard, I saw Xiyan write these words. At that time, he thought that she was still unforgettable for Yun Heng, so he would feel it, and he was unhappy in his heart. Now that I think about it, what really makes her sad should be his selfish and cold husband.

Li Xuan smiled bitterly and shook his head.

It turned out that he had had so many opportunities to tell her that he loved her and liked her and wanted to spend his life with her. Even at that time—when he saw those few lines, his heart didn't pass over the love words that had echoed in his heart for a long time before he knew how many times—he didn't know what to do, and he went deeper.

I don't know what to do, and I go deep......

He has always been to her.

But at that time, he didn't say anything.

Li Xuan stopped and listened for a while, until the play was finished, and then slowly walked into the study.

After a short time, Chen Yi sent the secret letter in.

Suddenly, there was the sound of a heavy object falling to the ground in the study.

The little Enzi who was guarding the door couldn't help but jump in his eyelids.

Since the beginning of the year, the master believed in Buddhism, but he has not had such a big fire for a long time.

……

"Anyway, she is also a famous lady, why is this virtue not as good as an ordinary woman? If someone else was given a break by her husband's family, a white silk would have been hung on the beam of the house long ago, how could she still have the face to survive in this world? This is also thanks to the death of her family, otherwise there is such a sister whose reputation has been ruined, but not even the reputation of the daughter in the family has been ruined? It's better to be clean than dead. ”

At the Lantern Festival palace banquet, someone heard Sixteen Fujin talk to others about Xiyan like this. Ning Ruo was also there that night, and it is said that when she heard the words of Sixteen Fujin, she also smiled in agreement......

Li Xuan clutched the almost crumpled letter tightly, and the pale bones and green tendons on the back of his hand protruded.

He thought, maybe he didn't know Ning Ruo better than he thought. Who does he know...... He didn't even know his own mother.

He silently put the letter aside, picked up his pen and copied a few more pages of the Diamond Sutra, and his heart slowly calmed down.

The family members and guards who were looking for Xiyan sent out one after another, but there was never any news of her. Except for endless waiting and remorse, he would always have to do something for her - what if...... What else could he do for her......

Li Xuan couldn't help but pick up the letter again.

The piles above, one by one, record the past of the Sixteen Blessings and Jinling/Humiliation.

The more he hurt, the more he hated, the more he forced himself to read it over and over again.

The grievances and humiliations she suffered, he would never just forget it...... Otherwise, with such a strong and deep hatred, who would he ask for it again?

And of all of them, the one he hated the most was the one who had never done anything - or even knew nothing......

Myself.

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