Is it love or obsession (3)
How did they separate, he took her home, his parents didn't say anything, but they didn't tell him when she left, her background was not good, and it was okay to have fun, and she couldn't marry in.
He didn't pay attention to it, what's wrong with her bad background, what's wrong with orphans, she is much better than those noble ladies who are sick with a princess and can only play with their temper, even if she is not good, he likes it, and that's enough.
But it didn't take long for her to tell him that she was going abroad.
They are majoring in Korean language, and it is normal for them to go abroad, but he is unwilling, she went abroad and left him in the country?
But she was very resolute, and she resolutely made him feel abnormal, could it be that her parents' attitude was known to her? But he felt that it was impossible, and after thinking twice, he decided to accompany her to South Korea.
Because of some anger, he didn't tell her about this decision, in fact, it was to surprise her.
It's just that he didn't expect that when he was ready for a qiē, his parents revoked all his documents - he had a plane ticket, but he couldn't get on the plane.
He tore up the ticket and sent her to the airport without saying a word, she was a little nervous with her suitcase, looking at him and stopping, he was still reluctant after all, and he didn't worry that she would go abroad alone to suffer, so he said to keep her, he said that it was snowing, it's okay to stay, I don't want to be separated from you.
But she still left, the reason is very simple, she finally applied for the study abroad qualification, and if she gave up, it would be no good for her, and she couldn't explain it to the school.
He realized that her sanity was terrifying. It was also the first time he began to hate her rationality.
It turns out that in her heart, anything can be calculated, and for her, feelings are actually just a blind adjustment. When there is a real conflict of interest, she will not hesitate to give it up.
She didn't say anything more, and the two remained silent until the radio prompted them to board the plane.
He watched her go through the security check, her back, thin and distant.
After she went abroad, she rarely contacted him. The price of foreign goods is too high, she has no financial resources, and occasionally needs to work part-time, and she refuses to let him help. He knew what she was thinking, and it was up to her, but he didn't understand it somewhat, didn't she want him? Could it be that her feelings for him can't compare to those external objects?
He completed all of his courses in his junior year. wanted to go abroad to find her, but gave up again.
He was diagnosed with blood cancer, which is commonly known as leukemia.
He had a feeling that the world was spinning, and no one could accept the fact that he only had a few years or even less to live, not to mention that he was still in the prime of life.
He called her, and she answered, but told him that she was rushing for a paper, and he hung up with a few symbolic words, he thought. What's the use of telling her, just make her sad in vain.
In fact, he was even more afraid, he was afraid that if he sued her, she would not come back to see him and accompany him, he was really not sure if she would delay his future for such a dying person as him. What if she wouldn't? In the end, she chose to stay in South Korea? She's always been so sensible, it's entirely possible to do this, and if she does, what would he do?
He turned off his phone and went to the bar for a drink, and when he was drunk, he seemed to see her return. She called his name worriedly, and for the first time since he had been diagnosed with blood cancer, he smiled, and he said, "Falling snow." You're back.
The next day he woke up in a strange guesthouse with a naked girl lying next to him, whom he recognized as his alumnus, named Linlin.
He didn't seem to be able to react, and the girl woke up slowly. looked at him shyly and timidly, "Changming, we..."
He interrupted her, "I already have a girlfriend, but after all, I have a relationship, how much money do you want, I will give it to you." ”
Lin Lin showed a disgusted expression, "I didn't come out to sell it." ”
He was stunned, then began to get dressed, and ran away, leaving her with only one sentence, "What do you want, you can sue me if you think about it, and whatever I can give you, I will give you." ”
Linlin didn't ask for anything, only said that she wanted to be his girlfriend, and he refused many times, but her indomitable spirit was even more persistent than at the beginning.
He could only have a showdown with Linlin, he didn't have much time left, and she really didn't need to waste time on him.
Linlin's reaction was very surprising, throwing out a series of questions, "Then why didn't you sue her?" Why didn't she come back to accompany you? Why do you want such a woman? Where am I inferior to her? She won't even call you, why don't you break up with her? ”
He was speechless.
Luoxue has less and less contact with him, sometimes he just sends a text message and there is no movement, he can't always match the right bone marrow, he thinks, probably, they are already doomed, she is fine, but he can't get it.
Linlin is still stubbornly with him, he is no longer so resistant, he has been lonely for too long, he has forced himself too hard, when he is with Linlin, he can forget about it for a short time, Linlin is also very good, very good at pleasing him, will change the law to make him happy, only occasionally he will lose his mind, he rarely thinks of the falling snow, but every time he thinks about it, it is like a flood that has been gathering for a long time suddenly burst the embankment, and he can no longer control it.
He began to indulge himself, it can be said that he was young and frivolous, or it can be said that he gave up on himself, he and Linlin came and went more and more frequently, so that many people thought that he had empathized with him, but in fact, he was just too lonely, every night in the dead of night, he could always dream of falling snow, she in the dream would always only leave him with a back, no matter how he shouted, he would not look back, just like the airport that day, she walked so resolutely.
Every time he woke up from a nightmare, what he saw was the endless darkness, which frightened him and made him crazy, and the appearance of Linlin gave him some comfort, so that he didn't have to wander and despair alone in the endless darkness. It's better to have someone with him than to go crazy by himself.
He had been away from school for a year, but the day before his birthday, his roommate asked him to go back, knowing that his birthday party would be accompanied by Linlin, and everyone told him ambiguously that they would not disturb their two-person world, so they celebrated him in advance and made him a simple pie in the dormitory.
At night, everyone was partying, and he suddenly received a message from Luoxue, the tone was ambiguous and delicate that she had never been, so soft that he felt surprised, but before he could think about it, the phone was snatched away and turned off.
When he went downstairs the next day, he saw a girl in a pink dress from a distance, her figure reminded him of falling snow, but he thought it was too ridiculous, she rarely wore a skirt and sunglasses, and it was impossible for her to come back at this time.
So he just glanced at it and withdrew his gaze, Linlin came to him, and he pulled her away.
During the meal, he received a call from Luoxue, he went to wash his hands and got up, and heard her say happy birthday to him, he felt a little ironic, happy birthday, whether they can see each other again is unknown, such a meaningless sentence, what does she mean by saying it.
For the first time, he hung up on her so directly.
It's just that he didn't expect that it was just a temptation for her.
Later, he realized that her reason once again frightened him, how cold-blooded a woman should be, in order to be able to remain silent and calmly wait when her boyfriend cheats, appear when they are most embarrassed, and give them a hard slap. (To be continued.) )